2010 年 7 月 8 日 星期四 【晴】

今天在影印機前見到xxx在影印樂譜，仲使用有小許黃色的 paper ，使影印本看起來很像正本。

很傷心他們這行為。

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I can't say that I never download mp3 when I noted that it has copyright. However, I won't forget a guy who has copied my assignment 99% without my permission, yet he submitted as his own work. It was a terrible feeling. I super understand how it feels for song-writers, for authors... Especially HK, Macau and China, whom used to make COPIES!!! of whatever they want.

This is ridiculous for the creator of a certain work!

>>July 8, 2010 at 4:26:27 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 7 日 星期三 【晴】

怎過日子？Air-conditioner 好像壞了！

昨天「八」到我地 tour 的 accommodation list，我會同一位識左 18 年的姊妹一間 room！

Our dad are colleagues & partners and we met during my first overseas trip in Hawaii. So it's not quite impossible we are playing music together...

When I noted of this arrangement, actually I wondered WHY. Coz we usually pair up one elder member with one younger member, which is a super mis-match pattern for the sake of security and safety. And of course, to avoid us staying up all night to chat and play pillow fight.

I think kossb made this up for me, so I could have a quiet room and WORK during the evenings in my trip. I think I am the only one who doesn't want to go to Europe! Coz my project in Macau is happening from 13 July - 28 August. My away - my fear. My away - uncertainty. My away - leaving behind my responsibility.

But he is the kossb! Hope things are well and my helpers are helpful! i can only trust them now.

>>July 8, 2010 at 3:17:49 AM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 7 日 星期三 【晴】

I returned to the office last night, working for an extra 1 hour. Sometimes if we are not troubled by some other things, one hour is really enough to work on some important thing.

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Maestro commented that our concert is far far far from being ready. Some of our musicians are travelling to Singapore for another performance today, they will be back on the concert day morning. So basically we do not have rehearsals from now 'til Sunday afternoon.

I am glad, coz I can finish some more work.

To Maestro, is a terrible horrible schedule.

"far far far from being ready"... this comment made me hesitate to invite my friends to come. It's officially my last concert in Macau as an orchestra player. T_T

>>July 8, 2010 at 2:04:06 AM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 3 日 星期六 【晴】

A one week after is our concert. Not a good sign... we are working on it but it isn't going very well.

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Will be cooking PASTA tonight!!!

i love you my Lord =) thanks for a wonderful restful Sunday!

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It's the 7th anniversary of our church today. I slept 'til 11am and wasn't in the service celebration. I have struggled to attend the service, but I don't have that motivation & my sense of belonging wasn't supporting this action too.

Is Wednesday evening service a hiding place? an excuse for not waking up on Sunday? Wait, but I have been working all 6 days, why not sleep longer for the 7th day?

Sheng, after knowing that I will be free on Sundays after August, has already some planning in his mind. But as usual, I disapprove of his plans.

His plan is:

Week 1 Sunday - my friends
Week 2 Sunday - dinner with his family
Week 3 Sunday - him
Week 4 Sunday - church ministry

Dinner with his family, in my opinion, this is too much, I am not comfortable with socializing once a month with them. For my disapproval, I am annoyed as there wasn't time for myself & for God. And if I am taking my Sunday for ministry, that should be in weekly basis. He felt that I am not giving him time but trying to put quite a lot of activities in my schedule. Like my YOGA and coffee class.

What will he thinks if I say I WANNA take some lay back Sunday for 2- 3 months (sleep / read / photos-taking / shopping / whatever / just let the time pass) before I head off to make a real plan. That sounds not- sensible for him too!

In terms of his love, I think he can see that I am not puting him in a high position in my life.

Can someone agree with me that, "relationship" is not the most important thing that I see in my life? Not even boys & girls relationship... it's a luXury treat when I am weary.

>>July 4, 2010 at 10:15:12 AM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 30 日 星期三 【晴】

Today an instructor spoke directly.

"more rehearsals are of no use, they are just not up to the standard"

They are more comments from him which I totally agree, but which has upset our conductor too.

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13 days to go before the first exam starts. Got lots to prepare. Today my assistance came back at 9am and helped to finish off some work with me. I am very grateful to have him. For 2009, I did all the work alone and sometimes there were mistakes and overlooked at some important things. This year when he is hear, my job is much much under control! I am glad I am answering and replying phone calls more faster than before!

Just hope to get some wisdom how to use my final 12 days!

>>July 1, 2010 at 2:36:51 PM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 29 日 星期二 【晴】

So SAD!!!!

I reached 99% of my target today and need to leave that 1% for tomorrow to conclude my work. Sad, coz I have not accomplished a 100%... >.<

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At service tonight, it's my first time to hear that people call Macau - 石頭地 ! Perhaps this term is not unfamiliar with missionaries in HK. Though it's really my first time to hear it!

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During the dinner with pastor, Sheng expressed that it's impossible for him to go to Australia. But pastor knows well that I love Australia so much. He says... it's impossible now (visa & finance of Sheng), yet God is very gracious & have lots of miracles. And he mentioned that, who knows why God put this longing (& loving) feeling towards Australia in me.

>>June 30, 2010 at 3:40:35 PM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 27 日 星期日 【晴】

0900 - 2000 @ office today

wasn't too tired, as I only worked for 4 hours and the other time were spent in the orchestra

just hope that tomorrow will be better

>>June 28, 2010 at 1:47:21 PM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 27 日 星期日 【晴】

It was great to have a sharing time with 牧師 n 牧母 last evening. Both of us gained quite a lot of insights. Especially on our conflicts with culture differences.

Have hope.

Let's move on & may we humble ourselves before God. He knows what's best for us.

>>June 28, 2010 at 2:37:46 AM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 26 日 星期六 【晴】

今日好累！不過好開心！好感動！

8.00 過關

9.00 您加入了香洲堂！一定要記住今天的決定！！！

11.00 YAY! 食我的最愛！！！Japanese Food！！！

13.00 到澳門！

14.00 文具及動物店

15.00 樂團排練，真好，您一直等我！

17.00 到 Tower 吃咖啡 ice-cream & pan-cake

19.00 坐車走，時間有些趕，多謝天父我們都 7.30pm 左右去到！

19.30 到牧師家，認識了C = K

20.00 吃飯及傾計，取了力和及梓和與爸爸媽媽的時間 =P

22.00 離開，步行回到關口

>>June 28, 2010 at 2:21:10 AM GMT+8

2010 年 6 月 23 日 星期三 【晴】

3 more working days

keep trading off some not-so-precious time

not-so-precious time = for other people, these are very precious time :P

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i was about to take a leave for Sunday's rehearsal

coz it's Sheng's baptism / his visit to Macau / our dinner time with Pastor N family

yet yesterday, i sat down and saw the number of pieces that i have never played before

i decided to come to orchestra rehearsal on Sunday

the music program is not easy

haha he will have 2 hours free time by himself

>>June 24, 2010 at 3:00:00 AM GMT+8