2013 年 5 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

The 7th missed (rejected) call.

If I am not wrong, hubby wanna say sorry. And if I am still not answering his call, he will give up and even angry at my action. " 好呀，唔好聽呀．" It will then expose to another argument．

Well, I still cannot figure out why me (us) are often the ones to be "sacrificed"．

>>May 18, 2013 at 4:12:45 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

”您都知我唔喜歡留係澳門架啦，您 & 您 mother．．．又悶．．．"

I think it was the above sentence that give me another strike...

FINE. If you don't like it, don't ever come back, this is my feeling.

不過點解我因為老公而又咁用心去預備我們回珠海的事呢？

I had been thinking of the stroller, the carrier, the luggage, how to bring the bottles and what can be used to clean, to contain and stuff. Also the formula & milk. What BB to wear can protect her foot as well as her body in zhuahi.

You say you don't like it. FINE.

What on earth and whom on earth am I doing it for?

>>May 18, 2013 at 4:08:00 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

剛剛打返比老公．我說他傷了我的心．即使他最後說星期二會回來，已太遲．


他不是說過他回鄉後，如果有 interview，有事，會返來嗎．也有提過唔夠 $．他們平時很喜歡借 $，為什麼這次不會去借？上一次我們的對話，他說盡趕．

His cousins, his friends, no matter 出事 or 喜事．He will 二話不說 be there．

他說我 handle 到，but 心靈上，我唔得 lor．

He doesn't understand, now he says he will return and will be in Macau on Tuesday morning．But this promise is different already. Because he didn't act and promise in the first respond. As mentioned, 這決定是在我們對話之後．是我 beg 是我 request 之後．

To him, it's nothing.

But to me. He sends me a message... what position is 我 & 囡囡 in? Does he love us as he do to others?

最後在電話上，他說出，”您都知我唔喜歡留係澳門架啦，您 & 您 mother．．．又悶．．．"．

好似個 conversation 未完我吸左線．同時關了 china 電話．

我決定靜下．

我想我這次是傷心．而不是生氣．

同時入左 6 個 miss call．其中我免得我們的對話月抄月 worst，其次希望他會緊張下我．記得 BB 出生那個月？無得訓之餘，早上仲有 D appointments；他會告知何時回來，可很多次 break his words，or 打個電話更改回來的時間．

他也入了３個 wechat message，我不敢看．我怕他不是說 sorry 而是在罵我無理．

主，are we on the same boat?

>>May 18, 2013 at 4:00:12 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

why why why

我地有事呀，why 老公都可以唔關心唔返黎？

佢話冇 $ ~ 佢平時好識借 $ ga
佢話電話冇話費，佢台澳門機絕對可以打到比我，扣我 $ ja ma

今日問．．．佢話星期二返唔到黎．無奈．囡囡要去山頂．．．人地出事老公 look 過去睇佢地．我地呢？

>>May 18, 2013 at 3:19:09 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

oh no!!! forgotten my pump accessories!!!!

好在 9am feed 左一陣

>>May 18, 2013 at 2:56:20 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 16 日 星期四 【雨】

幹嗎 dad questioned why I am not on holiday today~ I seldom tell lies, how come he seems doesn't believe me ge...

>>May 17, 2013 at 4:42:55 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 15 日 星期三 【晴】

what is this guy thinking?

有一 project 行左 10多年，佢現在發現有問題．

>>May 16, 2013 at 8:45:22 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 15 日 星期三 【晴】

多謝天父, 原來老公都緊張我們 =) ~

安慰中...

佢話盡可能星期二陪 BB 上山頂!

>>May 16, 2013 at 4:13:34 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 15 日 星期三 【晴】

a month to worry?

打左兩次 message (whatsapp last night & e-mail awhile ago)，我都未打完就 give up．

Just received a call from hospital and says they are suspecting 小公主has 蠶豆症 (BB 藥物過敏)．Will bring 小公主 for a blood test next week．I did a search and was wide open with my eyes, the long list of caution items．．．mainly on medicine usage and not touching certain things．

I have been upset since yesterday afternoon. Hubby is far far away (@his 鄉下)．I know if I let him know and he will not worry anyway．He knows worrying doesn't work．But will he come back sooner and comfort me？

Although this is not yet confirmed，I feel so unsettled．They say it may take a month for the result to release．

My Lord，we have passed so many tests during pregnancy．小公主 is lucky enough to have that 誌 on her foot instead of her face．She has recovered from yellow，what's next？

;(

>>May 16, 2013 at 3:31:14 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 5 日 星期日 【晴】

Already May!

This morning 7am feeding... Ella vomitted quite a few times after the feed. By 8am, she looks as if still hungry. I tried to comfort her as I am afraid she intakes too much. Anyway, I gave her 2 oz formula after observing for a few more minutes. She made some noises after I put her back to the crib.

8.30am, I know she will sleep soon. But I still need to take a shower & dress up for work. I prayed "with" her. Trying to look into her eyes and pretenting I am not worrieD with the time left to get off to work. At first she was still unsettled. Moreover, she did felt asleep very soon.

Her eyes were opened twice before I left home after the prayers. Yet thanks God, she was contented to be by herself.

>>May 6, 2013 at 2:01:52 AM GMT+8