2003 年 12 月 20 日 星期六 【乍暖還寒】

hate going back home....................

>>December 21, 2003 at 7:11:43 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 19 日 星期五 【乍雨乍晴】

估唔到一起身已經係兩點....死! 趕唔切!~立刻以最快速度出門口...我都覺得奇怪, 點解我個電話唔響...原來我昨晚沖涼時放左響樓下.....唉......
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平時星期六都係去飲茶, 以為佢地會叫我起身....點知....佢地已經當我唔存在好耐lu!....仲要我夜晚回家, 佢地成家人出晒去食飯, 冇諗住理我!! 算啦! 都唔係第一次, 我根本響任何人心目中都係冇地位....認命....一個人在家幾好, 唔洗睇人地面色....做乜都得!
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不過, 我唔甘心, 點解我咁乞你地憎? 我搵唔到工我想o架? 講真, 我都好擔心我的將來!!! 況且,我冇問你地扲錢好耐啦!...我冇錢洗都唔出聲啦!!! 由細到大我做乜都係錯, 成日被責備...
I can't get any warmth from anywhere....sad
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甚麼都失敗的我, 不知該如何面對, 很想放棄.....好冇用......* * *
電話響起, 程程(我的"女兒")打來.....thanks! 另外, 仲有我表妹bel, ths!

>>December 20, 2003 at 6:25:56 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 18 日 星期四 【陰】

唉, 好煩呀!!!
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突然間好想約D好耐冇見的人出來見o下面,傾o下計...... 唔知點解....可能feel到自己時日冇多掛!~

>>December 20, 2003 at 5:37:03 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 16 日 星期二 【乍雨乍晴】

唉, 我估唔到會有人無端端打來話我! 啍!~ 咪咁幼稚啦! 仲有, 你未攪清楚就鬧我實在太魯莽啦! 如果你一開始平心靜氣同我講, 我都會講比你聽係咩一回事, 但係你實在太冇禮貌! 同埋你咁做只會令佢更不滿你! 你淨係識怪人, 你有冇諗過其實你自己有冇問題呢?....雖然, 可能佢都有不對....
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唉! 難道我真的不能夠有一樣東西順利嗎? 學業, 事業, 親情, 友情, 愛情......甚麼都失意....一敗塗地! 我都知道幸福我沒資格擁有.....

>>December 18, 2003 at 7:56:34 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 15 日 星期一 【微冷】

今早個手提就響, 好多人搵我咁~ 不過咁又點...................但我都開心有咁多人打比我! thanks
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I really want to know why everything are going mess........
Why everyone/everything have to blame on me? what have I done wrong?
Why things are going on like this?.........
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God, I feel so lonely, nobody understand me.....everyone hate me.....
what can I do to help this? please tell me......
I want to die......but I am not brave enough to do so....I am useless

>>December 20, 2003 at 6:27:48 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 14 日 星期日 【颳風】

今天, 好像是什麼也順利咁!...哈!~十二月十五果然是特別日子!~美中不足的只是我還是一個人.
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●呀Lu, 生日快樂●

>>December 17, 2003 at 6:19:31 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 13 日 星期六 【乍暖還寒】

One Year Anniversary!~
Today is really a special day, a little surprise that he said "Let's go to somewhere sit down and
have a little gathering!~" and the idea of going to Ocean Park is really funny....what is he thinking??
go to ocean park in around four o'clock!? I think he must be missing ocean park so much....
long time haven't been there?! After that we went to KFC sat down, start to plan our "X'mas" meeting....
You know, I really enjoy sitting with friends and have a nice chat!~ Hope all of us will be friendly...!~
Today went to Shatin, Edwin and Timmy both in the same place!~ woo
Thanks god~!!! Today I am happy.

>>December 15, 2003 at 4:17:03 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 12 日 星期五 【颳風】

時間關係, 打英文
Morning go to drink tea in KT, then I went to hollywood Plaza... and then go to WTS buy something.
Also a friend come and meet me to see where to go ........she want to go to Cheun Wan or Shatin,
but I really don't want to go, because it is too far away and the sky is dark, I want to go home to
whatch Tung Wha. Moreover, I don't have much money!!!......on the other hand, she seem a bit
angry with me when I said I don't want to go.....at the end, I go with her........

>>December 15, 2003 at 3:44:52 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 8 日 星期一 【陰】

有時好唔明點解會咁...好多時都覺得自己好冇用......尤其是一到深晚我就會勁諗野...好耐冇試過哭到控制不了.......好辛苦....越諗越喊, 越喊越諗...
好多野都不是我所選擇的....樣樣野都不如意....全部失意....
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我真係唔知我的決定是對或錯.....我好害怕.....

>>December 10, 2003 at 5:00:37 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 7 日 星期日 【陰】

出去新蒲崗勞工處搵工...
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夜晚去飲, 好早到...因為hollywood好近新蒲崗........好悶...去精品店行, 又比我見到兔仔精品, 上次在旺角冇買到......今次唔單只有相架,電話座, 仲有memo座, 卡片座.......但係我都係冇買....一來冇錢, 二來未有工返又唔想買野咁...........唉!.........
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程程都有去, :) 佢早走, 走的時候仲比左盒朱古力我...唔知點解.....好開心...佢咁有我心......
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盒朱古力好好味呀!~ 吃在口,甜在心~

>>December 9, 2003 at 3:00:11 PM GMT+8