2006 年 1 月 25 日 星期三 【微冷】

很痛.

很痛.....

早說過今日唔可以出黎.

結果真的出事....

教琴教到5點半,就彈多陣.個胃又有d痛...唉.早知唔食回窩肉啦...

Yan打黎,話佢會早到,所以我就早o左出去MK.

一路行,都係十級恐懼.

同Yan行了朗豪坊.個手袋好靚呀>
我明知夠鐘,都仲要行上十一樓.我在嘗試延遲見他的時間...

佢打俾我. 我望著那來電,猶豫.我根本不敢講野,就話,我黎緊架喇.收線.

去到.望了他一眼.在玩黑色PSP.牛仔褸.我,一直躲在Yan的後面...

一路走出地鐵站,我已頂唔順,打了給妹妹.But..lack of support.......><

見到Amy,我就即刻猛住Amy,係咁講野.我實在很怕同佢講野....我不想佢有機會sip入...

去女人街食野.等位時全程唔係同Amy就係同Annie或Yan講野.You know,我真係幾驚?

食飯.坐o左入面d o既位.同佢隔開o左.成程飯係咁講F6~7的事.好似冷落了他.我見到佢冇野講.覺得好衰咁...但....

食完飯,佢找錢都找俾我先......

跟住散.佢去行電腦商場.

我地去o左打機.Amy去看年宵.

BACK HOME. 妹就去訓.I really need someone to talk to.

媽媽在用電腦...我好想同Pat傾......

Cindy,多謝你關心me on things happen today.你講o左你同你個ex果d野俾我聽,我諗起我同明明...好hurt.......好想喊......

現在成身都好痛,好痛....又有果種被紙界的feel.....

話唔鍾意你,是假的.

我不明白,我是否是你的玩具.果排你想hi我的時候,晚晚hi你你都同我傾到野.而家hi你,你都唔多點想答我咁.我唔想再聽到你同我講明白明白明白呀你知唔知????你明我諗咩咩?你都唔明!!!!我講o左我最憎人同我講明白架!!!!你明夠佢啦!!!!!!!!!

究竟你明唔明,我想要的是你?如果你唔like我,請遠我一點,不要給我一丁點的期望好嗎?每次你hi我一次,我就會有丁丁點兒的開心,以為你又會喜歡我...........我滿身是傷了,你知道嗎?

我只想找個男人好好的攬下,傾下計,一齊玩下je,點解都要咁難丫?

Came:我不是要你好detail講晒你d感情野出黎,你唔like咪就咁話我同XX拍拖呀.我好幸福.完囉.講下status ja ma.唔係講裏面detail野.我知咁多做乜jek,出書咩?你都係唔明!!!!!!

我發誓以後都唔會聽周杰倫果首簡單愛.中六我曾經以為有一個人會好喜歡我,我聽這首歌都甜到入心.但後來我發覺成件事是假的...HURT......加上許多去多..........我不要再聽.除非....我找到一個知心的男友吧.

我再說一遍,我不要靚仔!!!!!!!!我只要一個對我來說是靚仔的靚仔.

近來知都好多朋友都拍拖了,在此恭喜他們!ADD OIL. **BLESS U**

傷痛中***

流淚中***

需要深切自療
—我知道....在這時,只有自己才能救到自己.

>>January 26, 2006 at 6:29:41 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 22 日 星期日 【微冷】

頹頹頹***

恐懼恐懼恐懼***

尋晚又要早訓(dad’s home),又唔想訓,結果開了收音機,聽了新香蕉.有個女仔想識男仔,打了上去.

突然...我都好想打....

好想有人打救我.........

星期四...Big day...what will happen on that day?

果日同舊同學食飯,見到Came勁唔講感情事..有點失望...失望並不是因為佢唔講,而係我覺得佢唔當我係fd咁(即使我知佢唔係ge).我在想,如果拍拖,那是一份喜悅呀,咁應該即刻同fd講至係丫.但係佢話,除非你見到我,同埋好似狗仔隊咁影到我相,咁我咪應囉.說真的,聽o左咁佢咁講,真係好失望同好hurt.駛唔駛咁對我?唔講咪算囉,唔駛咁呀?唔明白你做乜要咁抗拒去講....

最近在家太悶,日日唔知做咩咁...............

Sunday shopping with sis.用了千幾蚊...亞妹條褲都要$540!!黐線!!!好彩唔係我俾jek.跟住又買earings!!2對夾埋$119!!唉!好彩自己冇耳窿jek~唔係每個月d錢一定又好快冇晒喇><

明明話我去買野,點知幫我妹買多.我買了兩件衛衣only...未買夾....

夾直了頭髮,覺得塊面肥了好多.....

覺得自己好樣衰呀><

新一年願望: find a gd bf+enter U+learn piano.

Thursday is coming. OMG.

Venus:係呀~果次你帶我地食完霸王山莊之後,十級鍾意果度呀!!超好食rrr!Llet's go there again next time!!!

>>January 23, 2006 at 4:25:42 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 19 日 星期四 【微冷】

與舊同學聚會@霸王山莊.

有點失望.講o既野唔係咁多.Came又唔肯野咁...Well.......

食完冇咩mood la~><~

不過霸王山莊的醉雞真係SUPER GOOD~推介!!!!!

>>January 20, 2006 at 3:39:17 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 17 日 星期二 【晴】

Yo~!Exam finished!!

過著d混沌的生活...不過日日都係9點幾起身...唔知做乜.....跟住3,4點先訓......慣了考試時的生活方式....

講講考試表現(開始唔記得喇)

Macro:第一題就唔識@.@~不過整體表現ok...希望成績:A-

Science in society: 好似好易但又唔係...答完d答案唔sure.希望成績:A-

Political Science: Short Questions一題識一題唔識. Long Question覺得自己答得ok架~希望A-/B+

MIS: 成份卷都係copy and paste平日d exercise,好失望...覺得d LQ答得唔好. MC hopeful o岩晒.Excel個constraints錯了><.希望B+到....

Gender:唔係放了好多心機落去讀,加上只計30%...好灰.....亂咁答野....總係覺得我唔係答緊佢要我答o既野囉.希望B+到

Marketing:做得晒份卷,不過覺得答得麻麻.唔知可唔可以B+到.....

2A-4B+....希望GPA as what I expect,有3.43.....

考完試果日同o左Winnie同Cindy食pizza hut (again).希望keep contact la~

星期六就死.返9:15放17:15....得1/2 hr break.....考完試繼續早起...支力死~

晚上看了久違的football match!!亞仙奴7:0米杜士堡!!!Crazy!!!愛死亞仙奴yayaya~

Sunday 8點彌撒....天...again gotta wake up early....then sleep whole afternoon...

Monday: prepare for U application

Tuesday:交form日.先去BU再去PU.再去sing K with Winnie and Cindy. Night see “Wedding Crasher” with 妹~幾好睇呀~~~好笑又sweet囉~

Today: Morning繼續早起.同亞Pat去麥記吃“鐵板雞扒包”(=板燒雞腿包àpat 叫錯了on yesterday...) 跟住看了十級想睇的Clive Owen+Jennifer Anniston的Derailed.終於睇到喇!!!!我覺得幾好睇.不過可唔可以減省幾句:Nice Briefcase呢?好掂呀Clive Owen~~完全沒有叫我失望!!Jennifer......umum...佢似女配角多d~結局真的諗唔到係咁架!!!

好野聽日可以訓晏d~~~

>>January 19, 2006 at 2:30:18 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 11 日 星期三 【炎熱】

PRESSURE*********************

Tomorrow will be the final day of examination..........my last day........

always think of a person during studying................................recently really feel loney--everyday stay at home just keep on studying and studying and studying........................

wishing you were there and support me***************************

WHERE ARE YOU?

Exam soon over. I've got to say goodbye to all my fds knew in HKU SPACE. I MISS U GUYS! (wanna cry now)

I gotta keep up!!!!!

This year goal: find a good boyfriend (AGAIN, it's always on the top of my list)

Where can I find a good guy like you?

I hope the feeling now in my heart is just come from my memories............It just keep me thinking of you every 5mins................................................RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~~screaming~~~~

Still wanna see "Derailed" by Clive Owen+ Jennifer Aniston......PLUS..Christopher Walken's film...(forgot what it's name...)

SCREAMING~~~~~~~~~~~I WANNA YELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!

>>January 12, 2006 at 1:27:07 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 10 日 星期二 【炎熱】

No Mood to study........

妹妹講得好.講完電話,人仲空虛............

我很怕講電話.因為成日要諗野講.跟住又聽到人地心不再焉的....感覺很差.你不專心同我講電話,咁你做你o既野啦~唔好理我~唔好同我講電話!!!!!

我像在乞求大家唔好唔理我.......I am begging for friendship.............!

OK, that’s fine.以後我自己bang埋就算.唔好理我呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

唔知做乜................

Angry+傷心+無奈on friendship.

>>January 11, 2006 at 3:43:23 AM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 5 日 星期四 【乍雨乍晴】

原來.突登去做一件事...永遠得不到預期的效果.

I put the picture that took with Ming Ming in 2003 in xanga. I thought many people will then go there and have a sign—to show his/her awareness to the entry. But in fact, just a few of my friend ask about that entry. I am quite disappointed with that.

This makes me think of in before I tried to date some guys. BUT, at the end....we even didn’t contact each other. It really makes me feel down....but what can I do?

亞Pat: How come you so understand me?

Just wondering, is my character easily known by others? Seems a lot of people know me (the real me!) You know, Pat, I am really shock after you tell me that Clive Owen can make me go to the cinema to watch the film on my own. I remember this feeling too when Amy tell about my inner thoughts. Ai...

Disappointed right now.

LEAVE ME ALONE.

**Today's exam: Section D should be 5 choose 3. I did 4 questions. HAHA. FUNNY.

>>January 6, 2006 at 4:27:44 PM GMT+8

2006 年 1 月 3 日 星期二 【炎熱】

近日點滴:

新年不一定快樂.不一定進步.

新年為啥慶祝?

頭髮很長.

考完試整負離子.

不要打俾我.send多d SMS吧.

很喜歡陳奕迅.想買返佢隻U87.

2006年願望:要一個靚仔男朋友.

其實我很脆弱.我不堅強.

其實我的要求很簡單.

大家請留言.

完.

>>January 3, 2006 at 5:02:08 PM GMT+8

2005 年 12 月 30 日 星期五 【炎熱】

2005年最後一篇日記....

近日聽返這受舊歌...

長空 (無間道II電影主題曲)
曲：黃家強 | 詞：黃家強 | 編：Beyond

看過去 現已沒法改變的 一雙手 怎去作修補
無對與錯 但有因與果 衝不開 心裡那心魔

若這生 得失不稀罕 只想不再躲 空虛侵佔我
下半生 剩下我孤影 永沒盡頭 再沒自由 要繼續承受

笑望長空 逆轉一生天數 難敵你是你 來負我是我的道
笑望人生路 愛恨最深 以道滅道 日後誰被操縱

看破了 沒有絕對的結果 吹不熄 恩怨的燈火
看你與我對生與死 分不清 歡笑與悲哀

歌詞寫得不錯...很感慨...想起無2的劉嘉玲......

2005年,過得十級快.快到嚇死人.

21歲, 叫做大個o左.係自己感覺自己真係大個o左.感覺....有點恐怖@.@........

望望自己.咁就21歲.嘩.真係...咪話唔驚....

回望今年................................Remarkable things....

1.我學會不會認為自己未拍過拖是有問題的.
------以前真的會覺得,點解個個拍晒拖,係我冇男朋友!!!點解!!今年好勁,整整下冇咁諗喇wor.十個威~~~~!!!咁明明自己碰唔到o岩ga ma,這也是罪?!不是碰不到靚仔,不是碰不到o岩feel人.....就是當兩個人一起相處時...大家都唔係果隻feel....Or...人地根本冇咁諗過.....跟住自己以為自己好喜歡佢,但又唔係.....訓個覺就唔記得佢lu......仲未搵到一個好似明明咁”叮”一聲我好鐘意佢咁.係要發晒癲果隻wor~~真係搵唔到now....做咩要強求.....I have done my best, I have no regrets at all.

2. 繼續Support 亞仙奴!!
-------究竟點解跟老豆like呢隊波....到而家都未諗到點解.但我like呢隊波係like到發癲果種...例如我可以背得出佢地d球員英文名+ Number......Eg: 1. Jens Lehmann, 3 Ashley Cole, 7 Robert Pires, 8 Fredrik Ljungberg, 9 Jose Antonio Reyes, 10 Dennis Bergkamp, 11 Robin van Persie, 12 Lauren, 13 Alexander Hleb, 14 Thierry Henry, 15 Francesc Fabregas, 16 Mathieu Flamini, 17 Alexandre Song, 18 Pascal Cygan, 19 Gilberto Silva, 20 Philippe Senderos, 23 Sol Campbell, 24 Manuel Alumnia, 28 Kolo Toure

讀書又唔見咁叻wor~如果考試可以考下亞仙奴今年作客贏o左幾多場就好喇 (uptil 30/12/2005: 答案係2場: 對韋根贏 3:2同對查爾頓 1:0) 又記埋d廢野.......(完全想像不到幾日後就係考試囉!仲記埋呢d野!!!)

3. 屋企很冷清.
-----爸爸去了元朗住,媽媽今年返工了.屋企平日真係十級靜.以前成日好唔想爸爸在家,而家反而次次都好期待佢返黎.一家人最開心就係坐埋一齊大笑一餐!!最掛住爸爸的歌聲.爸爸唱First Of May無人能及~~~~~十個讚!!!!!!!!!!!仲有...我同亞妹成日都話...點解爸爸返黎先有好送食!!!仲有湯飲!!今年媽媽返埋工,返到黎都七點幾...佢都支力到死....of cos冇咩好食啦~不過見到媽媽好like而家份工~有咩所謂丫~~仲有~我同亞妹都好少係屋企~屋企都係用黎訓多-_-

4. 朋友萬歲!
-----今年覺得對朋友有一種特別感覺.以前真係未有這種感覺...熱淚滿眶喇!!

特別多謝呢幾位朋友的十級Support:

PAT!!多謝你!!!沒有你我絕對死o左!!!!多謝你在這一年裏聽了我這麼多廢up~~多謝你的耐性聽我講野!!來年我要聽你講多d野!(keeeeekeeee<~奸笑中...)多謝你教我好多中文esp 陰霾,暴戾.......................................

芷茵+Cyrus:你兩個在我生日date了我出來.咁多年第一次呀我!!!好感動好感動!!!THX U~~~~~~~~~~~~心中一陣暖~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~希望“111” Meeting可以繼續到我地老o左果陣....................

今年在Sem尾識到Cindy同Winnie兩人.十級好人又o岩傾.難得. May our friendship keep forever~~~

06年.願. 笑望長空. 笑望人生路. (懶首尾呼應wakakakaka........)

Everybody Add oil!!!!

>>December 31, 2005 at 10:44:06 AM GMT+8

2005 年 12 月 29 日 星期四 【陰晴不定】

Trying to write this diary in English...

I am still very disappointed on some of my friends. They still don’t understand on my definition of “handsome guy”. I know I always mention this term, but that don’t mean that “handsome guy” is really to “handsome guy” for everybody.

Many people just ask me, why you still can’t get a boyfriend? Is your criteria of a boyfriend is too high? Well, I am really pissed when people ask me this. I am pissed!! And most of all, if you say this to me, at the same time, I am DISAPPOINTED!! I just think if you are a friend of mine, you shouldn’t ask this question as you should know what the meaning of “handsome guy” to me. I have mentioned this for many many times.

When I am searching for a man, of course, I will consider his appearance. But I DON’T need he had to be very handsome. For example, I don’t like Korean star Rain. I don’t like those so-called as handsome guy in Hong Kong like Ron Ng, Moses Chan, and Daniel Wu... I DON’T like them all. I don’t think they are handsome. I prefer those guys that give me a ‘sunshine feeling’. Just give me a warm feeling is good enough! For examples, Ah Jim in I love you boyz/”Big Black” in “4-leaves-grass”

I don’t care much on education level. So far, I just think if he is keen on a certain thing will be nice, i.e., something which makes me admire. Just like Meng Meng, he is keen on sports, that is a point that I like him. Another is my ex-piano teacher, Mr. Young, his piano skill is really superb. If he is my boyfriend...WOW....what a nice thing.......................

I don’t know why I am so upset. But this is just my thinking.

Ok. Talk about my recent life.

Lonely Christmas—I just went to Church to celebrate my Christmas. Dad, didn’t know why, was bad temper on that day and he didn’t go home for dinner. Very unhappy on that day. Thanks Meng Meng’s phone. I like Christmas Mass as every year I can see the one I like most singing!!!Yo!! Moreover, Chan Tsz Him is back!!!I miss him!!!! After mass, mum, Betty and I went to have sweet soup. YUMMY!

25th—I totally don’t know what I had done on that day. Just fool around......

26th—MIS project again. Upset—why there is so much lazy groupmates?

27th—Morning: Harry Potter 4th. Just OK. I totally don’t know what it is talking about. But there are a lot of handsome guys!!!Some points are added to it!Kakaa!
Afternoon. Fight with MIS again!
Evening—watch I love you boyz “Dragon and Phoenix”. A little bit boring, but I really feel their hardwork on the show. And the show really funny! Laugh a lot!
Night—fight with MIS again. Fight until 4am.

28th—woke up at 10am. Again, fight with MIS. Fight until 3pm, got bus to school and submit. FINALLY IT’S DONE!
Night—went “dai ka lok” for hot pot. Feeling not well after that. Feeling dizzy.....and a little bit fever...sleep at 9pm.

29th—woke at 12nn. Online. Yeah~Arsenal win 4-0 against Portsmouth!! Go on!!
Study a little bit Macro...then back SPACE.
Marketing paper...A-...just OK....seems many people got A or above........
Back home at around 530pm. Still feel quite dizzy. And my stomach....full of gas....XXXX
Sleep again at 630pm. Really feeling not well...
Study a little bit after dinner. I must START STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sleep too much, can’t sleep now=+=

>>December 29, 2005 at 7:35:27 PM GMT+8