2005 年 6 月 20 日 星期一 【晴】

< Don't you miss me ? >
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Last night, I took a few phone call to three friends,
I found that not all of them are missing me indeed.
Poor, How come?

I don't surpise that what came up,
but still feel some disappointing about what I met.

Since now, I know what is my position in their heart,
not only no care sentence, but also no willing to say with me.

SHIT !!!

I don't know why I make this relationship to such a poor way,
which is very good orginally.
I don't want it to happe again.
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My heart and body both are so tired today.

< Satisfy >
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Others comment me that I'm a bit confident.
I admit that I'm full of confidence forever.
It is a simple story that I'm so confident in everythings,
since I lost all confidence in the past.
Without confidence, I loss my first girlfriend, I loss respect from other,
I loss belief from teacher, I loss chance to make friends in HKU.
Without condifene, I decide to change the university from HKU to CU.
Thus, I declare and swear, I need my confidence towards everythings.

I satisfy what I'm right now.

I love someone, it does not mean that I need to accompany her
whenever, whatever, and whenever,
I satisfy and feel comfortable where she is nearby,
no need to talk with me,no need to face with me, no need to be close.
I enjoy we are in the same place, same dimension, same time and same atmosphere.

I only want to share what I have to her if I can.
I only want to take care her in all ways I can.
I only want to be here if she want me to be.

Love is not belonging, but bless.
Love someone is not equivalent to give hands forever,
but care other forever.

Bless the one you love to have a blessful future,
care and share when other needs.
There are LOVE.
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>>June 20, 2005 at 1:35:41 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

< Boring & Strange >
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It is hard to stay one detination without working or duty,
my partner, shirley is absent today, thus I sleep myself.
Once, my master discover find me, call me to follow her and go to another department.
!!! No job to do also, but talking with new collegues.

These two days, I try hard to find out the contact of Mr Chan,
one of best friend, like my brother, who work in Lee Ka Kwok.
It is diffuclt to find lei !!! Always call to his message box.
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Indeed, the atmosphere of out team has changed a lot.
This is a bit different from the first two weeks,
there is mixing with some unclarified relationship inside and a new teamate.
Some characters, teamates, have a change attitude towards others.
We find and know more about others, thus relationship and attitude no longer be pure as past.
I don't like that at all.

I like the atmosphere making us laugh,
I like the attitude we treat everyone well,
I like the tropic we discuss with everyone
at the start time when we meet.

How to restart again? This is large tropic we need to talke about.

No mass game since now!!! How come !!!

:
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We are thus combination,
bobo, herny, penny, man, milk, changkam, horse, raymond, java, soso, siji, frank, wei...
This 13 guys will give out a thousand combination lei !!!
How come !!!

I pray for God, please accept and listen my pray.
Please make us back to the atmosphere, attitude and tropic we share at beginning.

>>June 17, 2005 at 11:38:02 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 16 日 星期四 【晴】

< Discovery >
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When the secret is boomed, no interest in it anymore.

Like X'mas present, if you know what is inside before the day of boxing day,
then no more surpise you guess.

Like the closing relationship, if neither one discover the attitude,
then the boy and girl may feel sweet and play together without any shame,
once, one of them show what she or he thinks of, then consideration will be involved.
The close relationship or behavoir or even talking will demiss.
All are what I don't want to see.
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I neede to adjust what I'm doing here !!!
I know what myself forever.

The third one I meet.
I hope it is the future I meet.

>>June 16, 2005 at 2:48:55 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 15 日 星期三 【晴】

< I'm down right now > ~ 大雁塔失戀
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Let's go back to the year 2001, which I was still a form 7 guy in carmel.
That was X'mas time.
At that day night, near 7 pm, I went back home to have my dinner,
while after taking a phone call to cindy, I went out immediately wihout finishing the food.
Thus, whas was going on?
It was 7:05, I can't find cindy by ringing her mobile phone or home call,
so I decided to go out and find her where she can be stayed.

I ran, I shouted, I screamed... I still can't find her within two hours.
Time 8:00pm, I went back to my sec school aslo, but no use it was.
At night time, 9pm, I decided to go back her to phone her once more.

It sounded great that she existed there. I scolded her since she hadn't let me know
where she was, the date that she needed to decorate the classmate to welcome the X'mas.
I scolded her since I loved her and I cared her that time, she aslo knew it
and she said she willn't go away without informing me where she will be.

That feeling is incredible written, that care, that worry.

Last night, I tasted this feeling again.
At the Tower with five fountains, me, Herny and man got loss from the team.
Though, we played for a while inside the fountains with fanastastic sound and waterfall,
I decided to leave the pool where we were playing and moved to another pool, to find the one.
The only one, I can't find till the sound stoped.
Running from the farest pool the first pool, via and verse, several search, to scan all people nearby.
I knew what I was thinking.

I care who I care and I'm willing to know where she is.
What I care is not missing her forever, is what she doing right now...

That feeling is just what I feel last time as the story said.
There are the horry, worry and care toward who I care.
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>>July 11, 2005 at 3:03:44 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 13 日 星期一 【晴】

< 華山之嵿 >
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二零零五年六月十二日﹐我們西安實習生一行三十人上了華山。

華山實是中國五獄山之首﹐其險峻之處實無其他山獄可比擬。
西嶽華山…
華山由東南西北及中峰所組成﹐其中而南最為高聳入雲﹐有2160米。
而要數算美麗動人﹐最為險峭壁壘的應為南峰為西峰。
如果有人因為疲倦而只去了東峰看日出﹐早下了山;
沒有到過南﹑西峰﹐可真虧了「我上了華山！！！」一句。
不過﹐上了東峰的人已經是勇氣可加了。

上東峰﹐要經過非常嚴峻的千尺峭﹑金銷門﹑「一線天」等。
因為我沒有買地圖﹐所以不能詳盡記載每處到過的地方了。
可惜可惜…

最難上而又最早上的是東峰﹐途中必要登上中峰﹐
其高度不過是一千五百多東。
不過上山的某几段道路上都必要手腳並用。
少一點體力也不行。

記得媽媽講過﹕
「 待你們三兄弟大過後﹐一定要帶我去遊覽中國各名山大川！」
我想﹕
媽媽就算我有錢也不會帶你去擧山﹐
因為我知媽媽愄高﹐上不了。

峭拔山險要用鐵鍊﹐及踏上八九十度的階梯；
提起大腿﹐屈摺腰環也好几十次。
辛苦得我也要常常按摩腰腿。

在華山東峰看日出﹕
那橙紅的蛋黃緩緩地上升﹐
似是要擺起排場﹐叫每一個登山者看看它的雄偉及嬌艷。
雄偉﹐是因為我們擧山看它﹐要花盡千萬力氣﹐
比看尊嚴皇帝還要困難。
嬌艷﹐當然因為它所發出的光芒吸引了無數征山的簾清。

沒有看的有嚇人萬分的「長空棧道」及「空中吊橋」。

沿途遊華山的遊人絡繹不絕﹐
http://ccd.zjonline.com.cn/zgms002.htm( 遲些補上自己影的照片呢 )
四處拍照是當然不過的事。

真是向那些不要命的中國中佩服﹐
佩服他們在思過涯那只一根的松柏影下獨照。
( 痴鬼線嫁佢地... )

去過華上之後﹐
西安的高峰也似過去了﹐
其他的都只是一般了。
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>>August 24, 2005 at 1:42:42 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 10 日 星期五 【晴】

< 請假 》
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繼昨日借口唔返工之後
今日下午又話去睇醫生
去鬼左招商局搵BOBO同埋HENRY佢地
好鬼悶呀

明天去華山
所以今日應該會周圍去買野
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>>June 10, 2005 at 1:48:36 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 8 日 星期三 【晴】

< 攪笑的我 >
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雖然我不太會說普通話...
不過我都能夠帶給公司的人一dd快樂...

今日啦...
有公司文員( 已經變成我的上司了 )小詹...同我同shirley玩...
仲有"壞人"徐超"...
仲有仲有樹人叔叔...

四點几...見到公司有人打架...
我問小詹...佢地打架要比几錢...
佢話一蚊喎...
我即係話...
" 如果係咁少...咁咁日日都打交囉..."

仲有原因小詹姐姐廿二歲已經結左緍囉...

又係四點几...
我對住樹人叔叔講...
" 你在這樣幹什麼 "
" 你是老闆麼 ? "

真係攪鬼...
然係佢又話如果你請我食飯...就介紹女仔比我識喎...
傻啦...
我都係鍾意下雪...

真係奇怪...
唔知點解e几日都係成日諗番e前d唔開心...
我mean同cindy果d...
真係奇怪...
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>>June 8, 2005 at 6:10:30 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 7 日 星期二 【晴】

< 打籃球 >
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我起西安度已經同當地學生打過几場籃球比賽...
e度人都ok勁...

我地成班男仔發覺...
原來夜晚有好多著得好sexy o既女仔落鬼去打羽毛球...
我地有一班飢餓的男孩子們已經不停同佢地交換電話了...
真係唉...

仲有果個要成日去各大學的"千奇"...
尋日先同左一個係當地識o既女仔食晚飯...
e +輝仲約度一個係附近做nursing o既護士o既姐姐仔食飯tim...
真係勁...

e我呢...
當然係安份守紀啦...
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>>June 8, 2005 at 6:19:32 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】

< 好玩六四 >
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今日係我第一次係中國六四...
當然無係香港咁呢...
今日係星期日...
我地成組一早就出左去玩囉...
不過...西安落雨呢...

不過我地果組就真係乜都玩...

朝早去左一個只有一層o既書成...
跟住就去左騷擾人地果個圖書館...
又食野又講野...又影相...

下午去鬼左大雁塔...
因為落雨乜都見唔到...
到果行字...

晚餐去左食一餐好飽o既自助餐...
d 煲真係鬼好食...

跟住我地繼續 xianization...
去埋西安d電影院睇電影...
睇猛虎出籠...
明明佢話八點半開場...
我地八點五入度去...
佢已然播左開頭...
跟住仲死...
睇到一半佢又飛去結尾...
我地當然同佢講數啦...
佢地話...不如重新再播一次...
真係人都癲...
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>>June 8, 2005 at 6:28:26 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 4 日 星期六 【晴】

< After one week in Xian >
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不知不覺已經一個星期了...
我在西安玩同埋工作已經咁就哈哈...

下星期我地應該會去華山...
而下下個星期我應該就會去兵馬俑...

工司其實真無乜特別事可以做...
每天我都是七點起身...
八點半返到公司...
之後一訓訓到十二點...
跟住就食下午...
下午就幫工事d人做少少野...

我最鍾就係同工司d人出差...
因為可以唔冼咁悶...

我有多左十一個好朋友囉...
有bobo...ar 文...henry...raymond...馬仔...frank...長昆...等等...
好鬼開心...

辛苦了在香港的lungma...
幫我做唔到果d野...
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>>June 4, 2005 at 10:58:47 PM GMT+8