2012 年 1 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

Was thinking of Keith & Marco last evening. I used one afternoon to explore & try using Photoshop to create a poster for our coming concert. I never thought that I could learn it by myself with trial & error. I tried to take some tutorial, but time won't allow and I am no clam enough to sit down for those lesson. Well, there are some similarities with the Adobe Flash MX software, which I learned it in my 1st year. I didn't create anything great, but the concept and the things to think about are still in my head. Thanks God I can now apply them somewhere else.

This morning I woke up and realized that I have forgotten to put up any contacting information to the poster. This feeling, in an instance, is just like the one I have had experienced while I created several powepoints for LIFE. That was the most amazing experience I ever have!

Thanks God. I am waiting for boss' approval. After that, it's the process of selling tickets which annoys me. One month to go for this concert preparation, also one month to go for the wedding ceremony!

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At dinner time last evening, I shared with mom about resigning. She disagree with my idea. But she reminds me that if I resign before I give birth, I cannot apply for the benefit from the worker's fund. I DON'T WANT to take the maternity leave from my current workplace and then resign. I also don't want to take maternity leave in the first half year of a new job.

Thinking of it, I have quite a strong feeling to feel sad to leave. And I also want to stay in the same field. But where can I go? And where is stable in salary & challenging at work? Can my hubby earn more so I could stop working? I don't want mom/ mom-in-law to take care my babe. I want to raise them up myself.

If I say I have used 2002 - 2012 for FUN, for challenges. And fot the next decade I go for stable & family, am I 甘心?

>>January 28, 2012 at 5:50:51 PM GMT+8

2012 年 1 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】

好想買個 agnes b 袋啊~~~

不過佢好貴

>>January 20, 2012 at 2:58:41 AM GMT+8

2012 年 1 月 1 日 星期日 【晴】

My guess is right. Mom scolded me for not taking the opportunity to play at the new year's concert. She thinks that it is a very great opportunity. Or maybe, the "last" big event before our "big" day.

I love to be on stage.

Mom mentioned that I shouldn't leave this chance, even if I have to go for rehearsals on my day off. I am glad I have my idea. And I am glad I understand what builds my eternity. Thanks God, I have enjoyed the orchestra for the past 10 years, so even I am quitting, I feel good.

I know very well, a rehearsal doesn't only cost my time. It kills my energy & my focus.

I am now slacking with the wedding organization. I can do it because the per-preparation has been done very well already!

>>January 2, 2012 at 8:22:07 AM GMT+8

2012 年 1 月 1 日 星期日 【晴】

Dad & mom looked for rental property yesterday. They found one which they think is very convenient. Dad started telling me all the PROS of that area.

I rejected him last night.

At lunch time today, they mentioned it again. And dad asked me to make a decision soon so we can secure that apartment. I let them talk talk talk. Let them speak speak speak.

I was in silence.I am trying to keep quiet to calm and protect myself from being annoyed with anything they say. Sheng is very clear as to where we will live. And I am in full support with his decision.

You know what? Mom said I have 就佢 to live in Zhuhai, now that he should 就我 to live near the border.

I have rented apartment in Australia. I have tried to go to work with changing trains for 3 times, a journey was 1.30 hours. Why still worry my moving to Zhuhai? Actually I was thinking to go to mom's place for lunch after I moved out. But I think I will cook for myself/ eat somewhere else... they are really... to CARING...

They have always live in Macau. A place where you could reach almost anywhere in 30 minutes on foot. I know they are afraid of that long hours of travel...

>>January 2, 2012 at 6:11:57 AM GMT+8

2012 年 1 月 1 日 星期日 【晴】

未到1月我已經 book in 左好幾個 appointments!!! ~

7 Jan 拉 GIG + 選婚紗
12 Jan passport renewal
14 Jan Family dinner
16 Jan Our signing of marriage certificate
21 Jan Visit HK

另外都會用 3 日 annual leave 做以上的事. 全6日 annual leave~ 3 remaining, XD hahaha~

Sheng 都好 busy~ 整出入 Macau 的 visa 外, 就係我地架 Chevy 要整 insurance/ license plate...

求主保守我們的身心靈 :)

>>January 2, 2012 at 4:57:32 AM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 31 日 星期六 【晴】

最後我都同兩位恩師說了近期的事。而我的心情，由 31/12 的 thanksgiving prayer night 開始，慢慢返返去正常。

今天 Sheng 帶左我去KFC~ 因為 $, 好奈沒吃過！Sheng ordered 2 set~ which comes with 2 small gifts. I like them very much. hehe... I was late for almost 45 minutes today! And I have forgotten to buy the soup ingredients yesterday~ so all my plans were a bit... not working!

I hold his hand today... first time ever holding for quite a long time.

After much conflicts, I think we both wanted to have a nice day today.

Thank you God.

>>January 1, 2012 at 2:55:13 PM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 23 日 星期五 【晴】

已是第三年! 今年個 account 做得有 d 條理了!
Check 戈時都 okay 容易對到 d 數 ^.^ !!!

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After get the account done, I relaxed myself. And have a read through what happened in 2011.

>>December 24, 2011 at 10:01:20 AM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 20 日 星期二 【晴】

這下半年沒太多的演出，什至我也 turn down 了今晚及1/1出音樂會的機會。

上星期有消息撒撒會在 2012 年組織校友合唱團！收到個邀請，超想去。

好早前我去問一位朋友可否在我們的 wedding 上幫手。他第一個回應係「等我問一問太太先！」。

係呢，結左婚之後，那更大的自由是如何的呢？

Am I still able to commit to what I have been committing? Can I take in new interest & pour time to my own enjoyment regularly? Unless anything/ anyone is invading our Sundays, otherwise I am still making choices for myself how to use my time at the moment. It's sort of in my knowledge how we should define being a wife in Christ. Not yet in my heart.

>>December 21, 2011 at 1:54:20 AM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 18 日 星期日 【晴】

Just wanted to thank you again for all your help both before and during the tour in making the whole thing run so smoothly. I know there are a great many details to be attended to, and the fact that you were so very much on top of eveything meant that Howard and I did not have to worry about the organisation and could just concentrate fully on the actual examining.

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can't stop reading this again and again
makes me feel good

>>December 19, 2011 at 2:11:54 AM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 15 日 星期四 【晴】

心理不平衡

e 一刻的心理不平衡, 是因為工作的 income 定係係一段關係中, 女生要比男生支援更多? 昨天提到快要交 1st installment. 因為 Sheng d $ 比左我, 所以係由我去 bank 預備 $.

There is a larger portion saved from my pocket. I asked Sheng how much he want to withdraw. As we have talked earlier to borrow from his dad. Well, but his dad is old and not with a wealthy saving. I feel bad to ask from him after that he is mostly lending Sheng to pay the reception in China. The amount that Sheng stated is not the same as what I expected in my mind. But we were both polite to each other (stating the amount and accepting the amount).

I am very tired since 2 days ago. I think my tiredness 發出來了. At this 3rd year of working, I am very much better in controlling all the work. Physically I can make myself not OT this session. But a great part of my 心力 is to standby all the time. You don't know if you get a call on your day off and someone tells you that he/ she is sick. 唔知係唔係咁, 我好累啊.

I am thinking to visit the spa centre tonight. But is not inexpensive. I can afford it. Yet it will decrease my saving. 唉~ 男人呀~ CAN YOU EARN MORE T_T'''

Please Lord, help my to adjust my inner thinking and the emotions when I am feeling weak.

>>December 16, 2011 at 4:04:16 AM GMT+8