2010 年 6 月 22 日 星期二 【晴】

唉

好想喊

為左 kossb, 我做左 d 野

but 這一幫助, 像是帶給很多其他人不便

so sorry for them

>>June 23, 2010 at 12:48:06 PM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 20 日 星期日 【晴】

榮休！？

-//-

對於 weekend 所發生的事，我仍有感覺，心裡也決定不會再幫人。我就是這樣，兩個 extreme！

幫到自己顛左，結果被傷倒了，就 forever 不會再幫。我知這對天父來說是不對。But until 我沒事，I won't touch it。

早上 bossk 找我，心知不妙，however 我們沒出手，只出口之下，things are fine！多謝他的信任。我本想講，如果您不信我對 d rules 有幾熟，有幾多事我要向上上上 bossk 交接，那您不要用我吧！I am here to be a gatekeeper, to block out all unnecessary demands。Use me if you treasure, sake me if you must！

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這 post title 為榮休！對了，bossk 也暗示要我離開樂團！我幾開心，coz my SUNDAY is back!!! coz my 私人時間 is back too!!! 下次出 tour, 我是一個 staff!!! 不是 staff & musician 了！！！

可喜？ yes, finally 13 years... I can take a rest!

也可 sad？ I won't say this is a sad thing. 到了某年幾，是要走，let d 新人上位！最開心係，有個人好 dislike me，wanna take my position，now I leave first!!! WAHAHAHA!!! She study music only wants to take my place, so silly... i can't stop her hating me...

-//-

i hope you don't have a bad feeling after reading this post.

- my unfriendliness after an incident.
- my happiness towards a lady who hate me

>>June 21, 2010 at 6:10:05 AM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 20 日 星期日 【晴】

first thing this morning, bosk returned from business trip and asked for me

i know it's not some good news, looks like some more troubles

-//-

lucky we both are having some patience

and things are fine

>>June 21, 2010 at 3:56:16 AM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 19 日 星期六 【晴】

醫治我，釋放我，拿走我的傷痛，
讓我笑，讓我哭，我渴望自由，
我渴慕你，我需要你，你是我力量，
牽我手，陪我走，這人生的路。

okay... the respond is as expected, but i didn't expect it will be that serious

open facebook and i can see some teens are scolding me over there

i don't think i have protect myself// as howard mentioned, it's out of my control// and shouldn't be upset at this

10am sheng called and ask me to wake up

he said i should wake up by now

what the...

he didn't know i was still crying in bed

and it's my day off

why can't i stay in bed for some more time

it's his baptism next sunday

but i am also not cheering with him this morning

just get annoyed with him not knowing how pain i am

-//-

last night i played sop song

listening to it while i sleep

but then sis came home and asked me to stop

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>>June 20, 2010 at 3:46:54 AM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 4 日 星期五 【晴】

I have chosen - ESCAPE!

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Thanks God. A JOB is done today! We had this JOB in 2009 Feb, June, Oct and 2010 Feb plus today & coming October. After running it for 4 times, we are very well settled. I have 6 helpers today, 3 from F 5 graduate and 3 from university. I am still trying to understand them and see how they are at work. It's interesting. Thanks for my leadership skills, my Lord!

Thanks God. I have 30 minutes lunch today! I went to Subway and enjoyed a sub! In my last 4 JOB, I either don't have my lunch or eat while I work. I am getting better at it!

Thanks God. I asked my colleague to go out this morning at 11am. But I overslept! My colleague commented that I am no more stressful, that's why I am so relaxed to sleep. Yes, it was a quality sleep =) .

-//-

For some reason, tonight's date with Sheng has been postponed to tomorrow. I sensed that he is happy coz I can make it to church with him. Our last going-to-church together was in Easter.

I have received some news from my overseas colleague. The news is not good for 'us'. I am very worried about it now. And I don't want to touch it. With my wisdom, there is only two way:

1. Everyone hates me forever more
2. My load will be increased & stressed unreasonably

If you were me, which would you choose? Get killed with troubles and save everyone? Or like a prophet, being hated by everyone? I know what my 'head' likes and that's why I haven't make a move. I am buying time at the moment, hoping that I might be lucky and be saved from a new request from him.

Will there be another exit?

-//-

Orchestra OFF tomorrow, after 60 minutes of Quartet Lesson, I will be out of Macao from 2pm. Hope that Sheng likes the surprise I have prepared for him. And... pray that I first enjoy my Sunday before I face the uncertainty!

>>June 5, 2010 at 4:13:55 PM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 3 日 星期四 【晴】

快快走過的六月！6月 ﹣像是每星期都有一特別日子 which I look forward！感覺這月會快快的走過，開開心心的。

May I pray for right attitude & positive respond to anything happening this month!
I actually don't know what we will discuss in the two meetings with 牧師！



這月之大事：

5/6 celebration for our 1st anniversary in 相識 & 拍拖

12/6 Sheng 第一次過香港 + EK wedding

14/6 Lunch with Rev & wife (ministry + 27/6 meeting)

27/6 Sheng & I dinner with Rev & wife (同行拍拖~ )

>>June 4, 2010 at 3:51:24 AM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 3 日 星期四 【晴】

剛剛提起，我們是上年 6 月 6 日認識的

每年的 6 月第一個星期 6 可能都可以記念下

-//-

我看完了 Enoc Lam 一本書後，買了他另一本書

發覺自己最近的口才及轉數進步了很多

好像剛剛的對話：

Sheng: ...對著大陸人，要小心

me: 係呀，對您都要小心 d

Sheng: what!

me: ..對您要小心 d 看守!!! 您人品那麼好，有女生會搶走！

有同事話我串，那應是我說話好直地說出真相

Well, but 我感覺到，我同 Sheng 一起時，多野講 d

** learning to be a humorous person

>>June 3, 2010 at 4:46:38 PM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 1 日 星期二 【晴】

Few drops of salt water came from my eyes tonight. I long for some touching moments and some points where the whole congregation get filled by the spirit and 立志 together after listening to God's words! I wonder if this ever happen at a Wednesday service with less than 5 attendance.

Still, few things rolling in my mind. I hope to get back to an ever praying & chatting with God 24/7 mode, how I love those days in Melbourne, dropping down notes and notes and figuring what God has for me. By the way, I still have more that I would love to jot down, but my desk in Macau is only large enough to cater my MacBook!!! My desk was built by my uncle, just it was during my primary 1.

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This afternoon I got noted that we will have 3 weeks off from orchestra. The students are having exam, so there are no rehearsals. HURRAY! HURRAY! HURRAY! I can have 2 Sundays by myself!!!!!!!! One of the Sunday has been exchanged for a Saturday off to HK.

I haven't told Sheng that I am off this Sunday. Normally he only expect to meet me on Tuesday evenings. May God lead me how I should use my bonus & unexpected free time!

>>June 2, 2010 at 3:54:50 PM GMT+8

2010 年 5 月 31 日 星期一 【晴】

明天
兩年前的明天，我獨自由香港回澳洲
到了目的地，天氣問題，我們不能下降
只在上空停留
足足晚了 6 小時落機
可能，那天我比任人都接緊爺爺
因為我在上空時，爺爺過身了，他信主，上天堂，我又在天上．．．

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Rest in peace my grandpa. i love you. we all miss you.

>>June 1, 2010 at 3:48:13 PM GMT+8

2010 年 5 月 31 日 星期一 【晴】

好悶！

現在是 11.20pm

一家人都在屋企裡

媽在看據

爸看新閒

姐玩 fb

我也是

為什麼

一個家有四個獨立人士

有幾次大時大節

Sheng 強烈的要我回家吃飯

我回家去了

但只有我一人

我有暗示過我這家的獨特

但就不想大談更多

他跟我大大相反

大日子一定要在家

-//-

fellowship

family

when will I dare to touch them

>>June 1, 2010 at 3:29:45 PM GMT+8