2010 年 8 月 8 日 星期日 【晴】

Thanks God, I have safely arrived back to Macau.

Mom made me some noodle and I shared a few things in my journey. She doesn't think that I have gained some weight >.< ~ let's see what Sheng's say tonight when we meet. I decided to cross the border once again for him after 10+ hours on the road, sea & sky.

>>August 9, 2010 at 7:11:01 AM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 20 日 星期二 【晴】

完左崇拜好想找牧師
不過今晚他被 occupied
因為有個新朋友

對於一個 hurt soul & 一個 lost soul
當然，我不想 disturb 他

-//-

最後都係把這事收埋在心裡

>>July 21, 2010 at 3:54:21 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 16 日 星期五 【晴】

Flashback!

Sheng & I discussed the TV soup opera When Lanes Merge.

http://programme.tvb.com/drama/whenlanesmerge/

There are two pairs of couple which quite likely filmed our situation. Rich & not-rich-enough, plus taxi driver & manager. The family of the RICH and the other family members don't agree the two young people get together. And the driver (husband) & manager (wife) had some mis-understanding.

Bet the ending of them is happily ever after. However, I am quite interested in what happened in between. Sheng is worrying when and how to meet my dad & mom; he planned to treat us yum cha, but this cost might be like 1/3 of his income.

We had some discussion and I tried not to offend him. It's too easy to say something which will hurt him. I now get it why mentor asked me to think about marriage only 2 years after we date. Am I willing to put down myself & my wants?

-//-

Fainted at the clinic today while the nurse get my blood =_= ~

I don't know how they get me from the chair to the bed... and I haven't been fainting for some time. hahaha I asked the nurse why I fainted. She replied that there is only two answers - I get cramp / I am afraid of the injection.

I had fainted once I get my hand burned by the hot iron.
I had fainted once a si fu helped to massage my broken foot, trying to put the chinese medicine.
I had fainted once after the dentist put out my tooth.
this time is when the nurse get my blood.

Am I afraid of blood? of injection? I don't think so. or maybe I am not sure.

-//-

i hope you are still with me

my flash back is pretty intense as i have some work after this

i wanted to get into details, but i can't

okay...

here's the climaX!

last night I was playing viola. as usual, dad likes to pop in a few comments. i later asked, "hey, how can i play this passage better?" he talked and talked.

i told him what happen to us, and what the conductor has said that hurt us (me) so much. i can't held my tears at that time. he began telling me the character and the weak points of our conductor. he told me the history when he was conducting my dad and some other musicians.

we discussed quite some time.

in the next morning, he suggested how we can improve. he told me to avoid fighting back and just get by with his hurting words. he shared that our conductor is a bit stubborn, he also asked me to quit after this concert tour. *** wait, did you remember that he asked me to leave uni when i was struggling with my studies? *** QUIT? this is my last word, but i am trying to see his caring, he doesn't want me to have a hard life..

yes, i feel loved this night.

>>July 16, 2010 at 4:25:44 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 14 日 星期三 【晴】

昨日幫了指揮，點知今日 kossb 話我自作決定。我都沒有作任何決定，只是指揮以為我沒問題，kossb 就應該沒問題。真係好怕 e d mis-communication！kossb 罵完我，我感到超無奈，又係幫人後被找麻煩！

that prompts me... not to help people anymore!!! Like... why bad things happen to good people!

-//-

This afternoon... 指揮又因另一事罵我們。我地已 tried our best，已努力了一段日子。技術上有 d 野我們做不到，點知他說，"NO! This is not acceptable. You need to practise. Your best is not my best." 我們的 leader 跟指揮說我們過去幾個星期幾努力，不過他仍不明白我們，不接受我們。

我自己覺得我們拉得 okay。也比兩星期前好好多了。

哎~

-//-

kossb 已接受了我 request，提早由 Europe 回澳。他更多謝我的付出。我望住佢，講左幾句．．．i worry very much, especially our part times don't speak English. 他回應，叫我 F R O G wor~ 他就是這樣。當大家擔心到顛，office 超 terribly horriby busy 時，他就平平安安問下您，have you prayed?

提早離隊，是因為 office 的兩位 part-time 要去 Shanghai，而我想早點回來 take care 返 d 野。

>>July 15, 2010 at 2:05:08 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 12 日 星期一 【晴】

我好累！

今日跟媽說：我好累
她的回應：我以前要返工，放工又再接您，都係由早做到晚．．．

．．．．．．無言，亦感受不到任何安慰

>>July 13, 2010 at 2:51:06 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 11 日 星期日 【晴】

Be A People Person?

I visited my collections and picked up Maxwell's Be A People Person.

This afternoon I had a briefing with two guests. The meeting went very well and both of them praised my preparation before their arrival. I can see them smile.

However, I later turned their attention to some procedures. They suddenly gave me faces!!! 超黑面！I told them that my guideline says this procedure is not my duty nor the duty of my helpers. They should do it themselves. They doubted it and feedback me this is not the case.

We had not come into any conclusion, but both of us stand firm to our belief. During the evening, I talked to my supervisor and she advised me to take this EXTRA duty to make them happy. They are human, if they are not comfortable, they might do something for revenge. (writing report? not fair in judgement...)

I tried to e-mail my kossb in overseas and commented, "if they desperately need us to xxx, we are happy to give a hand out of kindness".

My words

- desparately
- out of kindess

actually compete with my saying of "we are happy to give a hand".

No, I am not happy. I don't know how my kossb in overseas interpret this sentence. But I have written it out with some hidding meaning if you understanding my language.

Here, I don't mind giving a hand to somebody. And I always do that.

I am angry that they think it is OUR responsibility!!! So that means I have done imperfectly too, coz I missed one action.

-//-

I understand my supervisor, to take a step backward might have make life easier.

I know.

Yet when I tried to take a step backward, myself is not willing. I have type-delete-type again-delete again those words when I give an offer obeying my supervisor.

Stick to the rules.

That's me.

Not a people person neither.

Mate, if you make a request, I am happy to do it. But not challenging my memory of our guidelines!

>>July 12, 2010 at 4:13:26 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 11 日 星期日 【晴】

Done!

My last concert in YSO in Macau has now finished. Officially I can be free ^.^ ~

This after we had a brief rehearsal, which was terrible enough. It's the first time I felt so bad. I would comment the rehearsal as the worst I have ever had in life! Ever!!!

>>July 11, 2010 at 5:45:32 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 9 日 星期五 【晴】

Accidents!

Last night when I was about to leave the office at 11.30pm, an e-mail pops in; my guest got stuck at the airport and will delay his flight for 14 hours. I stayed in the office for another half an hour to prepare for any emergency administrative procedures.

-//-

This morning I upgrade my iTunes, restore the setting of my iPhone, and upgrade its software. When all is done, my iPhone idled itself with a stupid screen. It was time to leave for work and I can only go to the office with this situation. Later I realized that our office's computer doesn't have iTunes/ or not up to date and I can't use my iPhone for the whole day.

Normally I don't answer calls and my phone has nothing much to do with my life except being a toy and serving me for IDD calls. I live with e-mail XD ~ however, since my guest was affected with flights delay, I was quite worried if he will need me and call me. Like getting to Macau from HK... hotel... or let me know if there will be more delays.

-//-

I just came home, and my phone is not yet fixed!!!

-//-

This afternoon my colleague and I went to the car park. He's kind enough to give me a ride to the centre. When we reached the car, he realized that he left his keys. I waited for him in the car park. Not long after, I realized that I left my keys for the centre too!

>>July 10, 2010 at 3:08:55 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 8 日 星期四 【晴】

把 air-con 再調一調溫度

因為我感覺自己在發熱 (發燒)

-//-

今沒參加排練

已把大部份的東西完成

有一兩個麻煩學生又提出要求

真不想離他們

>>July 9, 2010 at 2:35:19 PM GMT+8

2010 年 7 月 8 日 星期四 【晴】

Hosted a meeting today at 6pm. I intended to get it done by 30 minutes. Moreover, I was overrun for an hour!!!

WOO~~~ it's my first time to talk so long and got so many things to say in a meeting! Unbelievable.

Moreover, I am very glad that my helpers are very HELPFUL!!! Before we start to work, they already tell me I had made some mistakes in the schedule. WAHAHA! Thank you!

I always remember a history:

in Form 3, our treasurer lost $XXX thousands of dollars of class fund. She smiled + innocently told our teacher about this; it's her character.

i love this . be at ease .

-//-

A touching moment...

at 9pm I called Sheng. He thought I called him becoz I am going home. However, I called him to tell him that I am having dinner and that I will be having OT in the office until an unknown time.

he offered me help

since he has no English background, the only thing he could give a hand is - help me write a Chinese press release!!!

he said he will get it done by tomorrow

hahaha XD thanks so much

normally i don't trust another person to do my work

but i can't make all things happen alone

>>July 8, 2010 at 4:49:07 PM GMT+8