2010 年 8 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

12 hours @ Zhuhai

Sheng & I went to Zhuhai Holiday Resort this morning to join the church's worship, it was a retreat camp, we were not able to make it yesterday.

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The worship

I have some doubts... why would the worship leader chose all cantonese worship songs? why would she chose 2 songs which are very slow in tempo; the lyrics are very close to the focus of the camp, but the music is really slow and the pianist wasn't able to bring out the rhythm more.

And... the congregation wasn't familiar with those songs!

These are some of my sensitive observation in the worship. Just sensitive being a musician and once in a worship team.

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Great dinner

I had dinner at Sheng's place tonight. Good food & lovely family.

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Adventure

Come on! You must have seen 3 or 4 people riding one motor-bike in China or maybe Thailand. Today I had this experience! Sheng was about to drive me to the Chinese doctor for my foot. Then his aunt next door asked him to give her son a lift to the bus stop.

So the kid was sitting behind me. I found this interesting & DANGEROUS! And I was asking in my mind... wait, is this LEGAL!!! Sheng has once asked my opinion for him to rent a car & pick up passengers to earn some more money. My first respond was, is this LEGAL?

I said NO to his car pick-up thing. To this 3 person motor-bike ride, I have no time to reject. The family was talking in their language that I only know at a very late time when a kid will be siting behind me. While we were on the road, I thought to myself, it's okay, we are not doing something harmful/ hurting anyone. *MIND YOU, I fear if we get any accident too!*

Perhaps I haven't get that answer... a country allows corruption, so can we Christian corrupt?

>>August 29, 2010 at 2:53:10 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 27 日 星期五 【陰】

mom：何時去澳洲？

me：28/12 - 9/1．

mom：（過了兩小時後）好像 8/1 定 9/1 是我的生日 wor．

me：唔．．．不過我不會因為您生日而不去澳洲．

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這樣的對話，幾年前都發生過．當時在談回澳門的日子，我一心想到爺爺生日那天回來，不過媽就問我有沒有意為她生日而回澳門．

昨告訴 Sheng 以上的對話．坦然他不喜歡我回澳洲．更別說”日後”我有沒有機會回去．．．他覺得我應在澳門 for mom's birthday．

我知我不能永遠用”I am not that close with my family” / 過去的 background 去 backup 我每一個決定．不過，好想有一日他明白”澳洲”對我來說有何等的意義．

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看一看，我們這兩三星期很多火花．但當我第二天早上，精精神神投入工作，我又沒被影響．拍拖的前期，我知道及明白到很多的煩惱及焦慮，但他沒事，只想到我們一起很好～　到了現在，我沒事了，他就慢慢看到我們的問題．

友人提出過，如果我覺得沒可能，沒益處．．．我是不會投資時間在那裡．．．
現在喜歡用一句話 encourage 自己：沒有合適不合適，只有珍惜不珍惜．

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感謝天父，無論我們有多大的不滿，不愉快，我們在睡覺前一定處理好再待次日的來臨！

Ephesians 4:26-27
"Be angry, and yet do not sin. Do not let the sun go down on your anger, and do not give the devil an opportunity."

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>>August 28, 2010 at 9:28:05 AM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 27 日 星期五 【雨】

Saturday~ very relaxing today.

昨天打左個電話比 client, 我拖左三個星期都不想打這電話！
仍有七，八月的 account statement 未做起，就快也拖了三個月喇！

我的 dream job ，除了要打電話及做數，一切佳美，這兩件事永遠都是我最不想做的　＞＿＜　～～～

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原來我今個月的 medical expenses 是 3千多元，很傷啊　～　

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今早收到牧師電話，confirm 明天於 Zhuhai 的崇拜時間為 10.00 ＹＡＹ！十分希望不要下雨呢！

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今早，睡到 10.10，最後決定返 12.00！Oh，tonight 會參加詩班長的感恩會啊！是時候出動，比返 d 時間比朋友仔及家人了！我有個 Yearly Calendar，用來 mark 我約朋友/ 見男朋友/ 出國的日子．４月至今就沒約朋友出來了！不過我有 send post card 給她們啊！hehehe

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>>August 28, 2010 at 7:35:24 AM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 26 日 星期四 【晴】

Three most important thing in life.

Tonight in the drama series at TVB, they played a game.

- > Think of three most important thing in life.

- > Now take away the one which is as important.

- > Take away one more which is not as important.

I dare not to tell you which other two things/ persons I have thought of. But my last remaining item is CAREER~

>>August 27, 2010 at 4:57:31 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 26 日 星期四 【晴】

What to do?

During our tour, a student & his teacher quarrelled. The student was upset with the teacher scolding. I was there, I saw what happened. Indeed, the student was wrong at that point. When we returned to Macau, the student told me, "my teacher asked me not to perform in next month's concert..." becoz he apologize to him at a very late timing. His teacher is one of my old friend, and we are working in the office these days. I do not particular like how the my friend treated his student, which is, in a very harsh way. And just a little less than harassing in the way he talks to them.

This morning the student came to me, wanting to know the marks of his exam. He was told that, if he fail the exam, he shall give up playing the viola. I know, this is the second time he has the exam, which both failed. I peeped at the marks this evening, and it was a fail, a mark presenting a very low standard to the grade.

I shared with mom and honestly tell her that I don't know how to help this student. Mom's reply was... something not really responding to me! She asked me to approach the student & ask him to learn from me instead. "No mom, I am not interested in teaching!!! I am just thinking how to help him".

I have some understanding with the student. During my uni years, I was nervous like him, performed badly and failed quite a few times in my performance. My last teacher I met in Australia commented that I learn better without taking any exams. I began to worry if this student also could not learn & perform well under pressure.

>>August 27, 2010 at 3:14:29 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 26 日 星期四 【晴】

是什麼?

這星期感到懶洋洋的...

不想工作啊．

>>August 27, 2010 at 4:15:33 AM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

25.08.10 - Usher @ church

Yesterday I was the usher at our Wednesday Service. It's my first time!

Thanks the pastoral staff sending me their kindness, asking about my feet and worrying if I can stand for so long. I managed to present the bulletins at the door...

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26.08.10 - Second last day

Tomorrow is the last day for our recent project. I am so glad as it will soon be over. I am always alert and heard my phone rings and the door bell being pressed, though actually no one called me & no one was at the door. I am better off than last year as I didn't had dreams about my work & wasn't too stressed this term. The next term will be in Nov/ Dec, I hope to do better!

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27.07.09 - recovering

I am feeling better emotionally as I accepted the fact that I have to bear the medical expenses this time for my foot. My foot is much better now. Just the bruises are still hurting when I touch/ bend my foot. Last but not the least, I am walking artificially.

I planned to go to Zhuhai on Sunday to attend the service with Sheng. Our church in Macau has a retreat camp in Zhuhai this weekend. I wasn't able to join in for 2 days but Pastor N says he would like to meet Sheng on Sunday. Therefore, I decided to make it. I hope I can walk MUCH MUCH better by then!

Tomorrow I will be attending a Thanksgiving Ceremony host by the choir leader of my former church. I think it's a good time to meet them and have some catch up.

So this week's Friday will be EYT (enjoy yourself tonight) before my two events on the weekend!

>>August 26, 2010 at 4:14:59 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 23 日 星期一 【晴】

Great!!! Just got an e-mail from the kossb of the kossb!!! I took quite some time this afternoon to draft it and try to be nice and act like a kossb in writing the e-mail. Coz I am writing on someone's behalf. Tonight I got a reply and it's positive.

Cheers!

>>August 24, 2010 at 1:33:13 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 23 日 星期一 【晴】

This lunch time, I had it with two guests & kossb. Kossb was walking so fast today, it was his usual speed, but not a good speed for me! Since he is my kossb and he has not noticed how hard I was walking, I forced myself to walk nearly as fast as his speed.

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Looks like my foot is improving. Though I cannot bend it and make a nice walk...

>>August 23, 2010 at 4:15:16 PM GMT+8

2010 年 8 月 21 日 星期六 【晴】

Watched "Cats & Dogs" last evening. It's not my most-wanted-to watch movie at the moment, but those that I wanted to watch is not showing in Tower. And becoz the other cinemas will be crowded, I dare not to go as I am still walking slowly.

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Got some quarrelling with Sheng at the end. He says I am too much on my way of thinking. We have different views on tipping or not tipping/ taking bus or taxi...

最近好悶~ he has too much to condemn me, what he says is much finding my faults in 'relationship' (not BGR/ but how I handle relationships). He said last night that I just respond and not initiate to talk while we are on the phone.

* First, if you know me, I don't talk much

* Second, I am okay, not too much upset by his complaints. Glad I have learned much about my self in the previous 4-5 years with my mentor/ bros & sis + many great people I met in Oz. I know my character fault.

* However, I am a little bit annoyed. In general, I don't get to be scolded/ complained (被人話又好，罵又好)~ Mom & dad seldom scold me, they won't as I am pretty, well, not a good daughter, but also not someone who cause troubles. Certainly my sister would, annoyed with my habit. Then, with my excellency behanviour at school, no teachers have ever KEEP tellling me this or that. Um... not much at work too!

YET here~~~~ we are closer, and we are more transparent to each other. How much is too much? I have stayed a few nights with the Yuen's family, I have worked with the Chu's family. I have seen these two couples quarrelling, and trying to stand on their own way.

What about us? Can we? Should we?

If we have different views, whom should be to follow?

>>August 22, 2010 at 7:39:12 AM GMT+8