2002 年 10 月 3 日 星期四 【晴】

爸...而家真係讀得好辛苦呀~希望你會保佑我喇!Plz give me enough brave and energy to continue both my live and study!

>>October 4, 2002 at 2:54:57 PM GMT+8

2002 年 10 月 3 日 星期四 【晴】

返o左學都一個月喇~開頭以為商科應該易過Sci好多...但係原來AL所讀o既野都真係幾多咖!加上我而家係讀緊3AL+1AS,they are: Psy,BS,A/C and Eco AS ar~~~Eco之前都未掂過...所以開始覺得有d困難喇!BS就成日都要寫Essay...搞到我而家成腦都係做生意呀~就黎痴線咖喇!...而家多o左個喇沙o係我班,做我大競敵...雖然今次Essay輸畀佢...但係我會打低佢咖!I must be the best ~~Psy and A/C is okay la~though my first a/c test is bad...I will get a good result in the coming one!Next Thursday has a Psy test ar~need to add oil la~雖然基本上我都溫晒咖喇...但再溫深入d,再做埋past paper咁就冇死喇~哈哈!我而家基本上日日放學都係o係駱克道自修室溫書,晚晚都成7,8點先返屋企...所以呢排極tired ar~~~有時仲要晨早起身做功課同溫書tim...記得有次4點就起身做BS...haha...真係嬤辛苦咖~
熙,好開心今日可以同你食飯~我知你一定會做到個好social worker ga!Add oil~Dunt be lazy anymore la!

>>October 4, 2002 at 2:49:23 PM GMT+8

2002 年 10 月 1 日 星期二 【晴】

Last night I have a nightmare...I dreamt of my dad...He told me that he didnt die...but his face...very very ugly...i wanna scream...but I couldnt and I was very very phobia of him...actually,when I saw my dad,he's just went out from the toliet...so...after waken up by this nightmare at almost 4am,I went to toliet to wash my face but then I was very afraid...coz my dad seemed to be beside me... >_<; But soon,becoz I need to do my BS essay..so..that feeling started to be disappeared..可能係因為睇完果日講佢果份報紙先訓...所以發個咁o既夢...最慘o既係....nobody stayed with me at that moment.... >.<
尋日,1/10係一個對我好特別o既日子,因為一年前,我愛上一個壞極o既男仔...佢仲親手摺過星星畀我,真係好touch!但....可惜之後佢帶畀我o既傷比任何野都要多,都要深...真係好難忘...希望佢而家同黑道中人冇關係喇!希望佢真係會生性喇!
今年國慶o既煙花唔知點呢?...但係一定點都比唔上我同佢上年睇o既煙花靚!
中六生涯真係好Tough!But I will try my best to become the BEST!

>>October 2, 2002 at 2:37:38 PM GMT+8

2002 年 9 月 30 日 星期一 【晴】

Dad...how is the life in heaven/hell?...I know that it must be a tough life...right?!
Dad...after U've gone...I need to do manage many things by myself...not only the study,but the things left by U...I really cant sustain them...what's a tough thing for me!...My nervous is gonna breakdown...Really dunno what to do...Is that I can just laugh and laugh in front of people & pretend I'm very happy?...but...my show is dreadful...right?!Could anybody teach me what to do?!

>>October 1, 2002 at 2:47:59 PM GMT+8

2002 年 9 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

Actually......I'm quite unhappy these days......becoz of the problems left by my dad.....dunno what to do!I just know that I must find a job now,in order to help my mum and share her pressure as I'm the eldest in the family!Hai...Money is really a big problem to me now...I must cut down my expenses...haha....eat less la!

>>September 29, 2002 at 1:09:49 PM GMT+8

2002 年 9 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

Today I just stayed at home whole day and havent gone out for one step!
What did I do today?Um...Study and sleep!in fact,I'm not feeling well ...so...slept and slept ar!still leave lots of things to do now!After finished this diary,I will go on with my homework~
Ar...dunno why...in recent,I have a feeling that I've changed a lot,no matter cerebration or the way of getting along with people.I think that...I've grown up and become mature though in others' eyes,I'm still a naive & capricious little girl!Haha,I will keep on looking like a girl who is grinning all the time,so that nobody will worry about me as I'm always that happy~ I will never show my sadness to others,I must hide it!I will never evade again & I will face all the challenges in order to become only winner in the world!
P.S. 1/10/2002 is a very special day to me..coz one year ago..sth unforgetable happened..

>>September 29, 2002 at 12:59:49 PM GMT+8

2002 年 9 月 27 日 星期五 【晴】

Maybe I am brutal
Maybe I am naive
Maybe I am capricious
But I am improving~
And...
I need your help
I need your brave
I need your encourage
In order to be more perfect
So...
Could someone do the above things?
Could someone teach me what to do & how to do?
Could someone to become the one I need?



>>September 28, 2002 at 2:01:16 PM GMT+8

2002 年 9 月 27 日 星期五 【晴】

l Today woke up at 0815 after talking on phone with Alfred.Haha...It seems that I do chat with him almost everyday~It's fierce!Anyway,he's really a good friend to me as he stays with me wherever I'm happy or sad.Thx very much,Alfred.
l My dad has dead for a few days...and the most tough days have gone already!I've learnt many things from this and I know that who is important to me, who is good to me and who is be trust!Many people are down-to-earth,they will only treat u good when U have Money!Could it be said that there is 'no money no talk' in this world?...By the way,thanks all my friends~especially those came to my dad's funeral!I'm glad to know all of you guys~It's turth!
l The most vital things to me now is: STUDY!I will work very hard to reach my aim---the top student in St. Gloria!...As for love...I don't wanna express so much...maybe it's not the right time for me!


>>September 28, 2002 at 1:38:24 PM GMT+8