2005 年 10 月 24 日 星期一 【晴】

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Hey,
Emily, today i receive ur report card,
i know u"re a hardwork girl, anyway add oil la, and if u have anything find me,
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今天收到以上的 e-mail, (excert 左~)

我都唔記得左我 send 左我的 report card 出去比這位兄台 >.*

唔...連續兩天都有問候~ ! 當我"開聲", 我知他們會"出手",

但這是 the best option 嗎?



屋企最近成日都有人打黎, 話咩 offer FREE MOBILE PACKAGE, 3, 4 次了, 我 reject 曬!!! 佢地超煩, 講有咩好處都講左好長時間, d politeness 又差!!! 有個問我點解唔要, 我話電話費 cheaper, 會傾多 d 電話, 有 brain cancel 的機會都 d !!! "That's fair enough" replied the man. Well~

>>October 26, 2005 at 1:58:00 AM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 24 日 星期一 【晴】

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Try hard, little girl!

Any thing I can give a hand (you mentioned expenses)?
Just let me know.

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收到了一位 uncle 的回復, 很感謝他!!!



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完成了<音樂會評論報告>, 感謝神 ^.^

今日都幾奇怪, 我的心情上落了無數次...

前日我想了我明年在事奉上的大計, 點知, 神問左一句~ "is this my desire or yours?". 當時我身體好震, 好驚, 好唔開心, 也不段比借口比我的 planning, 有什麼好...我喊了 - 事實上, 我好清楚那天晚上的聲音是天父, 而不是自己分析一下的 pros & cons. 是那些 uncomfortable feeling, unpeaceful, unstable let me know who's that...I'm upset coz I am not obeying. Today God let me know the reason, and revealed what's really in my mind - the motivation.

>>October 26, 2005 at 1:57:44 AM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 23 日 星期日 【晴】

Other lovely things that God has done...

My camp in Jan is held at North Shore, North Sydney. I contacted Jacky this afternoon, my old cell mate 阿伯, I was so surprise when he told me that he is living in that area too! I feel so warm and protected! Can have a brother in Christ around! I may go to his church or go to CCBC, Sydney, yeah!!!

Before my exam, I met a couple of my colleagues, one of them invited me to go to watch movie on Thursday night, watching Pride and Prejudice and to stay over at her place, to watch an original Pride and Prejudice movie for 5 hours! That's really cool, my first time get invited By Aussie! I love their approach too, Thrusday out is for all girls in the string department! This girl inviting me is Clara, she is one that I recognized as a deisciple of Jesus without she telling me!

Moreover, I haven't make up my mind, I am free actually...but the transport and stuff. I also dated 5 other friends to watch Ghost in the Shell 1 & 2 (real anime) on Friday. If I will watch the movie on Thrusday, that would be so NICE! Two days keep playing and FOOLING around.

Too much hardworking, EMILY needs relaxation too!

Oh, my next exam is on 3 Nov, that's why I am hanging out this week XD ~

>>October 26, 2005 at 1:57:25 AM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 23 日 星期日 【晴】

I have finished my performance exam and returned home.
My exam was at 4:50pm, used more than half a day to stand by - I was tired!

Very thankful! Usually our performance results 會比平日練習時打個 8, 9 折,
誰知今的的表現比之前任何的一個練習都要好呀!!!

Really love myself~ although not an outstanding performer, but I am hardworking ^.^ ~
當然感謝天父的保守啦~

Finished 3 exams now - all is very well done in my part!

>>October 24, 2005 at 8:29:18 AM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 23 日 星期日 【晴】

什麼是父親?
是昨天講道中, Fitzer 的分享 raise up 了我一個 issue. 每次與爸爸說話, 他只會說音樂的東西. 唉~ 我想 feedback 比佢知, 他不是我的老師! 我記起了很多負面的事~ 上次落機, 他不在機場, 而是在 Tom Lee 琴行...經歷過好多次有人因為我是他的女兒而被比面子, 音樂學院入學被加分, 樂團拉得不好, 沒被人罵, 考音樂教育入學試被人知道我是某人的妹妹, 也就是邊個的女兒... 姐姐學壞, 管教不了就要管我, 不許我幫人補習, 我那年考第 4 呀, 我有什麼錯 wor~ part time 左的錢, 給了媽媽 $500, 也給了中提琴老師 $500, 自己 keep $100...

我也知道一件事, 感到他失去了兩樣東西: 他的女兒 - 我, 及他的錢, for 我的學費 & 生活費. 失去!? 是因為我不喜歡我的家, 是因為我掛名留學, 暗地裡是離家出走.

爸爸想我回去, 那時他就落台, 把指揮的一職交給我, 那是他的樂團, 是自己一手創立的. 但我有另一個樂團是我當作的的家, level & 成立的時間比較長, 有料~

而且我都不想回去...

以前我會問他我可否出街, 可否這樣那樣. Form 2 去 camp, 他不許,但我去了. 幫協青 sell flags, 也是他反對的事, 仲有我的 First Aid Team, 仲有我自己賺錢學琴...He bans. Later I never like to request/ask permission anymore.



Heavenly Daddy, I am grateful, although I don't like my family on earth, you have given me Habitat System, CCBC, SRL, YSO & Monash. Dad, I am sorry not knowing how to talk to him, to communicate. Let me erase those hurts.

>>October 24, 2005 at 1:04:18 AM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 20 日 星期四 【晴】

今日的 Exam 完左, 超開心, 超興奮, 因為得左!!!

返到屋企, 網都未上, e-mail 未 check 就去了洗 toilet, kitchen...我見過 & 聽過有朋友在最 stress 的時候會做 housework. 而我, 是最開心的時刻. 突然 housemate 出黎問, 是否我洗了 toilet, and thanked me...

是我的榮幸, 是真的! 大家都 EXAM, 但神祝福我, 可以 spare d 時間, 而且, 服事別人真的很開心呢!

Our house is cleansed again =)

>>October 21, 2005 at 7:55:57 AM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 18 日 星期二 【晴】

20 OCT
Happy Birthday to mentor!

21 OCT
Happy Birthday to 永軍

22 OCT
Happy 3rd anniversary in Australia

>>October 19, 2005 at 2:00:45 PM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 17 日 星期一 【晴】

Nervous for the Friday's exam on music pedagogy. Haven't teach anyone before on my own. I used to assist dad in teaching, but he is the one to teach and I am the one to follow up. The other experience I had, was discussing with a brother in Christ on some violin techniques, but they are merely discussions, without any clear conclusion drawn out that I am ABLE to teach!

Jesus is ABLE!!! ar...well, tonight I am reviewing the books I have borrowed, many many on my floor! And many concepts on teaching, I don't understand all of the ideas, but I quickly grab the ones that I understand. Well, I do thank God that my teaching plan is coming out, and things are beginning to make sense! Hopefully they are settle by tomorrow, and so I could do a full revision on this by Thursday.

The other great thing was that, I am playing the viola on Thursday, for a concert presentation! At first I was asked to sing, I wasn't able to, so I play the recorder in replacement of singing. During the rehearsal today, we relized that the tone and sound production is not working that well, so I was shifted back to viola. Oh~ it was very easy for me now! Less time needed for the concert practising!

>>October 18, 2005 at 3:38:13 PM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 13 日 星期四 【晴】

下午吃了飯在 campus center 出面坐了一會兒, 一直聽著考試的幾首曲目. 前一陣子想過找天到 country side 一天半天, 在那裡聽音樂. 可以比較集中.

音樂欣賞不是簡單的一件事啊!



S o r r y ...忘掉了做功課
suppose 一粒小時之前準備睡覺的, 但忘記了要寫一星期一次的週記啊!!! 關掉了的電腦又再次 switch on, it on call 不停的服事我. 想一想, 我部電腦都與我一起服事人 - 服事教會 - 服事神. =)

>>October 13, 2005 at 4:19:58 PM GMT+8

2005 年 10 月 11 日 星期二 【晴】

I was reading a book this afternoon, one of its chapter is about recording.

The author mentioned he listened to some of the CD available of a musician, however, in live performances, it does not match what he heard on the CD.

In my last rehearsal with Andrew the conductor, he told us that orchestras record themselves 1000 times, and the sound engineerers edit the recording 5 million times. I can't imagine these figures...

I have forgotten when, but I heard some bro & sis commented that the LIVE recording of the CD of Stream of Praise is badly out of tune. Indeed, as what the author stated, that actually is the NATURAL music/singing that they made.

Even professionals get out of tune, get STUCKED while performing, that should be natural! However, due to technology & the ROLE of our lovely sound engineerers on earth, recordings are "made" to be perfected. And listeners' ears are tuned to PERFECT recordings, they desire the PERFECT performance out of the performer.

>>October 12, 2005 at 12:27:36 PM GMT+8