2007 年 3 月 2 日 星期五 【晴】

我的好朋友拍拖 ^^ 希望佢地會 sweet la ~"~

Last night ( this morning ) slept @ 7 am again ~ i dun know why, but somehow, I just tend to stay up late. But I feel good ~ I still hadn't finish my essay....sigh !

I called Kenn @ 7am (HKtime 8pm), he was sleeping. I knew he was tired n sick, so I just hang up right away. Woke up @ 1 pm by his call, I was happy as he remembered to give me a call when he woke up at the middle of the night.

Marketing revision.....hum.....gotta start it right now

Finally, I didn't do any revision but went out after dinner to Take One ( Karoke place ) to sing n chill out ~ I left home @ 10pm, back home around 3: 30am ~ Thanks Felix for taking me out n his fds are all kind and nice ~"~ tho i shouldn't consume any alcohol while on medication, but I still drank a bit ! Today learnt a new game -- 推骰, it is so difficult to understand >.< " be4 I only know how to play 大話骰 and lucky ~ but now i learn one more game !! I must practise more ~ haha then I will become an expert ! I feel so good everytime I go out to play dise and drink, I dun know why....may be it's kind of freeing my soul?! btw, I was a bit shy at the beginning, dun really wanna sing, but at the end, when the alcohol was doin' it's job in my body, I was more egar to sing ~ haha !

I've got 100 % in Accounting mid-term ! so happy !

2007 年 3 月 1 日 星期四 【晴】

今天，很遲才起床。一方面真的累了，另一方面我故意等他打給我才起來。

他病了 ~ 所以吃了藥很早就上床訓覺。雖然無咩點傾到計，但我唔會因為咁而嬲佢 la ~ 我不是不講道理的 >.<" 希望佢快 d 好番喇 ~

prof. send email 話俾我聽個 website 做得唔好 ~ um.....改改改 ~ 改到 3 點幾。但有 d 野要番學校用學校 d 電腦先整到......星期 1 又要早 d 番學 lu ~

之後想寫英文 essay ~ 但一直都寫唔出個 thesis ~ 又試過另一個 approach ，就係唔寫 thesis 寫內容先，但都唔 work 啵 ......

Annie 介紹我聽 「電燈膽」 ~ 咦 ?!又真係幾唔錯啵 !

睇 wheel of fortune ~ 我成功咁估到 spanish ( 果陣時 only 出左 "s", "h" & "r", 答案係 spanish rice ) 之後幫媽咪手煮飯，我負責刨 cheese and 煮 mushroom soup ^^ 食完野就吸塵 and 執房 ~ cox Annie 星期日黎我屋企 make up ^^

打去叫佢起身，但原來佢已經起左身去沖涼，所以無聽我電話。sorry ~ 下次應該再早 d打去

夜晚 12 點先正正式式坐低寫 essay >.<"

精神病人妙語

精神病人妙語事例 1

病人A：「怎麼樣？這本書寫得還不錯吧？」
病人B：「太好了！真是曠世鉅作。一點廢話都沒有，簡潔有力。不過有一個缺 點，就是出場人物太多了！」
謢士：「喂！你們兩個.....快把電話薄放回去。」

精神病人妙語事例２

有一位精神病院的醫生問患者︰「如果我把你的一隻耳朵割掉，你會怎麼
樣？」
患者回答︰「那我會聽不到。」
醫生聽了︰「嗯，那很正常。如果我再把你另一隻耳朵也割掉，你會怎麼？」
患者回答︰「那我會看不到。」
醫生開始緊張︰「怎麼會看不到呢？」
患者回答︰「因為眼鏡會掉下來。」

精神病人妙語事例３

神經病院有一位老太太，每天都穿著黑色的衣服，拿著黑色的雨傘，蹲在神經病院門口。
醫生就想要醫治她，一定要從了解她開始...
於是，那位醫生也穿黑色的衣服，拿著黑色的雨傘，和她一起蹲在那邊。
兩人不言不語的蹲了一個月.....
那位老太太終於開口和醫生說話了：「請 ...問一下!你 ...也是香菇嗎?」


精神病人妙語事例４

一個精神病院的護士看到一個病人在寫信，
非常好奇，想去偷瞄，可是病人不給她看。
護士忍不住問︰「給誰寫信啊？ 」
病人回答：「寫給我自己啊！」
護士好奇心更盛，心想：「怎會有人寫信給自己呢？！」
於是又問：「寫些什麼啊？」
病人說：「你神經病啊！！我還沒收到信，我怎麼會知道！」


精神病人妙語事例５

有兩個精神病患者從病院裡逃出來。
兩人逃跑，爬上一棵樹，
其中一個人從樹上跳下來，在地上滾來滾去，
然後抬起頭對上面的同伴說︰「喂！ 你怎麼還不下來啊？」
上面的那個人回答他︰「不...行 ...啊！我還未熟透。」


精神病人妙語事例６

一位病人來找精神科醫生︰「醫生，怎麼辦？我一直覺得我是一隻母雞。」
醫生︰「喔？！那很嚴重呀，怎麼現在才來求醫？」
病人︰「因為最近我的家人在等我生蛋啊！」


精神病人妙語事例７


一個貨車司機送貨到精神病院，當他卸完貨準備回家時。忽然發現有一個輪子爆胎了。
於是他將那個爆掉的車胎拿下來，正準備換上備胎時。一個不小心，將固定車胎的四個螺帽掉到水溝裡了，怎麼撿也撿不到。貨車司機不知如何是好。

此時，正好有一個精神病患者經過，就問司機怎麼了？
司機想，反正也沒有別的事可做，於是就把事情經過告訴精神病患者。

精神病患說：「這麼簡單的問題也解決不了，難怪你只能當貨車司機。你只要把剩下的三個車胎各拆一個螺帽下來，裝到第四個車胎上，然後開到最近的修車廠補上剩 下的螺帽就可以了。」
貨車司機敬佩之餘，不禁開口問道：「你這麼聰明，為什麼會住在精神病院？
精神病患回答：「我住在這裡是因為我有精神病，不是因為笨！」


精神病人妙語事例８

有一位病人來找精神科醫生：「醫生 ..怎麼辦？？我一直覺得我是一隻鳥！」
醫生：「喔！？那很嚴重喔！從什麼時候開始的？」
病人：「從我還是一隻小鳥的時候。」


精神病人妙語事例 9

有個神經病在床上唱著歌∼∼
唱著唱著就翻了個身
趴在枕頭上繼續唱
主治醫生問他：唱就唱阿!!翻身幹麻????????
神經病說：
你很笨內∼A面唱完....當然要換B面ㄚ=.=

2007 年 2 月 28 日 星期三 【晴】

Wonderful !

由我兩年幾之前，開始左少少徵狀；食過好多隻藥，有時好番少少又再差番 or 直情無改善過。由我病的時候，我就已經知道有隻「終極」的藥，傳說中醫得番好的比例好高。但 drawback 係 1) 副作用多 2) 好貴。等到今日，我終於係試晒所有 medication method 之後 ( 我連中醫都試過 ) ，做左 n 咁多次抽血，suffer 左好多 pain ~ 終於可以 take 呢隻藥 ! 呢刻我覺得自己的人生還有少少的希望....

1 : 30 去見醫生，佢開左隻藥俾我。當然喇，佢又再一次不厭其嫌地 explain 我 d 副作用；而我亦都有問下佢我依家用緊的 medication 可唔可以 goes w/ 隻藥。之後就去配藥，初頭我都擔心 college 保險唔 cover 呢隻藥，但原來係 cover 嫁 ! 而且，隻藥比我想像中平。我估係因為佢的專利權已經過左，所以價錢平左咁多 ! anyways ~ 我真係好開心 ! 有藥食個人變得踏實左，有希望可以擺脫呢個病......但我好怕呢刻的希望，會變成 6 個月後的失望。不過，諗咁多都係多餘的 ~ 食左先算 !

我淨係要 pay $ 8.81 !!! 真係要好好咁善用我學校的資源 ~ haha !

我好想好想打俾男朋友，同佢分享我呢一刻的喜悅。但佢話俾我聽，今晚想早 d 訓，所以我無打俾佢。( 我睇完的時候係 2 : 30 pm，姐係 hk time ge 3 : 30 am...)

去囉車的時候，先發現 1個鐘頭前天朗氣清，1個鐘後已經大雪氛飛 ! 落濕雪， d 雪一飄落塊面就變水 >.< 好凍好凍 !

3 : 00 去 Western produce 果度買野 ~ 平時 $0.99 1 個牛油果，依家 $1.29 有 6 個 ! 咁 of cox 喇 ~ 呢 d 係果 d 熟得濟，唔食就會開始爛果 d la ~ 我除左有時會買下名牌之外，我平時都係一個 harn 家妹 !

Saw this in the supermarket ~"~ Free Run Eggs? the eggs can run?!

3 : 30 番到屋企 ~ then 剷雪。剷左半條 drive way，當我剷埋另一邊的時候，原來之前剷左果一半又舖番 ~"~ 今次係我黎左 Canada 之後，好似最多積雪的一日。

4 : 30 番入屋，媽咪整左 mushroom soup ~! 好正 ! 其實我知道我是幸福的 ~ 我每次想自殺的時候，都會提自己：自己仲有一個好幸福美滿的家，唔可以令屋企人傷心

9 ~ 10 pm 睇「隨時候命」大結局 ~ haha i am so FOB

今晚落 freezing rain ~ wow ! 聽朝唔知點出車 ~ 好彩係 study week 唔使番學姐 !

要開始做 English essay la !

This pic is one of the component in the body that will harm by the drugs....

上次洗牙果張單 >.< 貴到嚇死人 !

2007 年 2 月 27 日 星期二 【晴】

woke up late, tried to finish my Economic essay.....until 5 sth, mum made me some food, then i went to take a bath, make up then went out.

Felix came @ 7 : 30 to pick me up ~ I tried to open myself n started a conversation w/ his fds.......um....not doin' a good job tho. Arrived his place, I helped a bit to set up the hot pot thing~ afterall, the Hot pot thingie is quite chinese, so they dun really know what should be done. At the beginning, only 6 of us, then 3 late-comers joinned. Thanks Felix was so considerate that as I dun eat spicy, he didn't put anything spicy. And I hate B洆, he avoided this also ^^

We had some Wiskey + Ginger ale / Coke, I prefer CC Wiskey then DJ......I only had 1 beer + 2 cup of mixed alcohol....good gal ^^ n we played poker together. As I dun know how to play, he taught me n I thought I understood a bit la ^^

Some of them left, only 3 of us there by 12 sth, we played Crazy 8 and 21 point. I am definitely the worst when playing card games !! We found it no point to stay so we left ( haha be4 we left, I won the last game ! haha ~ the only game that I won in this night)

Felix drove me home @ 12 sth ~ we sat in the car n talked for so long.....not until 3 am when my mum called n forced me to get into my house. Thanks Felix for being so patient .....haha I never know that he can be so serious. cox he always joke around >.<"

I have been thinking a lot.......I reviewed my past, n my progress thr out the past 3 yrs.....it was a painful memory.....

For one thing, I have to finish the last part of my Econmic essay, which is a term glossary; for the other thing, I wnana get my bf's attention. Therefore, I stayed up till 7am.......when I finished my essay, I called him. But he was SHOPPING ! n his cousin was w/ him, so he didn't wanna talk.......finally, I understand that, whatever I do, I just couldn't get his attention.......

It was so sad that I see the sun raise but I couldn't sleep.....

2007 年 2 月 26 日 星期一 【晴】

大名： =]
電郵： [email protected]
說： 要Kenn去接受你呢種精神病患者真係有D難.
正所謂通街都係女,有乜理由搵個痴線的呀...唉..
痴線,有陣都冇乜所謂.又痴線又俾咁多男人搞過.仲要有D唔著衫相周圍俾人...
咁真係難D要你囉.

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你講的都有道理，我亦都無勉強人地要接受我的過去。不過我會繼續做好自己，即使別人批評我的過去，也找不到半點理由批評我的現在。你的批評，是提醒我不要再犯錯。

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大名： elaine
電郵： [email protected]
說： 樓下的人：　

你真的很幼稚，我唔知你幾歲, 但你真的很幼稚...人地做過d咩都無影響到你.但你竟然可以咁無教養咁想話人...可能因為你一句說話..就令到人地受到傷害..你咁得閒不如做d有意義d事..唔好只係識得記住人地既過去...每一個人都應該有改過既機會..何況她做過什麼有影響到到你嗎? 對你做成傷害嗎? 你認識她和知道她傷害過人嗎? 如果沒有...請你不要再這麼無聊...不過我想你既然講得出呢d咁幼稚既說話去insult人地..你都不會明白我以上所說的..不過我真的在心裡面恥笑你..沒有教養, 只懂用言語去傷害人既人...一世都不會成功

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ｔｈａｎｋｓ！Ｅｌａｉｎｅ。唉～睇完又有少少唔開心，但係都慣左；而且我真的不能要求別人原諒我；唯一可以做的就是不斷提自己不要犯同樣的錯。
謝謝你的支持唷！

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10 : 18 好彩有 Kenn 打黎我先識起身 ! 本身 alarm 係 9 am went off 但我又訓番 >.<" 最後有佢的電話先識得彈起身沖涼。

11 am 去洗牙 ~ 痛 !!! 好耐無洗，始終都有 d 比較難清走的牙石 >.<" 又做埋 3 張 x-ray ~ 睇下有冇 d 肉眼睇唔到 ge 蛀牙 ! 埋單 $ 3xx 加幣 ! 好彩 insurence 全包 ( 其實我都係因為 insurance 包所以我先去洗牙 )

1 pm 去買 ink ~ 但搵黎搵去都搵唔到 Dell 810 的代替品 ( 唔想買原裝 Dell 的 ink ! 因為實在太貴喇 ! )

1 : 15 Kenn 打黎 ~ 佢準備北上，又去玩樂一番。不過，佢北上之前都記得打個電話黎，我都幾開心 ge ^^

醫生做左我的好朋友，我星期 4 又去睇醫生喇 ! >.<" 其實我真係好需要好需要你同我傾計，我唔想搵人代替你，亦都唔會俾人代替你 ! 只不過‥‥‥當你唔抽時間俾我的時候，我真的不知道該怎樣做。

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2007 年 2 月 25 日 星期日 【晴】

slept @ 6 am, woke up @ 9:15。好彩有 Kenn 打黎叫我起身。

原來緊張真係可以令人反胃，有想嘔的感覺。雖然 Annie, Alvin, Sik & Kenn 都有叫我放鬆 d ~ 我都以為自己可以放鬆 d ~ 但身體好誠實的反應呃唔到自己。唉 ~ 咩野都食唔落.......( 不過錯有錯著，原來今日要抽血 )

沖涼換衫去 York Central Hospital，係果度俾左錢 parking 1 個鐘。入到去係 reception 果度問佢個 Dr. 係邊層幾多號房，佢答左我之後我就去喇。搵左一陣，好彩有人帶路。去到原來個醫生根本就唔係響 York Central Hospital ! 之後打去問，原來係響 York Central Hospital 斜對面，咁為左 harn 番 parking 錢就行過去。去到等左20 mins 到，之後見醫生，個醫生的語氣令到我一 d 都唔 comfortable，想喊......之後落去 basement 的 lab 果度抽血，今次抽得少過上次好多，好快就搞掂 ! 痛就緊係痛嫁喇，但之後仲有排我受。。‧‧

去 Western produce 果度買野 ~
番屋企媽咪煮左好多野俾我食，驚死我肥唔到 >.<" 又米線，又薯茸.....wa！

>>February 27, 2007 at 5:24:00 AM GMT+8

2007 年 2 月 24 日 星期六 【晴】

A weird dream....

今早 11 am 醒來，第一時間打俾 Kenn。他心情不錯呢 ( 因為打緊 RPG game 嘛 ) 我費事阻住佢喇 ~ 俾時間佢打機。

我繼續訓，然後就發了一個夢。

那個夢是 took place in my bedroom ~ 時間是破曉時份

我唔知點解 ~ got up n 行近個窗 ~ then 我行埋個窗，發現原來無 lock 到，好驚 ~ 之後即刻 lock 番。lock 完 try 下係唔係 lock 實左，點知竟然推得開 ! 以為自己 lock 錯方向，立刻撥向第二面，發現都 lock 唔到啵 ! 個心開始慌，如事者反覆試唔同方向都 lock 唔到隻窗。係窗果度我見到媽咪係出面，咁當我打算行出間房落樓梯出門口搵媽咪問佢點算的時候，擰轉頭一看，竟然後面有我的朋友 ( 至於佢係邊個又唔記得 ) 企左係度。我問佢點入黎，佢話佢爬窗入黎。係我想講野之前，佢就拎住把刀刺過黎 ! 咁我就嚇醒左 !

醒番即刻打俾 Kenn 但佢沒有聽我電話。

lunch 同屋企人去左黃金地庫果間 Z.O.D 叫 japanese food ~ 天氣很冷，但由於我只有 10 mins 準備，我只是 wear cap + tee + jacket + high heels ~ 好凍le>.<"

Kenn : 一直以黎你係我最主要的精神支柱，讓我撐過了適應新生活的困難，也讓我慢慢學習去接受自己的病，接受現實。假如你最後還是因我的病而離開我，可想然之對我的打擊會有多大。不過，如果你真的接受不了，我寧願你坦白跟我說，不要待我把自己全心全意地信你倚靠你的時候，你才跟我說接受不了。

2007 年 2 月 23 日 星期五 【晴】

很想什麼也不想去減低腦袋內的劇痛

夠了！唔好再喊喇！我的人生入面，除左唔開心同埋喊之外，好像沒有其他事情。

假若把所有灰色的片段從我的日記中刪除，剩下的還有幾多？

Today's output :

Finished PowerPoint for presentation abt Prince Edward Island ( my part only )

PS 轉了背景和頂頭的 display pic ~ 有冇留意到 ? keke

香港特別行政區行政會議 VS 香港特別神經區神經會議

搞批股 VS 搞屁股

Q: 你有多少名子女？

我有三個子女，當中兩個是男的

我有三個妓女，當中兩個是男的

( 你真開明！)

haha ~ so funny ! copied from news

2007 年 2 月 22 日 星期四 【晴】

大名： =]
電郵： [email protected]
說： 我地通常一星期通一次電話~平時佢得閒先會send e mail俾我~~我寄過好多信俾佢..佢都無回過=[
我都唔知點keep落去~~好多時為左令佢可以安心讀書，好多野我都唔敢同佢講，唔想佢擔心~~平時放左學都唔多同朋友hang out~但因為我有返church~所以都識幾多朋友，同埋weekend都叫有d野做~~
你呢？　我見你都幾多朋友丫~成日出去shopping咁~~生活還好嗎???

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Exactly ! 我就係想佢可以放心，我知道佢要worry 番工 ge 野已經夠多 pressure ，所以唔想 make trouble for him. 但變左好多野都收埋係心，結果又忍唔住要講出黎。但點知佢的反應係........唔多想理我咁樣，又唔講 d 野 tum 番我，搞到我控o我同佢的關係唔平衡。好似淨係我為佢著想咁樣，但佢就無理過我感受。
之前寄信俾佢～大概１個月一封，但依家已經無寄，因為佢收到信都唔興奮ｇｅ＞．＜
我無野做嫁，除左番學就係響屋企。有時ｄ朋友都會叫我出去玩，但我唔想出．．．．（某ｄ原因ｌａ但唔係因為男朋友唔俾）所以 most of the time 都係屋企
shopping 都唔多 ~ 因為太貴喇 ! 如果要買平野，一定要好有心機去 shop ~>.<"
番 church 的確會識到好多朋友，希望你的信仰可以俾到支持你喇 !

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 同一天影的相，我證實了，我扮笑的能力也不太差。

btw 我塊面愈來愈漲 >.<"

2007 年 2 月 21 日 星期三 【晴】

大名： =]
電郵： [email protected]
說： 哈哈! remember me??

我發覺我同你有d情況都幾似~~我同你都係有一個10級忙的男朋友~而且大家都有d情緒問題~~所以好多野你講..我都明到少少~~

唉..我都會唔開心..正如你所講，分隔異地，你同香港差12個鐘~我果邊差16個鐘...想傾多陣都唔得...我都因為bf而改變左好多...如果你問我值唔值得..我都唔知點答你好..=[

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感情真係好難計「得」和「失」，所以亦不能斷定是值得還是不值得。
其實他也不是這麼忙吧～他一天上班的時候平均是８小時；以前他放工後，會做一陣自己野，之後等我醒左和我傾電話；現在，他放工後有多姿多彩的節目，不是和這個有飯局，就是和那個去玩樂。唉～我不想管著他，也尊重他的私人空間，但他最起碼也該關心一下我，否則我真的不知道，什麼為之「男女朋友」
你多唔多課外活動嫁？姐係除左番學之外，會唔會同朋友去唱ｋ，食飯，定係一放學就番屋企，係屋企對住電腦／電視？咁你男朋友用咩方法同你聯絡嫁？會唔會寫信？

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Stupid me, I set my alarm @ 10:00 PM !!!! no wonder why it didn't go off ~ I woke up @ 11 : 49 n screamd ! Luckily, I managed to get to school on time.

1 : 30 arrived school. On the way to school, I talk w/ Kenn, things are not goin' smooth these few days. I understood that he was very busy and couldn't find some time to talk to me, especially we were in different time zone, it made our communication more difficult. However, this was not an excuse, I wrote things in my diary, n I only asked him to read it. But he couldn't do this! I was mad n hang up as I reached the classroom. Today, I had to write an 5-paragraph essay based on an article >.<" the article was a friction, n I was so confused even after reading it for 5 times.....I looked up every word in the dictionary and tried very hard to figure out the meaning of each sentence; however, I couldn't even get a big picture of what the story was about. I was so frustrated. I used 1 hour and 45 mins ( the max. time period ) to complete it. I finally manage to write a conclusion, what I failed to finish last in-class essay. Hopefully, I will get better grade. My Eng running totaly is 62.5 % right now, it's really low. I dun want it to pull down my GPA, I really don't want to see this happen.

3 : 15 I had no break but went straight ahead for my Human sexuality mid-term. The topic that I picked was " Sex among teens are wrong ", n I took opposit side. Haha, I put " physical benefits, psychological benifits and teens' curiorusity" as my 3 main points. dun know whether this would work out.......When I was writing my essay, I received an sms from Kenn, he said " sorry n I love u babe ". Well, of cox I was happy abt this; however, I really dun know how much he understood, n I also doubt whether he actually read the Xanga, cox he had say nth in order to response to my words.

4 : 30, Steven drove me and Annie to my place, Annie transfered some data from the PS2 memory card to hers. Once again, Thanks for leading me your PS2 ^^ I will take 101 % good care of it ~"~ We chilled for awhile n they left around 5 : 35.

6 : 00, Watched "Wheel of Fortune" ~ I got the "creamy banana pudding" ~!!