For reading & Meditation - 1 John 4:17-18
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear..." (v.18)
Do you have a problem with fear? Then here John gives you the remedy- perfect love.
Someone asked the dean of a girls' college: "What is the chief problem of these girls?"
And the dean replied: "Fear."
The visitor was surprised, and asked the dean to comment further on the situation.
"These poor things are afraid of so much," she said.
"Afraid of failure, afraid of what others think of them, afraid of the future - just afraid.
They seldom show it because they have pushed their fears into their subconscious, and there they fester.
These subconscious fears create a climate of anxiety.
The girls scarcely know why they are afraid, but they are basically afraid."
You may well identify with some of the remarks made by the dean,
and say to yourself: "That is exactly how I feel - basically afraid."
The root cause of fear is an absence of love. When Adam, because if sin,
became separated from God and the awareness of His love,
the first thing he said was this: "I was afraid" (Gen. 3:10).
When love flows out, fear flows in.
I assure you that if, at this moment,
you had a vivd awareness of how much God loved you,
every fear troubling you would vanish.
And why?
Because once your personality detects the presence of its Creator,
then it responds to it with faith and not with fear.
So you can see,
the answer to your problem if fear lies not in self-centred efforts to conquer it but in concentrating on the fact that God loves you,
and has control of all the situation and circumstances of your life.
The more you focus on that fact, the more His love will flow in, and the more fear will flow out.
We are never afraid of those who love us.
"A thing of beauty is a joy forever. Its loveliness increases. It will never pass into nothingness."
"I almost wish we were butterflies, and lived but three summer days. Three such days with you I could fill with more delight than fifty common years could ever contain."
I am on vacation now until March 2010.
well...what I wanna do in this holiday ARE:
GO dancing ballet if I could get a stable job
GO visiting free galleries
GO playing guitar continually
GO reading my first English novel continually
GO painting/photographing continually
GO visiting cinema on every Mondays before 4pm with discount ticket. XD
GO rehearsing of VBS drama (for Kids in church) on every Tue and Thu nights, and be on stage during 11-15/1/2010
The last but not the least, Meiling is going to visit me on Jan 2010. YEAH! XD
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I feel too crazy of myself recently. Go playing all the time.
I have been living in Melbourne just more than a year.
Everything seemed changed after a year.
my feeling to my family, lover, friends.... seemed changed.
And I discovered myself more and more.
And i knew what should I do in Him.
thanks to God for giving me lots of difficulties so that I could understand myself more.
>>2009年11月27日 Fri 11:24:46 (GMT+8)
2009 年 10 月 18 日 星期日 【晴】
I am just feeling better and busy on my essay of "Body in movement".
I feel more relax in writing this time. =)
AND Euling (new housemate) has came since this friday, and I am now sleeping in living room. haha...
She feels good in church and quite gets along with us. =) According to Euling, we are both crazy!!! wakakaka
Its so good! thanks God!
And I got the job on Nov already, it is a high-paid job! Thanks God for giving me such a nice job!
Thanks Our Holy Father, thanks for everything!
>>2009年10月18日 Sun 16:19:57 (GMT+8)
2009 年 10 月 5 日 星期一 【晴】
I just feel passionate of leading worship in church last sat. thanks God!
I just feel happy about Sat's BBQ night!
I just felt ironic of my HK mobile.
I just felt that my life has just began here after the ending of mobile.
I have to live by myself quietly. This probably is a good thing to me.
I just finished my presentation of Missing Person in art history class today which was good!
I just finished my part time job today. My boss always asks why do I have to work, I am pretty, just find someone and get married... repeated and repeated.... Can you shout your mouth up...
I just felt very tired after the short trip of Philip Island. Keep talking to someone... really tired.
I just borrowed some DVDs from city library. Just need some noise.
I just received 2-call tonight, and the IDD connection was too bad to talk.
One is relax and funny...
One is heavy and blameful... I was missing you... but...
Can I just be myself?
I am just i am, small and fragile.
>>2009年10月06日 Tue 17:38:28 (GMT+8)
2009 年 9 月 21 日 星期一 【晴】
"may 呀，別勉強自己學習別人那一套相處方式啦，這很辛苦，也不值得。上帝不會因為你不 active 而怎麼樣的，愛的方式有很多種，用你自己所喜歡的方式就好。畢竟我們都是人，各方面都有極限的。總有些人擔當主動的角式，也有些人擔當被動的。也許你會很想不斷地主動服事別人，但也得留著別人服事你的空間呀。
thanks P for your caring. I am pretty sure that I didn't copy other's style to serve.
This is what May used to doing in the past to present.
when my energy is low, I start thinking negatively and get lost.
But I feel always positive when I am in power that God has given.
I felt very good last sunday after running with a lovely sun.
And I found Bessie to have dinner together and chat a lot.
Don't worry about me. I am learning to take care of my own feeling step by step.
And I know that God appreciates me being active to others.
thank you so much!
>>2009年09月21日 Mon 21:31:33 (GMT+8)
2009 年 9 月 19 日 星期六 【晴】
Long time no write here. Of course I keep writing my hand-writing diary as well.
But I am forgetting some chinese words step by step. =P
I woke up very early today morning. And its time to review my life again.
This is now semester 2 in Uni of 2nd year. My artworks are going well.
And in the same time, I am working in sushi bar to support my living.
I met some other people besides Uni and church.
"Simple" is what I am used to describe my life here.
Thomas went back to HK on monday, he is my closed friend here.
He is an ACTIVE, sporty and love playing guitar and singing brother.
We met in church last Christmas. I didn't go to airport with him coz I don't wanna cry in front of other.
The day after his leaving, I just feel like living in a silence world. He has always called me and found me in my studio.
Bringing me food and soup sometimes. Sharing his things and feeling of his daily life. Riding bike and running with me.
I learnt a lot from him. Learn how to express myself, telling others my weaknesses, and sadness. Coz he does.
And I reckoned why we could become closed friends. Coz he is ACTIVE.
I could say I am not an active person in inner heart. Actually I feel tired to be active to other always.
Could other be active to me sometimes? find me, call me?
Sometimes, I just wanna take care of myself and ignore everything. Its easy to be said than done.
But of course I know God do not allow me to do so.
He hopes I could be active and passionate to other, so that they may see our good deeds and praise our father in heaven.
I am willing to do so. Aman!
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