2005 年 7 月 13 日 星期三 【晴】

去左匡婷屋企幫ｍａｇｇｉｅ搞ｆａｒｅｗｅｌｌ　ｐａｒｔｙ～我自己腸胃仲未好番，所以都唔敢食太多野，而且生冷野都唔敢食‥‥‥ｂｕｔ最後都係飲汽水囉＞．＜

同狗狗玩得好開心ｌｅ！！～佢好鬼死得意，成日都嗲人～不過佢都老喇，睇得出佢幾隻廋小小既腳仔無力，成日都震下震下咁樣。。‧‧This reminds me that 假若第日我想養狗的話，除左要考慮自己有冇能力照顧佢之外，一定要考慮埋自己接唔接受到佢有老死既一日。

５點幾送左ｅ琳走～哈哈！！今次仲唔俾我叻番次？！我知道１６號車站係邊ａｒ＊

番到去同Ｎａｎａ玩炸彈人～由於我屋企冇ｐｓ２既關係，平時冇得練習，所以我係１個打機白癡。Ｎａｎａ連勝我好多局之後玩到悶～走左ｌｕ＊之後我同呂ｓｉｒ玩～仲有嘉偉！哈哈！竟然俾我ｗｉｎ到啵～！連佢地都覺得無天理！



叻叻！！～１２歲ｌａ＊



我識玩骰中但我唔識打牌囉＞．＜無奈‥‥‥



>>July 14, 2005 at 11:09:55 AM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 13 日 星期三 【晴】



Group photo











Class teacher





Maggie ^^



Queenie



Christina



Grace



Fong



Fung ~ he plays basketball very well !!~



Sexy Four !~



Gigi !~



Apple ( with Elam and Maggie at the back )



Nana and me in da toile



Sexy legs ~



Me and pui in the KCR



Close up of me and pui



Tallest guy !~



Jasper !~ handball player



My "BIG BROTHER"



Chair man of our form



Chair man of our class

Behind the stage (without makeup)

After grad din ( tired face )

2005 年 7 月 12 日 星期二 【晴】

８點起左身～＊依然好唔舒服，所以最後打左ｔｅｌ去公司請假。訓到１１點～媽咪陪我去睇ｅ生。ｅ生話因為我呢幾日冇咩點食過野，所以身體好虛弱。ｅ生開左ｄ含有ｓｏｄｉｕｍ，ｐｏｔａｓｓｉｕｍ同埋ｃｈｌｏｒｉｄｅ既藥粉俾我～＊仲有好多藥＞．＜見到都唔想食‥‥‥

睇完ｅ生之後，媽咪陪我去大家樂食野～＊之後我就搭ＭＴＲ番工ｌｕ＊番到公司，同老細講我做埋今日唔做ｌｕ＊佢有少少愕然，不過都冇咩野ｇｅ＊我打左封辭職信，之後到５點幾上番總公司果度交低職員證～＊咁就走人ｌｕ＊

我明白一個道理：「今天種什麼，明天便收什麼」我睇ｎｅｔ　ｆｄ既日記，見到佢地好ｈａｐｐｙ咁同另１半過ｓｕｍｍｅｒ＊有ｄ人仲ｈａｐｐｙ到同另１半去ｔｒｉｐ～過２人世界。。‧‧雖然我係好羨慕佢地有ｄ咁既生活，但倒番轉頭諗，佢地呢段時間用黎玩，而我就用呢段時間黎番工囉經驗；將來我既成就應該會比佢地好。世上無野係不勞而獲，就算係犯罪都要用腦ｐｌａｎ喇～＊從正途就更加要靠智力和毅力！！望住人地一雙一對，我唯有咁樣安慰自己吧！！



我對ｄｉｓｎｅｙ既落成，沒有什麼特別的興奮。也許我有了伴侶才懂得浪漫吧！浪漫就是一些沒有意義的事，自己一個人的時候一定不會做這些無聊的事，但若和伴侶一起的時候，再無聊的事也會變得有意義‥‥

>>July 13, 2005 at 8:54:30 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 11 日 星期一 【晴】

病到五顏六色，手軟腳軟，我連拎個杯都差ｄ拎唔起。我由尋晚１２點訓到今日３點半先離開張床，因為我實在冇晒力‥‥‥８點幾醒左，等到９點幾打左電話去公司請假。點知冇人聽。我留左言，希望佢聽到ｌａ＊唉！！我１係就唔病，１病就好大獲＞．＜

食左藥但都唔見有咩改善～＊咁又係既，呢ｄ野邊有得心急嫁！！俾ｄ時間ｌａ＊



>>August 4, 2005 at 2:10:55 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 10 日 星期日 【晴】

頂唔順，最後都係去左睇ｅ生。去到診所果陣時呆左＞．＜超多人啵！診所果度好凍，我已經帶左件外套去，但都係好凍。冇計喇～唔凍果排座位已經坐滿晒人！我唯有坐係對正風口果排座位。睇住人地個個都有人陪‥‥‥自己就１個人咁坐埋１邊～心裡有點兒不好滋味。

ｅ生ｇｕｍ完我個肚之後，話我應該係食錯野。我諗係ｂｂｑ果日食左ｄ未熟既野呱？！佢叫我戒２日口，呢２日入面唔可以食生冷野‥‥‥

囉完藥就走ｌｕ＊等車的時候，有個國內既女人問我附近有冇莎莎‥‥‥平時係路癡ｇｅ我！今日竟然知道係邊度啵～咁我咪教佢點去囉～佢走之前仲讚我既普通話唔錯添＞＜無奈！我ｄ普通話咁屎都話唔錯？！呃人ｇｅ！

落左車之後，好辛苦咁行番屋企～＊ｄａｄ打電話黎問我ｅ生點講，佢聽完之後叫我快ｄ番屋企休息。。‧‧本來諗住買少少野食，但唔順路（我屋企樓下係冇野食ｇｅ）。算喇！打消左買野食既念頭～＊番屋企餓下咪算ｌａｗ！我自己又唔鐘意食粥啵～寧願唔食野算數ｌｕ！

一個人病的時候，冇伴侶係身邊照顧，是很難受的。

我希望我的生命是一張白紙‥‥‥過去太多太多令我後悔的事。。。‧‧我原諒不了自己。假若以往所發生的事都沒有發生過，我會否有更好的將來？

我察覺到自己的心壓不平衡，那我該怎麼做？！繼續努力去克制還是‥‥‥

>>July 10, 2005 at 5:12:42 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 9 日 星期六 【晴】

點解陳瓏入到ＬＰＣ而我入唔到？！我應該好好反省一下！

今日收到成績表，結果‥‥‥比上年退步左好多好多。上年我有好多科都係頭１０之內，今年只有２科。我依家真係好途茫，到底我應該追尋我既理想，聽從我既心而行，定係為左將來有入穩定既收入而努力讀書呢？

終於病倒了．．．或者係因為食無定時，又要愛靚唔愛命，著得太少衫去到冷氣地方凍親呱？！作嘔，頭暈，成身無力‥‥‥

I was sick......

Woke up at 8, got ready for Graduation Ceremony.

My stomatch felt so bad, I couldn't eat anything.

I arrived just about time. What a crowded day!

My stomatch kept feeling pain during the ceremony.

Dad and mun were there to take pic for me.

We went back home to pick up my brother and we took taxi to TST for lunch.

I dun really like Thai food, especially when I was feeling so bad.

4:00pm got home. Watched some videos for one and a half hour.

Then I went to bed. My stomatch was killing me!

I couldn't stand straight! My body became very soar, a bit fever, terrible headache...

I almost couldn't get up for supper >.<

I was too dizzy that almost fell off from bed.

>>July 9, 2005 at 9:22:54 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 8 日 星期五 【晴】

大名： heibi
電郵： [email protected]
說： 講真..grad din個make up好嚇人....
hairstyle 接唔接受到突破..?呢個頭好悶..

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ｍａｋｅ　ｕｐ邊部份嚇人？眼妝？定係成個妝唔ｍａｔｃｈ？
ｈａｉｒ果方面～我想ｋｅｅｐ長頭髮，我唔鐘意髦又或者短！因為我想遮住我塊面＞．＜我面形唔靚嘛！
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大名： 人
電郵： [email protected]
說： 我最高的fd高過你既
不過有小小自卑咁啦

唔整條介你可以cut碎dd頭髮
咁就可能冇介
係會靚好多架希望你接納我意見

正常d我都唔知點講呀
自然d啦!
我著咩3呀..你俾你msn/icq我我俾你睇我d相
好嗎?
有d想同你做fd呀!

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我個頭唔剪得碎，因為碎的話會ｈｉｌ起晒＞．＜好ｍｅｓｓｙ！況且我番學又唔可以落任何造型產品，所以１切都係以天然同埋簡單為主！
我唔用得ｍｓｎ或者ｉｃｑ～因為我屋企人唔俾我用。可以的話，你ｓｅｎｄ去我ｅｍａｉｌ喇！ｐｃ２０００１０８９＠ｙａｈｏｏ．ｃｏｍ．ｈｋ
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大名： a
電郵： [email protected]
說： 其實你已經好幸福了...
至少你屋企"唔憂柴,唔憂米"先啦...
好多人生活得好困苦架...但係佢地都不斷不斷咁努力生活落去...
我都明白我地呢個時期係好多壓力...
但係相比起你daddy每日都咁辛苦返工工作...賺錢養活全家人...
我地既壓力又點及得佢呢?
我以前亦都試過自殺...仲差d真係死左tim...當時我媽咪咁o岩o係夜晚想幫我冚被所以就發現左我...
呢件事我發現左我屋企人真係好take care我...原來我一直都係諗錯晒...好老土咁講句"死...真係唔可以解決問題"...世界上有邊個父母唔錫自己仔女丫?
相我啦...死唔係咁好玩架咋...
best wishes

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嗯～＊我１直都知道自己比好多人幸福‥‥‥比上不足比下有餘！我ｄａｄ同我傾計的時候，都有透露少少佢工作既壓力俾我知～＊我依家自己都有做暑期工，我呢份工已經算叫做好舒服好「他條」嫁喇～但我都覺得好悶，好辛苦，而且個環境好似好局促咁！咁大壓迫感＞．＜因為ｄ人個個都好認真，我好怕做錯野會俾人鬧‥‥‥我只係少少既１個文員，相比起我ｄａｄ黎講，我已經跟本就唔算得上係ｄ咩野既壓力。
你之前因為ｄ咩野事都想自殺？係你真係自殺之前，有冇試過自殺既念頭？我成日都有自殺既念頭但我冇１次真係付諸實行。希望你試過果次之後，唔好再做傻事ｌａ＊
我都知道死唔可以解釋問題，但可以好自私咁解除自己身上既痛苦同埋精神上既壓力。我都知道死亡一點兒不也好玩，所以我次次係冷靜落黎之後，都冇真係去自尋短見。
謝謝你的分享和關心！！
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大名： hiu*
電郵： [email protected]
說： 個日見到你都覺得好驚奇..
我係臨走個陣見到你既..我係電梯..咁岩你就企係電梯附近..一眼就見到你咯~
其實我望左你一眼ja ma..但係你個陣冇笑..我已經覺得好嚇得下人咯~
我地食buffet d野又唔算話好食wo~俾$400..但係好似話唔夠要收多$100 lo
連個d唔去既人都要俾$200..痴痴地

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哈哈！咁大家係埋同１個地方，見到都唔出奇ｇｅ＊我唔笑個樣似唔似ｄ兇神惡剎既男人呢？！
嘩＞．＜費用咁貴ｇｅ？！你間學校名校黎嫁？１般學生點ａｆｆｏｒｄ得起ａｒ？
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大名： heibi
電郵： [email protected]
說： d pic人地make up各樣野都match喎..講真..冇個match你style喎.. 仲有．．我覺得最後２張一ｄ都唔靚．．．＝０＝

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你覺得我既ｓｔｙｌｅ係點？
最後果２張有咩問題？
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大名： jennifer^.<
電郵： [email protected]
說： 想同你做fd 丫^^點聯絡你丫??

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我ｅｍａｉｌ左你喇～
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大名： 流浪魔術師
電郵： [email protected]
說： 喂喂…cindy...點找你呀…聽日？ 嗚嗚…我等左你好耐都唔上來…我想聽到找到你呀…但我聽日要返早…我到現在都找唔到你…嗚…點算？等左你好耐都唔見你…唉…找到你好多野…這一張相
http://image40.webshots.com/40/1/20/39/381812039SLHezb_ph.jpg
你好瘦……

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我有你ｔｅｌ～到時想搵你就打俾你！
好廋咩？唔覺！淨係覺得塊面好肥～同埋對眼冇神！
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大名： cIn
電郵： [email protected]
說： 我想問你一樣野呀，
試叮有冇錢架= =?

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

冇嫁～但好似有紀念品之類ｇｅ野！
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大名： 一齊是否好定壞
電郵： [email protected]
說： 生日快樂呀~~好始遲咗少少sorry

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遲到好過冇到～ｔｈｘ！！

ｐｓ我係唔係有你ｉｃｑ！你係邊個ａｒ？
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大名： maggie
電郵： [email protected]
說： 你鍾意我d禮物就開心喇

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你果個按摩面器好ｆｕｎｎｙ！＊
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大名： Miguel
電郵： [email protected]
說： 我咪成日留言比你囉…cindy妹妹…

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知道ｌａ＊
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大名： salvadore
電郵： [email protected]
說： TO:::看不過眼
點解黃皮膚黑頭髮唔可以係加拿大人??咁加拿大政府有冇立例話要咩皮膚咩髮色先可以入加拿大藉??你唔好咁白痴啦..你講埋d野好硬膠丫...幾多歲丫..人地隻腳令唔令關你什麼事??你隻腳好令咩??咁令既~post d相出黎比較下丫..唔好一味只懂得批評別人..沒有人是完美的..所以懂得批評別人不是代表你觀察力強..只是告訴別人你沒有勇氣去面對你自己的缺點而已..!!
同埋呢..我想同你講..係我眼中..冇勇氣面對自己自身問題既人..係【垃圾】~【廢物】!!唔該你以後個大名做【我係垃圾】or【我係廢人】丫~廢柴@@"
sorry丫~前幾日同媽咪去左south koren玩~冇同你講happy birthday~and...你份birthday gift later補返..ccc
ps::我果2篇野..希望唔會鬧得太勁la @@...

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唔使咁激動ｇｅ＊佢唔明我咪解釋１次俾佢聽囉～或者有ｄ人真係認為中國人血統就１定要認自己係中國人呱？！每個人對自己既睇法都唔１樣～你冷靜少少ｌａ＊我ｐｏｓｔ得上，寫得公開日記就預左有人俾負面意見，批評都係令到我進步既方法之１！
ａｍ．．．仲有呢．．．你地１人少１句ｌａ＊你人生攻擊佢的話，佢咪１樣會咁樣對你？我唔想係呢度搞罵戰．．．
唔緊要ｌａ＊你記得我生日就ｏｋａｙ　ｌａ＊有冇禮物都唔重要！
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人地話"I dun consider myself as a Chinese" 英文呀, 識唔撚識呀? 你而家話緊你個所謂friend 面對唔到自己囉.

諗住做"嫁兩" 都睇清潔啦. on 9 9!

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點解你覺得我面對唔到自己？我唔覺得我有逃避過任何野啵！
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呢處係一個個人的diary,如果大家睇到的唔滿意的東西妳地唔好係處亂吠
如果妳地真的要留言也請妳地住意下妳地的詞言。妳地有冇諗過妳地講ga野如果用係妳地身上會點呀!

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嗯～＊唔滿意可以用ｄ比較溫和既語氣同我反映。請大家留言之前３思‥‥ｃｈａｕ講得好ａｒｍ嫁！！設身通地為人諗下ｌａ＊
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大名： cool yan*
電郵： [email protected]
說： 你做mondel有無錢收嫁@.@??

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有ｄ有～有ｄ無～＊
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呢度雖然係個人網上日記.
但係呢度冇密碼,人人都黎得.即係post 野出黎果個人都預左人睇啦!

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係！你講得無錯！呢個係１個公開既日記，係預左有好多我唔識既人睇到。我依家針對既係你既言詞，我並無話你留言俾我有問題。只要你唔係人生攻擊又或者用粗口的話，我唔會刪除你既留言嫁啵！
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大名： LiK
電郵： [email protected]
說： Playboy 是我床頭的一本書
它可以給我一時的快樂, 但亦不是一世

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哈哈！咁有ｄ咩野係１世既快樂？！
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大名： beams boy
電郵： [email protected]
說： do u hv any fotos can be put here?
or else ho moon -3-

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我有相，但未ｒｅｓｉｚｅ，所以未ｕｐｌｏａｄ得！況且我張張相都要加番個名落去～所以比較需要時間！
我日記係用黎俾有心機了解我既人去睇～＊而唔係為左ｅｎｔｅｒｔａｉｎ人地而寫。。‧‧

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ｐｌａｙｂｏｙ係海上既１條浮木
好男人係一個港口

浮木只可以救到你一時，救唔到你一世

有人問我，有ｄ咩野可以令我開心。

錢？靚仔男朋友？知已？蒲吧？我諗以上通通都唔係！

最能夠令我精神為之一振既係狗仔！！

最能令我衷心一笑既係狗仔！

邊個都唔可以令我停落黎，我要不斷ｕｐｇｒａｄｅ自己‥‥‥

唔可以俾任何野阻礙我既前進。男人同埋普通朋友係我既跘腳石。係時候離開佢地了！

ｐｓ出左糧ｌｕ＊不過好少錢＞．＜由６月１０號ｃｏｕｎｔ到３０號～只係得＄２６６６！仲未扣除車費啵！唉～咁少點夠洗？！

>>July 9, 2005 at 6:08:38 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 7 日 星期四 【晴】

Woke up at 8:45. It has been a long time that I wear in uniform.
Successfully arrived at school only being late for 1 or 2 mins.
Sitting there, chi-chatting with classmates. Ruturn Queenie and Joyce stuff whcih they left at my home.
I finally got the 同學錄 and 罼業相. I look so ugly >.<
Schoolmates go up on stage one by one and receive the fake graduation ceritficates.
After this "serious" graduation rehersal, we left school at 11:15.
I went home for change. Casual look with mini skirt and white vase, sandles and roxy handbag.
I reach Neway City at 12.
Vianne, Maggie, Puipui, Queenie, Joyce, Baobao, Jasper and Simon were there already.
They picked many OLD songs which I've never heard of them....
Even worse is that they love cartoon songs very much...
They enjoyed the songs >.< but I was bored to death.
I am so sorry to say that I dun like
I did sing "some" but not much.
Pui pui was so naughty that she insisted not to sing!
What's the point of going to Karaok?
I had steak came with french fries for lunch...very high kcal !
Vianne ate very little, no wonder why she can slim up so quick ! But it's not good for health!

After sing K, I went home with GNETELMENT Simon.
He held the umbellar and took me home.
The weather has been fine in the past few days, why all of a sudden it rained so heavily?

Half of my body was wet so I took a bath.
Then I sat in front of the computer and did nothing.
My brain was completely empty, but my heart was fill with grief.

Left home at 5:55 to CWB. My fd waitted for me 25 mins...Sorry !
When I was travelliing in the MTR, a STAINED man was standing right next to me.
Damn it! I was almost faint as the smell was really awful!
So annoyed that I couldn't move my body.

We went to 阿貓地攤 again! My fd saw his fds who were studying together in England university.
We set together and chatted a bit. I was a bit shy but I've tried my best to hide it.
I am not used to meet strangers......I felt very uncomfortable with stranges....
My fd said that I should learn how to socialize.
That's why I should go out with him more and meet more fds..>..<

After having dinner ( actually I just had a drink ) in 阿貓地攤,
we walked around in CWB with no purpose and no special destination.
He suggested we go for a movie, but I've seen Initial D already so we just gave up this idea.
We've visited many brand names stores, GUCCI, ARMANI, DIOR......
Some producuts are really attrative! I love the creative of the cutting and fiber.
My fd is an ARMANI fans, almost all his clothings and accessories are ARMANI...What a rich boy>.<

We were lost in CWB ! Haha ! I am a 路癡 and so do my fd !
We were both attracted by a nice decorded bar.
The bar used blue tone and it looked very cyber to me.
I ordered Irish coffee and he ordered Long Island.
I've tried the taste of Long Island be4 when I went to bar w/ NuL.

We took taxi to ING. I was so excited cox I've never been to any pubs.
However, a guy at the recption asked me to show my ID card. FU*K !
I look like 18 already, nobody check my ID card when I go to any bars.
Me and my fd were so disappointed ( of cox I felt more disppoinrted than my fd )
We left that SH*T ING and headed towards to Lan Kwai Fong.

Alcholo again....started feeling hot...did some crazy things......
Got home by taxi ( $ 110 ...>..< what a big spender )
Quickly bathed and chatted on phone for a while.
Slept at 3 again. I was so weak. My body and soul, wanna take a good rest....

>>July 8, 2005 at 10:35:32 AM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 6 日 星期三 【晴】

大名： 人
電郵： [email protected]
說： 點解你冇reply我個msg既..?
我真係想同你chat架..

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我唔係唔想同你ｃｈａｔ＊我ｒｅｐｌｙ「看不過眼」呢個人，係因為佢既留言實在太過份，我先要出言警告。我近來係公司打日記，唔方便開咁多個視窗。番到屋企我又無心情．．．ｓｏｒｒｙ＊我唔係唔想回覆你既留言，對唔住！

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好多人都問過我１個問題－－到底你要一個點既男朋友

我覺得呢題問題既重點係「要」同埋「男朋友」

「要」就姐係較接近現實的，而唔係理想中的；

「男朋友」姐係未必會結婚的。



每隔一段時間，我的答案都會唔同。隨住人生經歷既每一件事，自己對男朋友既要求都唔同。

現在的我，對男朋友的要求是：

外表＞＞

１）高過我（１８０ｃｍ或以上）

２）唔肥唔廋，運動型

３）眼大，鼻高

４）皮膚唔可以白過我，唔可以太多暗瘡（１，２粒都接受到ｇｅ）

５）髮型唔可以太誇張，唔可以５顏６色

６）衣著打扮唔可以盲目跟風同埋過份突出



性格＞＞

１）要體諒我

係我發脾氣的時候唔可以發我脾氣（事後先話番我就得！）仲有唔可以埋怨我陪佢既時間少！識得企係我既角度諗，例如了解我既成長背景，我之前拍拖既不愉快經歷‥‥所以假如我肯為佢煮野食，就算係ｄ好簡單既野，佢都要好感激！因為我由細到大都唔使做家務，我肯為佢煮野又或者摺衫其實真係十年難得一見既事！我唔鐘意男仔對我手多多，係因為我唔想人地覺得我咁隨便‥‥

２）有小聰明，話頭醒尾

最好就估到我個心諗咩，我講左半句就知道我下面想講咩野～大部份時間小男人，小部份時間大男人。要顧得掌握幾時做大男人幾時做小男人，呢ｄ野冇人可以教到，要自己領悟。小男人既時候要就晒我，當我主人咁樣～大男人既時候要好直接好有力咁教訓我‥‥

３）口才好，鎮定

係我唔開心或者發脾氣的時候，唔好１句：「唔好唔開心喇」咁就算～見到我喊唔可以雞手鴨腳，要攬住我等我喊完先算！

４）細心

留意到我每個細微既小動作，例如我打冷震又或者個咀變紫，就知道我覺得凍‥‥

５）有記性

記得我同佢講過既野！我鐘意食ｄ咩野，我聽日既行程‥‥‥

６）有主見

去邊度，食ｄ咩野，做ｄ咩野，睇咩野戲～佢可以問下我想點，假如我冇意見，又或者淨係講到俾佢聽，我有ｄ咩野唔想但又講唔出我有ｄ咩野想的時候，佢要幫我ｍａｋｅ　ｄｅｃｉｓｓｉｏｎ！出街要有ｐｌａｎｎｉｎｇ～唔好浪費我時間！

７）有風度

係我ｄ　ｆｄ面前唔可以落我面，要扮到好ｇｅｎｔｅｌｍｅｎｔ咁～比平時更加錫我，關心我關心到出晒面咁！

８）有情趣

要時時俾驚喜我，如果唔係我會因為覺得悶而分手。。‧‧我係一個好貪新忘舊既人！

９）有耐性

識我既人都知道我既情緒成日都大上大落得好緊要，一部份既原因係我既精神病所致，另一部份係因為我故意唔去控制自己既情緒所致。每當我情緒低落的時候，我會唔想講野；做得我男朋友就要預左有呢個情況，要好有耐性咁等我肯開番聲。

１０）俾到安全感我

識其他女仔唔緊要，但要知道底線去到邊。唔需要成日同我報告行蹤！我好怕ｄ癡身既男人！但假如我問起就１定要答我！唔可以呃我！

１１）有上進心

唔可以亂洗錢，要有儲錢既計劃。要有上進心，不斷力爭上游。愛情反而唔需要睇得太重‥‥睇感情太重既另一半會俾到壓力我。

１２）重視家人

因為我自己都重視家人，如果一個人重視家人的話，佢人品差極都有限！

１３）接受到我既喜好

佢要鐘意狗，鐘意ｉｎｄｏｏｒ，鐘意音樂，鐘意睇ｍｏｄｅｌ　ｓｈｏｗ（至於食物，明星果ｄ就當然唔使跟我ｌａ＊）

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出生於星期日的女人，是屬於比較衝動、容易被激情所影響的人。
這一天出生的女人，在愛情上通常會採取主動的態度，而且愛恨分
明，一點也不扭捏作態。她們的喜怒形於色，有什麼高興和不愉
快，都寫在臉上，想藏也藏不住。個性十分好強，而且凡事都堅持
自己的立場，不會輕言退讓。

在處事方面，節奏明快，乾脆而不會拖泥帶水，通常都很有男子氣
概，並不會斤斤計較或優柔寡斷。這樣的女性，需要的是一個積極
樂觀、才能出眾的另一半，讓她以他為榮，但是在個性上，男方的
性格則不需要太強悍，最好能為她讓步或妥協最好。生性活潑積極
的星期日女性，喜歡在感情中扮演主導的地位，推動兩人之間的關
係，所以斯文但有才華的男人，是她們最欣賞的對象。

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有ｄ中有ｄ唔中咁 la....你地玩過未？

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放工之後已經累到咩咁‥‥‥對ｃｏｎ又想甩想甩咁＞．＜因為對眼好乾，唔夠訓‥‥拎住１大袋野去中環ｅｘｃｈａｎｇｅ　ｓｑｕａｒｅ～好辛苦咁搵到６６號ｂｕｓ既站～＊點知１隻人影都冇＞．＜死喇！話唔定走左班車‥‥果度熱到！他媽的！

等左２５ｍｉｎｓ先有車～人都暈ｌａ～！上到車好鬼死大冷氣～＊我熜左個冷氣依然覺得好凍！坐左唔夠１０ｍｉｎｓ就開始見頭暈．．．我又暈車浪ｌａ＊之後開始作嘔‥‥我辛苦到想即刻落車，坐番對頭車走～但我死忍。。‧‧中間仲要經過好多山路，超多髮夾彎‥‥‥我合埋眼盡量放鬆，但都唔覺得有咩野用！去到ｌａ＊天都黑晒。我叫司機嗌我落車～最後我成丐係舂坎角沙灘果度落左車！真係有ｄｄ驚～黑媽媽又４野無人＞．＜救命！好彩Ｑｕｅｅｎｉｅ同埋Ｅｓｔｅｒ黎接我～＊果度好多ｉｎｓｅｃｔ飛來飛去，嚇到我不斷咁尖叫．．．．其實我真係真係好唔想去，如果唔係為左陪ｍａｇｇｉｅ．．．唉～＊我１定唔會再去呢ｄ咁既鬼地方！！你話我身嬌肉貴都好喇～我真係接受唔到呢ｄ咁既地方！！

去到換左３就開始ｂｂｑ～更衣室既情況１樣咁嚇人！！天啊！我真係好想快ｄ離開果個鬼地方‥‥‥野食預得ａｒｍ　ａｒｍ好！！佢地講左好多搞笑野俾我聽～＊呆恩真係好鬼死呆！！

食完野之後就換３執野走ｌｕ＊係離開舂坎角沙灘果段路，見到條係樹上面吊落黎既蟲～好大條！！有成８ｃｍ咁長＞．＜１ｃｍ粗！ｈｅｌｐ！我淨係不斷咁尖叫同埋捉實Ｎａｎａ隻手～飛奔．．．．由於好黑既關係，我又跑唔得快！！去到ｄ有街燈既路～我就飛奔去ｂｕｓ　ｓｔｏｐ！！等左１５ｍｉｎｓ有車～上左車之後，我個肚開始痛～我諗１係就頭先燒野食的時候ｄ野未熟就食（因為好黑，跟本就睇唔到熟唔熟）１係就因為我跑得太快～有ｄｄ盲腸炎咁＞．＜ｂｕｓ去到中環落車～１齊痛痛痛痛，痛到番屋企‥‥飲左杯水，坐左陣，好番少少。‧‧

沖完涼‥‥已經好累好累。‧‧

我近來真係好想暫時離開我既個家。冇錯，我既屋企真係比好多家庭溫暖和幸福。我亦都得到父母的寵我，我還要求什麼呢？但每日媽咪教訓細佬的時候，佢地既對話，令到個人好炆‥‥‥屋企既電視聲令我好炆‥‥‥我好想發脾氣但我知道我唔可以發佢地脾氣，留係呢個家好辛苦！！我努力咁去控制自己，但我怕我有控制唔到既１日。。‧‧但我知道，假如我第２次離家出走的話，後果會更加嚴重‥‥１７歲ｌａ＊大個女ｌａ＊唔可以郁ｄ就話離家出走。我知道就算我１走了之都解決唔到問題，我始終有１日都要番番屋企，都要面對我既屋企人‥‥‥但我真係唔想聽到人聲。。．‧佢地既聲音好煩！就算佢地唔係話緊我都好喇～果ｄ聲音令我既情緒愈來愈失控。。‧‧我都唔明白，點解我唔可以鐘意幾時食野就幾時食野，鐘意幾時沖涼就幾時沖涼呢？媽咪最叻係果句：我煮飯煮得咁辛苦，你地（指我如我細佬）都唔埋黎食，咁我下次唔煮ｌａ！快ｄ食喇～阻住我執檯ａｒ！我唔係唔識體諒佢既苦心，但係我想有番ｄ自由，咁大個人，唔係連我幾點食飯都要管ａｒ？！食完飯，細佬又係度睇電視，雖然佢唔係較得好大聲，但我心情好炆．．．好怕聽到電視聲！！我唔想發佢脾氣．．．呢個細佬，注定係全家人入面最得寵既人！１０點幾，媽咪又催我沖涼，佢話我再唔去沖，個頭就有耐先會ｄｒｙ得晒，咁我就要好夜先有得訓～（因為我唔會吹頭ｇｅ，等ｄ頭髮自然乾要２粒鐘）我覺得我既生活被迫變得好有規律囉＞．＜做人咁有規律真係好辛苦！沖涼既時間都唔到我揀，，，，唉～＊沖完涼，想傾陣電話，講左唔夠１０分鐘ｄａｄ就叫我食水果。我話陣間先佢就話：唔得ｒ＊食完先准傾！連食生果咁少既事都要俾人管．．．．１點鐘就叫我ｏｆｆｌｉｎｅ訓覺．．．其實我自己都累，我過多陣都會去訓，但佢偏偏就係都要「好心咁提醒我」依家時候唔早．．．．以我反叛既性格，我就係偏偏唔肯去訓。就算ｏｆｆ左ｌｉｎｅ都係房果度執下野，睇下書，死都唔肯訓‥‥‥呢１個家，我生存得好辛苦！我都知我應該換個角度諗，我父母要撐起頭家都好辛苦，但．．．．有邊個人係唔自私ｇｅ？！好想好想任性但偏偏不可以．．．．





Please dun steal my photos!

>>July 10, 2005 at 5:16:27 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 5 日 星期二 【晴】

大名： 看不過眼
電郵： [email protected]
說： 黑頭髮黃皮膚話自己係加拿大人! 食屎啦! 咁撚叻咪番去幫鬼佬含撚囉, 可惜你屋企又冇錢呀! 呵呵! 做人完實一點啦, 成撚日夢埋D 春秋大夢.

仲有呀, 唔好成日話你自己對腳靚啦. 你個人成個shape 根本唔掂... 唉... 可怕...

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我要刪除你的留言，因為你留言當中含有粗口既字眼。
我的確係加拿大藉～我冇呃人！我屋企有冇錢唔關你事！
你可以話我發夢，但每個人都有夢想；沒有夢想的人係最可悲的！
我冇話我對腳係ｐｅｒｆｅｃｔ～但起碼好過好多人。你睇唔過見的話咪唔睇囉．．．冇人ｆｏｒｃｅ你去睇啵！請你注意你既言行，你再留有粗口既留言，我會係唔通知既情況下刪除。敬請合作！

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Maggie is going to leave us on 15th of July.

Canada is a good place ! Hope she enjoy her ilfe there.

Queenie and Joyce ask me to go to beach party tomorrow night.

Actually, I dun wanna go. I hate the nature, I hate insects, I hate the humid and hot weather...

I need to work tomorrow so I gotta bring a lot of stuff with me...very inconvinence!!

Moreover, I am not that keen on playing water >.< I dun wanna being thrown into the sea...

I am so afraid that hidden rocks and broken beer bottel pieces will hurt me, especially my pretty legs!

But...but....if Maggie goes, I SHOULD go as I am her friend....

this might be the second last chance to see her in HK.

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I woke up at 7:25....Gosh! My head is still pain...really dun wanna get up to work.

I struggled for 5 mins and finally got off the bed and had my breakfast.

Coffee again at office early in the moring....but I was still very sleepy >.<

I seem to have a fever, my forehead is kinda hot....

Jacky, whom I met at DBS, is going to Canada for summer school.

If his HKCEE resulfs is not good enough to stay in DBS, he will continue study in Canada.

Will we meet again? I miss Canada! My birth place!

I dun consider myself as a Chinese, since I was born in Canada and I love Canada so much!

One year left......I will spend my time on study....no more dreaming on modeling....

Can I really forget everything about modeling?! Definately NOT!

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I will try to resize and upload Grad din and my birthday photos ASAP!

I realized that if I dun post photos here, nobody leaves msg to me....what the....