2005 年 3 月 5 日 星期六 【晴】

一個人的叉飯($13, 送汽水)好像特別難吃
雖然有漫畫電腦相伴
可是還是欠缺了一點東西
是什麼東西咧
又說不上來

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Dear 非:
返完學?
工廠學校咩~
攰到屎~

不難估
從妳的用字
相片中2位的衣著
要估中唔難
(人誰無老呀... 一係英年早逝, 咁就唔會老ga啦)

做"細佬"有咩野著數ga@@?

轉bg... 好煩
簡簡單單就ok啦

>>March 5, 2005 at 8:14:42 PM GMT+8

2005 年 3 月 4 日 星期五 【雷雨】

I know the truth now.
The reason why I will become nervous when I am having oral practices is the present of Evan and Jerry, such a confident student.
Altough we have almost the same ages, are in the same class, are taugh by the same teacher, there is still a big distance between us.
And this distance is the reason of the difference among Alvin, Evan and Jerry.
Even and Jerry just look like the sum, which is shiny and bright everyday, any moment.
On the other side, Alvin looks like moon, which just gives others negative feelings like sadiness or being lonesome.
It is their main difference.
However, it is common for one to have his own character, it is not worth to be worried.

In 英皇, I made a goofy mistake.
Standing after a student, with other student following me, I waited to get into the classroom.
Suddenly the tutor run away in front of me.
I though he would ask us to get inside later, and he just went outside to take sth which is needed indeed.
So I kept waiting outside.
The chain moved.
But it moved to another classroom, and the class I had to take had already started.
It was embarrassing= ="

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我明白真相了
我之所以會在會話中變得緊張是因為Evan和Jerry, 如此自信的學生的存在
雖然我們年紀差不多一樣, 身在同一班, 被同一老師教授, 仍然有一個很大的差距在我們之間
而這個差距就是Alvin, Evan和Jerry之間會有所不同的原因
Even和Jerry就像太陽一樣, 任何日子, 任何時間都是燦爛的, 明亮的
另一方面, Alvin則像月亮, 只會給人負面的感受如憂鬱, 孤寂
這就是他們主要的差別
不過, 有自己的人格是正常的, 這不值得擔心

在英皇, 我犯了個可笑的錯.
站在一個學生的後面, 其他學生跟著我, 我等著進入課室
突然那個sir在我的面前跑過
我以為他一會兒後會叫我們進去的了, 剛才不過是拿點需要用的東西而已
所以我還在等
人龍動了
不過這人龍往別的課室移動, 而已我要上的課已經開始了
很教人尷尬= ="

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Dear 小棋子:
我是指Oral...
可是我作文都是想到就寫的
對用字這方面沒什麼考量到-,-
想到vehiacl就用vehiacl, 想到car就用car

最重要的是我不懂很多英文單字啦

>>March 4, 2005 at 11:58:02 PM GMT+8

2005 年 3 月 3 日 星期四 【颳風】

I went to 胡兆熾 again, but this time, about 30 students of 5D had also gone there.
So, about 60 TKP students would share 10 to 20 students from other school.
I waited there, chatting with other, listening mp3s, for almost 1 hr.
No problems, I could wait.
I just wanted a chance to have practices with students who aren't from TKP.
However, I was disappointed
There was one teacher to be the marker only
And she told us that we should let the ones who hadn't come yesterday first, and 5D students couldn't come due to Mr. Kwan yesterday.
So I was rejected.
Just consider the following situation:
Sb distributes his wealth to every passer-by in somewhere, and after the distribution, you came and asked for the money, just because you were bothered by sth so you couldn't get there on time.
Do you think the one who distributes his wealth will follow you will?

If you really want the opportunity, please own it before others have finished sharing it.
If not, please don't avoid others from owning it

So, some 5C students asked to have some practices by the student workers there.
I was one of the first 4 students, with Evan and Jerry and one student from somewhere I don't know.
The topic was not very difficult for me, but having Jerry and Evan presented, I could hardly say.
I was controled by their confidence.
We were different.
One of them came from Australia, and he is shiny.
And the other one came from high society, being confident is very easy for him.
In front of them, I just like a dumb child.
I was shy again.

Before getting out, Jerry got one girl's icq no.
It seemed that he can do it very easily and naturally.
Where did this such a great confidence come from?
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我又去了胡兆熾, 不過這次大約30個5D的學生也去了
所以60個TKP學生將會分享10至20個其他學校的學生
我在那兒一邊聊天一邊聽MP3的等了差不多1個小時
沒問題, 我可以等
我不過是想要一個跟不是TKP學生的學生練習的機會
可是我失望了
那兒只有一個當評分員的老師
她跟我們說應該先讓未試過的學生先來, 剛好5D學生昨天因關志偉的關係而不可以來
所以我被拒絕了
考慮一下以下的景況:
有一個人在某地方分發他的財產給所有路過的人, 在分發完之後, 你來到且要求金錢, 只因為你被某些東西阻止而不可以及時趕來
你認為那個派錢的人會跟從你的意願嗎?

如果你真想得到那個機會, 請在其他人分享完之前得到它
如果不是, 請不要阻止其他人得到它

所以, 一些5C學生要求一些學生工作人員給他們練習
我是最先的4個學生中的一個, 連同Evan及Jerry和一個不認識的外校生
題目於我不是難, 可是有Evan及Jerry在場, 我幾乎什麼也說不了
我被他們的那份"自信"壓倒了
其中一個由澳洲而來, 而且充滿了朝氣
另一個則由上流社會而來, 顯得自信於他是十分容易的
在他們面前, 我就像一個驚慌得、恐懼得、羞愧得連話都說不出來的孩子
我又害羞了

在走之前, Jerry取得了一個女生的icq號碼
他看似可以非常容易和自然地做這事
這巨大的自信是從何而來的?

>>March 4, 2005 at 1:41:50 AM GMT+8

2005 年 3 月 2 日 星期三 【雷雨】

I am happy today. Not only I could be 胡兆熾 today, but also one of my writing was praised.
It is a big honor fo me.
Thanks to showhappy.net, provided me a diary site to let me write in English almost everyday
Also 小棋子, who recommend it to me before
I believe I will be able to write a passage with no mistake one day.
(Thank you thank you thank you...)

I had 3 practices with students from other schools today
The marks for the 3 practices were 4, 4.5, 5 respectively
(the total marks is 7)
In the first time, Ipractised with Even, I got 4
(Maybe he is too powerfu... He got 6.5/7...= =")
Then, the second time, I should have it with Even too, but we were broken
So I had to practise with other 3 students from other school, 1 boy and 2 girls.
After the second practice, I was held and asked to have the third one
This time I had it with So and other 2 boys.
And So behaved very well.

The main point is I havn't been shy for that moment~!

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Dear 小棋子:
我是指oral
我指的高級字彙是那種比較聽起來"pro"一點的那種啊~
比如用"vehicle"代替"car"之類的
我就是說不出來= ="

>>March 3, 2005 at 3:06:49 AM GMT+8

2005 年 3 月 1 日 星期二 【陰】

The practice today is better.
I havn't been so shy anymore.
I have to say thank you to Evan.
He taught me to be confident by talking in a big voice.
It is useful for me, although I still havn't got used with it.
I will try to get used with it and not to be shy again before 4:30, tomorrow.

Oh yeah~
Tomorrow, at 4:30, we will have a chance to have oral practise with other student in other school.
I hope that it will not be canceled again.

Druing these practices, I realized sth.
I discovered that I couldn't use any "high level vocabulary" during these practices.
Before, Phoebe told me that "simple English is the best!"
Who should I believe?
(I'm just like a little child, aren't I =,=?)
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今天的練習好一點了
我沒有再那麼害羞
我得向Evan說謝謝
他教我用大聲說話這方法來變得自信
這於我很有用, 雖然我還不習慣
我會嘗試習慣的, 且我不會再害羞在明天4:30之前

好耶~
明天4:30我們會跟其他學校的學生進行會話練習
我希望這次不會再次被取消

在這些練習的過程之中, 我明白了一些事情
我發現我不能在練習中使用某些高級字彙
之前, Phoebe說過"簡單英文是最好的!"
我該信誰?
(我就像一個小孩, 是不=,=?)

>>March 2, 2005 at 3:16:34 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 28 日 星期一 【雷雨】

Frist, I woke up at 7:15
So I forgot to put my English book into my school bag
(That why I had to spend $32.8 to take a taxi this afternoon)
(And I will have to have bread for my lunch in the following 4 day=.=)

After school, I have had a oral practice, part B only, with Evan Pater Karma and Jerry.
I can't believe.
I could just say 3 or 4 sentences in one practice
I will definitely fail in the real exam if I keep doing that
Evan said that I had to get the opportunities to voice strongly by myself.
He is right, the wrong one is me.
I don't know how to debate with others, even in Chinese
I need to be supported.
I have no point in my mind when I was having the practice
How can I be confident?
I have nothing for me to be confident, no matter I find it from my body, from my spirit, or others, I can't see anything
I gave him my hand, and he ingored me, with no answers given.
I don't know if he has any planning for me, if he does, please gives me some signal
I need sb to help, but I am afraid that the one who help me will be disappointed finally

I always tell others to be confident.
But the one who needs to be confident is me.
What am I ...?

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Dear 小棋子:
我是指妳日記那幾句-,-"
這句我看到這是"豬朋"
之後我猜這麼一句應該不會代表了太多字的
再加上"犬母句"
我看應該是"狗"字了
有"豬朋", 有"狗"
應該是"豬朋狗友"了吧

開心是有代價的-,-
就像我這半桶水的成績

Dear 錢後左佑:
說真的
這次的practice真讓我很難受
我想哭
為我的無能大哭
無奈我好像已經忘了什樣自己哭出來了
乾抱著枕頭
在埋怨自己的不足中入睡一一乾哭累了
我為什麼會口吃呢?
我為什麼一句也說不上呢?
幾乎所有發言機會都是你們捨我的
我不希望這樣
這樣我是不可能學懂"說"的

跟你們做練習而已, 都已經會害羞了
這樣子出得到社會嗎?
到底什樣才可以變得放大膽一點?

>>March 1, 2005 at 2:01:30 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 27 日 星期日 【微冷】

忘了說一點東西:

Dear 小棋子:
這次可能是看不成的了(可惜)
考完mock再找個機會看電影吧
好嗎?

Dear 黃綠醫生~:
真巧
剛寫完日記就看到你留言了-.-

說不定"讓人擺佈"就是我的destiny呢
娘開心就好
我不會太在意的
(我也有提出意見的, 不過都不被理會而已-,-)

喔
被中文好的人折破了
下次要改進啊~
棋子知道了沒?
(可是那段我還是看不懂-,-)

算
豬朋狗友其實有時係重親過屋企人ga
秘密, 心事多數都會同豬朋狗友講, 而唔係屋企人啩?

>>February 28, 2005 at 1:56:44 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 27 日 星期日 【微冷】

I went there again.
But this time, I wore a pair of long socks.
I stiil though a lot when I was walking.
Then I bought some mike for my mum and 2 packets of rice.

I did the RCU past paper, the year 2004 one.
I get 70% correct this time.
I am happy, but I am still not satisfied.
I am happy for my 70% correct, which attains my least request.
I am not satisfied with the 70%, which can just attain my least request.
I can do better than it.
It is a promise for myself, and the one who supports me.

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我又去了哪兒
但是這次我穿了一雙長襪子
我仍然想了很多東西當我在散步的時候
之後我便給娘買了好些牛奶和2包米

我做了2004年那份RCU卷
我這次有70%正確
我很高興, 但我仍然不滿足
我為我那達到我最底要求的70%感到高興
我為我那只達到我最底要求的70%感到不滿足
我可以比這做得更好
這是一個承諾, 給我及支持我的人

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Dear 黃綠醫生~:
我是被佢教壞的:p

打女仔...我暫時未試過
唔打唔係因為佢係女仔
係因為打架只會惡化問題
暴力只是暫時的解決方法

有新手機?
"阻止我買那台手機"＜～什麼意思?
即是我沒買到= ="

放心, 我會

Dear 小棋子:
我直覺andrew是想破壞我的形象...
不過幸好妳沒上當
呼~

嗯嗯

恨!
我不懂旺角的路...
(現在才報太遲了吧-.-)
(還有英皇的職員說k.oten和f.shem都只有一班live哦...而且都爆了)

我明白
不過一生中
"豕因者黑月十月衝犬母句那大(減)勁又駛"是難免的
不過身邊的"豕因者黑月十月衝犬母句那大(減)勁又駛"可能就是令自己體會到自己是不是"真正長大"的那個

Dear andrew:
-.-
圈套...

我腕力比娘差
女生不一定比男生差的

這有違我的原則...
不行

>>February 28, 2005 at 1:40:56 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 26 日 星期六 【寒冷】

About 4, I went to the seashore to have a wallk.
It is windy today, especially the seashore.
So cold~~ but I have though a lot, and I felt relaxed.
It is worth although I have to walk in such a windy place(I almost fall down)
I should dress more next time.

Went to buy a mobile phone again~
And bought nothing again~
= ="
I can't believe it
How could it be possible that my mum give me a phone call to prevent me from buying that phone when she was on her duty, just because she doesn't like the colour of the phone?

Is this phone really ugly and not suitable for me?

http://home.kimo.com.tw/agarhsu/Vacation1.html
A very magical psychological quiz.

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4點左右, 我到了海岸散步
今天頗大風的, 特是是海旁
很冷~~ 不過我思考了很多東西, 而已我也感到鬆弛
這是值得的雖然我要在如斯大風的環境下步行(我差點兒趺倒)
我下次應該多穿一點

又一次去買手機
又一次什麼也沒買到
= ="
我不可以相信
我媽什可能在上班的時候打電話阻止我買那台手機只因為她不喜歡那只手機的顏色?

這手機真的很難看而且不適合我嗎?

http://home.kimo.com.tw/agarhsu/Vacation1.html
很神奇的心理測驗

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Dear 非非:
咁妳又幾ＯＬＤ呀~
做細佬呢家o野...
應該諗得過ge~
我考慮吓先啦= =+

咁...個bg好似太花嘛~
而且我諗唔到d字用什麼顏色好
所以改回來了

Dear 小棋子:
喔@@是嗎?
沒注意到
當試前操練好了~
(報不到live的!恨!)

"給自己一點信心吧！"<~我常常跟別人說的話
沒想到現在換別人跟我說了= ="
我知道了
我會努力的
>0<

那時間地點妳定好了
不過不要離土瓜灣九龍城的太遠
我會迷路的= ="
可是我好像只有星期六才有空咧...

Dear Andrew:
= =
有學空手道不一定腕力好!!
腳力好不行嗎?

腕力不好什樣霸王硬上弓?
用腳鉗她嗎?
有點兒矛盾呢...

>>February 27, 2005 at 2:32:44 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 25 日 星期五 【微冷】

Finally, I have to admit that I am naive.
I do have to improve myself.
I always think that my English is enough for me.
And I believe I have done a lot about improving English.
But yesterday, I did a RCU past paper, the 2001 one, I could get 63% correct only.
It is really disappointing.
Then how about the writing? The listening? The Oral?
I can't image it
I dare not do so

So, I join a tutorial class, by F.Shem, which is about Paper I to III, before the day I take the English exam(that should be 5/5).
In my mind, it can help me a little, and it just costs $50, so I don't expect it will help me a lot.

Language should be learnt during your hole life, not before the time you need it.

Finally, I changed my change.
I think simply desiged is the best style for my diary.
It is clear and it gives a confortable feeling
Isn't it?
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最後, 我得承認我是膚淺的
我實在得改進
我經常認為我的英文已經於我是足夠了的
和我相信我做了很多關於改進英文的
但昨天, 我做了一個2001年的RCU會考卷, 我只得到63%的正確答案而已
這委實是很教人失望的
那我的寫作咧? 聆聽? 會話?
我不可以想像
我不敢這樣做

所以, 我參加了一個F.Shem的補習班, 有關paperI~III的, 在考之前的那一天(應該是5/5)

在我覺得, 這個課程可以稍稍幫到我, 而已不過是值$50, 所以我並不期待它會幫到我很多

語文應該是在你的一生中被學習的, 而不是在你要它之前

最後, 我改了我的修改
我覺得簡單的版面佈置對我的日記來說是最好的風格
它很清晰, 而且帶出了一種舒服的感覺
是不?

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Dear andrew:
無聊找點有意義的事做吧= =
電線桿太冷, 太硬, 太高, 才不抱
我打錯什麼字了@@?

Dear 小棋子:
妳的好意
我先謝謝了

我怕不行
我可能騰不出時間咧...
最重要的是我手頭上的$$可能連一張戲飛都唔夠買= ="
(妳放心跟素未謀面的陌生人看電影?)
(不怕會有危險嗎?)

>>February 26, 2005 at 1:29:17 AM GMT+8