2004 年 3 月 12 日 星期五 【陰】

我好失望.....難度我真係咁差嗎?
點解??? 我真係唔明.......
我依家真係好傷心，點解要咁對我? 我做錯什麼事呢?
一個人面對這個問題唔容易，雖然我知道亞四哥會幫我，但係無奈地佢又係一個大忙人。好多時想搵佢幫我都冇時間.....

真係覺得自己好失敗。

>>March 17, 2004 at 11:27:39 AM GMT+8

2004 年 3 月 10 日 星期三 【陰】

我今日好開心呀! 點解? 我只可以話返工好好玩。今早我去到時唔知點入間店所以走後門。之後個帥傅同我講，我只要踢一踢個門就得。嘻~真係得呀! 做完清潔工作便開始上包。我真係好busy呢。大約九點幾我至可以送貨。我食早餐係大約十一點。亞Beth其實好多0野講同好好笑，因為佢有說不盡的話。

我有一個半鐘食lunch時間。我好開心地周圍去。我都唔係好記得做過0羊0野因為我所記得的只有我不停地上包。

哈哈~~~開始想ZZZZZzzzzzzzz呢..................................

>>March 11, 2004 at 12:19:11 PM GMT+8

2004 年 3 月 8 日 星期一 【酷熱】

Hehe~ I got to work today! and I got paid too! SO HAPPY~!

Well, I got a call from uncle today at midday asking me to work at three. I was rather surprised but I reckoned it would be good so I accepted. Today is a horribly hot day but I was hoping that at work it would be cooler as it's inside and things like that. Anyway, I got to work and it was not as bad as I thought (at least I wasn't sweating as if I have just came out of the shower!) so I kept my mind on the work until there was not much more for me to do at the end. It must be the weather that kept everybody inside or something, there were so many buns left. It was such a waste to have to chuck them all out but what can we do?

I got home and there was no dinner. ><" We had buns and that was it! I can't believe that Vincent and mother are so lazy but then so am I, haha! Eric is still not home at the moment and I don't know where he is. It's worrying to see that your brother always comes home so late. Sigh.......

I am so happy to talk to fourth brother tonight about some problems. He is always there to help me when I need a hand. So thankful lei! I don't know what I will do without his help during this rocking time. It is horrible for me to deal alone but he has helped me so much that I don't know how to repay him for what he has done.

Oh just remembered! Auntie is going to get baptised in the coming baptism! That's such a great news!
We should all cheer for joy!

>>March 9, 2004 at 12:49:25 PM GMT+8

2004 年 3 月 1 日 星期一 【陰】

哈哈~我又要打返前幾日0既事啦。

其實都冇0野好講。星期日我返主日學。好似我0地個schedule慢了一個星期，所以帥母就好快地 go through 我0地0既study guide 啦。我諗真係要備課了! 好開心Eric因為要車我0既原因，佢都要上主日學。不過最開心那個應該係亞嫂呢!佢成日話二佬唔乖因為佢唔上堂而依家佢有上啦。嘻嘻~~

星期日Sara同Andy返了香港。我相信habakkuk好多人去0左送機，因為好小人去afternoon service。知道大佬去0左送機而二佬夜晚要去Alfred屋企食飯，所以叫Andrew車我返屋企。真係好多謝佢咁好人車我返Killarney呢!

琴日返學都係好似平時一樣，nothing special。
今日都係一樣。

>>March 2, 2004 at 8:33:26 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 27 日 星期五 【晴】

I kind of forgot what day I last posted an entry so if I repeated myself do forgive me.
On thursday I went to work and it was rather interesting. I remembered doing so much work that I hardly had any time to rest. Most of the time I was standing beneath the stairs just getting the tarts out from the case which they were made out from. As the phrase said with practise you will improve. I completely agree with that. Now I can get them out a bit faster than last sunday. I did ruin a few though unfortunately. Still I had a pretty good time that day.

I can't remember ever standing for such long time in my life but maybe I can lose a bit more weight working this time? When I worked at the country club there was a time when I lost a bit of weight. Maybe I will get lucky this time too. Haha~ I have no idea why I am going on about this maybe I have lost my mind and just babbling now.

On friday, I woke up late of course seeing that for the past four days I had to wake up so early therefore I slept till ten or eleven. I had to get ready for practising hymns leading with Binella and Jenny. I think Binella was too stressed about this because it was her first time (if I was not wrong). I tried to reassure her but how effective that was I wouldn't know. Finally we left at around three and went to Jenny's place first where we got drink a bowl of nice soup. It was really nice and I thought it was chicken soup when I smelt in at the beginning but it wasn't. We left for church at four and I got off first because Eric and Jenny went to pick up Binella from her place. That took awhile and after they were all at church we started on our practising. It went not so well because there was a song that was just a bit high for us to sing. The pitch was out of our reach so we decided in the end that we wouldn't sing that line out loud just in case we were out of tune.

When we finally started our fellowship (late as usual), Binella and I were up first. We did alright and I hope that eased Binella anxiety of leading hymns next time. Eric was the person in charge of today's program as James couldn't make it last night. He said a lot of things that I wasn't too sure about the points to it. Anyway, we were farewelling people today as some of the older people are going to change fellowship due to their maturity. Also we are farewelling Sara who is going back to Hong Kong because she has finished her studying over here. It is sad to see them go but I guess we all need to move on and at this moment it's time for Leo, Sara, Vincent, Zeason, Mary, James, Donna and I can't remember who else to move to the next step in their lives in Christ. I am sure that we will see them still at times on Sundays when we have services or something.

Must say here, best of luck to them all and may God bless them!

We went to eat maccas after fellowship and I was starving to death. Rather happy to eat at last. Just to mention something really important, our long no see friends Zita and Karen came back to Habakkuk last night. It was fastastic to see them again. I missed Zita a lot because she is like an older sister to me someone that I can look up to. Beceause of the cinderella rule, Vincent, Eric and I had to leave really fast but we still got scolded when we got home. ><~!

Anyway, I have enjoyed my time so far and I wish that I will keep on growing in Christ as I have so much to learn. Cheers~! ^^~!

>>February 28, 2004 at 9:13:10 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 24 日 星期二 【乍寒還暖】

今日又去0左佢屋企。我好開心可以同佢一齊正0野食同watch movie。呢d唔係成日可以做0既事我好珍惜。

哈哈~聽日要返工所以我諗依家都係時候去ZZZZzzzzz了。

>>February 25, 2004 at 1:24:19 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 23 日 星期一 【雨】

哇~~ 我今日勁開心呀，因為我又做0左一樣我好想做0既0野。
今日我有亞媽車我出去Chatswood到坐火車返Hornsby。唔知點解我會早過琴日seeing that個時間都係差不多。我hand in琴日冇交的那份功課，之後上堂。呢個先生都好錫我，時常都話我對住佢笑。不過今日有d embarrassing 因為佢幾次在成個class前玩我。我始終好開心bor。

放學後就立刻沖去佢屋企。 本來諗住出去但係見到落雨後就打消了呢個idea。我去佢屋企watch了一陣電視，之後食0野同watched a korean film。哈哈~ 我其實唔係好知the film 講mud。
我唔想返屋企ga其實，因為我最唔鍾意落雨0既時間出去。好在我坐bus冇問題jie。

就係咁樣又猜0左一日啦! 唉~~~~~

>>February 24, 2004 at 9:42:26 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 22 日 星期日 【微冷】

Well, I will just do a bit of update here since I didn't write any since last thursday. On friday, I woke up really early and set off with mother to the child care centre that she was working at for the last three weeks. I was only going to see how it was like there. I found the kids all very adorable but I really will not be able to handle this job. Firstly, I am not very good with kids. I mean, if they cry, I can't really make them stop because I don't have the specialty of doing anything to prevent them from crying for longer period of time. Then, I just don't have the patience. I cannot stand one thing for too long so if the kids are all very noisy or something, then I am afraid that I might lose my temper with them. That's not exactly called child caring, more child abusing. (I might get sued for it and I don't want that!)

I left the place at around two and got a bus to eastwood to Jenny's place. I was so tired that I just felt like sleeping but Jenny was sleeping too because she played mah jong the previous night until four in the morning. We left a bit too late as the gates to the church was closed and we couldn't get in. Therefore we went to Macquarie Centre to wander around until six thirty when we had maccas for dinner again. We had bible study that night and I must say that I was rather confused with what I heard on that night because I wasn't understanding the main point of the study. Hence, Leo and Andrew and Eric Yu were discussing about things in circles and plus my lack of sleep etc...things were just majorly confusing for me. At least on that night we didn't go to eat maccas again for supper otherwise I would rather jump off my balcony.

On Saturday, Eric, Jenny, Gail and I attended the workshop at Rockdale. It was on how to care for people. I found that very useful because I am never too good with caring for other people even though people like Binella and Jenny might say another thing. Anyway, I found out that I have approached a sad person wrongly just the previous night too and I did learn a lot from the workshop.
After the workshop we went to Debra's place who dished up a fabulous dinner for us. We stayed at her place until very late.

On Sunday, very naughtily Jenny, Debra, Binella and I all didn't go to sunday school. The reason, I guessed just couldn't wake up. We had a sermon by Mr Lai. It was a very good talk and I did learn from it which is very important to me now. If I can't learn anything then I think it's not a good sign. I was asked to go in for work in the afternoon on Sunday and I was in rather a rush because I was choosing songs with Binella on Sunday so that we could give the music to Jenny and let her practise. Unfortunately, we didn't get to choose anything yet so we are still stuck at the same place. Anyway, working at the Hong Kong cafe now is interesting. I get to know more about the types of bread in the shop and what I must do now is to remember the look for each one of the buns. There are a few that are especially tricky. It was good that I didn't have to cook dinner though because I went to work.

I got home and I was supposed to start on my homework that was due today and I just hastily typed up something due to the fact that I was on the phone for nearly two hours even though I knew I had something to do. I did get to talk about more productive thing this time on the phone though. Got to some topics that we were unable to have earlier and now I think our understanding is much better.

Now, let's talk about today. I woke up rather late and I left home a bit late too. My mother took me up to Jameison Square and we were at the bus stop when I realised that I didn't bring my stupid wallet. We rushed home to pick it up and went back out again and by this time I was really late. I waited a long time for the bus but it didn't come so in the end mother drove me to Chatswood. I got on a train pretty much straight away so I arrived right on time for my class. When I saw people coming in with clothes that were very formal looking I started to panick. I wasn't expecting today's presentation to be that formal so I was wearing just jeans and jacket nothing special. When I heard people's presentation I started to wonder rather I did the wrong thing or not, so I asked the teacher and he said it was alright.
During the break I called up Ricky to ask for information and I woke Debra up also disturbed Eric from his pool cleaning. I was the last person to give the presentation last today and I reckon with better preparation next time I should be great at this thing.

The second lesson was more entertaining than the first one. Doug is a very funny teacher. He let us read about one of his own mistakes for one of his market research. We were separated into four groups and we were to discuss what he did wrong and stuff like that. This is like real life case study which is going to be handy for us later on in life if we wish to proceed to work in this field of area. I got to go home early today again which was fantastic because I was half dead! When I got to Chatswood I was planning to buy myself a drink but when I got the water off the shelf in Coles and was lining up, I realised that I have no money! What a stupid thing to do! I thought that I still had ten bucks in my wallet but then I remembered now that I used it on Saturday. I caught the bus home straight away before I died from thirst.

So, that was my experience for the last few days. I hope that you guys enjoy reading this essay format of my diary. I can't be bothered to type in chinese as it's so long. If I typed in chinese that will probably take me about two days before I can finish.

Now I must go and find food before I starve to death. Eric is cooking again tonight. So cool!

>>February 23, 2004 at 10:15:28 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 18 日 星期三 【晴】

琴日十分之開心呢!我同亞哥，亞嫂渡過o左一個值得celebrate 0既日子。我一早就出0左門口，因為我要返學。第一堂我覺得都ok但係到第二堂時我頂唔順就sleep through 了 whole lesson 啦。一放學我便立刻去火車站坐車去city。呢程車坐0左勁長時間，差唔多一個鐘。落車後好不容易地才找到二佬。本來打tennis點知變0左打basketball。不過我都唔介意打，因為以前有跟亞哥佢0地一切打過。

我請Eric食maccas之後我0地去ccf。今次係我第一次返ccf，但係如果唔係我太疲倦我相信我會幾enjoy呢次團聚。哈~ 最有趣的係我見到William (唔係肥仔)。唔知到Sze Wan點呢?當ccf完之後我0地車0左Jenny返屋企，跟住去Hornsby車大佬回家。

唉~ 依家令我最煩惱的就係我二佬同二嫂有病呀!琴日佢0地拋棄我話要私奔0我。我真係可憐呢!
如果唔係我有二佬個電話0係手ga話我一定會勁驚。佢0地依家又不斷地0係我面前讚某個人好，真係又煩又好笑。 哈哈~ 比佢0地吹脹!

今日我好遲先起身。唔係always我可以十二點起身。好享受啊!
嘻嘻~ I have nothing else to say for the day now, so I will stop right here. ^^~!
Cheers!

>>February 19, 2004 at 6:03:35 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 16 日 星期一 【晴】

今日一早就要上堂。依家真係好想sleep呢。我去到學校時剛好九點所以我可以send message比Jenny。我諗住要同佢一起買亞哥o既生日禮物，所以約o左佢o向Ricky間店度等。我同Ricky傾了一陣計但係佢都未來。之後我同佢去買禮物。我o地兩個都唔知買什麼好。到最後買了什麼我便不提啦。

亞哥大約五點才出到來。我同佢o地兩個玩o左一陣後就踢佢o地走，因為佢兩個有病呢!
兩個人不停地稱讚某一個人，又叫我同佢傾計，真係有病! 唉~ 我亞哥同亞嫂............

>>February 17, 2004 at 10:32:17 AM GMT+8