2003 年 4 月 15 日 星期二 【晴】

i am so pleased to have u be my boss... eventually, i understand why u are my boss and hope i can learn all from u.

Stupid little bitch in d minor... wondering.... ic my dad so healthy, really can't believe he has stepped one foot to the heaven... may god bless us having the bravey to face the truth and have happy days in the possible future.

I always like that, hugging Budda's leg only when tragedies come. Suen la......

>>April 16, 2003 at 1:26:05 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 14 日 星期一 【晴】

i am better la... thx to all who concern me... though it's little bit repetitive, but it's true i can feel it.

Unchasable limit 1 billion and assume each new SME customer can open a line of at least 1 M... and u assume me to find 100 new customers in less than 9 months??.... please wake up...
Optimisstically assume 25 working days a month and 225 days left. That means i get to explore 1new client in every 2.25 days. That is 18 hrs!!! I am not a cup noodle. It's not buying 1 "piece of vegetable" for finding a new client.... it's $$$... DO u know what is MI?? i understand finally...

>>April 15, 2003 at 3:26:51 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 12 日 星期六 【晴】

fever, so face is red as if the icon show... God damn it... 2 days la... still goes around 98 - 99... don't frighten me... the consequence can be enormous.

So boring these 2 days... originally can celebrate my 2 frds' birthdays... and enjoy days... anyway, i still can play with my guitar... and hopfully can find my mid term career goal...

(P.S. it's obvious that my paragraph is segmentated and so do my brain and my mind...)

>>April 13, 2003 at 2:30:50 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 11 日 星期五 【晴】

An unlucky day... fever around 99.4 to 100.5... sick leave and can't go to celebrate with u gals and guy... Ada, happy birthday. wish u happy and find ur way.

Hopefully, it's not SARS or i will be down.

>>April 12, 2003 at 8:08:44 AM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 8 日 星期二 【雨】

My dad is getting better, at least up till this moment... we are still joyful and feel good about his progress... God bless us.

I behave like a fallen leaf floating on ripples... wishing heavy rain to come and let me venutre the vast sea and see the different world there... i forget i am a leaf, not a fish. Maybe I can float there for longer hrs and really widen my horizon instead of wiating to erode as low grade humus. Or i become part of a blooming flower eventually if staying at the soil. Tomorrow, who know?? Lack of direction and finding my way out.

2 gal to thx here... B & D... they help me in different areas... thx for their friendship at present or in the past. Helping me to know that i am not helpless.... ai.... and also Q & F... they show me that i have friends in the virtual world as well as the real living environment~~ i feel quite warm now.

Btw, i know that some frds of mine really concern me, but lack of perceived correct way to convey this. I can feel that. Thx to them all.... 要說一句：誰待我好，我都知道。

>>April 12, 2003 at 8:13:31 AM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 5 日 星期六 【晴】

我心已死
我早應該習慣，原本是沒有希冀。
To hug someone, to kiss someone; the best is yet to come.
看看我有多麼亢奮，看看我最終得到了全場大獎，全憑無人著緊。
悲觀的我，基因欠缺什麼；總不如人，我的心跌破。

原本要做到抽離，對我來說，是這樣困難的。

>>April 6, 2003 at 2:51:03 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 4 日 星期五 【晴】

am i too self-oriented?? am i a ppl who are unprepared to take care of others??

i am not really eager to see one wither. As HE always try hard and never giveup... i see his pros only in this situation. So unwilling to see this, but i am that kind of person. Only treasure things when things tend to out of my control or it does lose from my pocket.

>>April 5, 2003 at 1:48:11 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 2 日 星期三 【晴】

family cries so much... but to me, i have prepared for the worst... it's stage 3 not 4... still hopeful, right?

we need luck.

>>April 3, 2003 at 3:34:38 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 1 日 星期二 【雨】

Calm... cool down... i don't want it seriouly influences my work performance.

>>April 2, 2003 at 12:59:27 PM GMT+8

2003 年 3 月 31 日 星期一 【雨】

All past bad news will be sunk news... it doens't has any bad effects on my family... all futre results other than the worst will make our mind rebound and cheer up.

That's my wish.

>>April 2, 2003 at 12:57:27 PM GMT+8