2005 年 8 月 2 日 星期二 【晴】

my heart is full of jealousness
remember the sharing of Ms Chan on Sunday
i am not a complete man,i am sick,i have a low self-esteem,so
when somebody is better than me, i will jealous of her.
i feel bad,depressed,why i will have those feelings.
i don't like myself~
BUT i need to know that i was made by GOD according to HIS image
so i can't hate myself
i am trying to love myself more,and appreciate myself in order to lift up
my self image to a better level.
Maybe i eed somebodies help.
i need my LORD to heal me,mold me to be the tool he will use~
may god bless us ~
^(00)^

>>August 2, 2005 at 12:28:52 AM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 27 日 星期三 【晴】

i have already return to Hong Kong
BUT i have "home sick"
coz i just think that Combodia is my home,
i like to live in there longer ,coz i really not want to leave.
i miss the brothers and sisters there.
they are very kind and friendly,ardent.
i really like to be with them,they are very warm-heartedness
they are ardent disciples of Jesus Christ,
they love God ,love to sing songs of praise to praise God
they love us and their family,they always share the good things wth us.
they love praying together to God.they think the power from this is very great.
they are pure and humble.
i really enjoy the trip,in these 10 days i have learn a lot.
i was really inspired by their enthusiasm in God~!
one of them just 18 yrs old But already take up the speech on sunday .
therefore,in our team almost older than him,can't we take up the speech too~?
He also read 5 chapters bible everday.so,how about myself?
= =" .......................
their lives are simple and happy,they carried much more things than me.
they go to school at the morning but go church at night ,after this they need to clean the church,
so they can go home.
they are insulted by neighbours,friends,family members.........
BUT they are tough and stand firm in Jesus.
i was really pleased to hear that ,and very appreciated them.
i want to be well prepared too~so i can communicate with them more better and better
i also can give more and more out~NOT only to receive~!!!
^(00)<
really miss them~
i love them all~pray for Combodia and their parents ,fds,neighbours can believe in Jesus~!
More information will be POST later~!

>>July 27, 2005 at 10:52:20 AM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 16 日 星期六 【晴】

fine

>>July 16, 2005 at 3:24:53 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 9 日 星期六 【乍寒還暖】

高考放榜
成績比預期好
但也有少少落差
又再一次經歷好似似好似差
半上半落的情況
當年會考如是,今年AL 亦如此.....
我是個很容易怨天尤人的人
可能因為我不滿足吧~!
我埋怨為什麼不讓我UE考好D
但.....那又如何~!
是真的我該拿的分嗎?
我.......又再一次自到自己的弱處......
不敢亦不想去承認自己的限制
常認為自己可以再好些,再能付出多些
我錯了. >.<
倒令我反思的事......行山也令我看見另一個自己
真的自己---扮堅強但又不耐煩,扮有能力但又很沒能耐~!
灰左~雖然係咁,但豬豬學會了更多,也是好事哦~
所以,I LOVE GOD~
祂必時刻也讓我學會更多,更有長進~!!!!
YEAH~
將一切交給主~讓主帶領我行當行的路~
AL的擔憂,短宣的預備也一一交上~
感謝主~!!!

>>July 9, 2005 at 7:51:23 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 29 日 星期三 【晴】

勁灰
唔小心做錯野
勁唔開心
呀~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
死人頭~葉豬雅
點解你可以咁唔小心家~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>June 29, 2005 at 5:05:58 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 28 日 星期二 【晴】

唉~呢排又舊病復發
訓得勁唔好
成日醒同訓到腰酸骨痛
好灰丫~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~= ="
今日同小學同學去左置樂食野
又去左1行麗寶
買左一件衫同一對涼鞋
勁開心,但個荷包又........乾左~!
哈哈哈哈哈哈
好想買好多野丫~~~(咆哮中...)
hehe~
知道原來搵到錢既人係會好大洗(指我)
我又會緊張左d錢好多(因為越洗越少)
haha~見到媽咪的"苦衷"
佢成日都哦我要讀好d書
唔係邊有咁好既生活丫~!!!!!!!!
唉~越近放榜心情越沉重
唔係好驚前路,反而驚唔知媽咪會點
驚唔知點面對佢...... = ="
好........唔知點
佢哦我要俾時間讀下英文
但我真係無乜心機........去讀幾粒鐘(in fact 唔想睇書)
睇電視都ok
但........就係連短宣本書我都未睇完~點死~!!!
呀~~~~~~~~~~~>.<
不過,我諗我會衝到既~
加油哦~其他短宣成員~!
小白,oiyee,wingyee,sumer,仲有自己都要加油fighting~!!!
雅婷,him,fish ........豬豬missing你地哦~!
>(00)< love ALL of U~!

>>June 28, 2005 at 5:47:02 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 22 日 星期三 【乍寒還暖】

好悶丫~
好唔鍾意無野做既時候~!
好死悶
呀~~~~~~~~
好想好忙~
唔知係我唔搵野黎做定係真係無野做呢?
唉~唯有睇殺戮中的再生la~
>.<
..............

>>June 22, 2005 at 3:46:34 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 21 日 星期二 【颱風】

滴答滴答.........................嘩!!!!!!!!!!!!!好大雨丫~
今朝一早醒左,4時多...........做乜丫~~~~~~~~~~~~`
咁早醒來有什麼做呢~?
想再睡,好想睡.但又悶熱到睡不著
不想睡,有什麼可以作呢~?
食野,睇電視,上網都沒有做到
反而好乖咁打掃,洗碗,睇書<<殺戮中的再生>>

好唔想睇la~正如hemmy咁講
唔係好想睇住d柬埔寨人點殺自己的同胞
容許我大喊一句：痴線家～～～～～～～～～！
佢地的無情是出於心底的嗎？
佢地的殘忍是與生俱內的嗎？
佢地．．．．．．以仇殺為樂～！
佢地．．．．．．心裡剛硬～！
佢地．．．．．．不曾內疚，不曾膽怯嗎？
真的．．．．．．令人．．．．難以想像！
唉～
沒經歷過戰亂的我，只是透過電視去知道世界的另一角發生什麼事！
只懂”係咁噫”的可憐下～
不曾感受那種生死不由自己的複雜感覺，
活在惶恐之中－－－害怕給自己熟識的人出賣．
人．再不可信
親人也是．同胞也是．國家更是．
如果．．．．．我出生於柬埔寨這鬼地方．．．我一定一早就自殺，或發瘋或作了一個隨波逐流的窩囊～！
對自己沒信心，我對自己的信仰也沒信心？
我能經得起考驗嗎？
我能持守我是基督的門徒這身份嗎？
．．．．．．．．．．．．

＝　＝”


好好在穩定的時地就建立對神對自己的信心．
否則．．．．　＞＞將會不堪一擊！！！

學習中．．．．．
等待中．．．．．
成長中．．．．．
思考中．．．．．
混亂中．．．．．
蒙福中．．．．．
被受陶造中．．．
自我建立中．．．

大家努力哦～在靈內彼此以禱告支持對方吧～！
加油～ｆｉｇｈｔｉｎｇ！！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈
想念你們～　＞（００）＜

>>June 21, 2005 at 11:54:06 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

好累
呢個星期都好累
太多野忙?
都係既
但心靈上,肉體上都weak了~
不過都好在開始pick up番靈修生活~
thx god~!

耶和華阿,你已經鑒察我,認識我.
我坐下,我起來,你都曉得....
我行路,我躺臥,你都細察,你也深知我一切所行的.
上帝阿,求你鑒察我,知道我的心思,試煉我,知道我的意念
看我裡面有甚麼惡行沒有,引導我走永生的道路.

詩139篇

求神鑒察我心
好叫我成為你合用的器皿
成為你的工人.
seek ye first

>>June 17, 2005 at 11:38:13 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】

叱排靈命低潮
唔係咁得~
但改善中~

太多煩思~
太多顧慮
1)愛情問題
2)心靈(靈裡枯乾)
3)學業前途問題
4)7月8放榜後能否去cambodia既憂慮
5)事奉的能力,方向......
6)自身的問題處理的問題
7)好想逃避問題
8)懶.........................死~!
9)累.........................死~!
10)教會的工作,做.......................未死,但就死~!
唉~頭個4樣最煩~

為我切切禱告~
pray for all of u also~!

讓我們有心靈空間去聽神話語,也向神說盡心事~!

學到: 信心只會 "有" 同 "無"
唔係分 "大" 同 "小" ~ !

>(00)< ^(00)< ^(00)^ @(00)@ ~(00)~ =(00)= $(00)$ *(00)*
8 小福~ 可愛又得意~ yeah~!

p.s 我要做一個又堅強,又可愛,又出色的女仔~!

>>June 6, 2005 at 1:13:28 AM GMT+8