2011 年 3 月 31 日 星期四 【晴】

Last night I have a short conversation with Wendy. We were close friends in 1997... we are still close, just I was in Oz for some years and we didn't have much contacts. I can feel her support on my ideas.

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I have also locked up to 3 venues which I think is suitable for holding the reception. YAY! Two have quoted me the cost and one of them, my most wanted one has actually responded very fast & neaty. Get a good impression for this one!

Many always said that we need to reserve the venue a year ahead. And some of them will question or feel astonished if I have not make any move yet. Oh well... 是您的, 就是您的. Why fuzz?

As there are no poor violins in the world, but poor musicians... I guess I can also conclude that there are no poor venues, but poor guest on earth!

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>>April 1, 2011 at 8:25:30 AM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 30 日 星期三 【晴】

d 人 so cheap～　

剛剛同個 friend 傾下 wedding d 野，他是開 wedding shop．當講到我想整個 wedding budget 上限為 10000，他就好似唔想幫，又 look down on us！佢話 400000 - 500000～　

好 odd 咁 hang off 了電話後，我就知，我唔可以用 macau d service．要自己找 or china 那些．

其實我已想了十萬個 idea～　只因為 budget 問題，我選擇 simple 一些，就被人覺得我想是但攪．

>>March 31, 2011 at 3:52:00 AM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 28 日 星期一 【晴】

Sheng said sorry to me last night. Sorry for being "upset".

While I was taking a shower, I decided to put down my desire. Just let it go.

So before bed, we prayed for faith in Him. Not only for requesting a job for Sheng.

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I was awakened by sister's phone call at 10 this morning. She told me there is an interview for Sheng.

Yipee!!!

YAY!!! And I just checked my insurance claim records. Been to the clinic for 10 times, amounting mop 2110.94, the insurance co has rejected 2 claims, but has paid mop 1126.00, more than 50%!

>>March 29, 2011 at 7:33:58 AM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 26 日 星期六 【晴】

Made a wise decision today... a rebellious decision too~ hehe, my schedule goes:

10 rehearsal
11 lesson
15 rehearsal
17 rehearsal
19 rehearsal

I chose to run away for the 15.00 rehearsal. Stayed home and do some self practice.

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A quarter is almost done for 2011. How's everyone going? How's those ambition we swear in the beginning of the year?

After quite a number of celebrations in Jan & Feb, I am down to a restful March. Restful as in my appointments. There weren't much commitment... It's bit of boring too. While I was also sick since 19th February until last week. Other times I head visited the hospital for further following up my body check earlier in February. No big issues, but 2-3 minor issues to due with. And I made up my mind that Sheng & I should go for that "couple body check scheme" in December. So there would be 3-4 months to work things up if there are any issues.

We had visited some wedding shop & jewelry shop too. Hehe... I have unintentionally tried on a $xxxxx diamond ring!!! I like to prepare things now but Sheng would like to push it until September and onwards. Well, though with my request, we leisurely do some on site research.

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Last night we had some conflicts. His dog was bullied by 5 dogs. Sheng told me that he would buy a stronger dog to fight those dogs in return. Earlier he told me that the xxx would put xxx to throw a party if there were more Japanese killed in the earthquake.

I used to avoid conversation with him regarding "revenge"/ politics & "their" history. Musicians are the least to think about those thing. And especially I am not exposed to those bloody history.

Besides avoiding a discussion, what can I do?

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I earned $17.5 a minute last week! That afternoon Sheng bought me to a Chinese doctor. We were in a bus... he bite my finger and it hurt so much that I cried. Earlier I ask for some sweets to accompany the Chinese medicine, he said NO. Just becoz I cried, he bought me a tin of sweets which costs $17.5.

hahaha

>>March 27, 2011 at 8:10:11 AM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 9 日 星期三 【晴】

有幸看到一個 "90 後心聲" 的 video clip。

好有感覺想反 my dad！！！

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That day, he told me his idea & his desire. I nodded, and then got off to work. I cried all my way to the office. I don't see any support from him. He says I am not brave enough. And if we are marrying, it should be celebrate enough.

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wait. i don't want to follow his idea.

>>March 9, 2011 at 4:39:11 PM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 7 日 星期一 【晴】

how do you feel?

after announcing my marriage to a few friends in person, I've received different replies. a number of them instantly thought of being included in my Maid's team, even to be the maid of honour. indeed, some were out of my expectation.

i have been invited to be in other's maid's team. and i have never thought of myself being in those position. i don't think i have that close relationship with those brides... so it was kind of a surprise for me to be inclusive!

today i noted someone is finalizing their wedding team. we 'were' close friends. and i still treasure that. but our role is different. now i am not included.

i feel upset. should i?

had we been too close?

this is sad.

>>March 8, 2011 at 2:37:36 PM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 6 日 星期日 【晴】

http://hk.news.yahoo.com/article/110306/4/n26g.html

Dad should read this news...

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We talked about the "reception" this morning, he has his idea which isn't very welcome by me.

Can I have someone who can share with me about Chinese? their way of thinking? their expectation? And this someone must know how to approach me.

>>March 7, 2011 at 3:49:10 PM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 1 日 星期二 【晴】

Called Ms Grace this morning. She was my Primary 2 teacher. She's MYinsurance consultant.

Yesterday I complained that Sheng always look at other woman. I tell him that I will be the ONLY beautiful lady in his mind. And I have forgotten what we later discuss. Just recalled, he said... "I know I will need to pour quite an amount on medical expenses for you." I don't know what he was thinking when he said this.

But I know I will burden him. We talked about insurance too, which I am not infavor of for sometime.

Maybe... we both have cold & flu. He recovers in 1 day and I usually will not receovered after 2 weeks...

I don't want to "insure" myself by myself actually. But are we worked that way on earth?

>>March 2, 2011 at 3:03:49 AM GMT+8

2011 年 2 月 24 日 星期四 【晴】

罵完未？

19/2 上次去急診，醫生診了急性咽炎。
25/2 今次去門診，醫生話係慢性咽炎。

急性 or 慢性 isn't making any difference to me...

For the first visit, it was 9.45pm. I remembered that it was 11.44pm when I left. I called Sheng and for 10 mintues he scolded me.

Dark on the street// alone in the emergency department// tired after work and shocked with that medical term of my sickness// i cried// i have to tell him that he can scold me for not taking care of myself, but not at this time.

On my second visit, it was during my office hour. The medical spray was not working the night before, so I coughed all night and feel so sicky. Sheng scolded me again =_=, for not re-visiting the hospital earlier.

Fine// is this the way man likes caring a woman? //

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The doctor has prescribed me 6 types of tablets, with 3 having sleeping effects. He is kind enough to understand my need! I cough heavily tonight, but I wanted to take the medication after talking with Sheng. I was afraid if I will felt asleep during the phone call if I take them early.

We did have a quality chat tonight. Discussing on Sunday's schedule// each other's action on job seeking// and a deeper sharing - my body check report from 15/2.

We concluded with devotional reading & prayers. I heard him praying "Lord, pls heal Emily, you know she is my everything." Biblically this shouldn't be true, but I am touched.

>>February 25, 2011 at 3:58:17 PM GMT+8

2011 年 2 月 24 日 星期四 【晴】

Job seeking.

Indeed Sheng has asked if I know any channel which can get him a job long ago. I don't know anyone. And with his limited skills, I don't know how to ask others for a position on his behalf.

He has made some application these months and get back to me... NO WAY, they need diploma+ qualification/ English fluency... Certainly I know. Now he has been turn down...

He was to eager, asking me to edit his cover letter. I am not confident in my Chinese, so I let him work that out himself.

I need to admit that he is not used to get a job through sending applications. Coz China doesn't work that way. So when I first introduced him to job seekers site, to taylor-made cover letter, he found that useless.

Is it useless?

When I went for job hunting in Australia, I change my cover letter for different employers. I had quite some interviews opportunity too.

Now that I am applying on his behalf, I felt I am rushing. Not taking time to understand the company, not even the position.

I am afraid.

I fear he got dragged down.

I am coughing badly tonight. With poor sleeping quality this week. Looks like I am pushing a bit of limit here.

How to be helpful? Be positive & encouraging to him?

>>February 24, 2011 at 4:18:17 PM GMT+8