2003 年 11 月 11 日 星期二 【晴】

today is a cold day...

today, simon calls me, he comes hk now...

i'm unhappy today, because i lost a thing which means a lot for me...
it appears love, hope , happiness ,but also hopeless , sadness ...and tears.
it's a ring from my fist love . junming and me still friend, i mearsure this relationship ...
when i am happy, the ring campany with me, i wear it even pleased or sad...
it gives me a big smile when i'm sad.
it's like the thing to prove we loved before...although there'snt any "love" between us.
this ring is a gift from everything.

那...陪我過著快樂的日子,也陪我過了最難受的日子...
本來它是安居於我的bed上的,但是...被daddy弄不見了.
this's the first valentine's present....
(crying...)

>>November 12, 2003 at 1:38:16 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 11 日 星期二 【晴】

風吹落最後一片葉 我的心也飄著雪
愛只能往回憶裡堆棧 oh~ 給下個季節
忽然間樹梢冒花蕊 我怎麼會都沒有感覺
oh~ 整條街 都是戀愛的人 我獨自走在暖風的夜
多想要向過去告別 當季節不停更迭 oh~
卻還是少一點堅決 在這寂寞的季節
艷陽高照在那海邊 愛/ 友情盛開的世界
遠遠看著熱鬧一切 oh~ 我記得那狂烈
窗外是快枯黃的葉 感傷在心中有一些 oh~
我瞭解 那些愛過的人 心是如何慢慢在凋謝
多想要向過去告別 當季節不停更迭 oh~
卻還是少一點堅決 在這寂寞的季節
又走過風吹的冷冽 最後一盞燈熄滅
從回憶我慢慢穿越 在這寂寞的季節
還是寂寞的季節 一樣寂寞的季節


今天去了剪髮,剪之前一點擔心都沒有,因為好想好想可以給自己一個清新的形象.
結果很搞笑~ 但我喜歡這搞笑的造型 . 我想要的只是清新的臉孔, 不是假假美美的.
今早我到了運動埸,看到了靈風人,感到很熟悉,很親切,不同的是,
我已經不是那裡的學生,不是坐在看台上的學生,更不是站在旁邊或是巡邏的prefect.
沒有了5D 好像所有突然都變得不對稱. 缺少了什麼似的 .但我看到了tse sir, 感覺是..
又再一次感到熟悉...但昨日的溫馨好像不見了.就是因為缺少5d 的緣故.
我好想念5d的日子...好想好想.

冬天真的來了,我愛的冬天真的來了...
但是, 已經不同了,跟以前,上年...的都變得不一樣. 在這個時候,寂寞又出現了 .
上年這時候心裡本來有個人住著的, 但他在春天時搬遷了.
前一陣子,有個人搬進來,但是一個月後, 他又走了 . 我以為他會是我永遠的客人,
原來我錯了 . 他也許是個過客 . ...現在屋子空著的,也許今年的聖誕我零願一人的過.
我不要任何人了...歡樂的外表, 掩不到心裡的寂靜 .
我不是需要一個人陪我過聖誕, 只是希望心裡屋子的鎖匙是落在某個人手裡,
而不是沈浮大海.
寂寞不是因為沒人陪,而是心裡有失望有失落.

>>November 11, 2003 at 5:29:35 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 9 日 星期日 【微雨】

Today got test, fair...=)

erm,...missing someone is a good thing or bad thing?
forgetting someone is good or bad?
decide to be willful, capricious is good or not?
teens always like that, straight forward...
faithful, hard working, spirited, sunshine .
so,... i start to find who i am.
i getting lost now. but, during the learning, i have to be patient...learning to wait,
to service, to pay. in the dark way, i will turn on the light,
when i cant see the light is already on , god leave it on for me. =)
when lonely, i have to accept .untill i see the glory, splendor.

i may not give up.

turn left turn right...
god bless.
may god bless you till the end.
take good care , ever after i cant stand behind you ,
even as the days before you didnt know me.

with love,
castor.

>>November 10, 2003 at 11:20:11 AM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 8 日 星期六 【暴雨】

today i go church, happy =)
because when i see the childern, i feel really glad, then forget all the unhappy things.
i love to stay with them, play with them, they are very lovely.
and today i go mimi's house to study with her and kammy(kinman)
not very effective, but not bad =)
and i wrote a letter to junming and chris.
just post them the photos and news from me. they're my friends =)
okay la, got to study again, tomorrow got test.
the preparing time for it is less than last time, but the efficiency is higher .
thanks god, and god bless.
wish all the things are going well with them, and you =)

>>November 9, 2003 at 2:49:49 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 7 日 星期五 【暴雨】

For Queenie,

Chris is from hongkong, but now he goes singapore for studying.
i dont know when he'll be exactly back,
but just know...he backs for few weeks during the holidays next year.
so, if i go to see him, that must be the decision of next year, not now.
i'm okay now, quite fine...dont worry=)
but just want to keep moving on my studies...it's too slow.
i will study harder to achieve my dream.
Queenie, you, work hard too! ^^



>>November 8, 2003 at 12:05:43 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 7 日 星期五 【暴雨】

todayis the wedding ceremony of Elaine and Paul.
before we go the ceremony, we have lunch together with other churchgoers,
they 're from our reunion, all girls.
we are so pleased ; we bless , pray for them!
we gave them a nice song dedication for gift~

we take some photos, happy day.

but, it's sorry that cant have dinner with Tingting tonight, i know her birthday is gone,
i ought to go celebrating with her too...but just dont have time to prepare my psy test.
i'm so sorry, we used to have dinner together( 6 girls), but tonight just cant join...
erm,...i will buy her a gift to express my real heart on her, on our friendship.
i know her for a long time ago, we are friend since we're F.1 ,
and we pass through a lot of trials, now still be friend =) very good.
we take photos today. she is pretty, well dressed today =)
haha....and me too ...haha! i do a bit make up.

tomorrow i will go church ,after lunch,
will go mimi's house to study with her and kinman =)
god bless.

last night wuhao, me and chris chated together, they taught about matrix...
but i just seat and watched. i understood and knew what they taught about,
and...now i know how they get along with each other ! haha..boys...yea, boys are like that.

>>November 8, 2003 at 11:55:30 AM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 6 日 星期四 【晴】

today...is friday,
erm,...my econ test fail.
i am not very disappointed, but i know i have to study harder!
today, my classmates told me that they understand me, they will support me
i'm so happy and touch~ they teach me how to handle the rest.
great...but i know they dont satisfy with the chairman, and some of the committees.
but they do support me, of course satisfy with me.
and last night, Kenny called me, do some chatting, tell me his feeling with it....
erm,...i understand his difficults, and also the chairman,Jin 's difficults.
i will support them, and help them.
but, at that moment, i still can say "the event is under control"
so, i am not worried so much, but they do~ heehee.
i know the students in my section are very unite. although they dont join the actitives,
they are clever and mindful of their surounding, they're great !

i know Chris has chinese o'level today, hope it's alright.
and i know he can make it~
may god bless him all the time...no matter the mentation or the state of health,
both of them are very important, and the spirit is my concern too.

next week,....psy test again, and also the grammer exam, very difficult one,
if i fail this exam, it 'll be a big trouble.


>>November 7, 2003 at 12:35:28 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 5 日 星期三 【晴】

今日終於可以用到中文喇~
無呀,su搞到好麻煩,要收拾殘局啦~
今日都真的好累了,make lunch for myself 啦,之後watch dvd,
小睡了一會,再去散步,聊天啦...都幾開心ga,
那在煩擾的生活中可以洗滌一下心靈. 可以真正的休息下,享受生命.
一日的下午已經好夠 =)

erm,... chris明天考試了~ 我剛才也為他禱告呢~他一定會做到的!
su那邊是煩的,但是我知道一定會解決到囉...都是那句:
god bless.


>>November 6, 2003 at 2:51:35 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 5 日 星期三 【晴】

hello,
i am so tired today, from 9:00am - 8:30pm.
and also need to type out the letter tonight.
we got 2 hrs meeting today, to discuss about the fee of su. and the year plan.
tough...
and then i will study again ...because i got 2 tests next week~
tests, exams, tests, exams, untill the end of the term.

and, today i talk with chris again, we still like friends, very good friends =)
nice to hear his voice again..
we talk a lot...haha... i think he is much more happier now~
i am glad to know that =)
he is blessed from god, haha~ and me, and friends=)
anyway, i will pray for him everynight at 10: 30...
if anyone want to join me, it's welcome =) also pray for me la...
thanks for all of you, my friends =) !! i know i will get over it,
and i dont find, but just wait someday....and now, do my own job.

Sorry for Queenie.... you're one of my best friends...i need you stay around me.
and thanks for the friend who leave me message too =), but who're you? haha~

goodnight la....thx for all~!

>>November 5, 2003 at 4:44:49 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 3 日 星期一 【晴】

i have no school today.
i brought a new watch for myself. it's black. i think it's nice.
very tired, sleep a lot , have lunch with my parents outside, nice meal.
erm,...want to study hard, but cant concentrate... ai...i will try my best.
i want to knit a scarf, a very nice, ideal scraf for myself.
i stop drinking milk already, because...just feel sick, after taking this.

in school, students are discussing about the issue
that " shoud give the student union fee or not ".
suppossly i ought to force them to hang over. other two sections students
dont cooperate too, but thier class chairman,....force them,so they must hang over it.
i didnt do that, i think they have freedom to determind for themsleve hang or not.
cant force....
Joey announced to them and just said that dont complaint to her,
just complaint to Jin,the chairman of student union.
i hope we will talk about it tomorrow in meeting, oh my god,
school complain to me, that we should cooperate with other two sections , to join thier
actitives, it's not my fault, no one wants to join them....
students in our section have jobs, very busy after school.
they're not that active, a bit shy, but actually they're nice students.
i dont think there're any problems with the students who dont want to join the actitives
which are boring, expensive but no meaning.
later , they will have basketball match , but the time is during our Psy Class...
is it fair to us ? 4 students of my section will join, but, how to help them take attendance?
i asked them what we could help in the match, they said we dont need to do anything.
okay,....it's so great....

now, we have a student union. 3 sections class chairman be the chairman and vice chairmen
of the student union. i am the one of them.
God Bless.



>>November 4, 2003 at 10:17:58 AM GMT+8