2003 年 12 月 2 日 星期二 【晴】

今日本來無話返cu,點知有d書一定要還,一定要返去啦~ 搵左wellcome食飯, 之後gaia同nina都一齊食, 上222做野, 龜ling,呀暉,芷銘,蝦仔,brian都o係度,大家都努力做野~
尋晚發左個好奇怪既夢, 個內容無謂講啦, 不過同我今日發生既事都ok match… 其實係阿暉問我有關methodology既野, 我成日覺得呀暉好勁, 有d高不可攀之感, 但係佢有時有事都會問下我既, 上次同今次都係, 我唔係話想認叻, 只係想講好多時人有優點與短處, 你睇既往往只係片面, 有時企o係第二個角度成個世界又唔同左, 唔好成日企死一個立場睇一件事, 對自己同其他人都會好d
我想帶出既係我今晚發生既事: peter每晚都好晏先返222做野, 可能因為o個時少d人, 可以專心d做野啦~ (我都好鍾意咁㗎) 今晚連威仔都走埋, 得我同peter, 我本來想早d走, 佐係未做好返到屋企又唔願做(see what I’m doing man!)十二點係我畀自己既時限, 再唔走無火車啦! 心諗: 咁夜等埋peter一齊走啦, 重申我唔係驚我自己有事, 我對自己既速度同力量好有信心, 不過我唔係好放心peter, 好驚佢有d咩意外… 其他同學對佢仍然有d唔好既feeling, 我對佢好似對其他人一樣, 重點係”一樣”! 呢個世界無平等, 所以我唔追求平等, 只要求自己對人好d, 邊個知聽日會點? 我同佢講既野同阿暉講o個d一樣, 因為我希望每個人對每個人都係咁 *世界和平yeah*, of corrs無可能啦~ 只少我盡力做就ok啦~
又sidetracking… 一路落到許讓成分叉路, 我sense到佢唔係想搭火車, 不過循例問下, 佢話搭巴士, 咁ok呀~我轉落火車站… 臨分別佢問”你自己落去怕唔怕呀?” 我真係好開心, 因為peter都係個considerate既人, 有gentleman風度(我唔認為一定要男仔先要有), 雖然唔會expect佢送我去火車站, 但我appreciate佢呢一句話, even係行貨我都覺得係好, 何況我相信佢係出自真心? 所以邊個話peter點點點唔該先睇下自己有無真心咁幫人地諗吓!
多謝boot~我一路行返屋企一路同我傾電話~ 仲有wellcome o係我臨走前既”祝福語”和goodbye kiss! 哈哈~wellcome你跟得我多果然巴口都有d油呀~^^有前途呀! Mike, 聽晚一定要隊酒~當慶祝我補考tour escort成功!! 3 countries no double!!

>>December 3, 2003 at 7:19:23 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 1 日 星期一 【晴】

超開心~~~~ 你知唔知頭先邊個打電話畀我呀~~~ QQ呀~~~ 好好好好好好好happy!!! 佢一開始就話收到我既信, "一睇信封就知道係你啦~" ^0^ 我話我尋日先寄,咁快收到??? 佢話未開都知係我, 就拎埋返工睇!!! 有一個咁重視我既人我真係愛佢一世! 我同自己講, 聖誕生日都唔可以miss, 唔送野畀佢, 自從中六開始每聖誕情人節生日我都會寄野, 最記得中六我話情人節無買chocolate畀佢(其實有既)佢撒我嬌~ 之後我每年都有送啦! 我地係Andes朱古力既fans, 因為初中o個時好興逄節日都派野食, vday都唔例外, 我同佢成日放左學都要去supermarket格價, o個隻choco又平又多, 係我地既至愛, 變相andes係我同佢特有既brand, 好有記念價值. (估唔到呀培都對呢個brand有深一層意義)

又離曬題... 我話左佢知我三月會影畢業相, 佢話一定要早d book佢~ haha! 我唔可以唔同佢影啦! 講真, 成長到今日既我, 佢既功勞最大, 我咁tough都係佢一手做成(有聽過故事既人都知...無就問我啦吓) 超級感謝佢, 我咁有gentleman風度, 識照顧人, 成日"笑"等等... 都係有意無意o係佢身上學返來, 無左佢, 我既中學生涯一定唔會有咁多美好回憶(雖然同佢都有好多唔好既, 但宜家睇返都唔算得d咩) 宜家我地都無時間成日見成日傾電話, 但有咩事都會想起對方, 我真係好鍾意佢講o個句野 "朋友係一世唔會分開", 果然我地唔做得成情侶係絕對明智!!! 因為我一d都唔可以承受同佢反面既日子... 即使你有你既愛人同工作, 我有我既學業和其他野, 時間同空間唔係問題, 因為佢認識既我係最原始既立體, 畀時間裝飾左既我佢都好容易理解, 我諗我認識既佢都係好接近真實~N~ ^^

時光唔可以倒流, 我亦唔會再有時間好似以前咁同佢四圍去, 不過我堅信同佢既感情唔會因為少見面轉淡... 計下我地識左9年啦~~~ 人生有幾多個九年?!?!

>>December 2, 2003 at 9:00:33 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 1 日 星期一 【晴】

One fine day with sunshine and cool weather, but I'm still tired as went to sleep very later after finishing an old game... really have no mood to do FYP... Today I was late to 3023 meeting, what a shame >.< my part is short and nonsense... sigh... Am I asking too much for myself?!

Just now checked the yahoo email a/c which no one knows except my ex- Frank & Artasha. WOW I've got a warm email from Arta~~~ thx a lot!!! Here's the forwarded messages I wanna share with whom read my diary, my true friends ^_~

A Friend should be Radical;
They should love you when you're unlovable,
Hug you when you're unhuggable,
And bear you when you're unbearable.
A Friend should be Fanatical;
They should cheer when the whole world boos,
Dance when you get good news,
And cry when you cry too.
But most of all, a Friend should be Mathematical,
They should multiply the joy, Divide the sorrow,
Subtract the past, And add to tomorrow,
Calculate the need deep in your heart,
And always be bigger than the sum of all their parts.

You're "beary" special I do declare.
For when I need you, you're always there!
I know that I can trust in you,
and you'll be there in all I do.
You're the kind of friend I want to keep forever,
especially since you're so kind and clever.
You give me a great feeling of glee,
and you're so "beary" special to me!

I want you to know,
that wherever you go.
I will be there.
You can count on me,
through time you will see.
You can believe in me.
I have your best interests in mind.
I will always be kind.
A more dependable friend you won't find.

(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffer support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need to hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)-plains thing you don't understand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and
(Z)aps you back to reality

THE CORRS!!! AT YOUR SIDE~~
When the daylights gone and your on your own
And you need a friend, just to be around
I will comfort you, I will take your hand,
I will pull you through, I will understand,
And you know that
I'll be at your side,
There's no need to worry,
Together we'll survive,
Through the haste and hurry,
I'll be at your side, if you feel like you're alone,
And you have nowhere to turn, I'll be at your side,
If life's standing still, and your souls confused,
And you cannot find what road to choose,
If you make mistakes you can't let me down,
I will still believe, I won't turn around...

How to cook?!
Fold two hands together
And express a dash of sorrow
Marinate it overnight
And work on it tomorrow
Chop one grudge in tiny pieces
Add several cups of love
Dredge with a large sized smile
Mix with the ingredients above
Dissolve the hate within you
By doing a good deed
Cut in and help your friend
If he should be in need
Stir in laughter, love, and kindness
From the heart it has to come
Toss with genuine forgiveness
And give your neighbor some
The amount of people served
Will depend on you
It can serve the whole wide world
If you really want it to

A Friend Like You
Is Almost Too Good To Be True
The Laughter, the Tears
We have been through them over the Years
The Time We Have Shared
No One Could Compare
The Lessons We Have Learned
The Times We Have Been Burned
The Moments Together We Have Made
Those Will Never Fade
Our Friendship Can Only Grow Stronger
And The Years Hopefully Longer
I Just Wanted You To Know
How Much I Cherish You So

I never thought that I would find
a friend so great and a friend so kind
I look up to you in every way
'cause I learn something from you every day.
Without you I don't know where I'd be
but you're still here, friends with me
you deserve so much more than I can give
but without you I wouldn't live.
You've given me more than money can buy
and for you I'd give my all and I would die
This feeling I feel gets stronger every day
hoping not to screw it up, I constantly pray.
I know we have our problems every now and then
but once it's fixed our friendship is better times ten
and I want you to know that I truly do care
even in fights when I say things that aren't fair.
You're an angel from God up above
and I'm thankful for your understanding love
because when you're around everything seems right
and for you, until the end, I will fight.
It doesn't matter what you do or say
because you'll be my friend anyway
I know the real you that's down deep inside
and in you, I'll always confide.
Thanks for being the friend you are
you're my best friend, an angel by far
everything in you is an inspiration to do great
and you'll be loved by all cause that's your fate!
So never stop being the real and wonderful you
cause God shines through in all that you do
and whenever it seems like I'm never there
remember this: I love you and I'll always care!

This is a message
from me to you
To make sure you
never forget I Love You!
When things are rough
and you feel lost,
Just call on me and
I'll be there at any cost.
I'll do this because
I care for you
I'll stick by your side
no matter what you do.
I am your friend
through thick and thin,
Just as, for me,
you have always been.

Always Here
There is a saying that goes:
"You don't have to love in words,
because even through the silences,
love is always heard."

Comfort on difficult days,
Smiles when sadness intrudes,
Rainbows to follow the clouds,
Laughter to kiss your lips,
Sunsets to warm your heart,
Gentle hugs when spirits sag,
Friendships to brighten your being,
Beauty for your eyes to see,
Confidence for when you doubt,
Faith so that you can believe,
Courage to know yourself,
Patience to accept the truth,
And love to complete your life."

When ever you feel alone,
know you are not.
When ever you need a shoulder to cry on,
you can use mine.
When ever you need some one just to listen,
you can have my ear.
When ever you lose you way,
you can have my eyes to guide you.
When ever you don't know the words to say,
you can have my lips to speak them.
When ever you are afraid,
I will be brave for you.
When ever you fall,
I will catch you.
When ever you are sad,
I will do anything to make you glad.
I may not always know what to do or say,
but I will help in anyway.
When ever you have a question or favor to ask,
know the answer will always be yes.
What ever you do, where ever you go,
I will always be here for you.
If you ever thought I was mad or upset with you,
that is not true.
I will not and could not,
ever be mad at you.
If you where ever mad or upset with me,
for that I am truly sorry.
Despite the distance that may separates us, I am just a phone call, letter, e-mail, or IM away And if we should part, You will always be close to me, in my heart. I will be there When Ever You need me

Very long one, but hope ya may take some time to read thru
as they are promises to you

>>December 2, 2003 at 7:25:16 AM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 30 日 星期日 【微冷】

It should be dayoff before exam period but we still have to go to school for extra lesson in popu. At first I was late... but still many more ppl are later than I... how come all students are like that >.< Poor Fafa.
After having breakfast with Gaia, we have meeting for 3023... Then Elaine appeared with pretty dressing, ohh minority project huh? ^^ Do it without regret and sadness or else don't do that... 3023 meeting started after an hr breaking... very slow process... another break after 30 mins... I was attracted by wellcome's CDs... I feel like singing Karaoke, again I'm happy to be with him but we're not that kind of relationship, strange... Meeting, Lunch break, handed in exam paper, it's time to hand in my GEE paper! Time's running fast, and still many parcels are needed to post today. Well, I left dept with Bigbro as he has to work, a very busy guy huh? Spent over a hundred to send out all stuff, I grabbed some books for FYP proposal and planned to "roll" back to CC. I met Eva outside the library and went to KCR station together, we chatted a lot and I learnt that Rapheal has UC "ship"!!! Proud of her~~~ she's a hard-working gal... but still she likes ACG like me, sigh~ I never be that kind of clever gal...
Slow, slow and slower... workload is remaining there but I've little mood to complete them...

Wanna jam some songs of S Club 7 but it's hard to choose haha~

>>December 1, 2003 at 3:50:57 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 29 日 星期六 【颳風】

Today's a cool day for me to stay at home finishing my remaining tasks... but when I'm at home, my speed is terribly slow >.< There's always sth distracting me... Finally I can finish the Take-Home exam, thx god~
In between the working, I've gone to play DDR as usual... and I'd done sth bloodywrong... I turned off the power when I didn't notice my bro was saving... ARGH!!! All save files in DDR EXTREME were vanished!!! Oh god he told me he did spend 3-4 days, each day 6-8 hrs to collect %0%
Of corrs I need to re-collect all extra songs and other stuff.... in my busiest day...
After pushing myself complete my paper before having dinner, I did it at around 8pm and have gone to TPcenter for dinner. HAHA~ BIG SALE IN JUSCO! Can't resist to take a glance of it ^^ Everywhere is having an atmosphere of X'mas, and this year I'll have another boring one I suppose ^0^ My bro suggested (as we do every year) to play all night long for celebration~ New PS2 games released (Siren & Project Zero +) Should be GREAT FUN
~HORROR~

>>November 30, 2003 at 4:31:20 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 28 日 星期五 【颳風】

今日一早要帶大埔滘團, 因為bun病左咪幫佢帶lor, 聽到佢把聲好唔得, 無理由唔幫... 二十人既小學女生, 都幾得意呀~~ 成朝有好多隊人行tpk, 有d係我地fp既, 有d人地帶or老師自己帶, 唉什麼nature reserve都唔掂啦...
佢地成班都好活潑, 好多野問~ 雖然係好事, 但我都唔可能同時答咁多問題ga... 又問我d字點寫, 我有時自己都唔記得啦... 不過對小學生來講, o個d字太深奧啦... 無驚無險又完成整個旅程, 遲左dd, 不過玩完遊戲大家既得着一定多左! 我留左icq#畀佢地, 如果真係能夠教育佢地就好啦~^^
之後我由tpk行返cu, 因為搭巴士要$4.7-$6.7, 好q貴呀~~ 我又未試過唔知幾遠, 行下無死既, 當減肥haha~
記得wellcome會o係cu, 約佢食下飯啦~ 結果我o係coffee corner食完陪佢去cc食, 哈哈~人地唔知仲以為我地拍拖! 我都覺得好奇怪, 點解我地行得咁埋都可以無火花?! 哈哈~係咪我心腸太硬? 其實佢個人唔係差, 始終佢思想太細個我唔係太接受到, 不過佢講野funny度都升左級, 希望佢搵到個純純的女啦~
wellcome返大埔, 我continue留守222, 有幾個yr2一齊做soil paper... 我初時都做得ok快, 以為一日可以做完3000字啦~ 點知之後開吓online radio就死左, 一路聽一路睇吓d新野~ 有好多好正既歌呀~~ nelly furtado, the black eyed peas, evaneascence, sara evans, leann rimes etcetc... 太興奮啦~ 呢個係一個原因啦, 第二個係我掛住一人... 死啦唔通真係中箭????
最終做到9pm先走... 我落火車站o個陣我都唔係好清醒, # I just can't get you out of my head, boy it's more that I dare to think about #, 發覺自己唔記得穿返件長袖先走... 咁跑吓啦~ 無咁凍, 去到停車場見到有條友怒奔走, 跑得好搞笑, 睇清楚d原來係大佬! 哈哈~佢趕唔到校車, 咁我同佢一齊等下一班啦~兩個人等點都好過一條友等, 都等左成半個鐘... 其間我發覺我隻左腳唔係好ok, 死啦唔通成世就係咁? 我仲要行多次毅行者呀!!!
返到屋企... 收到moira送既xmas gift!!! chococat 袋 + chocolates~~~ 超開心呀~~~~如果佢係仔就好啦~ 不過唔緊要, 我有能力鍾意人, 對佢好就得啦~~~
做3023, 好彩有人同我一齊do... 唔得啦1點幾要收皮啦...

感謝主好清楚我做既野, 有時畀吓d甜頭我, 我會努力啦~ even 佢未必鍾意我同我一齊, 神呀~你要話我知幾時要做d咩呀~~^^

>>November 30, 2003 at 4:57:39 AM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 26 日 星期三 【晴】

Song of Today:

Kylie Minogue - Too Far

Caught up in this house
Trapped my very own self in the snare of my mind
No more space than a slither
What I'd give for deep breath inside
Where the chaos has me captive
Where there's no exit sign
Where I fuel the stupid fire with these feelings of mine

Lured into this den
It's bitter and I want the sweetness again
A taste that I agree with
Get me past these perils and to my Eden
Where the silence is a comfort
Where there is no one else
Where I'll be up from under and can uncurl myself.

*Too many, too much, too hard
Help me, this time I went too far
Too many, too much, too hard
Help me, this time I went too far*

Can I smash all of this open
Can I pass the hurt with a little pain
I wanna see all of it crumble
And start afresh and over again
My eyes are wide open
But I can hardly see
Will laughter find a way around these silent tears

*repeat chorus*

>>November 27, 2003 at 2:56:25 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 26 日 星期三 【晴】

Long time no writing diary... no time, even I have sth to share and express... but... my presentation today sucks... Can't imagine such a bitch can hold a wonderful talk yesterday and a fuckin' presentation of her project today...

If Prof. said mine is not ok, that's fine... he dared claiming my methodology is better than others...
The same case as the GEE singing presentation... ARGH!! Gonna die!!!

>>November 27, 2003 at 1:47:16 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 22 日 星期六 【驟雨】

其實咁夜入cu我都好想見到一個人... 不過之後o係icq都見到, 我扮野唔hi佢, 哈哈~佢又有野問我wor! 自從個email之後, 佢簡直加曬分, 但... 佢會當我係女, 定只係玩得既friend? 有無睇我為佢寫既info? 會唔會appreciate我計劃既mega project? 我下午用左d時間睇相, 睇返以前, 中學同大學既相... 原來以前我已經有佢既相, 可能真係無留意... 但宜家開始留意得唔得?

突然又想plug歌.. 係kylie前兩隻大碟既歌, brit pop 但我都係鍾意d歌詞~

Kylie Minogue - Did It Again

Clever girl
Think you are but you think too much
Shut down turn around
Don't look that way any more

Clever girl
Think you know but you don't know much
Try to make a move
Go to a different door

You know it's all in your head
You better put that business to bed
By your fair hands of design you met with
The monster in your mind

*You did it again You did it again
Won't you listen to me when I'm telling you it's no good for you*

Clever girl
Think you're right
but what's right from wrong?
Little Miss Genius
You make it hard on yourself

Clever girl
You've got it all but you're all messed up
Time now turn around
Move onto something else

You know it's all in your head
You'd better put that business to bed
What you see nobody sees
It only brings you to your knees

** repeat

>>November 24, 2003 at 1:53:35 AM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 22 日 星期六 【綿綿細雨】

我的心情像天氣一樣乍雨乍晴... 起伏不定... 知道暴風雨即將來臨, 我卻不躲不避!
好不容易才有興致做fyp, 又要出去開會... 好啦~ 反正都要還野畀mike, 唔出會死人... 呀~ 多謝米兄唔發火, 我知道我整到佢支行山野好殘, 但係佢都無話我...十萬分感謝!!! 我會補償, 睇吓我搵唔搵到個compass啦...
留會...竟然係開唔成... 真係"大大大大"!!! 有無搞錯, 係人都忙啦~ 淨係你地忙呀! 唔黎開會早d通知吖, 宜家啲 o靚妹都唔considerate, 好討厭d嬌生慣養既人, 第時出黎做野仆曬街啦! 最後得我&排長& mike o係cityu, 講真同佢地一齊又ok開心wor, 唔係話咩,總之唔使我照顧佢地又唔會特別睇我就最好啦. 呢個係我鍾意同男仔做friend既原因.
唉... roy又遲到... 又好小家咁捉左我去傾計... 等我畀米兄笑... 係都同第二個拍拖啦~ 好唔明點解個個都係"知易行難", 仲有做人(我已經唔係話男仔)小氣自己無so, 咁大個都係咁, 我真係唔想夾o係中間, 不嬲我都好easy come easy go, 玩得埋既人好多, 我自己覺得因為我都ok抵諗, 唔會斤斤計較, 人地既缺點係佢既一部分, 正如你有頭身腳咁, 點解係要挑人地既刺, 睇唔到自己既樑木? 希望我唔係唔like人地點點點自己又會做既人...
入去park'n搵返mike同排長, 同佢地真係easy好多, 笑吓講吓又買完酒水... 得返我同mike去wellcome宿飲酒打機, 好耐無打"no double"啦, 超開心~ (雖然成日過唔到版) elaine又黎左~ good^^
我個仍然有d野那住那住...係咩呢....

>>November 24, 2003 at 1:47:22 AM GMT+8