2006 年 1 月 21 日 星期六 【晴】

最近，心情怪怪的。

我既喜歡這種感覺，但又不喜歡有這種感覺‥‥‥

我曾答應過自己，答應過別人，我不能違背諾言。

也許，我不應想得太多；也許，我不應太在意；

也許，我應擺脫道德束縛；也許，我應聽從心裡的聲音‥‥‥



別想太多吧‥‥‥開心就可以了。

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夜晚出左去ｔｓｔ～發生左件令我幾開心既事！
但我唔想係呢度講出黎，費事果ｄ無聊狗又響度亂吠
想知咩事就去我「神秘」的地方睇喇！哈哈！

呢排勁多人生日，揀禮物揀到好頭痛！

原來，我仲係放唔低‥‥‥
唉～不要再回望過去，如果唔係只會一事無成。



打機會令人開心ｄ

>>January 22, 2006 at 5:52:51 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 20 日 星期五 【晴】

Elam, I miss you so badly.....



ppl dun know why I love this dish so much...haha...I hate chinese food...but not this one....

A special reason behind ^^

>>January 20, 2006 at 9:46:42 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】



I've made something for myself to eat ^^ can you guess what it is?

When I am viewing my messy file, I find 2 pics, which I should have uploaded them during Xmas
but I am way too busy.....>.<



This is a gift from my younger brother ~



This is my dad's fd gift!!

>>January 20, 2006 at 2:24:41 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 18 日 星期三 【晴】

Hong Ting accompanied w/ me walking back home....

haha, we made a guess that Kash has taken the same plane as Elam.....

>>January 18, 2006 at 2:51:20 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 17 日 星期二 【晴】

大名： *o_O||
電郵： [email protected]
說： 我 知 你 帶 freshlook丫..

但 freshlook 再 3 個 系 列 既 color con 的..


so 問 你 fl個 字 係 邊 系 列 出現..

我 個 你 比 我 個 店 帶 左 3 隻 色..

帶 左 2 隻 色 了..

問 題 係 冇 咩 既..

但 冇 以 前 係 眼 鏡 88 配 個 d 咁 舒 服 咁...

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如果我冇記錯，應該係第２個系列。果個系列應該係好日本ｆｅｅｌ既ｄ顏色名（something like 楓之戀）
你係眼鏡 88 配既係透明 cons or color cons? 透明 cons 一定舒服過 colors 嫁...呢樣冇得傾嫁喇 >...< 因為透氣度點都低 d ! 所以我平時唔會戴 colors嫁 !
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大名： beams boy
電郵： [email protected]
說： 我都好中意kyle...點知比人out 左...T^T

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冇計喇....可能 d judges 覺得佢係短期內都進步唔到，所以 eliminate左佢 >.<
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大名： 藍雪糕^________^
電郵： [email protected]
說： 你喺private i 電負離子幾$$$ar?
咁你電咗幾耐ar???你平時剪頭髮又係咪喺果度剪ar??
天氣好凍哩~＊你朝早起身返學係咪好辛苦???洗唔洗好早起身架??
Take Care Lalala~

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電負離子幾錢就唔記得 la 因為唔係我俾 >..<我估大概1000~1300 到喇加埋 tips 可能 1500
我 3 月中電嫁 ~ 我平時剪頭髮就唔係果度....剪頭髮去邊間冇 fix 死 ge.....
要早起身嫁.....最遲 7 點就要起身.....7 點9 就要出門口...我咪成日遲到 law >.<

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大名： 游牧人
電郵： [email protected]
說： 想賣醉,你又不找我..
想傾許,你還是不找我..
看來..你好像已忘記我了..
唉....

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傻喇我邊有唔記得你唷 ! 只係我真係可以出得夜街去 pub 我晨早就 call 左你喇.....

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大名： Irene
電郵： [email protected]
說： 緊係唔會悶啦...傻既~"

其實你阿爸阿媽都好想你讀書...
但係,,咁樣咪好大壓力囉??

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壓力點都有嫁喇....some comes from parents , some comes from my peers,
some comes from myself ( both expectations as well as my past academic results )
and also, the society.....is giving me a lot of pressure >..<
我知我父母都係想我有個 bright future 姐...所以我冇怪過佢地......幾多壓力都好...只可以默默承受。
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大名： beams boy
電郵： [email protected]
說： 我都想整個臍環牙...不唔知咩情形下先會露到出黎呢-3-

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um.....swimming w/ bikini.....super low cut jeans ....
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大名： Ecilla
電郵： [email protected]
說： there~ everything is good la!
love yourself for him~~
i don reali love myself too...
i can tell, ur better than me~
^^ be happy la~

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I have already given up myself...I dun love myself..I hate....I hate myself deeply....!
I can't find a reason to apperciate myself
I dun wanna live for anyone.....but I dun think that I should live for myself...either

in which aspect do you think I am better than you?
you should find out your edges over me ! you must have a long list of things that are better than me!
belive me ~ ^^
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大名： 12345
電郵： [email protected]
說： 你由以前唔化妝到而家個妝好濃~
都係純d好d

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well, I do agree w/ you. Make up is something addictive....once your started it, you can't get rid of it easily.
I have my own reason.....that I can't be shop w/o make up...but the reason is better to be kept secret.
If I could , I would like to have less make up or even nude face....

but then, 我比較鐘意自己有少少妖豔果個 look 多過清純既 look....personal 既感覺姐.....不過我知道好多人prefer我清純 d young d 既樣.....but I dun wanna 100% follow other's opinion...
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大名： beams boy
電郵： [email protected]
說： 你咪話你wear freshlook 既color cons 既...可唔可以講係wear for 幾多weeks or months...thanks!
仲有呢...你o個隻叫做乜野color牙..?除左你用緊呢個color 之外...仲有冇其他brown color ?
im sorry i ask u so many thgs -3-

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我依家用開果種係for 2 weeks既 ! 我啡色果對好似叫做「楓之戀」藍色果對好似係「海藍寶」or「寶石藍」我新買左對 green 不過未開...果對個色係「檻欖綠」
除左我呢隻啡之外，好似仲有另一款嫁......不過呢隻係啡得黎偏黃少少，另外我冇用過果款就好似好自然的啡...因為我本身對眼有少少啡，除非有閃光燈，如果唔係戴 d 太自然既 cons 會唔覺眼
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大名： 324234
電郵： [email protected]
說： 好心啦... 你咁細個有性病... 唔去再去野人啦.

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you're kinda funny.....你無證無據就唔好亂講野 la....我唔覺得會有人信你囉。我係有病，我係要長期食藥，我唔肯講我咩野病係因為我唔想影響我 modeling 既career....其實並唔係 d 唔講得出口既病。我既 close fd 都知道係咩野事.....如果你再咁無聊的話，我唔會再作出回應以及立即 delete 你的留言，請自重。respect yourself and respect others !
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Wilson phoned me today. Finally, I can listen to his vioce for a few minutes.

It has been a long time since the last time he sang to me.

I could not hold back me tears when I was listening.

I have been crying everyday since last Fri, for different sort of reasons....

I breath heavily to keep myself calm, being able to sleep, also, relase some pressure out of my chest.

Many things that I wanna share w/ him, but I dun have chance.....

>>January 17, 2006 at 7:04:45 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 16 日 星期一 【晴】

我唔想講亦都唔想聽

suddenly, I discover that I can never get into the "top class"

I feel so ashame to go clubbin' with those ' ABC '

I am a ordinary chinese gal.....who knows very very limited English...

Guys may be wondering why I am typing my diary in Eng these few days,

it is just becox of my fuckin' computer problem, I can only type chinese in MSN , icq and word.

I think the IE has some hidden bug >..< but I dun know how to fix it.

I want myself to be able to squeeze into the first class, being smart and well-educated.

however, what I am doin' in the past few years seemed to be totally opposing what I want.

I keep contradicting myself.......

On the matter of relationship, I dun know what I should do.

Me and Wilson may be happier if WE can get through all these obsticals,

I'm tryin' my every best to see thing in LONGTERM, however, I am not that kind of person.

I know that I will not success and go anywhere if I dun change.

but I really DUN WANNA CHANGE ! who understands me?



Wilson is really go at drawing.....the red flower is as pretty as a commercial logo !

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somebody reminds me...
oh yeah, I miss the innocent girl who called cindy in the past.









>>January 17, 2006 at 12:51:18 AM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 15 日 星期日 【晴】

I dun know why I am crying....all the day.

Just a very little thing, can make me non-stop crying.

Baby, I need you so much, can you stand by me and hug me tight?

I am so weak that I can't be alone....I need you , need your love



>>January 16, 2006 at 3:22:42 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 14 日 星期六 【晴】

E lam left HK today....

Many words wanna say but.....dun know how to express.

Photo has been uploaded and posted on another website,

cox I know Elam dun like me to post it here.

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Polo finaly reduction. I discovered it when I was wandering around in Festival walk.

I planned to buy presents for all 18-year-old gals ^^ I did buy some " meaningful" thing ~

actually, I found out that I love casual clothes instead of fashionable clothes.

Well, I think I am not suitable to be a model >..<

I am learning to enjoy shopping on my own.....sometimes I will be upset that nobody shops with me,

but I should try to apperciate the freedom when I am alone.

I have a nice chat w/ the sales,well, if you have money, you can "purchash" happiness....for a second or 2

Sales will be very kind to you and "very willing " to talk to you especially when you go there alone.

That's why I love shopping, at least, somebody will treat me good even I know they're all vian.



I love these sporty pants ! They are so comfortable !





This pic was taken 1 or 2 months ago >..<



>>January 16, 2006 at 8:21:10 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 13 日 星期五 【晴】

仍要忙報學校的事宜‥‥‥

星期１要考試了，我好像仍沒有察覺到原來只剩下２天。



>>January 16, 2006 at 3:21:08 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 12 日 星期四 【晴】

I am good for nothing

I've already lost all self-considence....

I dun love myself, I dun beleive in myself......

I do not worth others love and care.

神不守舍

忽然之間，我覺得其實ｇａｙ既男仔都唔係咁難接受嫁姐‥‥‥

或者因為我見果對「ｃｏｕｐｌｅ」２個都幾靚仔，

所以我反而覺得冇咩野。哈哈～唔知有冇ｌｅｓ既女仔鐘意我呢？

也許，我拍拖有點本未倒置，我係因為對方願意照顧我，俾到我想要既野，而愛對方；

也許，正正是這一點，使我每一段感情也是曇花一現的煙火。




多謝匡婷同埋佢隻狗（啊叻）陪我夜媽媽落街散步．．．


原來不停咁樣喊幾個鐘係好累既一件事
　　　　　竭斯底里咁嗌亦都好累

一小時散步就好像走了幾千公里
　　　　回到家洗澡後　頭痛欲裂　連吹頭的力氣也沒有

很想倒頭便睡　什麼也不用想　但可以嗎？
　　　　　腦電波為什麼不肯停頓片刻呢？

>>January 13, 2006 at 8:49:03 AM GMT+8