2003 年 10 月 30 日 星期四 【炎熱】

Lastly it reactivates. That was already a week time!
Okay, forget it.

I should be uplifed, right? In fact, I don't.

Why why why?

Why argue with me? Why it is no use?
Why I put all my effort to make you happy but you just keep losing temper?
Why do I get angry so easily? Why don't I want to be scold?

I don't want to turn blind eyes on it. I still have feeling.
Please don't let my heart "solidified".

I am angry.

I was angry.

>>October 31, 2003 at 10:22:32 AM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 22 日 星期三 【晴】

As today I need to do my composition, I will use Chinese in today's diary ^^

嘩, 今日就真係激la, 我都未試過有一次test係咁冇準備, 就去考ga!
連pure我至少都會睇一次d notes, 但係今次既phy test, 我就連完整既一次都未睇晒
係咁易背下d式, 就上la
我好似連d式都未背晒~
對住楊sir, 真係心灰意冷la, 靠自己!

今日華叔真係鏗鏘有力, 擲地有聲呀~ 講到" '少做少錯'係名節保身之道". 佢既理由真係好強
激動之餘, 講到好有感觸, 仲要時不時眼氾淚光...
佢呢方面真係好有經驗...

總括黎講, 今日都唔錯

>>October 23, 2003 at 10:07:28 AM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 21 日 星期二 【炎熱】

Every thing under control~
I love it~

Come on~

Hugging is healthy. It helps the body's immune system, it keeps you healthier, it cures depression, it reduces stress, it induces sleep, it's invigorating, it's rejuvenating, it has no unpleasant side effects, and hugging is nothing less than a miracle drug.
Hugging is all natural. It is organic, naturally sweet, no pesticides, no preservatives, no artificial ingredients and 100 percent wholesome.
Hugging is practially perfect. There are no movable parts, no batteries to wear out, no periodic check-ups, low energy consumption, no monthly payments, no insurance requirements, theft-proof, nontaxable, nonpolluting and, of course, fully returnable.

(copy from Chicken Soup for the Soul)

>>October 22, 2003 at 9:27:10 PM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 20 日 星期一 【炎熱】

I find that the time is always insufficient. When I can do somethings, I can't finish others. While I can finish all the things, I don't have enough time for a rest. Is this my own problem of efficientcy or it will happen to the others?

I am tried, I couldn't concentrate on what he was saying. I didn't understand. I even not able to caught up what he was teaching. I wanted to give up. It's hard...

No, all these are blatant excues. Why can't I understand the only way to succeed up till this moment? All the hard works are neccessary. There is no luck!
Just run over the hurdles!
In quest of self-esteem, the only way is to find out your strong sides and endure all the PAIN from your hard work. Ms. Au is right, we are over pampered. While we come across difficulties we can't overcome that. We would give ourselves excues. We critised the examinations system because we got a poor result. We never tought of our own faults. We are not conscientious enough. We haven't faced enough oreals.

To give it up is easy.
Yes, it's very easy indeed.

I can't do so, I can't let you down.

>>October 21, 2003 at 1:57:45 PM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 19 日 星期日 【晴】

I was made brisk by the good weather today.
I was asked to stand up by CK suddenly when I was discussing some pure maths questions with 煒哥. It seems that he didn't realise what we were talking about was not related to what he was teaching. He critised what I had said was trivial! HAHA, it's so funny. He didn't notice he had made a mistake~~~I suggested he would better have his hears checked.

When everyone concentrated on what he or she was doing, they did find that the time always passed very quickly. The same as today, despite the absent of Mr. Yeung I have spent my time on pure maths. There were so many question raised and so the best way was leaving them to CK to solve it. But his absent in the staff room after school was just like a rebuff. How come he always leaves the room whenever we were seeking assist from him?

Well...it's a shame that I felt onto the stairs when I was hasted to run up to the library. Why I was always being reckless and absent-minded during the critical moment? I need to change the behaviours by all means or I will face great troubles very soon...

How to write my self-recommendation? Do I really understand myself enough to do so? No, I feel that I can't always understand what I have done and predict what I will do. I couldn't understant why I had such feelings in some incidents respectively. Despite the 18 years I have just noticed few of my characteristic. Am I fail in being an adult? You know...I am not mature enough, there are many things I should have leart and need to learn...Owning to my too outspoken behaviour I have made many schoolmates angry. I just can't stop it as I am quite persistent and having too much assurance. When I found something wrong I would point it out immediately as I am too proud of myself to show off...
It's pity...
I have put all my effort to try to correct it but I have been lacking of perseverance. The result is not significent enough. Still I am optimistic about it...many fortune tellers (not many in fact, at least 2-4 which have the same conclusion) have told me that I will have a successful but full of challenges future~

At least, there exist some personalities which are worth prouding of, right?

Today I have learnt many vocabularies~~

>>October 20, 2003 at 12:00:19 PM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 18 日 星期六 【炎熱】

I haven't slept until 12pm for a long time ago. This was the first time that I slept so sweetly and deeply.

I finished my English essays, and then took a break for about 2 hours. When I tried to do the physic mc but it was the time for dinner. Now I have just finished my dinner, and I will need to wash the dishes very soon.

I have already decided my first 16 choices in the JUPAS...Well, I think I won't change it until next year. Hope that I will perform well in those interview.

So much homework...it just like a habit that during each weekend many homework will be distributed.

>>October 19, 2003 at 12:18:52 PM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 17 日 星期五 【炎熱】

After going to HKU I can assure my futher path. I understand myself very much that I am not a person who can create knowledge, so I am not suitable to take the pure science subjects which need us to do research at the futher. Also I am not the one who can always stay in a harmonious life, while I need challenges to find out my place in the society, it's some kind of ambition, right?

Surveying is a good choice as the requirement is relatively low, also the subjects to study are also interesting, I don't think I will be bored if I enter the department. As I want to test myself, I think BBA, Econ&Fin will be more suitable for me. Once I can get a D in UE, there will be no problem for me to enter those department. I am quite confident about that.
I am not taking kindly to choose Maths in HKU mainly because of that professor, who was delegated to carried out the admission talk in the morning. His presentation skill was much worse then 昭哥! His sound would make you sleep very easily. And what he said were nonsense. He was just kept frigthening us...

To choose from Econ&Fin in UST and HKU, it's a paintaking determination. UST has more moden amenities and the environment is fantastic. Unluckily there will be 4 exams each year. HKU has a long history and more wellknown, and there will be much spare time for me to do part time jobs in the later. The problem is that the department in UST is stronger than HKU. Maybe there is someone who doesn't agree with me, but I believe that.

Anyway, perhaps I will decide it depends on my result in UE.

Asenal was too lucky. It triumph over Chlesa was all because of luck.

>>October 19, 2003 at 6:10:51 AM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 16 日 星期四 【颳風】

My own body is getting better.

It really true that the reward is always proportional to your effort. YES!

Now I can start reading the English book. It's great.

Future, I can seize the tail of it right now.

>>October 17, 2003 at 2:26:34 PM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 15 日 星期三 【乍雨乍晴】

I had a running nose in the whole morning and so nearly half of the pack of tissue paper has been used up. I nose was nearly broken! It's so annoying!
I had much time to talk with Suman and 鄧燕玲 about the future as we have finished the easy experiment early in the lessons. I found that actually Suman was live in 藍田! At the past I though she live in 青衣, as she appeared like a 青衣people very much! She only need to take a 30 minutes jounery to UST, it's so convenient.
And鄧燕玲she wanted to study socioloy and the related subjects, yes I agreed they are very good choices.
The first time I contributed most to the Language system paper and the result was better than anticipation. It encouraged me very much by telling me that I could do well as the other did. I am not a very worst person, it's meaningfull! The status quo has much room for improvement though as I noticed there were at least 4-5 careless mistakes made.
I CAN DO THAT!! (roar again)

Luckily I could be able to find my 唐山大地震which I lost in the 4th lesson in 402 after school. Thz!

100% accelerating!

>>October 16, 2003 at 2:30:01 PM GMT+8

2003 年 10 月 14 日 星期二 【乍雨乍晴】

Again today was also cold in the morning, I supposed that everyone would easily over-slept in the cool environment. There were 2 bad things happen on me and my spirits get sagged. They were just little things for others while these were the alarm to me.
My Chinese composition and English composition. I didn't contribute much to it but the differences were so great that I couldn't accept. I didn't really agree with Mr. Chan's comment which said that my arguements were too superfical, and the content didn't fit with the topic. Did he really read my essay? I agree that it was not an outstanding one it deserved a higher marks.
When I received my first English composition, I was shocked. Another fail mark appeared in my eyes, and then went straight to my brain, I was totally disappointed. Why? Why? Why?
Anger+shame+disappointment+depression+fear=Courage!
This is a way that you can't look back, just close the eyes and keep going. GO GO GO!
Obstacles will always appear in the path which you want to go through.
That's the rule of success. I believe in what I believe.

"The eden in your mind" (你心目中的世外桃源) was the topic of personal presentation in CL&C lessons. From my point of view, I do believe that everyone should be able to find a eden mentally. If not their will find that their lifes was full of unhappyness. To be optimistic is the best way to form your own paradise. Why do we chase the one which may not ever exist? What you feel and see are depends on your own choice.

Another pure maths. test was hold today. That's the second time I attended the test without any preparation. It's difficult but lastly someone told me that among the 4 questions there were 3 came from our text book which I haven't got back to home last night. In fact that made no difference as I didn't have the mood of revision yesterday. I will just wait and see what result I will get.

The last meeting of SU made me felt a little bit sad as it mean that I have to leave the position after a year of work. I couldn't use any work to describ my feeling at that moment. Hai~......

Didn't you know that we will be worried about you if you go back home so late? How come you are always forget to bring your mobile phone? Why there are so many coincidences?

I want to roar~ >0<

>>October 15, 2003 at 12:14:38 PM GMT+8