2006 年 10 月 7 日 星期六 【晴】

2:30 - 這是今日的 lunch time.

I learned this morning that when we serve even we are worn out - it's a living sacrifice. When we praise God when we are tired and still not willing to get out of bed - it's a living sacrifice.

You know what... around 160 boxes were collected on Saturday, 80 something boxes were collected on Sunday.

When I looked back, I have many sorry to say to brothers and sisters. I am too harsh. 3 person in the counter, but the 3 of us have different requirements, we know the rules, the procedures, but I am too strict, someone is too kind, someone have mercy, but I want the TASK to be done. Hhhahaha... FUNNY THOUGH.

>>October 8, 2006 at 5:44:53 AM GMT+8

2006 年 10 月 5 日 星期四 【晴】

朋友送來了晚餐, 不久就走了.

星期五, 沒東西 due, 時間任由我決定作什麼, high C 的我, 當然選擇留在家中幹東西啦.

11:15, 拉拉下琴, 我感覺到 right side 的背部痛呀. 我估是 right arm pain, 因為 arm 是come from the back 那個位置應該是對手臂的開始. 當我要按下 nearby 的 muscles, 死...都痛.

好想喊.

一直我只以為我的 left side 有事, 沒想到 right side 都有野...

煩.

約左兩星期後先見 physiotherapist, 我應唔應該提早一些見他? check 下...

到底, 那 pain, 是否一直都存在, 而只是我感受不到呢?

我可以 train 到自己個肚唔識叫 hungry, 或者個肚叫, 我唔會給它食物...

我都可以拉琴拉 6 個小時, 拉到感受唔到有什麼問題 (或者是我忍了)...


天父, you are the healer and the doctor! You are full of grace & mercy!
I am sorry for my unawareness for all my body's warning.
I confess to you that I am too focus on my music and ignore everything else.
My Lord, I ask that you would grant me patience to listen and to feel all the signals that my body send.
The pain, the tireness, Lord, I always ignore them, I pray that I can feel those soreness.
May you give me wisdom when to seek for extra consultation with Bob.
May you help me to stand firm in you. I want to cry, yes, there's physio treatment,
there is prayers and spports, but I am weak still.
I am upset too. Lord, I need my right arm!
You know about my assessments to come... how important it is for the right arm to function!
I thank you tonight that when I played, I feel that it's paining.
It's so funny, when I know that my left first RIB is elevated, I tend to do all the work with my right hand.
Now the right side also has problem, hahha~ what shall I do?
Lord, you arm is never too short! Nothing is impossible ^.^ ~
As what Ken mentioned, when I can still feel the pain today, it's a blessing.

JESUS YOU ARE MY ROCK!

AMEN.

>>October 6, 2006 at 2:14:55 PM GMT+8

2006 年 10 月 5 日 星期四 【晴】

昨天比較輕鬆~ 因為今日戈堂, 3260 老師去了 Sydney, 今天應該是 AK 教, 講 body movement, 應該唔需要備課. 每次想去備課都有好大的 struggles, 因為當天的事都未完成, 要備課, 更難也.

昨晚見自己有些精神, 就沖出 12am, continue 讀 Old Testament. 很喜歡 OT 喇~ 明左好多. 不過都怕星期一晚前未能完成課堂的 requirement. 我知我不只會進力, 我會去到自己的極限去完成, 哈, 顛的. =_='''

今日中秋 wor ~ 對於排華的我, 沒什麼特別. 這天晚上約了朋友相聚. 最近我們一日都有 3 -4 電話來往, ~ 星期五六一起吃飯, 哈, 顛架. 我整天祈禱, 希望我們不要"出事". 不竟, 3 -4 個電話之中, 有 3 個都是問我吃左東西未 (1日有3餐...), 第 4 個問我有沒有休息 lor ! 很欣賞他不怕麻煩, 不怕自己似阿媽, 都幫我回復返一個合神心意的人. 他說, 如果我把對音樂的 passion 放在 eat, rest, play 就 perfect 了. Thanks God for this brother!!!

仲有 15 minutes, 要吃早餐喇~ 之後吹埋個頭返學 ^.^ ~

>>October 5, 2006 at 11:46:34 PM GMT+8

2006 年 10 月 4 日 星期三 【晴】

http://www.shareanopportunity.org/

Deuteronomy 15:11
There will always be poor people in the land. Therefore I command you to be openhanded toward your brothers and toward the poor and needy in your land.

>>October 5, 2006 at 7:41:01 AM GMT+8

2006 年 10 月 4 日 星期三 【晴】

針灸治療

My physiotherapist has returned from Adelaide ^.^ ~~ I like him more then the physiotherapist I met the other day. OK~ Just chating with him while he was giving me the push thing (softening my muscles) to my shoulder. Suddenly I asked about his trip.

He told me he had a course in Queensland too - for acupuncture. I further asked what's that. He replied that it is using the needle in treatment. I thought I am a bit playful today, and asked if he would like to have a go on me, I was thinking that I can be an experimental patient for him, hahah.

Wahahha, there I were... having needles (針) on my shoulder and back.

He didn't have the needles for long, just a minute or so. There were pain too~

But in comparing this pain and the pain I got from his pushies, I would prefer acupunture!!! Definately!

Oh being playful and more joyful today...

I went to the clinic this morning and see about my stomach problem, it has been paining for a week, and nearly each night at 10 'til I had fallen asleep. Good on me visiting the docs, I never has such a quick respond to my body, ar... one week... reckon QUICK? Anyway...

Thanks God...

Um... didn't tell you the whole story and what's happening lately, so you won't know how worst I am experiencing. Sorry about that! This morning's I read the daily bread and they've got a few words describing my life lately: 失意 + 疾病 + 悲傷的風暴來臨

>>October 5, 2006 at 3:10:05 AM GMT+8

2006 年 10 月 2 日 星期一 【晴】

Previously my head coordinator commented me that I HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE then before in performance, and my dear teacher expressed that she's very PLEASED with my progress. My head & my teacher, these 2 very impacting person gave me such affirmation which delighted me for many days. I don't dare to relax, but to strive even harder and to keep up + add on to my reputation and my progress.

In my first year, I never think that I will/ I can get on to a music career. In 2nd year, I think, I can work as an admin in a music organization, and that's it. At presence, I started to dream, I started to desire for a music career.

My cellmates said that I am very tense and so so so much focused on my music these days.

... ha, when I finally nearly climbed up the top to the mountain, I fear to come down & relax.

Sure the result... I am facing more frsutrations in time and my shoulder issue.

Ai ya... I need to review myself...



這個時段作了兩件事: 1) 看 Psalm 2) 打開一個埋藏了很多 little gifts 的一個盒



手上帶了的 mood ring 說我很 relax, calm, cool.

>>October 3, 2006 at 1:55:04 AM GMT+8

2006 年 10 月 1 日 星期日 【晴】

感謝您兩位姊妹的關心. Kitchen 沒有花了...

>>October 2, 2006 at 8:16:57 AM GMT+8

2006 年 9 月 30 日 星期六 【晴】

E 幾日都有 nose bleeding, 不知是否熱氣抑或... Pharmacy 姐姐話 hay fever 沒有 nose bleeding 的 symptom, 是真的嗎? 不過上年及上上年這個時候... 我都有 nose bleeding + itchy eyes.

煲了紅棗水~

今天是 semester break 最後一天. 撞鬼, 7日裡, 有 5 日都溫書, 1日奉獻左比教會. 最後一天, 我先願意休息一下. 大概是因為明天我老師請假, 不用上個別的中提琴課, 沒有了上她的課堂的壓力, 我才給自己放鬆一些.

今日煲民數記, 不過都只係煲到 26 章, 明天要加油吧!!!

這是第 3 晚有胃痛. 咩事啊?

>>October 1, 2006 at 2:38:25 PM GMT+8

2006 年 9 月 25 日 星期一 【晴】

這天晚上, 我投行了, 吃了兩粒止痛藥. 朋友說我該去休息, 反之, 我今晚想開始溫 exam, 下午因為身體動一動都痛, 我放棄了今天的音樂時間~ 沒有 viola, 沒有 piano, 唔, 一口生氣煲'出埃及記'. 上次煲 Genius 都可以一路煲一路背個 structure, 今天不 efficient 啊.

對了~ 吃了兩粒止痛藥就去休息, 早點上床 - 這是朋友說的. 真的不明白... 吃了兩粒止痛藥, 就不是可讓我 continue my studies 嗎??? 如果唔係, 可來 Panadol 咁 HIT 呢?

即使一日一圈, 到下一次上 MMTC OT Survey 那天, 我都是不夠時間煲曬要煲的 Old Testament...

需要 adjust 下 speed & schedule 吧.

星期日朋友去打 badminton, 十分想去. 不過又係唔夠時間. 基本上可以 pack 多小小 schedule, 小返一些休息, 都 ok... 不過被朋友 BAN 了. 我好過份 wor... 我 already 去到好盡 wor...

治療後的痛使我可休息, 但也使我更 stress 點完成未完成的工作.

這是其中一個功課嗎?

朋友問我是否那 worst 吃了兩粒止痛藥, 唔...我忍耐力都幾高, 可以忍到. 不過它 constantly 咁痛, 我好 frustrate. 而且影響到我心情吧了. 所以投行...

>>September 26, 2006 at 11:58:15 AM GMT+8

2006 年 9 月 25 日 星期一 【晴】

Dear Lord

I am sorry, I confess that I have been so much much focused on the pain I am experiencing. Yes, nothing in my life that I can't bear, coz you have uniquely planned for me. Father, thanks for your planning and your nice plan.

I heard a voice this afternoon... "What is God teaching me in this physiotherapy treatment?"

Is that from your Spirit Lord?

May you grant me wisdom and sensitiveness in being oneness with you! Open the eyes of my heart Lord, I want to hear you! Lead me to your will!

LOVE MY FATHER JESUS! AMEN. AMEN.

>>September 26, 2006 at 5:47:06 AM GMT+8