2010 年 9 月 15 日 星期三 【晴】

我愛上您！？

有些時候我會 question
我愛您嗎
因為，我以前喜歡過的人
我會好 sensitive
好為他們著想
試過做好多好多野
只願他們一笑

對於您
一開始就是您愛我多於我愛您
可以為您做些什麼
我好像不知道
我好主動嗎
也不是

是否
我停了，在接受您的愛
在享受被愛．．．

我有問過一個問題
結婚，女生不是想生活更好一些
不過我嫁左後
可能會窮 d
要涯下
那為何要行這步。。。
我不是富有
不過我又覺得我爸媽很 rich

這星期我刻意放下自己
幾沒理由的事
我都 say YES to you
在男人面前 act 下 silly or stupid
原來您會好 enjoy =_=''
哄下您後，我們都沒上幾星期的麻煩

其實，我錯了
男女之間
要好好合作
您教我很多
您做到很多
我要努力
為您付出
balance GIVE & TAKE

We have dropped down many many items two weeks ago. Upon our differences in thoughts and actions. We hurt each other, we fight & quarrel. This week, you are so tired at work. I thank God so much that I have learned a bit to love & show your kindness.

Thank you for scolding me.
Thank you for reminding me.

Sometimes I am afraid you are not someone who lead/ be a model for me. However, actually you are. Especially with my characters & my time & relationship with my family.

You rock!

I am sorry, I know that for quite a few months you felt that I am very not-enthusiastic/ active in our relationship. I hope to be a better girl-friend from today onwards.

Thank you for accepting me working on Mid-Autumn Festival until 9pm. Thank you for bearing with my many many Sundays fully-booked! Thank you for always saying "I'm sorry" before I want to say it.

Indeed, you have so many good things that I could praise about!

-//-

Sunday, 14.30 - Macau

We are meeting Pastor Ng & his wife + kids the 2nd time.

Last evening, Pastor told me that he will use this Sunday as a chat session and will discuss with his wife after this how to guide us. Cool.

I will bring a surprise to them this Sunday!!! I am intending to bring my french press and make them some nice coffee!!!

So so looking forward!

Sunday, 19.30 Macau

Enoch Lam's YEAH SHOW 2010

安仔哥哥 will join us to the show!!! I have not yet tell Sheng/ him that another guy will come with me. HAHAHA, my two very best mates will meet!

>>September 16, 2010 at 3:35:29 PM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 14 日 星期二 【晴】

Thanks God!!! I found a website today which compares the hotel in Melbourne.

My 3 options for the moment, starting from the cheapest:

BASE - shared (St Kilda)
SLEEP & GO - studio (Preston)
VIC - standard hotel room (Collins)

The website requires to pay 10% of the full fee which is quite a good choice for me.

>>September 15, 2010 at 3:58:35 AM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 14 日 星期二 【晴】

喜歡練琴練到手指痛
更喜歡拉到身水身汗
好奉的感覺
整個人，所有精神及精力
把一個又一個音符拉出來
反覆又反覆
由慢至快
再由 120 至 60
仍對自己說
NO, NO, NO


-//-

到現在，我都不會拉提琴

-//-

今天音樂會的 poster 送來了
見到自己係張 poster 到
幾 excited！
雖然不是 solo，而是 quartet
我都好開心了
另，我也很擔心

-//-

媽早幾日聽了另一隊 quartet
她 commented 他們拉得不協和
拉得沒有主及次
拉到個個都係 soloist

我請她不要來
我怕！
我怕她聽到我們這一隊拉得不好的地方

-//-

我怕！
9月30日要交簡介
我怕在上面寫我讀完音樂學士
因感到一位音樂學士生不是我這樣的水準啊

可否加上 footnotes
在我的恩賜與事奉的 test 中
音樂不在我頭十個恩賜裡！！！

-//-

平時一百人在台上
笑笑口拉琴，not a problem
玩下把位，用下不同 fingering，no worries

今次四位人兄
很危！
危~
在於音準的問題

-//-

仍對自己說
NO, NO, NO

this is... the perfection we musicians desire all life?

-//-

>>September 14, 2010 at 4:25:10 PM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 13 日 星期一 【晴】

Keep searching for hotels in agoda.com, hoping to get some idea where to stay in Melbourne.

I have in mind 1-2 friends who can offer me accommodation during my visit, but I still prefer to stay in hotel. Most importantly, I wish to hang around anywhere any time. I found that it's always not polite to sleep 'til 12pm and didn't return home by 12am when I am staying at my friend's place.

I saw something like HKD 288 in St Kilda, female shared dorm for 2 persons. The photos are quite nice and it looks cosy.

In my 2010 Retreat, I have done some heavy shopping - for clothes, jewellery, books, gifts... I think I can spend less and allocate the budget to my accommodation this time. See what comes out.

Thanks God we receive 13 months salary for a year! The 13th month salary goes to my Aussie Retreat Fund!!!

>>September 13, 2010 at 4:17:40 PM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 11 日 星期六 【晴】

Finally I discovered a book quite helpful for me to understand GENTLEMEN!

-//-

I caught a cold & flu thing 2 days ago.
Today's heavy rain blessed me some time to rest at home.

^_^ ~

>>September 12, 2010 at 3:15:08 PM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 11 日 星期六 【晴】

上兩次寫左 dad & sis，今次想提一提 mom．．．

星期日 ~ 半年前我就發現，星期日沒有什麼好 TV program
雖然我在澳洲的四年，沒怎樣看 TV
但當我什麼都不想做
又想 entertain 下自己，就係看電視！
看書要精神，玩琴都要

我的 lunch time = 媽的 afternoon tea
這個 afternoon，什麼都吸引不了我們
mom 就把 TV switched off
兩人在 dinning table 上談了起來

談了樂團的音樂會
因她昨晚聽了我們的１３週年音樂會
又講下 Europe Tour 的人與事
現在離開了樂團
我能好 calm 地跟她 share 一些在樂團中不愉快的事

好像，有人為了坐“某個位”，而去讀音樂
好像，工作碰上了麻煩的同事

好深刻有人問過
我是否像爸爸，不愛回家

這陣子，反而覺得
我的正義，absolute，冷淡．．．的 character 跟 mom 好相似！

昨天我問，可否不上班，請 sick leave
她就說，“沒事就上班啦！您不是要儲 $ 嗎？”

*I am saving money for my Australia Retreat 2011
but we have 6 days PAY sick leave

好，我說時，是想她 comfort 下我
說些“好聽”的說話回應下，支寺下
講真，如果 Sheng 同我講，“I will rest today and find a job tomorrow”
我的回應同 mom 的都會差不多

女人，就是能超級準確地說出別人的要害？

>>September 12, 2010 at 2:04:28 PM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 8 日 星期三 【晴】

Another 家事！

今天是姐姐及 her BF 註冊之日。前天在 facebook 看到她的 status，只知她有些不如意的事。不過這兩天我都是晚上十一點回家，做做自己野，傾個電話，就睡了。

由姐被 proposed 開始，她每天都上 internet，為了 marriage banquet 當天找最好的東西：decoration/ make-up/ wedding gown/... 有些似友人 Esta，想 DIY，想客人 comfortable。

每次我都好想告訢她，重要的，是婚姻後天的生活，當晚，其實只是幾小時。像 Enoch Lam 說，友人及家人好 busy，他們難得在酒宴上到來，不如多些時間傾談，會面，好過一晚換幾次衫出場．．．

>>September 9, 2010 at 2:59:47 AM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 8 日 星期三 【晴】

介意！

爸突然 comment 我前天穿得好 casual！話我做行政要穿皮鞋 wor~

我介意他這樣說啊！

的確，那天我去接待兩位英國客人，又陪他們聽音樂會．．．

但我已花了三天時間想想要穿什麼了！我好記得，因為星期五開 cell，我提出請他們為這事祈禱。原因不是我太多衫，而是我的腳，他未 100% recover，穿 high-heels 會好辛苦。

到了星期一，我決定好我個 look！Which is - 畫家！我帶左頂帽，就是用他來配合我對 converse 布鞋！I've a plan！And someone said I was so charming that day！

好啦~ I didn't tell dad why I have given up to wear elegantly that concert night, yet I attack back: 下！您都不是好好，坐 VIP 位穿得那麼是但~

* just a little dis-compliment, I felt so sensitive.

>>September 8, 2010 at 4:35:36 PM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】

Thanks God!!! The seminar is done!

Got some good compliments & feedback tonight. COOL!

Just some falls... I don't like to work with one of the personnel; I don't know why the catering restaurant offer us a kind of self-service morning tea & lunch + PACK UP! We have pay these two "departments" quite a good price and the service was very POOR!

One bonus for today - the company's dinner was cancelled! So glad that I don't need to socialize after a whole day event =) ~

>>September 7, 2010 at 4:04:14 PM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】

從沒想過，在我一生中，會碰上被誹謗！

Someone says...
- she sat for our exam and we lost her exam paper
- and said we told her this "accident" though e-mail
- she claims we compensate her lost by a voucher

好~ 好無聊呀！

我收到這消息後，好快反應到．．．

- I have never issue a voucher to her, I am a very straight person in this kind of matter, no proof of sickness/ relevant case, no voucher!

- E-mail/ you're kidding mate! You have not written down your e-mail in your entry form!

- From my records, it is shown that you were ABSENT on the day of exam.

我知她在很多音樂人面前說了這事．我覺得可笑。我也想，她是否什麼什麼奸人要這樣做．．．

>>September 6, 2010 at 4:24:33 PM GMT+8