2005 年 2 月 9 日 星期三 【晴】

Glad that the humidity has been dropping in Macau, and a nice weather today ^.^ ! I've 4 dates in these 2 days, wahahah~ will be out this afternoon to take some photos of MACAU, my dear friend offer to take me anywhere I like! And then a drink and probably a dinner tomorrow with a few friends & my past teacher.

Well, last 7 days...I am thinking when should I go to HK, taking the 13:00 ferry or the 16:30, it may be too rush to take a 16:30 ferry to the HKIA, but it may be too early to take the 13:00 ferry! Mum will suggest they accompany me to HK, getting the ferry to HK terminal, then the airport bus. I don't like this route, takes me 2 hours, and especially I have bad temper when carrying my luggages. My dad isn't that gentle when, even he saw mum & me carrying the luggage >.< ! I can have some reading time if I take the 13:00 ferry, that's good for me ^.^ ~

>>February 10, 2005 at 2:50:37 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 7 日 星期一 【晴】

Just now dad played a VCD, it was the video taken 10 years ago during Chinese New Year. Mum is often so cheerful when reviewing past photos and videos. But I never enjoy it, mum knows that, just that she doesn'tknow why. I told her to look forward, never look back, sure, I know getting past memories is a different thing, however, I just never like to look back at my childhood. The feeling is so bad.

Tonight mum & dad went out for shopping, glad that I stay at home~ haha, I told them that I have nothing more needed to buy, and that I need some space in my luggauge to bring some books to Melbourne. So rejected to go out with them. And here goes my sister, dressing up and preparing to hang out. I wonder what time my parents will be back, and what time sister will leave...desiring a quiet home, a time with dear Heavenly Daddy.

Tomorrow morning, I will be going to church at 9am. There is a special service, the bulletin says that, before we go and greet each other during Chinese New Year, we shall go and praise the Lord first! Greet brothers & sisters at church first.

Yeah...I thank God for being in the God's family. No matter how damaged my past was, no matter how isolated the current origin family members are...I am growing in God's family ^.^ ~~ Keep smiling, keep shinning.



Wonder what happens on Friday, my second birthday (according to the lunar calendar)~ My dear cousin gave me a necklace for my birthday, it is a cross, with a dove on it and also "J O Y" marked on the cross. I love it so much, last time we went to a Christian store, and I was yelling at it, too expensive! I bought something for mentor only, haha, I like buying things for others, instead of myself, it's a blessing...Really appreciate God's work, he gives what his daughter desires and wishes.

>>February 8, 2005 at 2:47:55 PM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 5 日 星期六 【晴】

17-6 = 11...

11 days remaining, I am returning to Melbourne!!! ^.^

Tonight there will be a union dinner with family, same old boring things~ just hope that I can have many many sharings with my cousins~

I went to Sheung Tao Church this morning, another one that I visited in Macau. I met my music director there, thanks God, it's at church, he didn't get angry with me, just staring with me while knowing that I am leaving in 2 weeks time. There is a concert on 27th, but I am leaving on 17th, that strike him crazy...so sorry~

He told me the orchestra planning in mid-05. You know what, last time I mentioned about my teacher coming to Melbourne, then a retreat camp with church, and also a music conference in July. And now,

and now...this morning, the music director told me that YSO, our orchestra is coming to Australia in July!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shall I be happy? They will be on a music tour to Sydney, Adelaide, Tasmania and so on~ And perhaps getting a train to Melbourne.

Osp...then I remembered...I have settled all my semester/term breaks to LIFE ministry!

Oh come on... where shall I be in July? In Macau then to Oz? In sydney, or somewhere else? at church ministry? at camp? ~.~

I want to accomplish all of these activities, they are all so precious and valuable! And also once in a life happening...

>>February 6, 2005 at 11:17:04 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 5 日 星期六 【晴】

17-6 = 11...

11 days remaining, I am returning to Melbourne!!! ^.^

Tonight there will be a union dinner with family, same old boring things~ just hope that I can have many many sharings with my cousins~

I went to Sheung Tao Church this morning, another one that I visited in Macau. I met my music director there, thanks God, it's at church, he didn't get angry with me, just staring with me while knowing that I am leaving in 2 weeks time. There is a concert on 27th, but I am leaving on 17th, that strike him crazy...so sorry~

He told me the orchestra planning in mid-05. You know what, last time I mentioned about my teacher coming to Melbourne, then a retreat camp with church, and also a music conference in July. And now,

and now...this morning, the music director told me that YSO, our orchestra is coming to Australia in July!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shall I be happy? They will be on a music tour to Sydney, Adelaide, Tasmania and so on~ And perhaps getting a train to Melbourne.

Osp...then I remembered...I have settled all my semester/term breaks to LIFE ministry!

Oh come on... where shall I be in July? In Macau then to Oz? In sydney, or somewhere else? at church ministry? at camp? ~.~

I want to accomplish all of these activities, they are all so pleasures and valurable! And also once in a life happening...

>>February 6, 2005 at 11:16:45 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 4 日 星期五 【晴】

"........would like to wish you the very best on your birthday. We hope that the following years bring you greater success and happiness. Happy Birthday and may your life continue to grow and change beautifully through the years..........."

Oh well. I like the above phrase very much, especially how they use COMMERCIAL ENGLISH~ I guess it has been 2 years that I didn't touch any formal letter writing! It was one of my favourite subjects in high school.

A brother in Christ asked about my birthday wishes. I really have no idea...have always been looking forward for my 15 March spiritual birthday...Anyway~ I bought a gift for my dear cousin on my birthday, strange ya?



Visited my secondary school the other day, the principal was extremely nice to be, she gave me a big hug and a nice chat, and lead me to the staff room by her private door! Then she announced to 40+ teachers that I return to SRL for a visit. It was quite funny, with 40+ teachers looking at me!!! A fuzz...!? Anyway, I was able to walk around the staff room and greet my teachers. One of them kissed me ~.~

I think this maybe the privilege being an international student returning to my mother school. Guess what...if I am not studying overseas, will they welcome me as warm as this?

One of the teacher (the one who kissed me) told the principal that I am good student XD ~~ After hearing my life in Oz, she comments that I have changed, more out going~ And OSP!!! She said she will come on the 1st week of July to Melbourne!!! And asked me to accopany her for a day or so. Sure I was happy and quickly jotted it down to my diary. Know what...1st week of July: CAMP / VIOLA CONFERENCE in New Castle...

And now I need to add in "TEACHER coming"! OK, now my combinaton would be church-music-friends to worry about. Thanks God, there is still sometime 'til July, I can still pray and make a good decision for that 1st week of July~!!!

>>February 5, 2005 at 3:09:07 AM GMT+8

2005 年 2 月 2 日 星期三 【晴】

Alright~ it's February!!! Chinese New Year & my 2 birthdays are coming!!!

Been so cold here in Macau! I miss my heater lately! Really not used to this weather. Glad that the humidity has dropped. I have been puting things into my two luggages, and seems strange, there are still many spaces and weights very light! The flight give me 20Kg, but usually I can't carry anymore than 15kg, what a waste!!! Anyway~ perhaps I didn't have enough money than last year, didn't buy much~

I was so happy the other day, dear cousin brought me to a ware house, and we were so mad on a few T-shirts, it was "Emily the strange" brand. We played around there and I sort of, imitate her. However, my hair style was like hers! I bought a jacket and 2 shirts, yeah~~ all Emilies...

>>February 3, 2005 at 2:13:46 AM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 27 日 星期四 【晴】

Thanks God~ for helping me to adjust my thoughts!

It's time for "thoughts" management, have been doing quite well for my time management, emotional management...and now, it comes to thoughts management. Decided to submit my thoughts to Jesus every now & then!



Need to visit the dentist this afternoon. This dentist is cool! His office is so nice and warm, very clean, and to the best, he plays classical music on the CD while doing operation or oral check with his client! Isn't that suits me!? ar, he plays the violin too! Dentist & violinist....!?

OK, and then a rehearsal at 7pm and also a dinner with my music mates!

>>January 28, 2005 at 2:14:37 AM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 26 日 星期三 【晴】

Sorry to have dismissed from my diary a few days!

This slow internet connection, old keyboad, and humid computer room really give me some reluctant feeling to stay here for long blog entry!

However, just have to say...safely landed in Macau!

Did have a breakfast time with grandma/pa & my dear cousin. And yesterday went to have some chamber music with dad's student. They said I grew taller! And grandpa said I am fatter than be4! Oh no~ what the hell are these comments! And then my music mate invited me for dinner & sing karaoke. That's terrible! As musicians, why do they enjoy going to karaoke!? And at 10pm!!! I banned! No no no! not my cup of tea!

I am sleeping at 10pm and waking at 7pm` that's according to my clock in Melbourne actually! : P

Get some nice time with my cousin browsing in Watson's, I was glad to saw some SNOOPY stuff there~ mentor would be crazy about that!

By the way, a few days ago, when I depart from Melbourne, it was my first time heading on to a Cathay Pacific Airline! Cool!!! I watched a movie - Garden State ^.^ and also Taizen, REALLY have some fun there! And there are very few passangers on the aircraft, no one sat beside me!! Hohoho...

Mentor told me that there are some brothers and sisters returning around 17th~ but I still haven't confirm if we are getting the same flight. If it is,that would be fun!!!

OK, and this time, dad asked me to learn cello, he urged me to upgrade my theory and piano skills. I have had many conversations with him since I met him, but all about M U S I C, is there something else we can talk? Perhaps Handel's Messiah, or some religious music, that would be great either!

>>January 27, 2005 at 2:00:24 AM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 20 日 星期四 【晴】

3 minutes to go and Sat will start!

Thank you Lord! I have never imagined that you blesses me so wholeheartedly, so kindly, so lovingly. Coming to my 2nd last day in Melbourne this month...

Nice concert tomorrow. Rest after that. Brother & sister giving me a farewell on Sunday evening and a chat with mentor for the last moment in Melbourne. Then head off to HK, dad is going to fetch me there. And lovely sister might be driving me home from the HK-Macau Terminal.

Thanks God, I am not alone! Thanks for your grace!

Housemate offered to pick me up when I return. I feel good ^.^ for his kindness. However, I have rejected...it's 7:25am arrival, I don't want to drive him crazy! I will be fine, no worries!

>>January 21, 2005 at 1:08:15 PM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 20 日 星期四 【晴】

There are many decisions to make! Can I get some time myself? I really need some rest inorder to continue! Yesterday I took a short break and recharged a bit, at least I feel a lot refreshed today! I can feel that my spiritual body is drying out while my physical body is wearing away. I can't afford to let it dry and lastly ended with "burn out".

For God's sake, I challenged myself never say words like "QUIT", "burn out" in my life. No matter how tough my life is! There is always a way out! I began to question..did I make a good choice?

This holiday....2 months ministry, 2 weeks summer course and 3 weeks @ Macau, then a week's rest and resume my uni. I am far much happy & satisfying, coz I have done what I wanted to - music & ministry, and also fulfilled God's will & family's demand - evangelism & returning home. A kinda egg could give you 3 wishes. And this holiday has nearly gave & satisfied all my wishes! In my point of view, well done! I have used more thab one month's time to plan for the holiday, and I have efficiently worked out a schedule, isn't that satisfying? In God's point of view, er...perhaps it is too tight! And I only manually make things work out for me.

Right or wrong, there's always something to reflect...

>>January 21, 2005 at 11:08:16 AM GMT+8