2010 年 8 月 20 日 星期五 【晴】

Being Helpful

昨回家時在想，"how to be helpful"

我面對住 consultant 的對話
多次想說服 insurance 的問題
但她只可一次再一次 confirm
公司的 package exclude 中醫
作為 consumer 的我
感覺她不在支持我

vice versa 而言

不時我都接到不少 client 的請求及開恩
而我，就是要保護公司的利益

同樣，對他們來說， I am not being helpful too！

>>August 21, 2010 at 4:37:42 AM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】

終於忍不了，任性的用了 quota！

Sheng can only visit Macau once every two months.
As far as I hurt my foot, how I hope he is beside me.
Held my tears when I am down.
When I am upset with those cruel stares,
When I am frustrated with the insurance limitation.

I know we have a meeting with Pastor N,
but I can't stand it...
While trying to press further that I cannot walk to China on Sunday,
he agrees to come tomorrow.

Hope his next visa comes on time for our meeting with Pastor!

*comforted*

>>August 20, 2010 at 2:21:55 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】

唉~ 唔開心呀

無啦啦知道，我們公司的 insurance plan 不保看中醫！
雖然只是五，六百元，不過，可能是自己辛苦賺來的錢啦，好痛 lor！
仲要．．．我們已經不高工資的，d benefit 可否好 d 呀 :( ！
澳洲都有 medicare 啦！

另外，入 emergency unit 當天的費用．．．
大可能我要返去 hospital 寫証明！
and then 要交 $200~

-//-

WELL...

>>August 20, 2010 at 10:40:44 AM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】

Last night was terrible. My foot is badly hurting. I don't know how to say, but there was something going on inside. Dad suggested that it may be the death blood trying to come out.

I cried as it pains.

Finally I had the painkiller & the ointment. My sister commented that I am okay when I received Sheng's call. Sheng suggested my sister to help massage my foot for a few minutes. But my sister replied that he should not hang off the phone so I am comforted.

Whichever way, I dropped a line at facebook & felt asleep not long after.

>>August 20, 2010 at 5:59:08 AM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】

這 emotion 大約是來至一些 medical expenses.

The consultant said that I need to return to the hospital and ask for a proof of my incident, which should cost $200. Okay... the original $1800 + $200... and then I could claim back $1xxx. That's a little bit... troublesome. I am also concerned that the insurance company is not accepting my bill for the Chinese doctor :( ~

I am sure I should be thankful as I can afford these bills right now!

-//-

Around 10pm tonight, I received a call with a blocked number. I answered the phone and has no idea who this person is. Later I noted that he is my brother Penny. He is a wonderful person in my life, my first employer, my friend, my admirer and at last my God-brother.

He offered me a ride in his car. I know I would bored him to death as I don't talk much. However, I enjoyed the ride quite a lot.

-//-

When Sheng noted that my friend is a HE, he protested. I tried so hard to calm him and to let him feel better. Later I succeed and we proceeded with other topics. I managed to be cool & say positive things in front of him tonight. Yes, nothing is better than to start a fire between us.

>>August 19, 2010 at 4:21:38 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 18 日 星期三 【晴】

好悶

只因隻腳未恢復原狀

一步一步，爬呀爬呀

幾時可以正常呀

感覺到開始有點 emotion

>>August 19, 2010 at 1:49:11 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 18 日 星期三 【晴】

今日．在路上．很想放棄。走路很慢 =_=' ．．．
今晚/ 再痛．//

-//-

Few things...

I was sharing with my assistance tonight, he will work full time from tomorrow. I am happy and also worry. I can see that he has concerns with the working hours in our office. I wanted to help as this is a very busy time for his new position. We had dinner together, I didn't bring a watch and didn't know the time.

At one spot I managed to leave the dinning table and see that it was 8.55pm. A very good time to leave as the service tonight starts 9.15pm.

I left, I walked like a snail.

My speed is not helping me to get to church on time.

I cried.

I know becoz of my kindness, I stayed to share with my colleague and not leaving earlier. But I am moved with tears becoz I will be late.

Don't feel good.

Maybe coz I can't manage to be on time.

Out of my control with my hurting leg.

-//-

During service, I felt very uncomfortable with my foot.

It pains.

Paining like the first day I got hurt.

oh, how come.

Wasn't it improving?

-//-

Pastor N asked if Sheng has come to Macau to visit me.

I feedback that he reserves is quota for our meeting with him & his wife

*hates that when he can only comes to Macau once every two months!

-//-

Sheng and I have two dates - tomorrow & Sunday.

I asked if I can't make it tomorrow, what he thinks. He says okay becoz I am in agony.

Then I asked about Sunday. He says he will ask my dad to get a wheelchair and make me cross the custom to mainland.

I hope he change his mind.

Is it fair? I am willing to move (walk) around for work but not for him.

>>August 19, 2010 at 2:16:25 AM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 17 日 星期二 【晴】

眼神

這次傷了隻腳, 不知需多久才完全 recover！

慢慢的在路上走著, 我看到幾個不太友善的眼神

想起當年在香港機場坐輪椅時

有一人問曰：她不會走路嗎？

那口問不是關心人的

最近教會推"我們愛, 讓世界更可愛"

我在愛嗎

>>August 18, 2010 at 5:42:30 AM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 14 日 星期六 【晴】

The first Sunday as a retired MYSO member. Nothing much to celebrate as a retired person, but let me say CHEERS to my freedom!!! I have originally planned to go to a massage session today, however, since I have nearly broken my leg a few days ago, I have to put aside my plan.

I slept pass 11am this morning due to the first day of my 'period' and as well it's my day off. Tonight's my colleague is having a celebration dinner for the success of our Tour. I personally feels that all the performance in it was very good, but all the administrative work was very badly done. I am not sure if my absences tonight is due to a protest (having a celebration on my day off) or I am just not into a group socialising thing. Anyhow, thanks to my leg, I used it as a reason for not attending.

-//-
Sheng is having much stress these days. And he lost his patience quite easily. We had had a few arguments, hurting deeply... we were able to resolve it before the mid-night begins. I think this is not a bad thing as we have deeper understanding to each other. But certainly, too much and too often isn't healthy too.

One of our quarrels... he thought I should analysis the meaning behind... but indeed, I never never understand a meaning behind a sentence or maybe an action. Not even giving me a slight hint. I requested him to say DIRECTLY what he wants me to know.

His respond was, I am stupid as a pig (head of a human, mind of a pig). It was truly hurting that night. He may not see how much WORDS has an effect on me. As you know, a word of praise can make me alive for some time. But his negative comment could also stays in my mind.

Pray that we have more opportunity to learn about each other.

>>August 15, 2010 at 1:18:36 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 9 日 星期一 【晴】

雖然我在歐洲時都有每日 check 住公司的事

但回來的第一天, 感覺到不知從何入手!

>>August 10, 2010 at 9:23:50 AM GMT+8