2005 年 4 月 21 日 星期四 【晴】

返家了.... 終於.....
有點想家... ^^

見到老豆買左部新手機...
自己都心郁郁想買番部..... ><

同細佬妹又玩.. 玩老豆部電話.. 影左好多鬼相.. hehee..... ^^"

老豆好好的買左我鍾意食既蛋撻俾我
知道我要做功課，又唔使我去拜爺爺
仲第一時間俾左我睇佢新買既手電.... 因為買新手電而開心... 好傻瓜~!! ^^"
不過，我就係喜歡傻瓜... 哈哈.... ^^
我知道他是疼我的... 雖然不及從前那般疼.......
因為咁樣，知道自己要生性了....
5月會搵工，因為想快一點報答你.....
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下午返家時，又去左shopping一陣
"識"左個新朋友..... 講左幾句.. 佢話「好鍾意社工」wor....
似乎... 前路又明朗左一dd lu~

電話無電... cut左小氣鬼線.....
好驚罪加一等..... @@"

好懶呀.. 唔想返宿.... 想留係屋企揸多一陣攤.....

唉唉.....
睇左傻瓜既日記.... 嚇左一跳.....
擔心...... 原來係多餘的=.=" .... 好彩~!!! ^^"

懶惰鬼聽日考試，今日仲懶懶的去訓"午覺"....
不過知你攰啦... 加油呀！^^
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目標：
1. 以生命影響生命
2. 將快樂帶給身邊人
3. 還要把幸福帶給你... ^^

>>April 22, 2005 at 10:49:03 AM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 21 日 星期四 【晴】

傻架~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5點幾都仲未眼訓... 又可以做多一陣功課啦~~ ^^
其實聽日要交既都仲未做...

余嘉穎小姐.. 你仲有無懶dd呀？@@"
聽人講... 你玩左成晚bor...... ><"

無辦法... 唔想做功課，唯有玩下啦... 唔係有咩可以做？^^"

gd news：以為唔見左既功課... 原來只係放在係第二個folder度... 都有成4-5份架！><"
bd news：就算今日通頂都唔會做得晒所有既功課..... 我唔要placement唔合格！

gd news：挨到夜一夜都唔眼訓，可以繼續hea落去...
bd news：部電腦快被我玩殘... 仲有.... 開始肚餓呀！><"

gd news：今晚好多人搵我傾計仔呀~!! ^^
bd news：佢地都好似唔多開心咁.... v.v

gd news：傻瓜部電腦傻左，可以更專心去溫書
bd news：專心溫完書之後... 仲好專心咁玩左成個幾鐘.... =.=" 4點半先訓.....

gd news：而家心情良好
bd news：仲唔做paper？作死呀你~!!!!!! ><""

>>April 21, 2005 at 9:34:32 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 21 日 星期四 【晴】

唔喜歡誤會、討厭誤會
然而誤會似乎很喜歡我

誤會，快跟我分手吧！
跟你一起，我會失去幸福的

>>April 21, 2005 at 5:24:17 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 20 日 星期三 【晴】

Accidentally read my previous assignment, the first SWK reflection journal in the U life....
Like reading a third person's article...... how strange and funny~!!

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There is no doubt that social work is a helping profession and every social worker is willing to help people. I like helping people, that’s why I chose to study Social Work.

I give my seat to one who needs in the train, buy flags for the charity organizations, give my used books to the lower form, lead the guys to their destination if they don’t know how to get there…all without returns. Can I call myself a “helper” due to the above-mentioned behaviors?

Obviously the main components of a good helper are the “ability and willingness to listen” and “good manner”. I do have them! I understand that when a person is humoursome, the most he needs is a quiet and private receiver. Any advices given are not useful at that time. It is sometimes a fact that their stories are boring, but I still listen to them patiently! I am “willing” to give them advices which I hope they would listen. I too have good manner: I will not blame them for the foolish things they did or the dirty words they said…But are that enough? Am I a good helper?

In the past, many of my secondary schoolmates told me that I am a good helper. I contributed a lot in order to help. No need to ask help from me, I will help them if I feel that they need help. I believed I was a good helper and I was professional.

But I started doubting on myself recently.

I have a friend who has broken his leg last month. He could walk only if he used the cane. At that time our church held a lunch buffet. To help him, I brought him food, did everything for him and asked him just to sit still. I stayed with him all the time, fearing that he would be bored. I had to leave earlier that day. Once I left, I looked back, I noticed him trying to use his cane to walk around and find his friend. He could walk!! But under my “help”, he was “forced” to sit. I started thinking: for what I’ve done, was it a help or hindrance for his recovery? Under my “help”, he could neither practice nor talk with his friends. Maybe he is better at the moment when I was with him, how about the time when I was not? Actually, did he want my help? I was confused.

Now I understand that the first condition to offer help is that the receiver wants it! Helping is sometime useless or harmful if it is not done under the receiver’s will. Like my previous experience, my help offered slow down the recovery of my friend.

Some of my friends applied halls in the university. When I know that, I want to bring them homemade meals and soup as having too much “canteen-food” is not good for health. But this time I didn’t do it. I learned from that previous case. I consider that “normal” hall-life should not have somebody brought them meals. And all my friends are adults: they know how to take care of themselves. Of course I still want to bring them meals, but now I’ll ask them before I do so. I think I am a better helper now, though still not the best, because I start to think in the receiver’s situation. (So, you are a reflective learner.)

Why do I like helping people? Really have no idea. For what I’ve done in helping, I do it from heart, with no purpose. I just know I’ll be very satisfied if I can successfully help a person. That’s why sometimes I’ll think that my aim to help is to get pleasure from it. (Having a sense of satisfaction after an act of helping is perfectly legitimate.) Am I selfish? But I do let others better off! If help is a selfish behavior, then I don’t want to help anymore, because I don’t want to be a selfish person. I have thought of this for nights. Lastly I come to a conclusion, which, I hope I’m correct: for what you’ve done during the helping process, if you respect the receiver, you just guide him, analyze the situation with him, give him support… then the pleasure you get is a by-product only, you are not selfish. However, in case if you are “controlling” the person, asking him to do what you think is the best for him, then the pleasure you get during the “controlling” process is your real aim. So you are selfish. (Agree.)

In order to be a good helper, I will try my best to stop controlling anymore, and offer help with respect to others.

Grade: B+
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doris: Oh... I have totally forgotten for what I have done.
Doris: so, what are your feelings now?
doris: I think I have lost myself previously.... and now I get my direction again.Thanks for reminding, Doris~!! ^^
Doris: Keep it firmly in your mind.
doris: Sure~!! I will try my best to help people surrounding me... I LIKE helping people .That's why I study social work!!!!!!

BE A SOCIAL WORKER

>>April 21, 2005 at 3:43:19 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 20 日 星期三 【晴】

考完試lu~
只欠4份papers同埋實習既final e，就好似咩都完咁....

最近好忙好忙於完成手頭上既功課
所以有好多想記低既野都無記到...
今日考完試，俾個機會同藉口自己去放肆一下先~~!! ^^

UC Photo Day.... (好似遲左好多添~ ^^")
比想像中無咁大既感受，仲係未有離開既感覺....
如果話唔捨得既感覺有10分既話，咁我高興身邊有個咁鍚我既姐姐既感覺就一定有100分！
佢真係好好好好好好！犧牲左自己成半日既時間去陪我同幫我.... ^3^
好彩有你咋..... 如果唔係我都唔知點算... d野多到同亂到唔知點咁....
真係好多謝你呀！^^ 感激.....

我諗到而家為止，呢一生人講得最多「謝謝你」既都應該會係呢日lu~
全日不停同人影相，因為真係好多謝你地抽空出黎，所以真係好感激你地架！^^
第一份禮物就係收到靚仔送既靚靚音樂盒同埋扇仔喇！^^ 好鍾意啊~!!
姐姐送既"香香公主"頭飾都靚靚啊！^^ 朋友仔都話好襯我bor....
仲有呀... 收到兩個肚兜 (由唔同團體在無com過既情況下送既..... =.=" )
^^ 好記得同青蛙王子影相既時間... 仲有好麟居啦~~~ 你地一班人行出黎，又真係幾"震撼"bor.. ^^"
好鍾意你地送既禮物，好得意呀~~~~~~!!!! ^^
真係好想兩班子女同我一齊影張相... 咁我就無憾lu~ ^^ 幸福到呢......
然後又收到好多同學仔送既禮物啦... 真係好開心同幸福... 好好好好幸福可以識到你地~!! ^^

朋友，是我在這裡得到最多的東西.... 謝謝~!!!!

影左成日之後，見番上年既supervisor... ^^ 好掛住佢，佢對我好好好好！^^

影完相，同左姐姐去食tea.....
兩個人.. 食左好多好多野.....
不過係呢個咁值得高興既日子，大家又無食到飯... ^^ 放肆下lor~!!
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中心farewell
估唔到臨走，竟然係唔開心的走... 唔放心的.....
點解，中心既氣氛... 好似差左咁多？好多唔好既事......
member主席呀！你要快dd康復啦~~
呢個farewell，有點點硬的氣氛........
不過.. 我真係會唔捨得呢間中心既人，因為你地個個都對我好好好好！
特別記得Ｊ姨姨佢病左都打電話黎同我講左兩句.......
好開心可以係度感受一切，thanks
farewell有好多好野食... 其中好似得我一個係自己整的... 其他既都係同事的媽媽整既... =.="
不過知道大家忙呀！咁忙都仲同我地farewell... 多謝~!! ^^
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大學Last Day
last day最後一次上堂，竟然無特別專心...
個心，飛左去之後既食宵..... ^^"
上堂，抄左好多notes，不過都係無用既.. 唔緊，當練下字啦...
同嬋嬋、helen姐講左dd唔開心既事.... 多謝你地呀！^^ 我會努力的....

食宵，好好好好開心呀！
大家都好盡興，唔怕嘈親人地、唔怕俾人笑....
開始既時候... 我地玩左「唔係嘛，咁鬼易」...講同學仔既花名呀...
^^" 呢個時候.. 諗起好多野.. 終於有少少唔捨得lu~
然後我地單身人事協進會又周圍去祝酒啦... 仲示範嘛打電話叫(人起)床法添！^^
跟住又唱下歌仔啦... 有即時卡拉OK點唱.... helen姐既熱咖啡好勁呀！
又扮下身邊既同學仔同埋prof，又隊過下汽水..... ^^
成晚既氣氛真係好好、好高漲！最後影大合照既時候，真係好唔捨得啦.....
不過，仲有機會見既~!! ^^
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琴晚好開心可以攤在床上溫書.... ^^ 做papers時都唔可以咁樣的！
睇完notes就未眼訓都去訓lu~ ^^ 幸福~!!!
之後今日又睇下、溫下啦..... 好耐都未試過記野lu~ 記左幾條ordinance就算~ ^^
考試... 大學最後既一次考試... 無乜特別~
不過是一個滿足的考試，因為我連續兩個鐘不停寫野.....
果然係一個swk既major..... @@" 可以吹水吹兩個小時... 仲要同notes既內容無乜關係....勁~!!
不過考完果一刻，好感動..... 因為真係好有考試唔夠時間既feel... 好記得寫完最後一粒字佢就叫停筆lu~
^^ 喜歡考試的感覺.... 有時真的叫人滿足~!!

然後又同左thomas哥哥、嬋嬋、姐姐、大雄、芳防、康康、Janet食飯啦~~
好開心的一餐飯.... 好鍾意受嚇的嬋嬋同可愛既thomas....
大肚腩？嘩哈哈.... 真係勁~!!!!!!
多謝thomas既雪糕仔啊！^^
東坪洲，記住你~!!
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仲有好多零碎既片段，好想記低：
miss左單身人士協進會既頭炮活動呀！><" 不過無計，要做paper.... 遲交左lu~

自從上個星期決定左去台灣之後，台灣五子就好似傻左咁... 成日都在興奮既狀態...
除左五星(五色？)戰隊之外，今日先知原來多左個samson's family..... ^^"
每次有呢幾個人既組合，都好想去下... 因為真係好開心！^^
好高興可以在臨別既時候，同你地更熟更熟... 好鍾意你地~!! ^^

學識左玩hearts.....
鍾意左玩咁....
不過，唔可以俾自己沉迷... 唔得~!!

發現左姐姐既傻地方.... 真係好可愛~ ^^
每個人，都總會有一些傻傻的地方吧~

paper雖然遲交左，但係因為我好用心去做，所以做得開心~ ^^

上個星期，無啦啦情緒病左...
好彩有人幫一幫我.... ^^ 無事lu~
不過就可能辛苦左你啦.. 但係.. 感動的.. 雖然你好似咩都無做過~~ ^^
多謝你陪我睇叮噹.... 仲有... 記住你既雪糕~!!! ^^

多謝好友中同仔... 佢真係好好... 幸福好像已經降臨了吧..... ^^
努力~!!!!! 希望我可以成為你的永遠~

阿哥佢... 終於都死過返生lu~ 哈

發現有dd勉強地去維持緊一d既關係...
希望呢個只係一個假象.....
人總係貪心的，但我唔要貪新忘舊.....
雖然好困難，但我會努力去維持的........

每件事情總是有始有終的.....
最重要的是享受過程......
讓一切都化成美好的回憶，藏在心中，使它永遠伴著你

>>April 21, 2005 at 2:37:32 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 20 日 星期三 【晴】

鍾意溫書，因為可以頹，可以溫唔晒... (不過又唔會唔合格bor)
都鍾意做paper，因為可以學到更多野~ ^^

今日兩樣都做齊晒...
起身攪掂埋份paper就去hea左一陣
之後去u-lib還書同買左少少野...
又好乖咁去左胡lib溫書，仲見到bf仔添~~

然後返宿，就曳曳lu~
icq左成晚.... 始終都係去左UC Grad din...
有人陪既話，唔去唔得既.. 始終UC是我家.. UC真係俾左好多野我... 好好既環境，仲有好多好朋友~
不過呢期真係要慳dd洗啦..... 每日最少一餐頹麵/頹意粉/頹米粉... 要頂住呀！

將要溫既書分左做5個area，希望今晚可以睇得晒~
聽日就可以睇同學仔既ppt啦.... ^^
考埋個試，又係要同paper搏殺~~~!!!!!! ><"
你就要努力d溫書啦... ^^ 仲有要勤力好多好多添~~~ hehee....

>>April 20, 2005 at 6:13:37 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 19 日 星期二 【晴】

林振強 … 妙語如珠
(thanks肥仔的主人)

人生許多不必要的痛苦,起因都是因為夾硬穿上細了一個碼的衣服.

常以為還有下一次, 所以不懂得珍惜過這一次.

兒童猜謎, 成人猜枚, 愚人猜忌.

愛遇見了不起的人, 怕遇見對不起的人.

走下坡的時侯, 路是平坦無阻的.

頹廢的意思, 不是 Cool , 是 Fool.

人總要冒多少風險, 且間中會損手爛腳, 甚至焦頭爛額,但有需要爛口爛舌嗎?

不用與所有的人做朋友, 你並非競選中的政客.

唯一別人偷不去的東西, 就是時間 - 所有的時間,都是等我們自己失掉的.

其實世界上只有兩類人,落手落腳的和指手劃腳的。遺憾的是後者是不沉默的大多數。


每個願打的人背後, 都有一個願挨的人.

我們沒有甚麼記不起, 也沒甚麼放不下.

最戇居的水上活動, 就是一個人跌進愛河.

和寡大多數不是因為曲高, 而是因為那曲實在難聽死了.

直覺的正名是"靠撞".

要說話說得流利，自然和有真感情, 唯有直言.

聞一知十的是聰明人, 聞一而瞎猜二十的是你我他.

最難墮的胎, 就是你我各懷鬼胎.

情場不是超級市場, 請勿薄利多銷

要做個快樂人,
並不須要天天都有愛情,也不須要每天都有麵包,但一定須要每天都有大
便.

站在海傍時, 浪漫之士會認為自已在看海,不浪漫的人覺得自己在睇水.

細味一下，挺有意思......

>>April 20, 2005 at 3:57:06 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 19 日 星期二 【晴】

王安石的一首詩──
「風吹屋簷瓦，瓦墜破我頭；我不恨此瓦，此瓦不自由。」
(thanks 肥仔的主人)

曖昧是，比好朋友再親一點，但比情人遠一點。

曖昧是，有一點兒兄妹的情誼，但卻不敢以兄妹相稱。大家都暗暗的明白，這段關係不
可能簡單如兩兄妹。

曖昧是，你會常常在ICQ等他在線。你會設定他一在線時，系統會有online
alert，
你也會把他的名字floating on。每當見他幾天沒有在線，你就會有些擔心。

曖昧是，你會不時去他的Info看看有沒有更新；而且你會留意字裡行間，他對你有沒有
甚麼暗示？

曖昧是有感覺，然而，這種感覺不足以叫你們切切實實的發展一段正式的關係。

曖昧是明白人生有太多的無奈，現實有太多的限制。你知道沒有可能，但又捨不得放手
。

曖昧是有進一步的衝動，卻沒有進一步的勇氣。

曖昧是，他不是你的情人，但似乎他比你的情人更關心你和了解你。

曖昧是，你會編一條頸巾送給他，但大家從沒有開始過。

曖昧是，雖然他不是你的情人，但他卻會對你說：「你對我是十分重要的。」

曖昧是，你感冒時有一個會在晚上打電話來，特意提你服藥，叫你蓋好被早點睡的普通
朋友。

曖昧是，當你遇到問題解決不了的時候，你找不到你的男／女朋友，你第一個便會想起
他。

曖昧是，每當他提及他的另一半時，你會萬箭穿心。

曖昧是為了逃避背叛的罪惡感。

曖昧是甜津津又同時酸溜溜的。往往從未開始，已叫人不安，患得患失。

曖昧是，別人以為你們在攪地下情時，你會沾沾自喜。

曖昧是，別人問你們是否在戀愛中，你張口結舌。

曖昧是，常常掙扎表不表白。你怕表白之後，你既得不到一個情人，卻又失去了一個知
心好友。

曖昧是，見到他時，你會心跳。見不到他時，你會掛念他。

曖昧是，兩個人都會互相猜度。他是不是已經暗示了甚麼？我是不是自作多情？

曖昧是，每天大家都會聊ICQ，間中會互傳手機短訊，無規律地偶然約會。

曖昧是，除了情人節之外，在大時大節和生日，大家都會交換禮物。在外地的時候，
你總會記得買手信給他。他有時煮了甚麼甜品，也定會預你一份。

曖昧是，在卡拉OK時，你仍會忍不住去點楊千嬅的「有發生過」。
陳奕迅的「兄妹」亦曾在你心中繞樑三日，久久不能釋懷。

曖昧是，你很想多走一步，但又怕會嚇怕了他。你會很小心流露自己的感情，你忍不著
不去著緊他，
但又怕他知道你著緊。

曖昧是，兩個人沒有承諾過甚麼。但雖然如此，你願意付出的，比有承諾的情侶更多。
沒有責任，
但你卻很渴望去承擔，不問回報。

>>April 20, 2005 at 3:55:57 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 19 日 星期二 【晴】

今晚去溫書既時候，撞到兩個人..
真好~ 點綴下我苦悶既生活~~

首先係見到唔同左既傻傻....
都唔係低b呀... 不過個樣中學生左lor....
四四正正的，唔錯~~

然後在lib遇到個隱形人
同佢sms左一陣.... 真係好似在icq咁.....
不過都好，等我無咁眼訓~
左手邊一個型男都見唔到...
你仲慘.. 全個胡lib都只係見到..... =.=""
(作死啦你... 我唔係！><")

溫書lu~

>>April 20, 2005 at 2:42:12 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 19 日 星期二 【晴】

比想像中用多了很多的時間去完成paper.....
遲了一天交，希望不會扣太多分吧~
只想把它們做好.......

因為自己的低效率，去不到社工系單身人士協進會的第一炮活動... 可惜！><"
晚上，悶悶的玩左一陣... 是全日最開心的時刻... 好在有你~ ^^

還有很多很多的功課要做啊！
><" 命苦~~

甜又是一天 苦又是一天 要開開心心的捱下去~~!!! ^^

>>April 19, 2005 at 7:59:07 PM GMT+8