lovely castor has a new name - peach haha..
that name is from my schoolmate , nice, right?!
today i was so tired,....although i take the lesson, i cant concentrate...
i slept in the class, except to take the result back.
my usu result is very fair, i dont really satisfy with this. i will do better next time.
and i know my econ result already!! ^^ it got 55, just pass!!
but i am really happy !! because i study harder and got higher marks =)
although it's not a good mark, but i will keep going!
and i know my psy will be improved too~
because now, i think i will catch up the class and tests also...
just hope next time can do better, better and better...
a little bit better can change a lot already =)
and i also find that, wheather i learn econ, psy or whatever, i can use it out.
what i learn, what i use ! it's the + ve reinforcement ,right?! haha...
god bless~
i but a skirt today, it's very nice i think,...erm,...it's for christmas =)
it's on sale, so desired to get ~!
hum,...actually maybe because of tired, i feel a bit sick today, but i just drink juice,
eat papaya, the desert too . i want to gain more vitamin C than, i will be fine.
=) actually i am much more better now ! so strong man =) heehee~ dont be worried, my friends .
i dont want to lose contact with him, but i dont know if i call him or not.
mising, but let time...
i posted him a part of letter, the other part is still right here, no time, no chances to finish it maybe.
or i just lazy , heavy to wrote, because it's really tough life man, got too much stuff to do lately,
so when i have time and chance, i just go away to rest or "enjoy my shopping work" with them.
anyway, i finish writting it already, tend to post him tomorrow.
god bless , because i really treasure this relationship.
if i dont, i do dont let it broke.
thanks god.
>>November 27, 2003 at 3:29:33 PM GMT+8
2003 年 11 月 25 日 星期二 【晴】
Today went someplace which is full of challenges~
haha...
i like this song:
"The Anthem"
It's a new day
But it all feels old,
It's a good life,
That's what I'm told,
But everything, it all just feels the same...
And my high school
It felt more to me
Like a jail cell,
A penitentiary
My time spent there, it only made me see
That I don't ever wanna be like you
I don't wanna do the things you do
I'm never gonna hear the words you say
And I don't ever wanna,
I don't ever wanna be
You
Don't wanna be just like you
What I'm sayin' is
This is the anthem
Throw all your hands up
You..
Don't wanna be you
"Go to college,
A university
Get a real job"
That's what they said to me
But I could never live the way they want
I'm gonna get by
And just do my time
Out of step while
They all get in line
I'm just a Minor Threat so pay no mind
Do you really wanna be like them?
Do you really wanna be another trend?
Do you wanna be part of that crowd?
Cause I don't ever wanna
I don't ever wanna be
You
Don't wanna be just like you
What I'm sayin' is
This is the anthem
Throw all your hands up
You
Don't wanna be you
Shake it once, that's fine
Shake it twice, that's okay
Shake it three times, you're playing with yourself again
You
Don't wanna be just like you
What I'm sayin' is
This is the anthem
Throw all your hands up
Y'all got to feel me, sing if you're with me
You
Don't wanna be just like you (just like you)
This is the anthem
Throw all your hands up
Y'all got to feel me, sing if you're with me
Another loser anthem (Whoa-oh)
Another loser anthem (Whoa-oh)
Another loser anthem (Whoa-oh)
Another loser anthem...!
by-GOOD CHARLOTTE
>>November 26, 2003 at 3:34:23 PM GMT+8
2003 年 11 月 25 日 星期二 【晴】
today not bad at all...
we take test, before the test , i found that i lost the important tool for my test...
actually i was affraid...but tracy shared hers with me =) thankyou.
anyway, after this, we go take a walk with calais . hum,... it's quite funny,
we three meet on Aug, but easy to be friends. thank god.
i know we are friends =) actually calais and tracy is very funny, they're like very good friends
they always have some interesting story ... haha...always like that =)
i'm glad that we will have no tests next week, happy~! so, work hard start from now is a wise choice.
i miss my old classmates 5D a lot, hope to see them or go out with them in christmas,
maybe we could have a party, huh?
i just meet tracy, nikita ,calais to go out takeing some crazy photos and play in coming weeks.
then i already meet jackie going to the place which i like most,festival walk.
i think we will have a nice afternoon there.
and soma has some jobs to do , i got to practise, it's good for me to do a lot of meaningful things.
haha...playing sometimes can be the meaningful things~ because i lost a lot of time to play in past.
so, ...i will let myself to play more, taking rest and also working hard at the same time,
check and balance well is very important.
no boyfriends, many friends, lot of stuffs, warm family and a really hot heart~
that's great , right? i can take many breaks anytime, so free man.
also no one care about my heart goes on. i think,...i am okay honestly.
it's none of anyone's buniness , i take care of myself, be independent.
god loves me, bless me, that's enough.
needing bf ? dont know . maybe someone dont scare me,
than come. i think i can hurt anyone whose come .
but i calm that " all of these isnt my want totally " i dont even wonder hurt anyone.
anyway, god bless.
i dont think it's the real time for falling now,
because i dont think i will really love that guy,whose appears now.
i said that if you love someone, than you cant accept some more others . That's the point.
i'm not waiting, but i just do my best on works, dont think too much,
dont let myself geting in a hole again. still have chances,
still have time and also want the right one, no more wrongs plx.
hope that i'm right now.... god knows, god will help.
goodnight.
>>November 25, 2003 at 5:00:52 PM GMT+8
2003 年 11 月 24 日 星期一 【晴】
sorry, few days havent came, just cos of the problems here,and i am busy ~haha
actually, during these days, i am quite fine, outgoing man, go and seek something interesting.
love to go watching, anything. erm,..love to stay outside, have some stimulus.
love chating with friends, just very extremely.
few days ago, love to stay at room,listening soft chinese music, but now love to listen some
strong rap songs and also some kinds of english songs.
erm,..just work hard, try to find out some ways ,the better ways for my studies.
then i find that i love to be relex when the day before the test or exam.
actually, i think i know how to prepare myself now, but still got some stuffs have to establish.
anyway, give time...
i still miss my friends a lot, such as 5D, erm,...some people 're not here also and
i admit that i still miss a lot with some people that i dont want to show off here. haha
anyway, it's not for fun . that's real ,serioursly.
in school, things go well, (seems)
so, hope that 'll be coming more comfortable, which i meaning that getting alone with guys.
because now, i can have good relationship wiht my teamates,classmates, and schoolmates also.
but, i dont know shouldnt i to be more fiendly, more close to them, because just hard for me to do so.
it's my difficults that trying to be a part of the centerpieces in them,
i dont even learn how to get others concern.
anyway, i have some closer friends in class , have some good coworkers in teams than okay,
fine....
just hope he's alright...i dont write too much letter for him ; less time and ...
just want to take a break within this long "holiday" he doesnt call me, i dont too...
than let see who will be the first one to call back each other.
i told my friend that, then he laugh?! at me,(sorry, even dont know it's laugh or not)
haha...erm,...dont know, just think
if the everlasting love do will come, you should wait ;it's maybe late ,
you dont need to do anything,
it approachs you free from affectation .
but maybe that guy appeared already, or it's still a guess, riddle.
god bless...
maybe i will find someone to accampany me to walk in christmas day/ night?!
i still thinking of it...
tomorrow got math test. god bless~ haha
got to stop...
goodnight to myself , castor =)
>>November 24, 2003 at 6:13:35 PM GMT+8
2003 年 11 月 18 日 星期二 【陰】
few days ago, i chat with my friend again,
she told a lot to me, i know she concerns for my life, she worries for me.
she told me stop hurting myself, and dont tell her anything about the love anymore.
she feel dissapointed and mad... erm,...when i heard that, i really dont know what to say...
since she 's been my friend, she always take care of me. so, i listen to her always.
i know something bad from her that,...some people think i'm showing off when i told them
i'm in love...at that moment, i feel like ..."is it real?" i trust my friends wont think that way...
but who those people are? i dont want to know, really dont want to know...
my mother is sick, i'm worried for her...very sick...dont know what to do.
the day after, i will have the sec econ test...tough men....
i'm lost...already... ai...how to study???
i always remind myself over is over...all is over.
stop hurting myself and also dont go to hurt others...dont because of the needs to love
another person, but do be honest on myself.
anyway... i dont know ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
i think i will give up.
>>November 19, 2003 at 2:21:50 PM GMT+8
2003 年 11 月 17 日 星期一 【晴】
today . .......bad day ...
anyway, no mood and no time to type them out.
but i'm glad that i wrote a letter to chris.
and su got problems, just fixed. and...unhappy.
i forgot to pray at 10:30 again!!!!! so busy,...always forgot!!!
....>.< !!!!!
>>November 18, 2003 at 2:50:41 PM GMT+8
2003 年 11 月 16 日 星期日 【陰】
today , i got test...
i didnt sleep last night , study over night till 6:30 am morning.
but,...i felt too tired, then still got time, then go have a short sleep.
when i got up~ it's 10:16 am already!!! i got no more time to prepare my test!
i still have one more topic !!! i'm very worried.
then i brush my teeth, dressed up, washing my hair, then go out.
i buy some cookies for lunch, then take lesson(psy) during the lesson, i was studying~
haha!!! i told mr.martin that " you said you didnt take lesson if the lesson is before the test."
now, i take lesson, but dont pay attention always~ haha!!!
he just laughs....
anyway, my psy test got D- ... oh...what a pitty?! i studied harder already...i changed the method
but,...let see next time , i 'll change method again.
the usu test is not good...=( we all havent enough time to finish it.
it's not very difficult, but because of time less . ai....
it's ok, it's past ... i just concern at the sec test of economic on friday.
i cant fail again .... i will finish 13 assignments before friday~ haha...how tough, huh?!
ai...tired, but let the little purple cat accompany with me =)
heehee~ way to go castor~ cant give up actually...
last night i was day dreaming, i was thinking that.....
Feb of 05 i will finish the associate course . then i will know if i can go university or not.
if it's allowed, i have to find universities ,right? okay, if i can stay here(hk) to study,
will i stay? if i cant stay , could i go other places to study in stead?
if the economy not allow me to go, so, how do i do could make my dream comes true?
i want to study in university (over sea) . if i cant go, then what will i do?
if dont got bechleor degree, so, how i can i work in air line company or what will i be?
maybe study some short term course about traveling? then be a tour guide?
erm,...dont know..
i just want to finish my studies with the colour flag and work in the air line company.
i hope so...
exam如何不知道,但是...我看到了大家都是...一般啦...
anyway,如果不合格就麻煩了,可能要retake...我對自己沒什麼信心可言,但應該不會
是最差的吧...最好的距離我有一定的距離,但是我知道我還有時間可以追.
gpa不可以超過3.3,但不能小於2.5, that means, must be in 2.5 < my total gpa score < 3.3
不在這range的話就是說我一就是不能上大學,要不就是不能去其他地方讀書了~
低過2.5 很難有學校收的,但3.3 在香港應該會收的.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
lovely castor has a new name - peach haha..
today not bad at all...
sorry, few days havent came, just cos of the problems here,and i am busy ~haha
few days ago, i chat with my friend again,
today . .......bad day ...
Someone who know