2003 年 12 月 25 日 星期四 【颳風】

返埋今日工就有四日假放啦~~~~
今日原本係公眾假期已經唔太多野做~
加上黎緊放假令我更加有holiday mood~
放工後就連忙回家準備明天露營的事情了~^^

>>January 5, 2004 at 9:00:58 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 24 日 星期三 【微冷】

今天跟瑪姬在公司內傾左好耐~
但話題還是離不開工作~
由於大家現時都處於一個尷尬既職位~
所以比較了解雙方當中遇到的問題~

瑪姬的說話令我反覆問自己是否真的開始介意權力上的問題~
撫心自問自己很多次~還是否決了這假設~
尊重--兩個字~對我來說實在太重要了~
我不會理會職位/權力的高低~
但還是會對身邊既人有一份尊重~
不懂尊重別人~又怎能得到別人的尊重呢~?
我亦曾多次自我反省當時的處理方式是否適當~
當然~係可以做得再好d~
亦因為我覺得做得唔夠好~所以事後我做左d野補救~
事實證明那些補救工作是有效的~
但由始至終我既出發點是出於好意的~當然亦跟自己部門的形象有關啦~
至於及後會唔會再有同樣情況發生... ...真係要睇佢地自己做化了~

放工去左買砌圖比柏朗~
跟住上左佢屋企食飯~
佢好開心啊~多左我地一家人上去同佢玩~^^
食完飯~
同媽咪舅母傾計~
我一向同柏朗媽咪關係不錯~
時不時都會傾下計~
前幾年因為同家人有d問題我都會主動約佢傾計~
想不到今日三個人傾計~竟然會傾到感情事@@
好難想像怎樣跟一個大我十幾年 同大我廿幾年既人傾呢回事~
舅母話佢好似我咁大時已經同柏朗daddy開始拍拖~
拍左四五年就結婚~跟住係約六年後有柏朗~
外人睇表面好似好幸運/幸福的一對吧~
但我深知這十多年對她來說很不簡單....
被兩個長輩盤問左一大輪~
很奇怪媽媽點解會提到某些人既名字~
我很清楚她並不急於我去拍拖~
但今天卻提起我一d男性朋友~
但那些都是陳年舊事吧~何必再提呢~
況且~很多事情佢都只係估估下~
我更不會主動跟她提及我的感情事~
只是佢問~我咪照實答囉~
但我從沒向她透露過兩年前那件事...

回家路上~
忽然想起萬聖節果日小倫係pub問我既那個有關感情的問題~
當時我答佢50/50~
但兩個月後的今天~
我想我的答案已變為70/30了~
時間過得越久~我就越把這些事情看得越淡~
再想到前陣子自己問自己的那個問題~
「我仍到等嗎?」
當時久久不能想出答案~
今天回想時~卻十分肯定的否決了這個問題~
難道「他」回頭~我就會當沒事發生嗎?
不會~! 如果這件事情真的發生~我只會有另一個反面的想法~
所以我十分確定自己不是在等了~

雖然現在的生活有點平淡~但我卻十分知足~
因為我還是幸福的一群人~
有一個完整的家庭~有很多痛錫我既人~夫復何求~?

>>January 8, 2004 at 2:48:41 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 24 日 星期三 【微冷】

一向都好鐘意聖誕節~
尤其係越凍既christmas我越鐘意~(唔知點解越凍好似越溫暖咁c.c)
今個聖誕實在有好多好多野想記下來~

例如：
一d同聖誕無關~但我覺得好聖誕feel既歌*~
(按：情歌都會覺得有聖誕feel 怪小黛:P)

十分難得地我會在家點起蠟燭~
(平時買左都唔捨得點~^^")

收到聖誕禮物既感覺比起生日禮物更加強烈~
(唔知點解,會特別開心~^o^)

包好多份聖誕禮物時會覺得自己似聖誕老人去派禮物
(haha~XD)

仍回味著充滿聖誕氣氛既Love Actually~
(我諗遲d佢出碟時我會買返屋企睇多幾次c.c)

好想好想約朋友出街玩~
(平時我好少出街~但可能因為周圍都充滿住聖誕氣氛既關係~搞到我覺得出街反而好warm~^^)

Anyway~各位朋友們~聖誕快樂啊~^^

--------------------------------------------------------

*
As I walk this land of broken dreams
I have visions of many things
But happiness is just an illusion
Filled with sadness and confusion

What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Maybe

The roots of love grow all around
But for me they come a tumbling down
Every day heartaches grow a little stronger
I can't stand this pain much longer
I walk in shadows searching for light
Cold and alone no comfort in sight
Hoping and praying for someone who cares
Always moving and going nowhere

What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Help me, please

I'm searching though I don't succeed
For someone’s love there's a growing need
All is lost there's no place for beginning
All that's left is an unhappy ending

Now what becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I'll be searching everywhere
Just to find someone to care
I'll be looking every day
I know I'm gonna find a way
Nothings going to stop me now
I'll find a way somehow

What becomes of the broken hearted
Who had love that's now departed
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind, maybe
Oh yeah
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who had love that's now departed
What becomes of the broken hearted
Who had love that's now departed
What becomes of the broken hearted

--------------------------------------------------------

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)

And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

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I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas is
You... yea yea

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
(and I) Don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

Oh I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
(and I) I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You baby

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere (so brightly yea)
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing (oh yea)
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You (You) baby

All I want for Christmas is you baby...

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There is something special
About this time of year
The Christmas feeling's everywhere
I just got home
To join you
I've been away too long
But now I'm back to share my love
Friends are reunited
One big family
Filled with love to last
Throughout the year

CHORUS: Christmas time
Time to share *OUR* love
Come and *JOIN*
The tiding's to the world
Christmas time
The best time of the year
Yes it's Christmas time

You and me together
*A SLEIGH RIDE IN THE PARK*
Loving is straight from the heart
Straight from my heart
Snowflakes falling gently
A smell of chestnuts in the air And
Christmas lights they gleam Across the sky

Do you remember
Everything felt so right
When I held you close to me
Do you remember
Those cold Christmas nights
Where we saw the world in harmony

Christmas time
Time to share our love
Come and *JOIN*
The tiding's to the world
Christmas time
Always the best time

>>December 25, 2003 at 5:33:26 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 24 日 星期三 【微冷】

今日聖誕節嚕~
雖然無返教會祟拜~
但我仍不會忘記聖誕的重要意義~
近來不時問自己點解唔返教會~
但成日諗諗下又諗返公司d野...
搞到暫時都未諗到個答案比自己~
昨晚收到修慧籨外地寄來的聖誕卡~真的十分感動~
看到他署名的一刻~只想到我要感謝天父給我這個弟兄~
雖然好耐無見我呢個老朋友~
好難用語言去表達我地之間深厚既感情~
只是知道我十分著緊這個主內的弟兄~
但願他一切安好~

>>December 25, 2003 at 5:33:17 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 23 日 星期二 【炎熱】

尷尬的一天~
有點後悔自己今天所作的決定....

>>January 20, 2004 at 7:01:10 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 22 日 星期一 【炎熱】

今日放工~
約了艾迪去尖吵咀食飯~
其實話約話約....約左好多個星期了~
連佢九月份既生日禮物都係公司陪左我三個月啦...
拖左咁耐今日終於成事~
約左七點半左右係尖咀地鐵站等~
行下傾下講下~
搵左間餐廳食飯~交換埋禮物~

食完飯~
原本諗住陪佢去買野~
點知行到半路又話唔去喎~
咁就返屋企啦~
收到電話知道佢鐘意份生日禮物且掛起了~我都好開心~^^
但好唔公平地我份禮物要boxing day先可以拆>.<

>>January 20, 2004 at 7:00:00 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 21 日 星期日 【晴】

原本諗住今日可以早放工~
想早d收工去太古城行下~
點知話早話早....都六點先走得~
打比媽媽佢地已經就到~話直接上女麻女麻度~
搭地鐵途中...都係決定自己去行一轉~c.c

上到女麻女麻度~
同堂阿哥兩個仔玩左陣~
食完飯~已經開始眼訓~
趕返屋企仲要沖涼洗頭~
十二點幾先訓得~>.<

>>December 25, 2003 at 3:53:51 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 20 日 星期六 【陰晴不定】

今很不願意的起床~
起床前用了十分鐘考慮上班與否~
因為實在太想睡了~"~
責任 兩個字令我放棄了請假的念頭~
匆匆忙忙趕回公司~

其實星期天我回到公司工作不多~
只是回來睇住佢地做野有冇咩問題~
起碼佢地唔答都會搵到人答嘛~
尤其今早上班既係QQ...
我更加要睇實d啦~
坦白講~
QQ既表現真係令我有點擔心~
今日仲要比我見到佢同隔離department D人好似好熟~
唔係話同事之間關係好係壞事~
但都要識得分時間做野嘛....
我只怕佢地太熟以致工作時樂極忘形咋.......
唯有多D提醒佢...同睇實d佢啦.....
近日完全感受到~要睇住一個department真係唔係易事.....
要顧及既除左大家既表現,工作水準,效率.....仲有好多好多野......

收工後去左荔枝角同琛水步行左轉~
都買唔到自己想買既野~
返屋企去超市買野返屋企~
食完飯..睇左陣電視.....十點都未夠就去左訓嚕~

>>December 24, 2003 at 2:06:45 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 19 日 星期五 【乍雨乍晴】

今早被電話吵醒時已經十一點幾嚕~
但實在太累既關係....我又去訓返~
十二點半~媽媽打電話問我出唔出街~
但狀態很差....不想去得太遠~
然後再去睡.....睡到點半~
媽媽打黎叫我落街食野~
終於起身去酒樓搵位同媽咪妹子飲茶~

食完野已經近四點嚕~
收到電話daddy話今晚唔返黎食飯~
於是陪妹子買完野之後~
就同媽媽去買餸準備今晚打邊壚喇~
但一路行個人都覺有d唔妥...
藥力令自己好眼訓之餘仲wing wing地~
應該唔係唔夠訓呀....琴晚訓左十一個鐘啦喎~@@
返到屋企沖完個熱水涼比較精神一d~

食飯+睇電視~
十一點半就去左訓嚕~
明天還要返朝早八點工呢...

>>December 22, 2003 at 4:48:59 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 18 日 星期四 【乍雨乍晴】

今早起來頭重重~
但公司的product有點問題~
加上今日卡露放假~
我必須要返去睇睇先安心~
可能未訓醒既關係~上到巴士先醒起我無帶d禮物~>.<

整日在公司都處於半昏迷狀態~(藥力關係吧~)
下午替上司測試~
精神好了一點~做完都已經七點嚕~
原本仲諗住返屋企攞野先再出黎~
但時間關係~放棄了~
上司趕著走~我就跟埋d手尾啦~
做到八點先走~跟住就去搵Seiko同阿傑~
等埋小倫叮鈴就上唱k啦~
始終病緊~狀態很差~/~\

十點半左右契哥哥打黎話叫我同佢地係附近打邊壚~
琴晚咪推左佢囉~唔知點解仲打黎~
仲要問東問西~好鬼八卦~"~
其實我一早已經約左Seiko佢地同阿傑搞生日~
所以推左公司唱k團、契哥哥打邊壚團 同 菜菜晚餐團~
唔知點解今個星期五咁旺場~
仲要趁我病先咁旺~如果唔係我走兩三場都無所謂~"~

十一點三左右開始覺得好累同暈暈地~
Seiko佢地間k房又去到成點鐘~
所以諗住自己走先~
就打比阿韋睇下佢地走未啦~
反正係附近~可以一齊搭車返去嘛~

佢地竟然話懶得行去搭93K~
食住西北風咁等佢地....凍死我>.<
等緊巴士時就打埋比艾迪約食飯~
上到車仲要顧住飲醉左既文仔肥~"~
好心佢明知自己唔飲得就咪飲啦~
搞到我病病地仲要顧住佢\"/
終於十二點幾先返到屋企~
沖好涼執好晒野都成點鐘先訓得...
好彩聽日放假~可以好好訓一覺姐~

>>December 21, 2003 at 7:47:25 AM GMT+8