2004 年 2 月 26 日 星期四 【陰】

有時會諗係咪做人自私D會好D? 由細到大都以為你對人好, 人地就會對你好.....但係......
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>>February 28, 2004 at 8:47:52 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

I don't know why whatever I did, whatever I decided is wrong? when I was still young
you decided all the thing for me. Why I have to be that obedient? If you don't force
me to do anything, let me decied, set me free , I think won't be like this! What the point
is I am always the one to be blame!
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You know what? I often find that living is meaningless, within this 20 years I am not
happy at all, because I don't know the feeling of being loved. When I was a child, you
gave me big pressure on study, everyday I have to fear that you will hit me. When I
was F1, I was very happy in that school, however you want me to go abroad,
very lonely. And something happen when I was there, it made me more and more
unwilling to stay! Back to HK, I have to go to a gril's school again.....you always choose
for me......which I hate all those! Even now you still want to control me! NEVER!
Why your son can be so freedom? He is very very very naughty, impolite....
but to you, he is always a good boy! Moreover, all your nasty words only said to me!
I don't understand!
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God! Thank you for listening to me whenever I am unhapppy, please help me.
What can I do? What I want is being love...from family, friends, valentine....
so that I don't have to be alone. But may I know what have I done?
How can I stop living like this?....

>>February 28, 2004 at 9:29:17 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 18 日 星期三 【晴】

I haven't write my dairy in these days, because nothing happy to write.... everyday just the same; live on my own.

>>February 21, 2004 at 8:59:45 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 14 日 星期六 【晴】

我唔識整網頁...整了一半又唔知點整....好難, 又冇人教到我.....

>>February 18, 2004 at 3:58:37 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 13 日 星期五 【陰】

雙失情人節
作曲/監製/編曲：伍樂城@RNLS 詞：黃偉文

C:這一位 扮繁忙 未說過 二月裡 這一天 預備抽空見我
但我喜歡等 不管最後如何 早清楚他當我什麼
G:這一位 早已經 預約我 我奉勸 他歸家 等結果
若我這一天 竟然 和他一起過 亦是 坎坷
* C:今晚我愛的人 在散心 可惜我太不幸 沒有份 而他此際可能和情人擁吻
T:人在慶節我卻箭穿心
G:偏偏愛我的人沒有等 彷彿那個丘比特是有心 何解我約的人 突然全部都躲開我
T:搾不出一滴吻
C: 這一位 不理啋 但我愛 就像我喜歡他 是為他不理我 受過我幾多苦
始終滿面詳和 這苦心 改變過 什麼
G: 這一位不夠好 但愛我 我耐性 比起他 怎算多
若覺 得孤單 走回頭等他親我
T: 份外 淒楚
REPEAT *
C:何解他要等 等不到我 G: 而他不等我 又在苦等
T: 今晚我愛的人 在散心 可惜我太不幸 沒有份
如果佳節不能 和情人擁吻 情願這晚快過快熄燈
G: 偏偏愛我的人 沒有等
C: 彷佛那個邱比特 是有心
T: 人揀我 我揀人 突然全部都不揀我 讓今晚 隔外暗

>>February 23, 2004 at 4:38:58 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 10 日 星期二 【晴】

so sad ..... keep on interview and no reply..... feeling myself so useless, I hate myself !
And I really hate going "home", she always using those nasty words to shout me, with
annoying tone....non-stop!!! HElP! I really can't bear it, wanna die! What I can do is to turn
on loud music to cover the voice .......
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what can I do?? why no one like me? what have I done wrong!!????? please tell me!
living is hard.....

>>February 11, 2004 at 5:42:40 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 6 日 星期五 【雨】

到底幾時先有好工請我? 為何樣樣都不順利??? :(
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唉, 好辛苦.........

>>February 7, 2004 at 4:56:11 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 30 日 星期五 【陰】

又被"家人"遺棄.....佢地走去飲茶, 叫都唔叫我, 難道我真的那麼乞你地憎?.....唉!.....
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夜晚去春茗...再一次發覺...世界真細小...小...小......妙就真奇妙...妙...妙....
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唉~ 冇抽獎運...好想有部數碼相機......可惜, 不勞而獲唔會有我份! 就算勞都未必獲.....

>>February 1, 2004 at 6:30:06 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 28 日 星期三 【陰】

記得"衝上雲霄" Zoe同呀Sam在停機坪那一幕嗎? Zoe話如果數三聲, 有飛機在頭頂飛過就嫁比佢...我睇的時候都好唔信真係咁O岩........
今日我都係作了一個類似這樣的賭注,關乎生死的....結果...連個天都要我留下來! 那一該真的覺得好magic...估唔到現實係可能的.....像是渺茫.....
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>>January 30, 2004 at 4:02:14 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 21 日 星期三 【晴】

年初一, 去行大運...
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I used to love it so much, but now I don't really, because those people always ask me
some annoying question and that wasn't funny! I didn't take much photo and no chance to ........
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feel bored, just sitting there alone doing nothing........I hate to be isolate, therefore I decided to
go home! I rather stay at home alone better than facing all the relative......I don't know why, but
just feeling so unhappy....

>>January 25, 2004 at 7:25:38 PM GMT+8