2002 年 12 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

29 December 2002
My internet account still works, however, it automatically cut the line from time to time. I felt sleepy after playing the viola. Aunt came into my room yesterday and asked me to stop playing the viola since she wants to take a nap. I understood her, working in the morning and at night, I gave my way and appreciated that she has told me this. However, it happened today, she came in again, she told me that uncle’s having headaches… and hoped that I don’t play the viola at home while he’s here. Well, but the school doesn’t open 7 days for me! Furthermore, what can I say? A ‘NO’? Impossible~~ I am under them, this is not my home…

In my last e-mail to mum, I told her that I gonna have viola lessons during the holiday at my teacher’s house. Shit, I shouldn’t tell her this… she banned! I’ve neglect that they worry a lot~~ Even when I was in Macau, when I say that I will be going to my teacher’s house which is in Taipa, they banned too. I replied to her… um…um…ya…~~~ However, didn’t say they I don’t go~~ No more time left, how can I wait until February and start my lessons, wasting my time and right now, I am bore to death!

This afternoon the library in Blackburn is closed and my train ticket still expired, I stayed at home. These 2 events made me so upset and I cried~~ It’s too hot to concentrate on a book, nothing to do and my unhappiness filled over the whole day.

>>December 29, 2002 at 2:03:41 PM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

Really looking forward for Monday!!! Taylors~~~

This morning I have got a brochure for the music camp, the lowest cost is $250 and highest $850, it’s too late… I had promised Aunt to stay at home looking after her kids. And really $800 sth could possibly buy myself a ticket back home. I wonder if YSO’s going to Taiwan this February and see if I can go too, they miss me ma… and vice versa. I bought the glucose jelly beans at lunch time, $8.95, OK la, since there are more than 1000 beans.

Read a book about debating and some magazines this morning. The magazine said that Aquarius priority is work. This is very true, however, I have never read any astrology describing Aquarius like work-alcoholic. And it says that my love actually comes in 2003 even for those who decided not to get lovers…

Mum phoned me as usual on Saturday afternoon. She and I had nothing much to say. Just laugh a bit and she let dad to talk to me. While when I told dad that I went to the beach by myself, he asked me not to go alone next time, even to anywhere… 18 years old daughter, he still… sigh~

Woo, nightmare… I was awaken at 4am and again at 6am. Even though I am not going to school, maybe really used to this timing. Well, I dreamt of a scene at home, packing my things in a hurly for my trip to Australia. In a mess… and sister was in the hospital. Another moment, dad taught me to drive a car. I used to dream myself driving and there were always some passengers for me. Strange… Hopefully nothing goes wrong in my home.

>>December 28, 2002 at 7:33:11 PM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 27 日 星期五 【晴】

Philip has left me a msg to go to the service today. Sigh…seem doesn’t want to go~~ I agreed to Aunt Anita that I will stay at home for two days a week to look after her children in January. She helps me a lot and I should do something in return in short of the money matter. This morning shall find me in the library. The State Library won’t be opened again ‘til 29th, so lazy! I have got several things to do there, for dad, Alice and myself.

>>December 28, 2002 at 3:53:55 AM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 26 日 星期四 【晴】

I met Alex in the station. He was in platform 1 and I was in platform 3, sure it took a bit time before we really met each other. However, due to the parking expenses, he left his car and we need to take the train. Perhaps this is much safer, but my free ride had gone by the wind. Moreover, we talked very little on the train, probably becoz I was busy looking at the maps which Vicki gave us and also the questions sat by the school. We went round the city to all the cinemas, we have been to Great Union, Village, Hoyts, Kino and Lumiere. It was quite in a disaster, I had forgotten to bring my pen with me. I typed the answer into my mobile. Somehow Alex borrowed a pen for me. He did more than me for this Scavenger Hunt, since he asked for the price of the tickets and other information. While I was just reading on those nice free post cards and brochures.

After finding out which cinemas show Harry Potter & Lord of the Rings, he asked me to see the film. 007 Die Another Day~~~ By 11:30am, we were in the cinema, yeah~~ no need to pay, gentleman ma, and it is he who asking me to go there. Right before the movie starts, he went out to get some drinks and pop corn. Yet he returned and the movie nearly started. He got with him two bottles of fruit juice instead and said it didn’t taste good after drinking a little. It’s all right for me.

I did enjoy the movie in spite of my company. First he asked if he could place his hand on the edge of the chairs. When the movie started, he asked and really tried to rest his head on my shoulder. His phoned rang and everyone in the cinema scolded him with coarse word. Well, when he returned, he asked me to sit on the side. I avoided and said I would prefer to see in the middle part of the screen. Moreover I could not lay my back on the chair and he, had fallen asleep in the end.

The movie was nice and we next went for lunch. When we were in Melbourne Central, he requested to hold my hand. Luckily we were there, where there are a lot of people. He asked me to sit down and we had had a long chat. He revealed that he has a feeling on me. Shit, as for my prediction, I know guys won’t be so NICE in short of having great requests. We met just the second time…. Is he… He is unlucky anyway, since he met Emily, the one who have been devoting to her brother… The one who decided to be single forever. I explained to him why I don’t want to get a boyfriend, the matter of HURT, but he just kept staring at me, with a little smile and watery eyes. I asked why I should be his girlfriend and ask him to persuade me… However you know that Emily’s so tough & determined… He wasn’t able to.

We were silent for a moment, it was nearly 2pm, poor my stomach. I asked him to get some food and let’s continue the conversation. However, he refused and said any time of the day we could eat. Osp… nothing to say la! He carried on staring and not long after I raised and left. He called me but didn’t chase me. He was wasting my time! And getting me bore, I can’t imagine how I would be if he’s my BF.

I left and continue my journey. My lunch then took part in the tram, an apple… I got off at stop 23 for the Royal Botanic Garden. Went to Luna Park afterwards and also the beach, next time when I have a train ticket and nothing to do, I will go there again, St Kilda Beach, nice one! I bought a sunglass for myself, I can’t survive without one, I know I get sun burnt already but hopefully not getting more serious. You know there’s a hole above Australia, the riskiest place on earth for getting skin cancer! You can’t stand under the sun for more than 11.2 minutes in Melbourne!

I am mostly scare of UV A, the type of sun burnt which only goes under your skin and you can’t see it. UV B, you can see that if your skin is getting dark or even melanoma appears.

>>December 27, 2002 at 7:54:14 PM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 26 日 星期四 【晴】

Osp, a bit stupid, going into the city at 9am, for what? Cinemas aren’t opened yet, nor the shops and museums around. Must take with me a book…

At last I made up my mind to send all the photos that I own my friends. Last week I was bothered with the graduation, this and that and haven’t really given them their photos. And if you’re lucky, you should have received mind recently 冨.

I dated Alex finally, just to save my train ticket and let him drive me into the city. Perhaps my ability of taking advantages, didn’t want to be so frank…but I hope nothing goes wrong. And if I disappear here in my diary, that’s something wrong and hopefully I will be rescued. In case…

Well, this morning, brother has had replied to be. I remember that I promised him not become bad. Will I? Out of everyone’s control and I am free here, free for whatever… Becareful!

Have just received Alex call, he said he will delay by 15 minutes. Alright, and that’s great, I could have some time spared to post my letter, actually 2 delayed Christmas card needed to be sent.

>>December 27, 2002 at 9:32:15 AM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

Dad raised the Q again, given me the freedom to choose from staying or moving, in a hostel or apartment. Well, I didn’t answer him, there are too many things to consider before my output comes.

Myer’s on sale, probably Alice will be out in the city for that and she maybe doing the survey with Louisa. I hope she’s not locking herself up at home like me. I discovered that she locked herself in the library more than me. Sigh… what kind of like are we having? Considering Monday that Vicki will not be around, I was a bit disappointed. Long times no see her o~~~

Just taking a little rest again from my viola. Aunt returned from work and is washing the dishes. I have sent another msg to Jack and made a request. Probably by now, she must understand why I left an enormous amount of money to her. Actually to help me buy this and that.

Well the 2 kids at home are annoying, however, they are cute sometimes, when I am fine 冨 ~~ Just now I planed for my remaining holiday. Tomorrow will go out for the Scavenger Hunt, quite a lot to hunt for. 15 places to go and need to visit all cinemas for information. I need to go to the town hall and maybe pass by and drop into the Melbourne Council, got something confidential to work on for Alice. Moreover, I will settle by 9, probably by train or maybe someone will get me to the city the car, just see what will happen tomorrow morning. Tonight had had a big dinner, full now and becoming tired.

>>December 26, 2002 at 7:27:17 PM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

Mr Kon really gave me several music studies last time. Wanna kill me, though I aim for Grade 7 by October. He is thinking only for Grade 5 or 6. Anyway, a bit reluctant to continue to practice today. Thinking of something else… If not, I will not be onlining from time to time and writing this stuff. Perhaps I am waiting for something. Yet, what is this something? I have no notion too. In doubt…

Tomorrow gonna back to normal, go to the library, read, read and read. Not until 30th that I will appear in the city. Nike phoned me that silent night, but I was asleep and that my mobile went out of battery. I have sent an e-mail to Alex, and surprisingly, he was happy and not angry with me. I didn’t reply to his call ma… The new bill has started for the mobile, I have sent two msg already~~ This month, really count every call that I will be making, to maximize the bill.

Furthermore, my internet pre-pay will end soon, by 29th. Not sure what will happen next…

No one is at home in short of myself~~~

>>December 26, 2002 at 12:32:01 AM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

The pain was released by the Panadol. Only a few tablets left, perhaps I shall ask Jackie to buy me some packs more. Just see if I can contact her and will she do me this favour. Anyway, after my messy breakfast…as I wasn’t able to chew food (it pains) and really close my mouth, I have my cereal, just drink it and put the bread into it, to make them softer, so no need to chew ma. However, I was surprised when I was reading, I can close my mouth. There were some fluids coming out of the gum… yak~~ still in doubt what is wrong.

I made up my mind to take the Grade 7 viola exam by October. No matters how, beg for it or whatever, I wanted to do so…

>>December 25, 2002 at 11:30:04 PM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 24 日 星期二 【陰】

Osp, I onlined at early 7:30am and met Dino 冨. He sent me a newly composed song. I listened to it and felt something quite lonely. However the theme was clown’s play. Whatever the guy does, the lady still think he is acting as a clown. Seemed to be like ‘Complicated’. Yesterday I borrowed 3 CDs from the library and wanna burn them. Moreover, deal to the shortage of my CD-R, I just copied them to my S6010. Just now uncle brought the kids out. I came out of my room and found something to eat. I have nothing much to do, in spite of just waiting the microwave oven to finish the heating. I wanted to go online, since my pre-pay is going to expire. In coincidence, they returned.

It’s 11:00am, hopefully no one’s going to ring me up in CCBC… s- o-r-r-y~~

The afternoon I am here with my viola. One by one play the scales and songs. Would continue ‘til tonight. This is how I spend my Christmas… ?

It’s now 8:15pm, uncle still sleeping and ignores our dinner, so hungry at the moment. Sometimes it’s embarrassing to get some food from their kitchen. I have begun reading the textbooks for Economics & Computer Science. Continue the literature ‘Maybe tomorrow’ too. Sigh, today’s diary is like the journal for Vicki, stating what I did for English. Anyway, I re-read the monthly report this afternoon. Getting something more from it.

My gum pains starting this morning. Panadol~~~~

>>December 25, 2002 at 6:45:41 PM GMT+8

2002 年 12 月 23 日 星期一 【陰】

Silent Night? Oh, no idea today is already 24th. I was with Alice again. I invited her to join us in CCBC’s party but she refused and perhaps I will not go too. A train ticket plus a gift… I am sorry, I do mind these expenses. This morning I was thinking of Jackie. When we discussed about the gradation trip in Form 5, Jackie doesn’t want to go and I said I will pay for her. I now feel what she felt, how embarrass. Last time Mei I said they will pay for my dinner that night, but I refused too. Tomorrow I shall take a rest and resume my preparation. These two days I worked with Alice and really weary out. I know Vicki doesn’t like us staying at home, but there’s a limit somehow.

>>December 24, 2002 at 8:18:39 PM GMT+8