| 日記 | 日記主簡介 |
||||||||
2007 年 3 月 22 日 星期四 【晴】 9 : 50 came to class 5 mins late ~ assigned group work again ! I really hate group work...seriously ! 11 : 40 Accounting ~ shit ! this time I can't get 100% ~ tho I haven't got my test back, I know what I did wrong. I was dreaming whole day..... I phoned Kenn when I finished my test.....we didn't talk much....for one thing, we really dun have much to talk; for another thing, whenever we started discussing on some topic, like what cell phone should I buy, then we started quarelling..... 1 : 30 Marketing game, our team was working hard but the results were not as good as we predict. I was a bit out of control.....many things coming up and I just dun feel comfortable w/ myself. My future is blur....I am not sure what I want and I dun even know what my abilities are so how can I develop my strengths and get a job in the competitive world? Annie, Steven, sorry for being a bitch today.....every single little thing just makes me mad. When I suppose things are taken care by sby but they are, in fact, haven't done or not done properly, I will freak out and panic...such a loser..... After school, had a blood test.....I kept telling myself that it didn't hurt, n in fact, this time, the nurse was quite skillful n it didn't hurt that bad ~ one thing that hurt me was Kenn's call. I did appreciate that he called me be4 he slept; however, I was expecting more from him. I told him that I was in a lab n waiting for my blood test. At least, gave me some support or kind words.....but I received nth from him.....anyways, I knew I should face challenges by myself, but I still wanted some love and care. Went home n eat ~! yea ! I had my " breakfast" and "lunch" @ 5pm ~ then played ps2 and watched wheel of fortune. "Dinner" @ 7 pm ! wow ~ incrediable ! Played PS2 and watched chinese TV programme n fell asleep on the sofa @ 10pm n woke up @ 10:30 ~ I was so tired that I couldn't even hear my bro playing his flute ! >>March 25, 2007 at 5:28:00 PM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 21 日 星期三 【晴】 Slept very late last night, called Kenn @ 5 ~ we talked a bit, n his voice has been softer than a couple days before.....I hope everything is gonna be alright when I return to HK 10 am, mum dashed into my room n told me that there was no electricity ~ n the first thing came to my mind was -- no car ! cox I couldn't open my garage door n can't go to school....I called some fds here but they couldn't help me at all.....luckily, be4 I needed to go to school, the electricity supply was back to normal. 12 : 30 went to school to assist Sabrina w/ her website. I've been talking a lot n my lips hurt >.<" anyways, this was a good practice for me 1 : 30 English class, I got 70 % on my in-class essay ! w/o any help from others, I got this 70 % by myself ~ hopefully I would keep improving ! I dun wanna return to HK w/ my shitty English proficency.... 3 : 15 Human sexuality class. Today's presentations by fellow students were quite interesting, and the prof. also provided us some unique insights of sex and how sex benefit human both biologically and mentally. However, may be I was raised in a traditional family and culture, I felt guilt and shy when talking abt those issues. 5 Mum picked me up n we went to fill up the gas tank be4 getting home.
Pretty gross >>March 23, 2007 at 7:03:42 AM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 20 日 星期二 【晴】 slept at 5am last night, insomnia ..... Tried to wake up @ 11 but ended up leaving the bed @ 12.....quickly took a bath then left home @ 12: 30 to see Dr. Got back my body check report, everything is all right except I dun have A hepatitis antibody.....but I really dun wanna take the vaccine bor >.<" I hate it !!! Had lunch w/ mum at a plaza on Major Mac, quite full.... 2: 15 arrived school, economic class, this is the MOST interesting ecn class, and it was the ONLY class that I didn't fall asleep in class ~ lol ! cox the prof. didn't talk abt ecn stuff; instead, he taught us some presentation skills, which I found them quite useful ~ 3 : 20 web and graphic design class.....as the fact that I've already done my part, the prof. asked me to help others w/ their websites and video projects. I enjoyed teaching others, at least, better then sitting there n doin' nth......also, when I really help them out and the moment they thank me, I feel good.....lol . i've missed a called during class, would that be Kenn's call? dun know.....I couldn't reach him yesterday and kinda worried abt him.....hope it was his call. 4 : 30 mum picked me up ~ another day passed, sigh ! I know my smile is so fake, when I came home, locked myself in my room, I can finally be myself......thanks god..... 6 : 00 Watched Wheel of Fortune 8 :00 Watched American Next Top Model ~ shit ! I dun even know it has already shown for 5 episode ! I cannot miss any one of them ~ so regret .....where can I watch them online?! 12 : 00 Kenn called n told me that he was too tired n slept w/ his phone turnned off, n asked me not to worry. I finally felt a bit being loved...... 無論我點樣努力 keep low profile 都好，自己的性格本身就係好自大 ~ lol ~ 尋晚俾 Alvin 串我自大，其實佢都講得 arm 的 ! according to 一位熟悉我的友人，佢話讀書好 easy ~ 因為最難果 part，姐係發明 / 諗 idea / prove facts 已經由前人做左，我地 students 做 ge 野只係 learn from things that have been proved and organized ~ 所以，無野係學唔識的 ! 因為人地都諗得出 ~ 我地點解會學唔到呢 ? 雖然每個人的長處都唔一樣，但如果智力正常的話，係應該有能力理解得到，只不過係時間的問題。 我發覺其實自己份人好 tense ~ 我做野的時候成日不自覺地縮起左膊頭，搞到條頸好痛‥‥‥要成日提自己放鬆番個膊....... >>March 23, 2007 at 7:03:26 AM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 19 日 星期一 【晴】 Last night, slept around 4 : 15am, not feeling well....be4 I slept, I called Kenn, he was working n couldn't talk to me, so I hanged up right away. when I almost fell asleep, he called, talked for a min then he hanged up. but after that, I couldn't sleep again ><" sigh ! not until 5 : 30am...... alarm was set to 8 : 45 but i finally got up at 9 : 11 9 : 50 arrived school ~ luckily, I wasn't late ~Marketing mid-term 100 %, lol ! this is totally out of my prediction ! I thought I should get about 90 % instead.....Annie and Steven were late for class, n the prof. gave them a hard time.....sigh ! actually, despite of the fact that the prof wasn't teaching so well n she always has bad temper, she knows a lot about marketing and she just needs ppl to say nice words to her.....then she'll be fine. 11 : 40 Accounting class, nice to have Annie w/ me. We laughed for the whole class....lol, n my cap fell off becox of my crazy acts. Called Kenn at 1:04 but nobody answered, then he returned my call at 1 : 24; however, I had english class very soon n didn't talk for long...... 1 : 30 English class, contine writing on the essay. I have no mood at all..... 2 : 20 after English class, I met up w/ ppl in my Economic project group members, again, we have 3 ppl there out of 5. Slipt the work n the powerpoint has to be done by Friday. Tough week ! 3 : 30 arrived home, tired. Finally, got a chance to eat a bit, as I only had rice crispy this morning......mum cooked me a mushroom soup, tasty ! It warmed my body up ~ 4 : 30 ~ 5 : 30 "looking" at the Economic book instead of "reading" it..... 5 : 35 got into bed n planned to sleep for awhile but ended up slept till 7 : 20 7 : 20 had dinner, not hungry at all but need to eat some more as I usually take the medicine after the meal, n fat/oil helped to dissolve the medicine.
西藥的壞處係醫好果度又輪到第2度有事 and 未見理想的成果但副作用就出晒黎 >.<" 平平安安咁又過左一日；番到屋企好 relief，因為可以除底假面具‥‥‥明明係有野，做咩要扮無野 ? 距離回港的日子愈來愈近了，但反而開始唔想番香港‥‥‥好似番到去有好多野要面對咁樣．．．． 到底一個單身 / 非單身的女性，有咩分別呢 ? >>March 21, 2007 at 4:20:34 AM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 18 日 星期日 【晴】 Woke up by my Dad's call, he was yelling to me via the phone, as my mum & I have done sth stupid, n signed a contract that now causes us losing money >.<" my dad scold me for not " looking after " my mum n didn't take care things for her; I should have warned her for those cheaters......anyways, I was running out of time for shower becox of his call ..... 11: 40 arrived school, had a meeting w/ my groupmates in the Economic class; however, originally, there should be at least 4 of us showing up, it finally ended up as 2 ( including me ) it was so sad ><" During the meeting, Kenn called. He just finished watching a movie 首映; he tole me lotz abt artists and he critisized or praised on them.....well, I've already told him that I was having a meeting.....anyways, then I told him my harsh morning...but he didn't seem interested at all, when I said, I gotta hang up n get back to the room n join the meeting, he was like more than happy........>.< I really had enough of his aloofness, why things have become like this !? I question myself everyday.....I really feel so so bad.....Instead of having sby to support me, I felt that I was totally on my own....... My hard work on the Camtasia project is totally blowed off ! The prof. said the volumn is too soft ! but in my computer, I do hear my voice clearly and loud ! she asks me to re-do the whole thing, but as I am a wise little gal, I will use the computer programme to aid this painful process ~ lol ! 1 : 30 Economic class, got back the presentation proposal that generated by 3 of us, we've got 70 %, sigh ><" anywyas, even if I did it on my own, I won't get a higher mark.....cox the prof. marks assignment very rigid. 3 : 10 mum picked me up ~ When I got home, the first thing is to drink some water n eat ~ a bit hungry ~ then, I start to find evidence that can support my arugement against the fucking cheating company, ENERGY ONE ! never never use this fucking company ( for those who's living in Canada ). I am ready to start a fight against this dishonest company ! Suprisingly, I've found a receipt that was issued on OCT 24, lol ! I just couldn't believe that I can keep things for that long ~ God bless ! 人大了，要獨自面對問題。 感受到，由被照顧的角色，轉變為照顧父母的角色。 當媽媽在發脾氣 / 徬徨無助的時候，無論我有多難過 / 憤怒 / 不知所措也好，都要表現出冷靜，沈著氣為她解決問題。 自問自己的脾氣很差，縱使我知道是時候改變一下，否則將來難以在社會立足；但始終想有個會包容自己最真實一面的男朋友。 我的能力很有限，但我相信，經過不斷迫自己去承擔，我的能力會有所提升。 日後還有很多的挑戰，加上父母愈來愈年老，很多東西也應該由我來為他們去做。如果我可以堅強一點就好了。。‧‧ 每次我很徬徨但又要充硬朗的時候，心底裡的確很希望有個男人在身邊支持我。最好當然是代我解決問題吧 ! 但即使不能替我解決，至少在我完成了整件事後，不論有沒有預期的成果都給予我鼓勵和讚賞。 明明是有男朋友的我，怎麼好像什麼事情也獨自面對似的 ? 已經有好多晚，好夜先開始做功課，一做就做到凌晨 4 點；但我從來都無係男朋友身上得到任何的安慰，他連問，也不問一句‥‥‥可笑 老實說，真的心淡了。在這段感情裡面，也許我成長了。換著是以前，只要有少少問題就會鬧分手，從來不懂得靜觀其變，也不懂得主動把問題提出來，攤開來傾。今次，我可以做的已經做了，唯有帶著最後一點希望；希望回港後情況會轉好吧？！我是不是過於理想化呢？ >>March 20, 2007 at 4:19:10 AM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 17 日 星期六 【晴】 尋晚發左幾個夢，其中一個係我番到香港之後，同男朋友散左；係我生日果日，朋友黎陪我，到左夜晚，佢地要走，我就問：「下，你地要走拿？」之後佢地話：「係丫！唔通你想我陪到你幾時啊？」之後我覺得好 hurt ~ 但我亦明白到，我始終離開左 hk 咁耐，唔應該 expect d 咩......另一個夢係自殺果 d 野....呢個夢唔多講喇。仲有另一個係話，我訓訓下覺流鼻血，第二朝起身的時候發覺自己整 dirty 左個 pillow case，點知我男朋友鬧我整污糟佢 d 野 ~ 叫我自己洗番。
Marketing game on Tue, but after reading half of the book, I still dun have any clue of what da heck is it talking abt.....>.<" Finally, I read the book n finished the work ! cool ~ Hope I will be fully prepared for the marketing game on Tue ! I wanna get the highest score ! Accounting test 2 on Friday, will I get another 100%? It's not that easy this time....>.<" Did some household chores .....vacume the entire upper floor. My room is so dusty ! but now it's clean ~"~ >>March 19, 2007 at 4:32:35 AM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 16 日 星期五 【晴】 I was working on my Camtasia project whole day ! yes ~ I am not exaggerating at all ! from 1 pm to 2 am ~ for those who don't know what Camtasia is, Camtasia is a programme that produce videos, put audio and images together and convert them into videos. It's tiring....and I am not feeling well since the side-effect of the medication makes my lips so dry and my nose bleeds all da time......
mum bought me lunch ~ yummy !
And here is my dinner
>>March 18, 2007 at 9:01:33 PM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 15 日 星期四 【晴】 Happy Birthday to Maggie
9 : 50 番學，點知媽咪係我出門口之前打電話去 complain d 野啵 ~ 搞到遲左出門口 ><" 唔知會唔會因為咁而俾個 prof. 扣我分呢 ? 11 : 40 accounting 無咩心機，個人完全唔在狀態，不過都有好乖咁對答案 ~ get prepared for 下星期 5 的 test ! aim for 100 % again ! 1 : 30 marketing game 講起就激氣 ~ 我同 Annie 都一樣唔妥個 prof 嫁 ! 但無辦法，佢掌管我 ge 成績，我 ge 生死，所以我幾大都免費大派笑容俾佢 ~ 俾佢話就即刻 sorry 前 sorry 後 >.<" lol 我係假面人黎嫁 ~ 吹ar? 佢一走我就即刻忍唔住用中文問候佢媽媽 ...... 3 : 15 mum came n picked me up ~ 去左銀行處理 d 野，我順手做埋定期 ~ 擺一年就有 CAD$55 interest ~ no bad ge ~ 4 : 30 went home, played PS2 while eating my " lunch " : chocolate biscuites! 6 : 00 watched Wheel of Fortune 6 : 30 tired ~ went to bed ~ sleep till 10 ! crazy ! >>March 17, 2007 at 4:17:40 AM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 14 日 星期三 【晴】 11 : 00 Kenn woke me up ~ nice ! it has been so long that he hasn't done that to me. Bath n had some breakfast, went to school 1: 30 in-class essay for Eng....I dun have any confidence that this time I will get any good results, tho I have prepare for 5 hrs, still, my essay is empty >.<" Stay at school for another 20 mins after Eng class, typing out a complaint letter for my mum while waiting her to come n pick me up.
>>March 17, 2007 at 4:15:07 AM GMT+8 2007 年 3 月 13 日 星期二 【晴】 兆倫 ~ 生日快樂 ! sorry for waking u up ~ just wanna say Happy Birthday to u! Spring is coming soon ! I should feel excited but why I dun?
2: 25 Economic class ~ I slept almost thru out the whole class.... 3 : 15 Web and Graphic design class, the prof doesn't plan to teach anything, so I left. 4 : 30 arrived home, assisted my mum to complain abt a cheated case ><" but the office hour of that company is 9 ~ 4 !! shit ! how can they get off work @ 4? 10 : 30 ~ Peter took me to visit Pepper ( his dog ) n we went to the Main Street for a walk ~ lol ! I always do weird things......
His car
Went home late, but sleep very well ~"~ >>March 17, 2007 at 4:12:34 AM GMT+8
|
|
哨牙大粒墨癦袁佩婷人氣: 421357
Design & Scripting by ShowHappy.Net