2008 年 2 月 25 日 星期一 【晴】

I told my instructor that I would like to sit for the test in early April, he replied that I will need to have 2 x double lesson per week.

I feel a little bit disappointed. Anyway, I know he wants me to feel good behind the wheels before I attempt the test...

I tried something new with this instructor. Today we did a parking between two cars, he asked me to turn the stirring wheel 360' + 180' while we enter the parking slot. Other time he instructs me to turn the stirring wheel for 360' before turning in a right angle to the right/ left. He has explained, but I still do not understand why we turn like that... Above all, the parking... the car was parked in the very centre for two cars and the right turn, I also entered the lane in the very middle of the lane. It is amazing!

>>February 26, 2008 at 3:54:18 AM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 24 日 星期日 【晴】

I met a sister on Saturday and she was very excited when she received my magnetic business card. She asked if she was the first one to receive it, I thought for awhile and said YES. I didn't thought whom I should give out my card first, but since she's one that I seldom meet and talk, I gave her my card on the spot when I see her. Things are well on the way, I've got my ABN by now (Australian Business Number), with my Working With Children Check, I think it's safe to give service & get paid.

I will begin a teaching career next week. And this week, will be further practising piano as well as learning and observing how to teach & relate to kids. The other day I told dad that I will be teaching, and he replied that teaching is a very boring job. (If I allow myself to swear in someone's name, to shout out coarse languages, I will shot him with trillions reply.) Well, maybe he is kind enough to tell me the truth? Anyhow I dislike someone to say something negative when I am full of passion to start something new in my life.

To be honest, my piano skills haven't been progressing since I left Taylors. I have devoted all my time to my viola and piano is a toy for me since than. I like it, I play and vice versa. I picked up a Mozart Sonata today, it was where I left off last time. Dad has told me that you might not need many many pieces on hand, someone can 一 song 走天涯. I have memorized that piece Canon in D and have been playing it since F. 3, it served me so much. Hahha, now will proceed with a more proper piano piece.

Other than that, sometimes I am afraid to teach higher grades, I mean, I am not much higher level than they, what can I teach... At uni, we have workshops, everyone is nearly the same boat and we help each others out in their potential ability. We give feedbacks and exchange ideas. And as I have seen a teacher's idea on the internet, he said he is not teaching, but just exchanging ideas. I like that statement! Of course, it won't work with some aggressive parents.

In sum, I aim to perfect a Mozart Sonata, play it perfectly, play it in a cool style... and let it flow. To my students, I will try my best to be creative and share with them how I learn and what can be applied in playing music.

Ah... I should write down a mission statement for my teaching career? You reckon?

>>February 25, 2008 at 5:05:50 AM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 20 日 星期三 【晴】

Grateful...

1// the rent $758 has been returned from AGL!
2// Received February's income!

>>February 21, 2008 at 9:14:27 AM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 14 日 星期四 【晴】

Due to my 'casual' schedule, I go to work on and off each week. I know that I will have work next Tuesday, but after that, I do not know. I had my driving lesson with my new instructor today, it's the 2nd time with him. He's an OLD man and speak with an Aussie accent. This driving school offers lesson from 7am to 9pm. It's real good for people like me... even if I have to work in the afternoon, I can take my lesson at night!

>>February 15, 2008 at 6:00:36 AM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 11 日 星期一 【晴】

If ever I have a choice, I won't choose to go to work at 9am. The train was super crowded this morning and I was sorry that a few passengers weren't able to get on the train. It was 8:17am, everyone's on their way to work. When we approach Malvern Station, I saw the heavy traffic jam on Princess Highway. Last year I start work at 9am in Monash Homestay, but since it's the opposite direction of the city, I have never experience what it is like to take a train in the peak hours. No wonder they do not allow bicycle to be on board during peak times!

By 10am, I completed my pay sheet and wanted to leave the company. My supervisor didn't let me go. She insisted that I need to sit for the test job before I go. I wanted to leave early because I had an interview in the city. Well, they quickly arranged a test job for me, dialling to Sydney... I did it and it was quite okay.

Yet no matter how, I missed my train. When I arrived in the city, it was 10:43am, I was still in Flinders Station. I took the tram and got off for the building. Moreover, I called V' Line once again and realized that I have made a mistake! Building No 628 on that street. But I heard and jotted down Building No 6-8. "6 to 8" and "6 2 8". I asked if the building is near Parliament, but the lady replied that it was near Spencer. So I was being late for 10 minutes.

I arrived and set down for the interview. To the perspective of the employer, I would say I didn't do well. Moreover, it is my first attempt to answer some behavioural questions, I was pleased with my performance. There are questions that I have never thought about, so it's rather fair enough in my point of view.

>>February 12, 2008 at 10:14:34 AM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 10 日 星期日 【晴】

FRAGILE

I think that this word "fragile" describe me best for now.

Daniel 10:8
So I was left alone, gazing at this great vision; I had no strength left, my face turned deathly pale and I was helpless.



It's in my weakest that God's glory shine in my life. Woo!

>>February 11, 2008 at 5:59:47 AM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 8 日 星期五 【晴】

Tears, tears, tears...

I am tired, I want to cry

I am frustrated, I want to cry

I am touched, I want to cry

I am very fragile now, I want to cry

I want to be loved, I want to cry and just let everyone around come & support me


After V' Line arranged an interview time with me, my boss called me to teach violin. At the same time, I am having a test job next week, if I pass it, I can go for the actual job.

The path for "Admin" is opened, so do "Music", it is also opened. I have lots of conversation & sharing with my trusted friends these 2 days. Many many inspirations, and many many ideas were shared. I feel that I am entering the 2nd stage in my job seeking. I don't know how many stages there will be.

The 1st stage, I would say, it's for me to send & wait for job applications, and I surely and certainly I know that whatever comes first, and whichever gives me the opportunities, I will have a go. In this 2nd stage, it is more than that. It's not only about music & admin. It's about priority and opportunity cost.

I am offered an opportunity this afternoon. Oh come on! It's harder when thousands of choice are available! I also learned that fresh graduates have lots and lots of opportunities, coz we don't mind the pay, coz we are the entry level people, and coz, we know that it's hard to get a job, so whatever it is, have a go first...

I experienced a time when I am super excited with all these opportunities that I wasn't able to calm down & pray and read God's words. I am too happy, too joyful to settle down... I am hoping that tomorrow will be a day to organize all the thoughts in my mind and try to see what are the possibilities.

-//-

I found that sometimes I am putting high expectation on some of my friends. I shared with them my thinking & feelings, they listened and responded. Yet, they are giving me solutions and comments. No, I wanted people to listen by the heart, not by their ears. When I say "I am tired", can you get what I mean? Do you know what my "tiredness" imply? Perhaps I have a few friends who are counsellor/ pastoral staff/ psychologist, they are too understanding. At some point I wanted my friends to be as sensitive as these professional. Sorry guys!

Anyway, I just learned that I can easily cry these days. I am experiencing God, he touched me so much... I feel that I am not as strong as before. I am not anymore that "serious"/ "straightforward"/ "firm". I feel that I am more understanding and more flexible. Opening my weaknesses to people, and limited my time in sharing my pride.

I am tired... hahah.... well, I am tired in this journey of transformation. It's hard & take much effort. I need to deal with my emotions & expectations. But when I noticed the changes & its goodness, I thank God. It has been a year since I have my counselling, it's only 1 year after that I see some improvements.

是你將生命燃亮，年月裡拆毀再建造，
以往的掙扎，常恐怕再出現，
但你讓我在你懷裡重享安息。

>>February 9, 2008 at 12:49:16 PM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 6 日 星期三 【晴】

Received a call from the music studio - offering a violin teaching position

>>February 7, 2008 at 1:01:59 PM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 5 日 星期二 【晴】

The agent called me today regarding my rent overdue... Seems my property manager didn't talk to the owner... I hope my owner won't kick me out of Murrumbeena...

-//-

"I have tried to contact you to arrange an interview. Can you please call me when you have a spare minute to arrange a time for early next week."

Regards,
C. V.

-//-

>>February 6, 2008 at 6:05:12 AM GMT+8

2008 年 2 月 4 日 星期一 【晴】

I met some more new people today... Rachel of Planetshakers form Singapore, Chen, the able-to-speak-multi-language-guy, Chasine from South China, and I-Hei, the designer from Korea. They are great people!

Also we met our client today - a big big big company! Guys, you play MSN right? Our client is Microsoft! Seems like so proud to work for this big company! However... there's a test coming and some of us might be pulled out for the job. Many colleagues left at 4pm today, and I stayed a further of 30 minute, hoping to study for the test...

Will I get this job... I don't know...

Our client was so generous to give us a souvenir, heheh, brought to us from the US! So cool!

I wish to share with you more what happened working with our client... >.< Yet I will respect my work and keep the confidentiality. hohoho...

>>February 5, 2008 at 7:48:35 AM GMT+8