2010 年 11 月 8 日 星期一 【晴】

突然沒了方向
為什麼影響那麼大

it is not a cheers tonight

>>November 9, 2010 at 4:05:14 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 31 日 星期日 【晴】

Somewhat my sister and Sheng's two sisters are gonna getting married in 2011, we quite often get into that topic too.

Just the other my sister shared with me her wedding pics. My first and last comment were to ask her to take another shot! If you see hard, you will notice something went wrong in the photos. But if you just look at them far away, they are fine.

Sheng asked me when we will take those pics. I indirectly guided him to my mind. Some moment when he have had more than enough money. I have seen RMB 1000 photos and HKD 100000 photos. Both are wonderful. I desire to hire a photographer which will cost me HKD 30000, she's from the US. I enjoyed her photos before I even started dating last year. I told him, I don't want to get bankrupt for the following 2-3 months after we have some wonderful shots.

>>November 1, 2010 at 3:48:03 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 31 日 星期日 【晴】

Sheng's doggy is infected with the virus Canine parvovirus, they say if it is not being treated, it will die in 7 days. Each day's treatment cost $5xx.

Now I see why people in China got sick, got hurt and wouldn't visit the hospital. With a basic salary of $750/ month, how do you expect them to have proper healing?

Sheng has eagerly called up his debtors who have borrowed money from him. As he always tell me, he has loan out $10K to his "brothers". I am sure he won't get it all back...

I don't know, I am not as into as him to the dog. I was think he's not good at saving money. And not get a penny if we have some unexpected situation which needs $.

>>November 1, 2010 at 3:18:23 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 28 日 星期四 【晴】

just wanna clarify, my "LAZY" in the last post was positive. Not the slacking type, but enjoying + relaxing in the situation.

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Wednesday night, I had an unplanned dinner with my colleague & my quartet partner. We eat & chat from 10pm - 12.30am. It was marvelous. Much much to share & much much to enjoy each other's company. Actually I love to be very CRAZY and 放縱自己. This colleague is Tom, my former assistance, he has decided to leave his post with us. We had Thai food tonight~ it was very SPICY but I love it. Very yummy! Ever since boss bring all my UK guests to the Thai Restaurant, I have to BEAR all the spicy food. Now I am being trained to take spicy food =_=''' I used to scream & drink the whole cup of water when I eat them...

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Received my pastor's e-mail this morning and he called for a catch-up in January. Yohoooo, partly feeling stressful to meet him, but most probably I am being encouraged.

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返緊工~ 所以 d post 用的英文好是但...

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@HK

5/11 Business Trip (煩緊穿什麼好~ 去 ball)
21/11 Darren 弟兄回港放假

21/11 好想 Sheng 一起去, 不過他說未有 visa... 另外, 我想罵人~ 當我想同佢去玩一些要用 $ 的活動, 要就住就住~ 好悶!!! 去下 HK ~ 可能都會用左七百至一千元左右~ Why China d 工資那麼 low >.< ~ stupid ga~ 我換下隻琴 d 弦都去左五百啦~ 可惜我出生時, 爸媽已給我很多物質的享用, 面對 Sheng, 要習慣...~

>>October 29, 2010 at 4:23:19 AM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 23 日 星期六 【晴】

Project 2010

Thanks God for today. I have a few hours this evening to reflect. I didn't intend to, but it just pops up from my head.

I went to the 10am worship this morning, I was happy that I arrived 9.57am. Perhaps there's nothing to boost with being 3 minutes early, but it's just so hard to get up on Sunday! The worship finished at 12pm and I proceed for quartet lesson until 2pm.

Lunch, and then off to Zhuhai. Sheng forced me to "climb" the mountain. I was super reluctant, I felt very tired. Or maybe, I wasn't ready to have this kind of Sunday once again. Having a tight schedule... I would prefer slacking at home or having some non-energy-needed activity. Last week we were at the beach, Sheng found me very pale while in the sea... and later made up his mind to help me get fit & more healthy. That's when we decided to go up the mountain "weekly".

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In regards to my 2010 goal~ almost 70% achieved! Just one thing, although it's October, I realized today that among my goals, there isn't one directly related to my spiritual life. I had something about work - not working long hours... about being a better girlfriend... about my time for friends & family + church attendance.

Not sure why am I not being motivated to deeper my spiritual knowledge.

Too much entertainment around? This week dad bought a new TV for the sitting room, and it has "J2" which got so many fantastic Japanese program!

Not having local 同行者? no la... at Oz even when I am alone, I will make myself grow spiritually.

Until a certain level? When I was in MUFY, my English ability was up to a certain standard that the teacher told me I will see very little improvement, this is the same with my music technique... I still have much to learn, much to dig from the unknown!!! ... ???...

Mentor 係我信主好好好早期時講過 - 有邊位兄姊真係會每日都做到 devotion + praying + reading the bible...

我重視教會嗎？我重視靈命 growth 嗎？　

I have never consider myself as not putting God & church in a significant position. It just happened that my iTunes were playing VO+CE CD, one of the song which "scold" bro & sis... being late, being sleepy at worship celebration.

I don't want to attend Sunday service. Why? too early? too many people?
* to be honest, I like to go on Wednesday, where there is only 1-3 attendance excluding church co-workers. Why? Coz you can catch people's attention, you can get all the LOVE & CARE from the pastor. But Rev Ng very much want me to go for the Sunday service. Coz there will be more bro & sis for fellowship.

Forgive me Lord. Change me Lord. 我好想一班人一起立志！But e 兩年 thanksgiving church 都沒有發生過這種運動 >.< ~ okay ~ i will repent & revive by myself meanwhile.

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Thanks if you are still with me. I wanted to share in Chinese but it's lot easier to type my post in English.

While I was reading back my PROJECT 2010 wrote in the 5 January 2010... I also take not of one of the point - being a better girlfriend.

From Jan - May, Sheng was very frustrated with me. He has stress at work. But he also found that I am very 冷淡 in our relationship.

By June - August. I was busy with rehearsals & Europe tour. He went to camp one weekend. And had done something that hurts me and a girl. I normally don't worry him but that incident strikes me deeply. I blamed myself for being too busy at work and of course... my orchestra time prevented me to have a date with him.

September - October. We had our 2nd meeting with Rev Ng. I left the orchestra and almost gave him all my Sundays. Beach, mountain, church, family dinner, wedding reception...

I asked him today what he feels about our relationship. We both have a positive answer.

Tonight I also do a revision on DISC. I am pretty sure he is an "I"

I just don't know why, why I am so "C" at work and so "S" when we are dating. He has the same thing, he told me that he is very lazy & unmotivated at work ("S" was my guess) and very hardworking & active in our relationship.

LAZY - what a word that you never use to describe Emily, don't you?

Emily means industrious, hardworking. I am always proud of myself being workaholic. But how come, in our relationship, I am so relax, so lazy & just let time goes by.

This is interesting.

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Rev Ng has asked this morning, are we already satisfied with entertainment on earth. And we can live without the bible/ God... Especially those who has already become Christian for a long time.

Come on... I used to see bro & sis who believed longer time than me. I used to be the youngest spiritually. But now I am not. And I see myself standing still. Still, as in a negative postiion.

>>October 24, 2010 at 4:15:19 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 21 日 星期四 【晴】

天父，多謝您！

今日收到一個回應，我好感動！

事原昨天 reject 左一位朋友，今日同佢講聲 sorry，點都好，我不想佢嬲我。又想佢明白為何我會 reject 佢。在她的回應，說了一句：「你直接講出黎我就知你唔係戈D假人」！我好直架，係澳洲時都經常 hurt 親人，在樂團裡，明明講出心聲，又比人話串！今日個 friend 咁講，我好感動，因為，講真，我只是真心，只是，緊守，嚴緊；是就說是，不是就說不是！


Fong 22 October at 15:12
Sorry, 我昨天硬左 d ~ 對我們來說, 老師報名時應該要確定學生有能力應付個 exam 先報名. 您可以自行整病個學生, 整到佢入院呀, 拉唔到琴呀. 不過, 醫生有醫德, 而音樂老師, 我不想看到同行的用這些手法, 對個學生好嗎? 除了教琴, 仲有身教, 言教... 希望您明白. 上年我的學生去 exam, scales 又唔得, 音準又未得, 我都好驚我的名譽...家長... or 個學生以後不跟我...都係盡力!

Wong 22 October at 17:03
傻LA. 我地既立場唔同JE, 我明白點解你咁講, 其實你直接講出黎仲好LA. 收埋收埋你又谷氣, 同埋你直接講出黎我就知你唔係戈D假人, HA


Somewhat I am comforted when someone could appreciate me being REAL. I love it when we can really develop mutual friendship! The exam schedule is out and I know it is terrible. It is not my fault, it was not prepared by me. My position is a third person comforting my clients and co-operating with my colleagues. Last session & last last session... I have worked on more than 120 cases. I had tears, I had stress... I also made it at last. It's the beginning of the scheduling process, indeed, yesterday my back pain came back. Today I have a little fever. At some point I fear what will take place in the coming 2 weeks...



One teacher came to me, telling me she was scolded by 9 parents. I wanted to tell her, "do you know? I am facing complaints with 1000 candidates!"

>>October 22, 2010 at 2:33:38 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 21 日 星期四 【晴】

Just becoz Kossb said that our working hours might affect the pay rise for 2011, now all of us are... more concerned with being on time to work.

Last week he confirmed that the afternoon shift to be 12.30pm - 9.30pm.

I just had had 3 evenings in the office. Previously 1 - 9 pm was marvelous, coz I can take a leisure lunch before work and watch the last TV series by 9.30pm. The new working hours are still waiting to be appreciated.

>>October 22, 2010 at 1:44:33 AM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 14 日 星期四 【晴】

How come!!!

Had a really terrible, horrible, very bad experienced tonight!!! I was on night shift for Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday. Now it is Friday and tomorrow + Sunday are off from work. I have been thinking to do some shopping tonight since last week.

Tomorrow Sheng & me will be going to the beach. So I was thinking to get a waterproof camera, or maybe a waterproof case for my camera, a tripod, a hat for him and myself, a pair of sandals, some Tees, a "accessory" for my swimwear and whatever little treats that I found adorable on my shopping adventure...

I was there, at the department store, I saw 2 SNOOPY calendars which made me a little bit jealous... (I should get those for my friend...), then I had fun at the toy department, which forever delights my day. I visited the bra and stuff shop for that "accessory" too. Then I found my new favourite - the sandals, which is mainly white with colourful designs. (I love white colour!)

Finally, before making my purchase, I went to the supermarket. It was fantastic! I think that's the ONLY supermarket which can called... something similar to COLES or SAFEWAY. When I arrive at the cashier, the lady told me that the terminal was not recognizing my ATM card. She tried 3 terminals, but no luck.

I also bring it to the ATM outside and the 3 ATMs responded the same. I picked my credit card, however, due to my flight ticket purchase, the credit amount is $0 ! I then tried my Australia HSBC and the machine told me that my password is not matching.

Oh come on~~~ I had made deposit for my part time work in August, I had made deposit for my September's income, than a deposit for 2 cheques from the insurance company. This is rich, isn't it? As I have not withdraw for 2 weeks...

I have $10 left in my wallet.

I were in tears.

Need to wait until Monday before I can make a new card & cash out...

Never imagined that it turned out like this...

I am very unhappy. Due to the fact that I have been looking forward for the shopping and for all those I would like to buy were for the beach trip...

>>October 15, 2010 at 3:02:01 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 14 日 星期四 【晴】

我好想返澳洲

Everytime I am unhappy with one thing or another, this idea comes to mind : 我好想返澳洲; is this an escape? Or just in my mind, things work very well in Australia?

Certainly not, there were issues in Australia that I have not come across here in Macau...

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Just feel so "boring" when either myself or him are not avialable to talk in the night. 點呀, 一係我要拉琴, 一係佢要幫阿娘看shop/ 帶隻狗去便便... 大家有空時, 又話聽日返早~

We are going to the beach this weekend. I hope we have a nice trip. Sometimes when we meet just 2-3 hours, we are absolultely fine. But when we meet each other from morning til night, it seems that there will be some quarells from the evening... and the days turns out to be a bad memory.

>>October 14, 2010 at 4:50:45 PM GMT+8

2010 年 10 月 10 日 星期日 【晴】

just double checking Saturday's work.

am frustrated.

the quality is so poor.

>>October 11, 2010 at 4:53:58 AM GMT+8