2009 年 3 月 17 日 星期二 【晴】

I cried last evening in my workplace.

cried very hard...

I was aiming to finish the work yesterday

my colleague came and gave me a hand

but during her help, I felt very bad, I have some bitterness

her way of doing things and sorting/ organizing things are different from mine

I felt that the process takes longer than I work alone

I appreciate her help, though we took some time to compromise each other

I don't like her commenting what I have done and the way how I do it

Well...

there were some mistakes and some verification in the process

and also some toubles

I was so upset and unease

our clients are important

our bosses are also significant

I can't lost this battle, I can't make mistakes here

at least not this time, not this terrible mistake

I whispered...

Daddy, please help me

Daddy, I need you

Daddy, I want to finish early

Daddy, I want to go home

Daddy, you know I haven't have my dinner yet

Okay... what about, I fast tonight and please help us to settle the matter

A moment later, another colleague came back to the office

she was off from work by 6pm

She saw me crying, tears dropping very hard to the desk

She helped us, her mind is much much cleared than us

coz we're too tired

She's like an angel sent by God at that time

We didn't get the project done at once

She tried a second time

And we all added a triple check

finally, it's done, at 10:35pm

I didn't return to my mom & dad house

I know I am still emotional

so I went to my apartment

stayed for dinner and a little hiding plus some rest

then walked back to my other house

>>March 18, 2009 at 3:11:21 AM GMT+8

2009 年 3 月 15 日 星期日 【晴】

期待飲到一杯東山咖啡。



我在公司的桌上，放了我的小小 expresso 杯子、一個 french press 及兩種咖啡。Maestro 馮生見我那麼喜歡咖啡，就話去台灣找隻東山咖啡比我，不過到時我要掉曬其他的咖啡！

fair enough

>>March 16, 2009 at 3:41:49 AM GMT+8

2009 年 3 月 1 日 星期日 【晴】

Deadlines!

I was quite stressed out with my work, and my working environment. Last week, my councillor told me that it doesn't worth to stress myself out for the work. I wondered on her words. I bet she's saying that stress is one thing and excellency is another. No matter how hard I work, I realized that work is never-ending.

3 March DEAD
Concert News. Haven't done yet!

14 March DEAD
Oh well, at this moment I am preparing a job ad! I am going to receive & screen application for a position in our centre. COOL!!! I never imagine that I can read the application of job seekers!

20 March DEAD
There's a one day work shop in April which costs $430. Is that too much? I personally think it worth that price. Anyhow, I was too occupied with other stuff... we had prepared the press release, leaflets and send some personal invitation out. I am certainly that I didn't do enough to attract people to come. Our target is 100 people applying for this course. Right now I've got 2 applications! hoho... I am thinking to myself "Don't worry, God knows I am super occupied with various task, God will surely take cares of the application". I hope God gives s grace & mercy. I also pray that I am being responsible. I don't want to let my colleagues down in UK! A number doesn't mean anything, it just tells people how much work you have done, a kind of measurement. Though God doesn't measure thing like that!


Sit back & relax mate!

>>March 2, 2009 at 2:22:27 AM GMT+8

2009 年 2 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

28.02.09 Spent a super marvellous evening in HK

I arrived at HK at 8pm, gone through customs and the terrible stupid walking distance, I finally rested on the train at 8:33pm. Around 9pm, I met Jason and got picked up to meet the choir buddies.

Thanks God, after a long day I can sit down and eat my dinner. Vera & Chester were kind enough to heat up the food for me. Jason asked why I visit Melbourne earlier this year when we took the lift ride to the 61st floor! The others also asked the same question when I meet them. "SLACK", um NO, actually I had a better word "RELAX", that's the reason.

I had 1 1/2 hour in Tung Chung, although it was very limited, I had a pleasant moment ^.^ ~ the music, the fellowship... By 11:59pm, I board the ferry back to Macau. I don't know why but the ferry was super slow!!!

I am beginning to love Hong Kong.

>>March 1, 2009 at 3:45:04 PM GMT+8

2009 年 2 月 22 日 星期日 【晴】

Thank you my friends that you are still with me ^.^ ~

It's more difficult than ever to write a piece of blog. Though I love to type and share and blog every minute... But time restricted me to sit down, relax and think & drop down my thinking.

I will keep my blogs updated whenever I can. However, for the meantime, you are are welcome to join me at http://www.plurk.com/kiss_mily ~

>>February 23, 2009 at 2:10:25 AM GMT+8

2009 年 2 月 7 日 星期六 【晴】

Flashback...

13.01.09

YSO is kind enough to arrange a time for me to sit for the master class today. I am very thankful that I had a lesson with Robert Davidovic before I leave Macau. I played a caprice for him and we discussed for an hour. I learned a lot and improved dramatically! I finished the lesson at 6:10pm and boss called for me. He asked for a report of the choir. He has no idea that I was leaving tonight...

Since I am the only "office" person who has access to the accounts of the choir, I have to stay and finish the report for him. I did it, but I was very sorry that the quality is very poor! Since I dated Eliza at 7:30pm, I still have to go! Nelson gave me a lift to the ferry terminal and I was on the way to HK.

So I was on the ferry... I met Eliza 1.30 hour later. We watched Johnny's drama "The Lark". Had a snack dinner at McCafe. We had a nice chat. By the time I reached the bus stop, the bus just passed by and didn't stop for me. I took another bus which has overnight service to the airport...

14.01.09

I arrived at the airport around 1am. I was feeling unwell during the bus ride. Later I was in the lift and saw the word "clinic on Level 6". I tried to go to level 6 but found out that the clinic will only be opened at 9am. I was afraid, as I didn't have had a good rest for these 6 months, am I healthy enough to take the flight...?

I recalled that Fui told me, "if you are feeling dizzy, drink a can of coke, coke is the fastest thing that can help you regain consciousness." I then visited 7-Eleven and bought a bottle of coke and some tissues. I felt that I have caught a cold while I was on my way to HK!!!

I walked around the airport, taking photos of notice boards/ designs... I saw some construction workers working, some passengers surfing on the net/ sleeping/ drinking coffee/ having cup noodles. And I saw PACIFIC coffee, which my friend recommended me. I saw the sign board advertising "massage / pay-in lounge". I know my back is hurting and so I head off to the massage shop...

I arrived and found out that it has closed =_= ~ but I paid for the pay-in lounge. The assistance brought me to one of the rooms and leave me until the morning. I love the lounge... it is like a super small studio, consisted of a queen-sized bed and also a bathroom. I had two nice warm showers during the night. One before I sleep and one before I leave. hahaha. Fabulous! I have forgotten if I did some bible reading before I went to bed... anyway, I enjoyed my 3-hours stay in the airport!

When I checked out, the assistance told me that they offer a free breakfast for me! I left & gone through the custom. Few minutes later, I found myself having a nose bleed! I manage to control it and head off to get my breakfast. The breakfast is like those we get in a hotel, buffet style, with a mixed combination of continental & western treat. Computers were available in that lounge.

I checked my mails, and read that at least 5 persons called the office for me. Their calls weren't very urgent, but I had a feeling... I want to return to Macao and cancel my trip. It's because of my position...

I fell asleep on the sofa after checking my mails.

>>February 8, 2009 at 5:53:10 AM GMT+8

2009 年 2 月 5 日 星期四 【晴】

Thank you Jesus... I enjoyed so much in my work!

I am meeting many new faces everyday, most of them come to collect certificates. I have encountered a number of complaints. I have also received some very deep compliments. I am truly grateful to be in my position now.

We are preparing for a public exam for tomorrow. And only yesterday, I realized that I have misplaced the candidate name list! I tried to search for them and think over where I might have put them. Finally I sent an e-mail to my colleague and apologize for losing the list. The list is prepared by the UK colleagues, so I do not have a softcopy/ anther copies.

I received a reply today and the other party said IT'S OKAY, DON'T WORRY. She sent me a PDF file for the name list. A teacher called me yesterday and told me that her student has lost the exam admission form. I also replied that it's fine, I can produce another one for him. Um, I see that I have become more gentle... as in, I can make a fuss and tell the teacher that it's their responsibility, that they should be very careful...

We make mistakes... huh...? But we don't need to make the person feel more more upset after all.

I need God's wisdom to deal with clients. I want to react in every situation as Jesus would have reacted. I hope to glorify the Lord in my workplace. Amen.

>>February 6, 2009 at 3:34:11 AM GMT+8

2009 年 2 月 3 日 星期二 【晴】

Very tired tonight... I am still communicating with my colleagues in Macao, Hong Kong and the UK. Taking care of my choir kids as usual and dealing with many many phone calls...

Got mixed feeling today.

We had a function in YSO today. It was interesting to welcome the chief executive of Macao and Mr Stanley Ho to our centre for this event. I was also very glad to meet many many old friends of YSO namely Ms Wong, Mr Wong Ka, Maestro, Ms Cheung, Moon Gor, Chou Sir... they are the consultants of YSO. I met them in the Aussie & Vienna tours, and got a chance to know them in person. When the event was about to finish, my colleagues were discussing how to get to the dinner venue. I know I can't go becoz I need to stay to take care of the Children's choir. I told them "IT'S OKAY" (to be alone in the office). But of course~ I feel sad to be alone there. I cried "wait, today's my birthday wor~" They at once sang me the birthday song. Maestro played a birthday variation for me on the Steinway & Sons given by Mr Stanley Ho.

Around 8pm something, a number of colleagues returned. They get back to work and later presented me a birthday cake. The trick wasn't very tricky... I do appreciate them coming back to the office (they can go home and rest after a day's work). I cried (being touched) and can't held myself to make a wish. I was crying and laughing and the candle was burning...

At 9pm, Ms Wong sent Maestro and me back home. I requested to let Maestro go home first, we listened to Wagner in the car during the ride. Around 9:50pm, I told Ms Wong that she can drop me at church. Tonight is the usual choir gathering. They sang me HAPPY BIRTHDAY and gave me hugs & handshakes. I wanted to cry too. I didn't tell ALL of them that I am going to leave (the choir). I see their faces, feel the very warm-welcoming from them. I wondered, should I stay here?

>>February 4, 2009 at 3:41:24 PM GMT+8

2009 年 2 月 2 日 星期一 【晴】

Dad suggested to take us to a buffet tomorrow, in celebrating my birthday. Mom asked if I am available for tonight or tomorrow. I responded, but I didn't tell her exactly if I am available or not. I don't want to eat buffet. Or is it I have a perspective that it will be boring with mom & dad...

-//-

Tonight a friend is coming from HK, he will visit us in YSO. He is making coffee for us in the evening ^.^ ~ when I am a grown-up, I will get myself a coffee machine! And enjoy making coffee for myself & others~!

>>February 3, 2009 at 3:43:56 AM GMT+8

2009 年 2 月 1 日 星期日 【晴】

I helped boss to arrange for a trip in September this evening. He mentioned to be about the training in Bali, Indonesia. People tell me that the political situation there isn't very healthy. And when my sister heard about it, she also concern my safety.

Will I be sent to Indonesia for training in 2009?

Will I be going alone?

-//-

At this moment, I have two wishes for 2009... I hope they will come true very soon...

>>February 2, 2009 at 3:51:42 PM GMT+8