2006 年 7 月 12 日 星期三 【晴】

Can this be love? Is he the one? Is God fond of my feeling right now?

If God say YES, I'd doubt if I got his YES.
If God say NO, I'd grumble and continue to wait for a YES.

Father, I am feeling annoyed. I feel a little JOYFULNESS deep inside, pumbing faster and faster...

Father, let me know...



Sarah Geronimo
Can This Be Love

Can this be love I'm feeling right now
I know for certain I'm feeling right now
I don't recall ever feeling this way
Tell me what does one say
To one who makes me feel this way
Can this be love I'm feeling right now
I am not sure of this feeling somehow
Why do I tremble whenever you're near
I can't seem to say my words so you'll hear

CHORUS:
This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you"
It's the first time I ever felt so helpless deep inside
If I had to say a thousand times I'd tell you once again
This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you"

Can this be love I'm feeling right now
I love the feeling it's giving me now
A voice inside me is guiding me now
It's telling me now
To take your hand and say

CHORUS:
This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you"
It's the first time I ever felt so helpless deep inside
If I had to say a thousand times I'd tell you once again
This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you"
This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you"
It's the first time I ever felt so helpless deep inside
If I had to say a thousand times I'd tell you once again
This is the first time
This is the first time
It's the first time I'm gonna say "I love you"

>>July 12, 2006 at 4:15:06 PM GMT+8

2006 年 7 月 8 日 星期六 【晴】

By SAN

7月9日



today 要學琴~不過冇練過琴…



上堂…奇蹟地冇比人罵~



可能佢放我地一個月假



唔想比一個壞印象我地



then 搵emily…..



去左水坑尾行街….supermarket .富士山…



Emily 買左3件大巾ge 野..好得意a 大巾



Then 去小泉食野…傾傾下先知



Emily 佢聽日飛,…..失望的…



下次飛要早d 同我地講a….



之後去漁人碼頭take photo…



Emily 佢mama 電話急call



Emily 就好快咁打的走人lu….



我wif olive 小敏去八佰伴行….



返到hm 先9點8個字…時間尚中a



對於我地 3隻野黎講….^^:

>>July 12, 2006 at 2:15:16 AM GMT+8

2006 年 7 月 8 日 星期六 【晴】

By OLIVE

星k日中午上英文,, 上完即刻仆去yso,, 點知搭錯車,, 樣衰的,, 搭左去濠江,, 之後就行返yso la,, 原來刀有1段路程嫁,, 返到去差唔多4點,, 今日練a.f.o,, 刀唔算好難,, 還有值得高興的是,, miss 話返埋今堂放大假,, 放1個多月ar,, 開心的,, 之後上完堂,, 搵emily,, 搵到後wif 山山,, 小敏1齊走鬼左去水坑尾,, 唉,, 又去la,, 差唔多日日去咁濟ar,, 去到行左陣supermarket,, 之後emily 買左3隻大根,, 超級可愛的,, 之後去小泉食野,, 那兜芝士忌廉雞肉意粉ar,, 刀冇芝士味ge,, 果杯薄荷賓治,, 真的薄荷到我頂唔順ar,, 之後食完,, 走左過漁人碼頭take photo,, take 完emily 被她的娘親急call,, 十分乖的她打的回家,, 我同山山&小蚊走左去800伴果個wc到.. 之後bk hm,, 返到hm刀未夠10點,, 真的何其的早ar..emily 明天飛返澳洲了,, 又不早點說,, 失望的..

>>July 12, 2006 at 2:12:23 AM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 28 日 星期三 【晴】

I cried last night.

Get scolded =_=

Oh well~ actually I have a lunch date with a brother in Christ today, I know the "BGR rules", I understand why. He has a girlfriend. I wanted to protect our relationship and his with his girlfriend. But this brother is so IGNORANT to go and ask his GF for a permission to have a lunch date with me. We have mere friendship though. I feel like hurting his girlfriend!

After being scolded by mentor, I trun him down!

Those who know me, know my rules... Sabbath Sunday NO Date! Date? oh well, give me at least a week's notice, mate!!! I learned the boundaries stuff and set priorities, but I wonder why my boundaries don't work with some guys. Are they in my VIP list?

Last time mentor asked if I have friends. The answer is a NO. To be honest, not one. Perhaps two are in Macau, one in Canada, but after years in Oz, not as close as before. And around me, are working team mates, not friends either. Yeah, I have two brothers in church which I am very fond of. They are the "S" type people, so friendly & supportive, that 2, I would consider as close friends! But, man, they are guys...

Um... I open my schedule for mentor, for some other VIPS, and my boundaries are defeated :( ~

Well~ still thinking about it this morning...

I am sorry Lord, made a mess! Confort that girlfriend! She is my lovely sister in Christ too!

>>June 28, 2006 at 11:33:45 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 25 日 星期日 【晴】

I'm SICK @_@

Thanks God, although Monday is my official coles shopping day, there are still some stocks in my house that I can eat - BREAD/SOUP/BISCUITS as well as medicine. Got a sore throat last night and then turn to a flu today, oh~~~ sleep sleep and sleep...

>>June 26, 2006 at 12:14:22 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 18 日 星期日 【晴】

Having a very confused feeling at the moment.

Thanks Terry, who went to the ticketing website and find about YSO coming July concert. I was a bit disappointed that the concert was pospone to Sunday instead of 15 July. Well, if it's a Sunday, I can't perform now! Coz 2nd semester starts on Monday, I am a student, I shouldn't miss out my first school day! On the other hand, I am happy too, coz I can catch the Wednesday, which is the result releasing date and Thursday, my official editing date for Prayer News and Saturday, some work with MST.

So...

So thankful to God, didn't let me to graduate this year! Si Man, John Ma, Tim Sun and Pui Yee is graduating this year, and YSO host 4 solo concerts for them. Oh man! I can't fight if I am graduating this year, I don't have the quality to step on CCM's platform yet! NOT YET! I don't know how emotional I will be if I am asked to or asked not to perform a solo concert on behalf of YSO...

In reading Si Man's profile, all I want to do is pick up my viola and keep practising 'til 110% ready. I want to perform, I want to teach, to build my career path as well. To not let down the name of my dear UNIVERSITY - MONASH! I am so eager to be like them, black long skirt, shinning on stage, how cool it is?

But...

Is that the will of Father? Am I devoted to this world... fighting for reutation? I feel quite hurting...for myself, for Jesus. I want my name to be FRAMING... Si Man's the first cellist performer in Macau, Tim is the first for viola, I am the second... oh...I get LOST...

>>June 19, 2006 at 3:14:57 AM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 17 日 星期六 【晴】

Finally I have finished reading , to certain extent, this is one of the few Chinese txt I have and that I really enjoy! Hudson's life has indeed given me a lot of insights. Thanks God.

At one point, he said that he wanted to work on every project to certain stage, where the project can be pass to someone else to continue. YES, so so agree with this!

Lately I heard that my partner will not teach violin beginners in church, me too, and we both understand well that if a person had has a poor/ not-perfect beginning violin coaching, it would be very sad and a very waste of time + not good for the person. But if both of us are gone, who will develop the string section in church? Our senior pastor has often asked us to PASS ON our skills, grab one or two person, follow up them and guide them to help and to do our work, so we will not do the work all by ourself, and in any case, if we are not THERE for any reason, the ministry could go on...

So far I tried to get this 徒弟仔, but it wasn't successful.

May God blesses.

>>June 18, 2006 at 8:40:16 AM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 16 日 星期五 【晴】

Thanks Martin

Thanks Kelvin

Thanks Cathy

Thanks Jessie

Thanks Alex

Thanks York

Thanks Brandon

Thanks Fui

Thanks Jesus

Thanks Ken

Thanks myself

Thanks AA

Not sure did I miss out anyone to give thanks! Today's the presentation of MISSION SUPPORT TEAM - Mission Focus - Myanmar & Thailand. I was pretty worry becoz none of us got the role to follow up each of our assigned work... powerpoint, care cards, collection box, prayer requests... we planned, we rostered, we all do it individually~ hahah~

And it's so FUNNY that Alex has forgotten to let us lead to pray! But thanks Father, the 2nd time ran very well! PERFECT!!! I was amaze at my CALMITY! There were some noise while the powerpoint was going on, it distracted a bit and cut my lovely sound track! >.< ~ Well, but I KEEP going on.

Really pray that the congregation are no bored to death!

May God blesses our second project!!! AMEN!

>>June 17, 2006 at 1:05:37 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 14 日 星期三 【晴】

I have done a lot today!

Finished editing one chapter of LIFE.
Finished 9 chapters of Chronicles.
Cooked, ate.
Played viola.
Read Hudson's.
E-mail x many

Just suddenly feel a bit lost what I shall be doing. Keep e-mailing mentor and pouring to her many queries, poor her! Hahha~ but she loves me ma, so she reads them ^.^~

>>June 15, 2006 at 1:07:04 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 14 日 星期三 【晴】

Busy Schedules:

Finish editing LIFE materials x 1 project

Choir rehearsal & worship - Fri & Sat x 2

Powerpoint and VCD broadcasting during services on Sat x 2

Readings of x 3 chapters

Readings of Myanmar & Thailand background & prayers information + praying + memorizing them

Prepare reading Grace Vessels & SAO information for meeting next Tue

Monday, Wednesday & Friday 2 hours each for Mission Course about China

Bible reading - aiming to finish the 4th time by June 29

Bank in - not scheduled a date yet!~!!

Tuesday and Thursday preparing my Semester 2 technical exam (THEY just on sem 1 exam...)

Learning more songs of the guitar & piano & a piece for viola.

Preparation in discussion with Ham for violin techniques, need further equipping myself to teach him.

One meeting with beloved mentor, still not yet drawn my agenda.

Finish reading

Buy Max Lucado

>>June 15, 2006 at 2:05:01 AM GMT+8