2010 年 10 月 8 日 星期五 【晴】

Completely de-energized

It's the 6th T exam session we had for 2009 & 2010. I am still feeling extreme tired though the exam has finished 6 hours ago. In the last session, we were well organized and I was the only one handling the parents & students on the hallway. Today, we had 3 trainees, but I wasn't happy with today's performance.

What is team work?

Everybody did well today. Except one. This one was late, this one needs more attention, this one is not understanding my commands. How come...? I wish he wasn't there. I wish I do not need to care for his feeling.

While looking back, I think, if he wasn't there, we won't miss minutes and minutes of time. We won't need to have that much trouble too... I cared, I waited and included him...

I lost my joy today. We had prepared very well for the exam... And it was not perfect enough. We didn't have any major faults today, which is great! How much should I rely on my trainee & colleagues? I am more relax but more frustrated with their helping. Being relax but frustrated.... haha, is this complicated?

I think it's much easier to handle when I am alone. Teamwork... not my cup of tea =_=''

But I need to learn to trust and to share my burden >.< ~

>>October 9, 2010 at 4:05:31 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 4 日 星期一 【晴】

I need to go to the bank this afternoon, I passed by Thanksgiving Church and drop them some snacks for tea. Also I had a short chat with Pastor. I always appreciate the way he speaks, he will point out something and try to lead a way...

>>October 5, 2010 at 3:02:25 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 3 日 星期日 【晴】

Well done Mily!!!

Mixed feeling tonight.

I was very happy.
I went shopping this morning for 1.5 hours. Coz I was being sent to get a bouquet of flowers for our teacher. She likes cats, so I went around seeking for cats. But besides that Hello Kitty and Doraemon, it is not easy to get one! Finally I made it in one shop, I bought the cat from there and brought the cat to the florist before 1pm. Mission completed and the flowers were well affirmed by my friends too.

I was very calm.
I picked up the flower at 6pm and returned to the hall. Sat down and enjoy my dinner. Some other members very jealous of my dinner, they had rice and I had sandwich + soup. The orchestra had treated a MOP 35 dinner for soloist and I was included =) ~ I had nothing to do in the first half of the concert, I played around, listened and enjoy myself.

I was a little bit nervous.
Before we walk on to the stage, I felt that I am pretty tensed. Sat down, tuned and start...

By the time we finished the whole piece, I was quite upset. I was thinking to myself, the level that I presented shouldn't be a musician-graduate. And my other 3 partners also weren't happy about it.

I was surprised; two person came to me and were interested in my viola! They said that my viola had a great sound! They requested to have a try on it. I was delighted as someone else also affirm the sound of my viola. The sound is ready important...

Regain happiness... when I left, I met kossb, I was walking with another member too. He asked if her fingers were too tired... He commented that I made a warm sound tonight, relaxed and gently. I try to think about my performance tonight, in an individual sense, I actually did very well. Besides a normal drop on my ability on stage, I move freely, I played almost in tune, I handled the phrasing and the nice ringing tone of my viola!

>>October 3, 2010 at 5:00:01 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 1 日 星期五 【晴】

Two things I wanna share tonight: gifts & music

GIFTS!!!

Very happy that my gift has arrived Australia. Another gift also arrived at UK. Still waiting for 2 post cards to Thailand & Macau. One of my friend is having birthday in November, we were very close 2 years ago. However, 6 months after I left Australia, I found that our relationship is very distant. Even I had made 2 returns back to Melbourne, we were like very unacquainted to each other. Wonder if I should find a gift especially for this special friend...

Just as today is as unmotivated but busy as usual, I found a Lamborghini Polizia in LEGO website! Sheng loves Lamborghini and I am thinking if I shall get the Lamborghini Gallardo or the Polizia model for him. I found out this morning that I have "unused" $3000+ from last month's income. And that I only need to pay $4000+ this month for the credit card co. First, I thought I need to pay $8000 for my flight ticket... My calculation skills are awful! Second, having saved $3000 unintentionally, I am fine to treat Sheng a special gift. The Lamborghini is Aus 89.99 - 99.99, it is not cheap =_=''' ...

MUSIC!

We had our last lesson tonight before the concert. And I am, I am nervous!!! Becoz my student will come! I am afraid I will mess up some area and he noticed it... or he will laugh at me when he saw something that his teacher has asked him not to do which I did on stage.

During tonight's lesson, I was lost for two times. I tried to show off and I lost among the music sheet... At VO+CE, we always shared about this, it is always easy to show off ourselves and get lost in the worship. A musician is supposed to show off his/ her talents, but naturally...

>>October 2, 2010 at 3:18:48 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 1 日 星期五 【晴】

上星期收到一申請, 想我們出隊做考試．

The venue is a Prison! Interesting! Someone who knows music is in jail, and has taught other fellow mates music. I noted that Jason & one team has been there for mission. Cool... may I?

I have not yet send this request to my kossb. Not sure if this is able or not.

在神凡事都能！

>>October 2, 2010 at 3:45:57 AM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 30 日 星期四 【晴】

I am not sure if I have made a good choice, but I thank God for our safe return.

Last evening I finished 50% of the prayer news editing, moreover, I left the file in the office. Today's a public holiday and I dare not to return to the office... So I redo it.

I was only able to finish 50% (from sketch) by 1pm. Then I need to leave home. Coz I promised to visit Sheng for today's wedding reception. This morning, I was filled with ironing, tidying myself as a lady, getting sister to cut my fringe and of course, sleeping until 10-ish...

Sheng is the best man today. He told me that his main duty is to DRINK!!! for the bridegroom.

I had requested not to attend the reception due to his role. But he insisted. And I also know how much it means to him.... I was there the whole evening, I sat at the table with his dad and his closest relative. Just Sheng was sitting beside the bridegroom. I saw him all night running with the new couples, drinking and greeting guests.

By the time we left, he vomited on the way. He asked me to stay and we can get a hotel room for the night. Coz he's dizzy and can't get by himself. I rejected him and offered to accompany him home first, or maybe lead him to the hotel room and I go off by myself.

After some talking, he agrees with our initial route - drop me off at border gate --> his home

I was thinking, well, now that he is 90% drunk, shouldn't I take care of him until he is settled home...? I understand that it was the Chinese culture to DRINK (and eat), and he is helping to bridegroom not to get drunk by the night. So he is fulfilling his duty, right? So it wasn't his fault.

When he asked me if I could stay until morning, my first thing comes to mind is the prayer news. My 50% unfinished work... I promised to send it out by 9am Melbourne time. I don't think I can make it if I stay, even to the point that I rush through the border tomorrow morning at 7am.

I was being drop off at 9.45pm. By 10pm, I was on the bus back home, and he has arrived his house too. Thanks God for the safety! Hope that he is not upset with me~

>>October 1, 2010 at 2:48:27 PM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 29 日 星期三 【晴】

昨日及今日, 都有人打電話來問我寄左 d 野未. 我中秋前已寄出左 lor~ 您收唔到...

then 我去做過一份新比您地; 過左一陣, 您們再來電, 說找到了, 有同事收起左... 笑笑口收線~

我知我知, 您們是"大客仔", 都唔使次次覺得是我們的問題埋！

You waste my ink & paper! Also my kindness!

想點 wor！！！我友友善善 deal with all cases，但個個一碰上小小問題就罵我地！

我唔鍾意用我個日記寫下一 d 罵人的事架，我又唔想自己係 facebook 到那 low class 寫下野~

=_='''

我好想知，d 大客仔會如何回應他們的小客仔，will they tell them another story?

=_=''

need to master Business Theology in the super speedy time frame!

>>September 30, 2010 at 6:01:09 AM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 24 日 星期五 【晴】

Thansk God!!! Insurance paid back my medical expenses for the 5 treatments & emergency visit. Still waiting for 2 medical claims...

Moreover, it's out of my expectation for them to pay me back. Especially our policy doesn't include Chinese Medical Treatments, but my case is set to be "accident claim"~

>>September 25, 2010 at 7:13:19 AM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 23 日 星期四 【晴】

As 3 October is approaching, I have to "make-up" my biography by today!!! Here it is...


馮凱樺

由父親馮潤光先生啟蒙學習小提琴，1997年開始接觸中提琴，同年加入澳門悠揚樂團及澳門青年交響樂團。1998年於澳門演藝學院接受蘇家軍先生指導。在2000年至2002年期間參加澳門青年音樂比賽中提琴獨奏及弦樂四重奏組別獲優異成續。

早年就讀於澳門聖羅撒英文中學，中學畢業後赴澳洲入讀莫纳什大学的基礎課程及音樂學士學位，主修中提琴演奏，副修作曲。於2007年畢業。在學期間接受Fintan Murphy, Andrea Keeble 及Ivana Tomaskova等老師指導。

2008年回澳後繼續深造中提琴演奏，師從梁建楓先生，期間亦接受羅伯特．大衛杜域、陳麒元等大師指導。先後跟隨陳蓉暉小姐及西野優子小姐學習弦樂四重奏。同時也參與澳門青年交響樂團之各項本地及海外演出。

現於澳門青年交響樂團工作，為ABRSM英國皇家音樂學院聯合委員會澳門區代表之行政助理。


I am wanting to include my role in VO+CE and some other minor musical events ever happened... I have not mentioned my piano learning path... =_= heheh~ well... coz other performers have quite short biography, most of them were born after 1990s, so when I say I entered the orchestra in 1997, I think it will shock them. I will make it as it is for now.

>>September 24, 2010 at 3:27:54 AM GMT+8

2010 年 9 月 18 日 星期六 【晴】

Thanks God for today!

It was marvellous!

First, I had quartet lesson from 12-2pm. I am so glad that I made it today! No screwing up, no collapse and I played quite well today. I am afraid I would be lazy for the next 7 days due to my good performance today!!! WAHAHAHA!

After my lesson, Sheng & I went to church to meet Rev Ng & Mrs Ng. Our 2nd meeting - mainly sharing about our family. Sheng has emphasised his family is quite big and is very closed. While my sharing tells them that my family members are not very close with each other. I shared a few significant moments from my childhood 'til teenage period.

I love the last part too... Sheng & I told them about our quarrels~ two of which is whether we should TIP or not; the other one was whether we will take TAXI or BUS.

I gave the tips; I asked to take a taxi.
He asked why we have to give tips and encouraged to walk (instead of taking transportation)

Rev responded very quickly... if Sheng dare to give $5 extra or I don't give the tips, we will end up in peace. While if I appreciate him encouraging me to walk (to exercise my foot), I might feel better. And if taking a taxi makes me happy, even using $500 to take a helicopter, he should go for it.

Oh yes, we had a wonderful date that time, but a horrible ending while we argued with the tipping and transportation, plus a few more things.

After the meeting, we had 2 hours of spared time. I thought our meeting last longer, but we ended up quite early. We visited a few pet shops & my favourite shop. Then I brought him to visit my grandma.

We stayed for 50 minutes and grandma seems to be good in health =) ~

The next thing was... went to Yeah Show 2010 with Penny. You know that, 男女男 = angry. But tonight I am very happy to have my boyfriend on one side and Brother Penny on the other. I have never imagined that Penny will come with me. But it was good as the talk was delivered by Enoch Lam, I have faith in him to make a good show!

At a point where I think is 見好就收, we left. Penny gave us a ride and he shared that he is going to 參加 a Buddhist ceremony at 11pm. He said it is not opened to pubic and he will join the 白衣。I do not have any knowledge of what he says... 小城 buddhist... I didn't insist to discuss more besides, only acknowledging his act.

有天，安仔哥哥要信主！

By 10:50pm, Penny dropped us off. I invited Sheng to go for a drink. Since we don't have many 空間 today, just for the two of us...

>>September 19, 2010 at 5:14:02 PM GMT+8