2004 年 1 月 29 日 星期四 【晴】

我停住了...
但我見到一切都在動...
我是小人物...
的確...
但我亦知道..
即使是一個小人物..
也有他的角色..
他的價值...
我想做一個小人物...
一個簡單...
愛笑..
愛身邊一切的小人物...
可以嗎?

今天沒有見到阿包..
因為我沒有遲到...

一個充實的午睡...
很好...
在被窩裡..
有像被保護的感覺....
曾經那個我..
也不是一直在找這種感覺嗎?
誰說這是妳們的專利?
踏實的感覺..
誰也需要....

跟媽媽說想去英國exchange...
她竟然不斷問我何時出發....
下年沒有可能了...
但至少我知道...
原來家人都是很支持我出國讀書的....
很感動..
很多關心..
他們都沒有說出口..
但從細微處..
我見到..
我知道...

原來Uin of Leeds的Geog很強啊....

昨晚中學老師找我....
下個星期開始...
要回母校"開班"了...
但我今天才知道..
我會遇到她....
到時可能會有一個很尷尬的場面出現...

又強烈愛上一首歌...
因為喜歡它給我那強烈的感覺......

上莊?
outward bound?
最後一年有sponsorship的exchange?
幾難的局面.........
如何抉擇才好?

>>January 30, 2004 at 3:47:58 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 28 日 星期三 【陰】

新年假後第一天上課...
心中有個疑問:"為何每次遲到都會見到阿包?"
而每一次她都先跟我一笑..
再說:" 你又遲到呀?? 快d去上堂啦...."
今天...我又經歷了....

愈來愈強烈了...
討厭LULU的感覺....
怕了..
我真的怕了...

想她好...真的!
但我不敢觸動那一處...
我不想...
因為我怕...
致使我卻步....

rae跟我說了一句...
我....
我..........
"妖!!! 去唔到exchange呀頂!!!!"

IF NO ONE CAN.....
I CAN!!!
I DO BELIEVE THAT!!!
即使沒有信心....
我也要克服!!

>>January 30, 2004 at 3:42:30 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 27 日 星期二 【陰】

熟悉的感覺...
慢慢變得陌生起來....

一塊抹銀布...
都可以得出啟示...
要令自己閃起來...
是要不斷擦拭的....
一定要...
努力!!

嘩...隻Tiffany閃到爆呀頂!!

今天上了妳家...
多久的約定啊..
終於可以了....

菊花茄子失敗左啦..
都係妳啦...
咁急做咩呀??
下次一定整到一個花形既俾妳睇....

我們今天笑得很開心...
是由心而發的...
妳說我們要一直這樣下去...
"一定!" 我答應妳....

上車後....
我拿出寶給我的..
又一次..
很重...
我聽著那首歌..
看著..
為什麼自己要懷疑呢?
但其實我也是這樣的人...
因為我們都是真心付出的...
怕自己太天真..
想別人也這樣對自己...
自然會這樣想吧...是嗎?
寶...不要那樣想..
我們是怎樣...還不清楚嗎?

妳一提..
我記起了
那一次是owen的課..
我們被那些soil弄糊塗了...
誰也不會知道..
是soil把我們拉在一起了
那一天妳是坐在我後面的....
那一堂..我呯一聲...筆盒跌了...一地都是我的東西...
那一天...我剛漂了髮...
那一天...我穿粉紅色的polo....
那一天......
......
.....
那一天....我不會忘記了...

引了我的一句話...
是我說的嗎?
原來對方一看..
真的叫人感動流淚...
我看到這裡...
別過頭往車外看....
淚珠在眼中盤旋著...
我沒有哭出來...
因為我要跟妳說 :"好!"

>>January 28, 2004 at 4:06:50 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 26 日 星期一 【陰】

妳真係勁funny....
好鍾意妳呀!!
＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Flowing into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
oooh

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

I'm going crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)
ooh ooooh

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby, baby

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)
oooh

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep (no,no,no)
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊
今日開心到想講粗口...

fool !!

琴晚個個就係我啦.....
我係咁架...
你係咪見識過呢?
哈哈...

我不會再拿起電話...
撥出那個曾經熟悉得很的號碼....

一陣風吹來...
害我心裡一抽...
身子輕了...
抽走了心中的擔子...
步履輕盈起來...
是好的開始...

今天的一首歌...
抹去了我的許多....
要好?
我也可以...
一定!

換眼鏡..
我一定要GUCCI~!!!

>>January 27, 2004 at 3:03:03 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 25 日 星期日 【陰】

今天看出窗...
它不在了...
我不在了...
走了嗎?
不!
只是隔了一層...
妳看不見罷了...
在的時候...
我想好好珍惜.....all dreams remembered.....

妳的一句..
把我從天真中扯出來......

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊
I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into

Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

I'm standing on the edge of time
I walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
Tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

Yesterday's a dream
I faced the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling
Oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you

Oh, Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh, baby don't you let me throw it all away
Oh, Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today
Oh, Mandy
＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

我最怕捉錯用神.....

忘記了要打什麼.....

>>January 26, 2004 at 3:19:04 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 24 日 星期六 【晴】

昨天和今天...
我都去了同一個地方---我小時侯經常去的一個公園仔...
十多年了...
只是偶爾會去一去...
昨天經過了..
決定走進去看一看...

裡面人很少..
可能新年時候大家都有活動吧...
問自己:"有誰會像你這般空閒呢?"
不過有些時候...
這感覺的確不錯...

到處看看..
變了..
很多都變了...
滑梯沒了...
秋千又沒了...
留下的有什麼呢?
恐怕只有從回憶裡挖出來了...
一個又胖又矮的小孩一歪一歪地走過...
這個是我...
是以前的那個我...
他很可愛..
我走上去想摸摸他的瞼蛋...
他不見了..
我突然知道...
這個地方不屬於我...
又或者...
它根本不屬於那個現在的我......

今天...
我和妹妹一起去了...
在那裡打波...
太陽真的很暖...
我仰首...
光很刺眼..
害得我一陣暈眩....

昨天謝謝妳...
我不想做的事
妳沒有多問
因為妳很清楚
我想做的
妳也知道
星期三
我會去!

我們都愛看天
愛抓那抓不到的.....

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊
I've had many time I can tell you
times when innocence I'd trade for company
and children saw me crying
I thought I'd had my share of that
but these miss you nights are the longest

Midnight diamonds stud my heaven
southward burning like the jewels that are your face
and the warm winds that embrace me
just as surely kissed your face
yet these miss you nights they're the longest

(Lay down) Lay down all thoughts of your surrender
It's only me who's killing time
(Lay down) Lay down all dreams once remembered
It's just the same this miss you game

Thinking of my going
how to cut the thread and leave it all behind
looking windward for my comfort
I take each day as it arrives
but these miss you nights are the longest
＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

遲到...
妳沒有..
在我的生命中...
妳一直都沒有"遲到"......

>>January 25, 2004 at 1:19:58 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 23 日 星期五 【晴】

留在家的感覺很恐怖...
聽著歌...
看著書...
流著淚...
不知道為何最近總是這樣...
很恐怖...

自己總愛亂想..
想那好的...

今天的天很美....

人是折翼的鳥...
我們好奇....
愛幻想...
愛抓那抓不到的...
我們會想飛...
我們會坐飛機...
在飛機中幻想自己是鳥..
總好過在半空直摔下去時..
驚覺自己原來只是一個人...
摔得很痛..
因為我們不切實際......

"你的一句
害我差點對住電腦哭起來
很多苦水湧出來"
如果真有一個人...
會為我的一句話而感動流淚...
我還求什麼呢?
那一個人會是誰?
他/她又為什麼會哭?

那一句..
我不會輕易說出..
但當我真正說出來的時候..
那會是我由心而發的一句...

在某些事情上..
我會認真得很...
請不要給我一個"哈哈"來作回應......

今天是"赤口"
還是不說話..
用筆寫好了......

>>January 24, 2004 at 4:44:45 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 22 日 星期四 【乍雨乍晴】

煙火..
我在家中看著看著...
電視裡彈出了一句窩心的話....
一句無意的話...
我卻在意得很...
記得我說過想和她去看煙火...
今天..
我還是呆在電視前..
留在家過......

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊
So here we stand,
In our secret place,
With a sound of the crowd,
So far away...
And you take my hand,
And it feels like home,
We both understand...it's where we belong.
So how do I say,
Do I say goodbye?
We both our dreams,
We both wanna fly,
So let's take tonight...
To carry us through...the lonely times

(Chorus)
I'll always look back,
As I walk away,
This memory will last...for eternity,
And all of our tears,
Will be lost in the rain...,
When I've found my way back...to your arms again,
But until the day..
..You, know you are...
The Queen of my heart
(Queen of my heart)

So let's take tonight,
And never let go,
While dancing we'll kiss,
Like there's...no tomorrow,
As the stars sparkle down,
Like a diamond ring,
I'll treasure this moment...till we meet again.
But no matter how far (matter how far),
Or where you may be (where you may be),
I just close my eyes...(I just close my eyes),
And you're in my dreams,
And there you will be...until we meet

(Chorus x2)

Oh...yea,
You're the queen of my heart (of...my...heart),
No matter how many years it takes... (queen of my heart),
I'll give it all to you,
Oh yea...(Queen of my heart)...oh yes you are,
The queen of my heart
＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊
很久的歌
聽起來更有意思
感覺一樣
因為我跟第一次聽到的遭遇一樣......

>>January 23, 2004 at 2:35:24 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 21 日 星期三 【乍雨乍晴】

今天什麼都沒有做..
一直呆在家裡...
望著它..
它沒有動...
我也沒有動....
它在笑...
我沒有笑...

我有看你們的...
也有看你們給我的..
讓人盼望的...總叫人得著感動..
我想..
它們真的做到了..
或許它們來遲了...
或許我的反應也太慢了...
你們看不到....
但有否想想?
承諾最慢的人..
才是履行諾言最忠實的人?
我不敢誇口...
叫人失望...

妳打來了..
妳答應我的..

我記得...
情況沒有變...
但發生在當中的..
有太多了...
我們現在還是一樣...
但現在的我..
不是哪個我了...
長大了..
明白更多...
我也明白..
自己應該要長大啊!

謝謝你們...
都在我身邊...

我合著雙手祈求著...
張開緊閉的眼...
張開緊閉的手...
我眼前什麼也沒有了...
我抬頭放眼..
你們在我的頭頂..
向我笑..
向我招手...
它不像雲..
是伸手可碰的..
我採下一顆顆...
緊抱懷中...

盒子上..
有一朵精緻的蝴蝶結...
很美...很美...
下雪的路..
真的很難走...

我跌倒了...
那盒子...
和那些我剛剛採到的...
散得一地都是..
拾哪些才好?
我走近了那一點點光...
明白它們照亮了我的路...
沒有了它們..
我實在走不下去了...
我拾起來...
把光拾起來...
這時我纔知道...
什麼是我的....

盒子一直在那裡..
但光會熄掉......

>>January 23, 2004 at 6:35:38 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 20 日 星期二 【乍雨乍晴】

今天搭的士...
下車見到阿包...
"嘩...又搭的士...."
"遲到啦我..."
"渣車啦你不如"
我也想...
不過我會想先買一層樓...
才會有買車的念頭!!

"你仲未寫呀?"
我拿了出來...
厚厚的...重重的...
你們露出了驚訝的笑...
"不要在放學前看" 我道
我會不知道如何是好...
想你們明白的..
只是我的心...
寫給你們的..
我已記不得了...
希望它們能幫我一個忙...
把我帶進你們心中...好嗎?

下午蹺了課...
和朋友去了逛街...
我見到了沛..
真不禁要暗嘆paul的神乎其技...
一個發型師在同一天
為我倆不同時間到他那裡去的人剪髮
出來的效果竟然是一模一樣...
令rae突然感到有趣...
嚷著也要去呢!
初六找我吧..
他在那天開市!

今天早走了..
回家做節...
一個很冷的冬..
覺得特別冷......

沒有話說的時候...
我真的很靜...
榨不出半個音來......

>>January 21, 2004 at 2:24:30 PM GMT+8