2011 年 11 月 2 日 星期三 【晴】

indeed, I always fear that my tears will drop in front of Sheng, or maybe during our phone conversation. he doesn't know how to react when I am crying. he will become annoyed & leave me alone instead of comforting me. like in july when I was super stressed at work, he didn't support my career right on the spot, he heard me cry every night and his decision was - request me to quit.

>>November 3, 2011 at 3:07:24 PM GMT+8

2011 年 11 月 2 日 星期三 【晴】

Just reading my older post. And realized that the last time I was pretty annoyed about the DATE thing was 3 October, exactly 1 month before.

This is ridiculous.

>>November 3, 2011 at 5:21:55 AM GMT+8

2011 年 11 月 2 日 星期三 【晴】

what do you want?

You know? Every time someone tells you that the DATE is not right, you request to change. But in every change, you are not convinced, you keep putting US into trouble & emotionally hurting.

You commented that I AM TOO QUICK~

But we have talked about the marriage 12 months ago! And only until the 8th month that you intervene, what have you done on those 8 months?

Fine, change the date. You get someone but this someone didn't have the dates for 2012. oh mine... You make us wait.

Okay, you get another guy, who gave us 5 choices of the GOOD dates. We picked 9 March. And we settled Macau for 10 March FOR YOU. Then someone in your family said NO. You went back to your homecountry, ask for guidance and come back with...

With things like.... in Dec// oh no, before Chinese New Year// Um... before March...// ar, better be at 2013.

What the hell!!! What are you saying?

Going-to-be brides might be emotionally unstable; but I think you are the one who is unstable. Are you in fear? Do you not want your son to get married?

Ok~ your son told me 21 FEB, and it is confirmed. We are ABOUT to put deposit for the reception in China. But as of today (Wed), someone commented that the date is NO GOOD... becoz of the chinese horoscope. What are all these fortune telling people doing? You pay them, they give you a date, but you are not trusting them.

I am very very upset & angry.

Are you respecting us?

Why are you so stressed with your bro/ sis/ uncle... whatever telling you about the dates?

>>November 2, 2011 at 4:31:01 PM GMT+8

2011 年 10 月 21 日 星期五 【晴】

感覺我的獨處能力下降了

>>October 22, 2011 at 3:41:09 AM GMT+8

2011 年 10 月 17 日 星期一 【晴】

Visited a private GP today and they asked me to go to the hospital instead. I was admitted to the emergency unit.

I have been going to the bathroom for quite many times during the night + vomit + weak.

吊針！個哥哥整左三次都整唔到。I just saw the blood and felt the pain =_=~ 一聲「唔好意思」後第四次就比另一個 nurse 試~

Sheng went to his friend's wedding tonight. And came back, told me he was pretty drunk. Wanna sleep... I hate this, esp in China... people like to give face to others when offered to drink. So he drank the whole night, returned home and rest~ oh~ but I am not well, I was alone at the emergency unit this morning... and he's gonna leave me alone again.

BAD

>>October 18, 2011 at 3:49:46 PM GMT+8

2011 年 10 月 13 日 星期四 【晴】

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

-//-

oh... 原來我 care!

謝謝天父，今天看婦科，這個醫生好細心，好 pro！她一邊檢查一邊同我 explain ~ she cares the temperature of her clinic, the feeling of the patient...

好啦，返左 home　~ 　有d想喊...

two things... I got this 子宮肌瘤 in my body. At the moment it's position and size are okay. Doctor says it's best for me to give birth early, as this tumor might be affected while in my pregnant stage. Oh no~ I thought I gonna have at least 2 years of FREEDOM & two years to save more money...

I understand God has plans and miracles. But mentally I want to save this unborn baby and give birth sooner.

>>October 14, 2011 at 3:27:48 AM GMT+8

2011 年 10 月 9 日 星期日 【晴】

e 一個黃昏, 去左 Holiday Inn 個 Tea Tree Spa~ 比我想像中平~ 加上有 package~ 大約 mop 270 - 300 一次！已有一年沒到美容院～　怕了他們的價錢及沒完沒了地介紹他們的 treatment～　

去 Tea Tree Spa 我係做 facial treatment．去到都幾 surprise～　他們有個 waiting room 讓客人 unwind，and then 幫我換鞋及洗腳！用左條 hot towel "full 腳"，超 comfortable！我仲可以沖個涼先做 facial！！！喜歡酒店 d treatment，美容院戈d～　整左個 mask 就走左去．．．半個小時後先回來．．．but 酒店戈 d唔會．間 spa 仲比我選 Philippine 或 Chinese 師父~ certainly I chose the former！

*用條 hot towel "full 腳" - I think I will apply this to my husband

>>October 11, 2011 at 2:43:31 AM GMT+8

2011 年 10 月 3 日 星期一 【晴】

d post 又多番, 看來有點 stress 呢!

隻眼腫左啊！昨晚頂撞了 Sheng～　

他媽說只要在３月２０日前結婚，就可以了．不過我仍然氣惱～　仲喊左～

>>October 4, 2011 at 5:38:29 AM GMT+8

2011 年 10 月 2 日 星期日 【晴】

冇乜朋友~ 想到請飲名單，其實唔係好多，大多已沒 contact/ 沒有以前那 close．

今日覺得，e 三年最 close 的，應該是同事們！我們差不多日日都見面．有過 conflicts，有過 sad moments，又有一起 discuss 如何起義之時！我永遠都是冷淡的樣子．但某日子，某同事也都打開我心門！仲有我最近結婚的消息，他們都能取得第一手資料！

I always say I love my career, I love my workplace. Now I want to shout "I love my colleagues!"

>>October 3, 2011 at 9:50:30 AM GMT+8

2011 年 10 月 2 日 星期日 【晴】

其實我 OKAY~ 求主比我有智慧 help Sheng & help handle this matter~ I know I will not destroy further but to be courageous, be calm & get a solution.

>>October 3, 2011 at 4:42:07 AM GMT+8