2008 年 11 月 22 日 星期六 【晴】

eXperiencing a new kind of pain

I want to cry

I want to call you, so you would give me a pat

but it was 0:45, too late to call

>>November 23, 2008 at 3:00:49 PM GMT+8

2008 年 11 月 13 日 星期四 【晴】

我對您好失望！

>>November 14, 2008 at 1:37:20 AM GMT+8

2008 年 11 月 1 日 星期六 【晴】

Thank you God for his provision.

I had spent quite a lot in October, but most of them are one time off (1/2 year viola lesson fees, music books, etc) and many hundred bulks for travelling - to HK especially. I am visiting HK tomorrow as well, to rehearse for Man's Wedding, and also the 3rd HK Choir Cell is happening in mid-November.

A few bits and pieces:

- Went shopping this afternoon. Budget to get one pair of jeans around $300-$400. Moreover, I went into the shop, tried on two pairs of jeans, and each of them are costing $499. The salesperson told me that I can get a discount, and it comes to $6xx for two pairs. I thought for awhile and bought them. I wore one this evening, and it was SUPER comfortable! I am glad I don't have to always wear the same clothes to work now...

- I have asked a question these days... Does that mean I don't love God if I am not attending fellowship in church?... When I was a student, I often doubt, why are the young adults "people" going to work instead of coming to church for cell... Why can't everyone have devotion, praying and bible study time each day... Since my return, I experienced days that I do not want to attend cell, and also days that I am not able to have time to pray + devotion + bible study. It's a good thing on one hand, as I know understand WHY and also understand HOW does that feel when someone would doubt/ comment those young adult "people".

- I left the office on Saturday evening around 8pm, I drop down my viola at home and went to get some food. Also... buy Angel Heart Monthly. On my way, I was thinking about my friend. I was angry with her, as she recently has accepted a part time teaching job. This 'situation' has happened before - my most trusted and beloved friends got extra work... and give less time to Emily... Well, I have to accept that and wish her all the best, may God send her to many unreached people.

- (Not sure if I have pop this down already.) Boss returned from Beijing on 28th October. We have a short chat and he said "No need to be afraid, Emily, God is behind!" I have never tell him that I am worry, (although I am super worry)

>>November 2, 2008 at 12:53:54 PM GMT+8

2008 年 10 月 30 日 星期四 【晴】

明修棧道，暗渡陳倉

Got a chance yesterday to share my testimony to my colleague.

Horray!

>>October 31, 2008 at 4:10:00 AM GMT+8

2008 年 10 月 28 日 星期二 【晴】

原來，大家都相信我有能力 handle 我手上的 projects。

驚我不行的，只有我自己．．．

是我不相信我能！

另一面，原來大家都驚及擔心我的 health。

反之是我從來都不多理會自己的身子！

>>October 29, 2008 at 3:14:19 AM GMT+8

2008 年 10 月 25 日 星期六 【晴】

四個字：不知所措！



4:48pm，放學

今個星期的 1-5pm 樂團 rehearsal 就完了

好無聊

打比 grandma，她說今晚有約了

她整整大半天在家，問為何我不一早找她

啊．．．今早教琴，返教會，仲有樂團呢

今日比平時放得早了

無奈

也打了給一位姊妹

她接了新工作，比平時更 busy wor

-//-

昨天個 friend 問我想不想組個 wedding team

可以介紹些客給我們

除了 $ 及幫他 (he hosts wedding services)

我看不到我會有任何得益呢

則雖一晚可賺到 HKD $2000

但我不覺得這工作可使我做到生命影響生命的事吧

我想了一會兒，coz he is my friend

that I would like to give a hand

but I might have to say sorry to my friend

-//-

回家時想去買條 jeans

不過想起 31st 要比 $ 比 mom

真不想又多一項開支啊

結果就 look 左返屋企

姐姐說留在家中是很好的事

其實，我想今晚與 friends 看 movie

又去探探 grandma

兩事都不做不到 >.<

-//-

最後決定讀書!

MMTC 課程 - keep going!

>>October 26, 2008 at 10:44:21 AM GMT+8

2008 年 10 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

Many things happened, many things that I want to share with you...

Workplace...
Someone 向我發脾氣 on Friday. I cried at once, coz I have no idea what's happening. Did I do anything wrong? -- NO! But there was miscommunications. And this someone is so mean. He is still angry with me.

Monthly Choir Cell...
I look forward to it very much, even I have to spend $316 + $23 + $2.5 + $9.5 x 2 in order to attend the cell group...

Honestly I haven't yet build a strong network for myself in Macau. That's why I love to attend this cell group so dearly. But one brother commended: "pls don't expect so much from the cell. It happens only once a month, and we all must have our own support group." On my way back home, which took 2 hours, I thought about it and realized that I have been wanting too much.

I want bro & sis who can share & support.
I want intamacy in an appropriate relationship.

However, sing this:

Oh Master grant that I may never seek, so much to be console as to console
To be understood, as to understand
To be loved, as to love with all my soul

>>October 18, 2008 at 1:27:51 PM GMT+8

2008 年 10 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

Realized that I had a fever on Monday evening...

Tuesday evening - had dinner with HK buddies

Wednesday evening - choir rehearsal

Thursday evening - Want to kill myself and die becoz of Bach

Friday evening - had dinner with HK buddies

Saturday evening - Stayed in workplace for like 12 hours, coz I have taken early leaves

>>October 18, 2008 at 1:12:47 PM GMT+8

2008 年 10 月 13 日 星期一 【晴】

Dined in Princess CAFE the second time, the last time was with Choir and this time with MST. I enjoyed the mushroom soup and my main dish - Caesar Salad, though it was a little bit salty. I asked for honey ginger tea along with my set dinner. If I am not having discomfort with my throat, bet I would order toffee coffee!

Thanks God taking care of me.

>>October 14, 2008 at 4:03:01 PM GMT+8

2008 年 10 月 8 日 星期三 【晴】

送什麼給您?

那天到了精品店，一心想著買兩份 birthday gifts

不過，我行了很久，都想不出來應送什麼

怕您不愛 Kitty/ Mickey 之類的東西

又怕這不 suits 您的 style

如果我知您喜歡什麼就好了

-//-

天生我的 love language 是 GIFTS

所以好喜歡送小禮物給別人

中二那年，以為好朋友喜歡 Buds Bunny

我就到處找 Buds Bunny 的東西

那時的 Buds Bunny，不像 Hello Kitty，到處可買得到

所以當找到了，我就會買下來送比個朋友仔

-//-

mentor 喜歡的公仔，出品很多

但有時多到很沒意思

我只好小心的去找尋特別的 snoopy

上次去 Vienna，返來時經過 UK Airport

停留時間只有 20 minutes

我找到一隻出品至 UK 的 Snoopy

開心死我！

-//-

行街時留意著朋友喜歡的東西

有時會使我，慢慢地

也愛了上了這些東西

>>October 9, 2008 at 1:37:02 PM GMT+8