2004 年 8 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

今日好早起身呀~~^^but今日冇落雨~><
失望~~~~><"

起身~~同左taki~橙~justice唱k~~
本來到1:45就夠鐘~~but我地可以唱到2點幾~~^^差唔多3點~~^^哈....
唱到喉嚨有少少痛~~but之後就冇野lu~~^^

之後就去行街街......行左都幾耐.......
今日~~仲食左Q餅呀~~~死喇~~~><
尋日成日都好有計劃咁進行我個keep fit plan~~
哈~~今朝早磅~~thin左『一』大磅呀~~^^
一日thin一磅~~very good!!!!!!!!!!!^^
我要keep住落去~~~今次真係好有恆心^^哈~~~

仲有~~我要學好eng~~我要學到好似d外國人咁~~
講到"lak lak"聲!!!!!我一定要學好佢!!!講好佢!!!!
哈~~~而家講中文要罰$$呀~~哈哈~~~^^

then返去~~同justice同taki去左惠康buy~~>無糖綠茶同烏龍茶~~^^
之後就同justice去buy野~~哈哈~~justice璩次係我面前做左c拉~~wakaka~~^^

返到home~~沖完涼~~home一個人都冇~~billy都唔係度.....
咁就sit左係sofa度see tv~~see see下訓著左~~=.=''
之後就成晚都好眼訓.......仲睇左今日buy ge"緣份take2"
呢套film~~唔......都唔算好悶......buyt佢講d咩道理....一睇就睇得出~~
唔駛諗咁多~~~^^kee.......

>>August 25, 2004 at 4:43:00 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 23 日 星期一 【溫暖】

今日落雨呀~~^^好開心呀~~~^^
仲有時落到都幾大下tim~~^^哈哈~~~好似好耐都未見過落到咁大lu~~
好開心~~~^^落雨~~好開心~~^^再落多d就好lu~~

今日已經24號喇~~佢地就黎開學lu~~
開左學之後....佢地就會好忙.....真係要溫書喇.......

唔....真係好快9月喇.....唔係咁想咁快9月.....
以前都係咁....一放暑假....就唔想咁快9月.....
雖然今年有d唔同.....我十月先開學.......
but都係唔想咁快9月.....好似冇晒自由咁......

我讀左呢個課程之後......就算係半個社工喇~~^^
你地真係可以覺得讀書壓力大~~~或者有d咩唔開心~~
都可以搵我黎講~~^^半個社工喇~~哈哈~~最緊要唔好收埋係心度~~
同我呢半個社工講la~~哈哈~~~~^^

仲有~~~唔係比我親眼見到ge野~~我係唔會信的!!!!!
除非比我親眼見到~~或者佢對我做過衰野~~~
如果唔係.....我仲係會覺得佢係好人~~~~
我睇野~~k2時真係太表面~~太簡單~~= =''
其實以前我睇野~~都唔係好x雜~~都幾簡單~~
but而家唔知點解~~我睇野仲簡單左= =
而家就係~~係我身邊~~一個壞人都冇~~~
咁係好定唔好呢.....??咁會唔會真係好易比人呃ga?!?!?

哈~~~我要減肥!!!!!!!點都要減!!!!!今日已經做得好好^^
要keep住落去!!!!我要~~>100磅~~襯番hitom^^
雖然佢未到咁thin~~but我要睇落~~thin過佢~~咁先襯到佢ga~^^哈哈~~

>>August 24, 2004 at 4:34:00 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 22 日 星期日 【晴】

今日本來有個interview~~係尖沙咀ga~~
but諗諗下............都係冇去到........
之前send e-mail去~~我打個名叫"求職信^^"~~
因為多左個~~>^^~~so佢就即刻打比我~~
叫我去見工~~but我都無冇去到~~~
尖沙咀我都冇去~~~唔..........
當時誋到好多野........只係諗到好多野.....

then就好晏先起身la.......8點個鐘響過一次~~
因為去interview......but冇去~~so再訓過~~

唉.............好傷心呀.............好傷心.............好傷心~><"
都唔知點解自己咁傷心.............><"只係好傷心~~~

>>August 23, 2004 at 4:39:45 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 22 日 星期日 【晴】

聽左d野.....好鬼大感觸tim.........

我鐘意一個人.....或者同一個人一齊....
我覺得最緊要....係大家都要真.....
我要求的~~係100%真心~認真!!!!
同埋只要佢鐘意我~~我鐘意佢~~
我就唔會介意佢大我幾多.....10年?!20年?!有咩所謂wor....
一個數字之嘛......怕咩wor.....

有冇$$?!一d都唔重要.....一齊捱咪一齊捱.....
捱完之後.....其實先知道....真ge感情係邊....
因為兩個人一齊捱....先會捱出個感覺....
咁先會真正咁知道~~對方都係真心想一齊.....
我唔介意同佢一齊捱.......人點都要捱ga la~~
怕咩wor~~人....係要跌落谷底呢個關口~~
先會真正咁知道....邊個仲會係自己身邊~~
而真真正正呢個時候係自己身邊ge人~~就係一個100%真的人!!
我就係鐘意一個咁ge人~~~

安全感?!我都100%需要呢樣野~~~佢比唔到安全感我~~
呢個就係佢ge錯!!!!男仔~~應份ge係保護女仔~!!!
呢個係基本要做ge野~~~如果咁都做唔到~~
你唔好話去鐘意人~~或者可以絕d咁講....你冇資格話去鐘意人~~
你唔識~~就唔好害人.........

呢一刻.....發覺自己好需要一樣野.....


諗番尋日的事.....真係好傻.....但係都好彩.....
好彩自己有做過.....見埋今日之嘛.....
之後都唔駛見.....怕咩ja~~人.....做咩都需要勇氣....
就好似去玩跳樓機咁.....我都要好大ge勇氣............

>>August 22, 2004 at 4:34:00 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 21 日 星期六 【晴】

今日一早就起身~~返教會^^"
but真係好累.....累到發癲~~
今日都係late左~~^^"kee........

then去同左justice食野~~~
之後....好緊張~~~就返工lu~~
今日返工之前~~真係好緊張~~好驚~~~
超驚~~唔知黎緊ge事會點發生~~
唔知我會點做~~~咩都唔知~~
一切....都帶住個唔知的心情去面對~~~唯有係咁la........

今日返工~~~一切比自己想像中平靜~~
今日一早~~有幾個大陸人黎buy泥膠~~佢地一款都buy幾盒~
but佢地勁cheap~~人地放d野係度比人buy的~
佢有一個拆開左~~then唔buy o個盒~~拎過第2盒~~勁過份!!!><"

今日佢係我身邊~~行過好多次~~仲係我後面~~寫野~~
今日佢黎我o個度~~比平時多~~可以話今日係最多....
佢係咁係我後面......but我又唔敢望過去~~~我真係好驚~~
又驚自己面紅^^"kee.......但係感謝主~~一切都好好.......

今日係last day返工喇~~~好唔捨得.....走o個時~~
同o個個女仔講bye bye~~之後我地兩個~~仲去玩一餐先走....
我覺得~~有時天真下~~咁去玩下~真係幾開心.......我鐘意咁^^

唔捨得~~好唔捨得.....我問自己~~我究竟唔捨得d咩?!?!
唔捨得hitom?!我可以去搵佢ga~~我成日都去o個度ge.....
而且.....遲d可能係o個度返工~~~
唔捨得第一份工?!初初覺得真係好辛苦ga呢份工~~
but之後....雖然係唔係咁like d細路~~對住佢地會好angry~~
but之後~~覺得呢份工幾好~~因為人工又高~~代遇又好.....

之後放工~~~返去t.m~~同mum食野~~食完野諗住去buy鞋~~~
~~~比我見到d唔想見到~~最憎見到的人!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!><"

今日..........可以話係最後一次見你......我好記得~~
最後見你個樣係點.....最後見到個背影係點!!!我好記得~~
最後想同你講bye ga~~but都搵唔到你.......
仲有.....今日芷綸黎左^^~~哈~~

>>August 22, 2004 at 3:12:05 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 20 日 星期五 【晴】

今日一早~~做左件好好ge事~~~真係好好~^^
而家真係覺得~~做左好事~~個人會開心d~~
係真ga~~而且~~我成日都buy旗~~^^哈哈~~~

今日好瘀呀~~~~瘀到好心傷~~~好樣衰~~><"
好傷心~~又傷身~~wo......wo....wo..><"
我真係冇諗過係咁~~~一支糖之嘛~~~
點解唔要wor~~~仲要有藉口wor~~~

但係講真~~我真係冇唔開心~~反而開心左~~~
雖然好瘀~~但起碼比我試過.....經歷過...........
咁已經好好~~至少起碼比我知道~~>我係做到的!!我都可以咁有gas~!!^^
今日返工~~好多時間都去祈禱.....
完全感受到神~~一祈禱完~~就即刻現左~~

呢一排~~諗野simple左好多好多~~~其實咁樣幾好丫....
我真係覺得幾舒服.........唔.....舒服就得~~~
諗野~~唔需要諗咁多.....一句說話~~唔駛諗到咁多野ge~~
哈~~~taki~~>聽到未?!?!?!^^

今日好感恩......very感恩.....雖然結果係咁....我冇後悔過....
哈~~我做野後來唔會後悔!!!到而家都未後悔過!!!!!!^^做咩都係!!!!呵.....
我今次~~真係冇後悔過......
『就算沒有結果 ....我也能夠承受 ..!!!』

jay~~>藉口~~好好聽^^哈~~

>>August 21, 2004 at 5:12:43 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】

今日未起身~~~同taki傾左一陣~~~
你真係唔同左ar~~~~真係ga~~~!!!

then起左身la~~~唔.....睇ive個e-mail~~~
一個都唔收我= =~~好彩我報左嶺南ja~~~
其實我有諗過......我都寧願佢唔收我....
咁我就可以x埋心水~~讀好"青年工作"佢~~
我要學好我的eng!!!

哈~~~聽日返工喇!!!!!!yeah^^
勇氣埋佢~~~~!!!^3^~^3^~^3^~^3^~^3^~

>>August 20, 2004 at 4:20:24 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 18 日 星期三 【陰】

今日比mum叫醒左~~~同左佢去飲茶......
then又叫左justice出黎~~~^^thx~~
今日好癲ar~~未試過......
一連睇兩套film~~~^^"

第一套~~>+菲cat~~都幾好see~~~隻cat好攪野~~~^^"
好似好傻~~傻傻地咁....哈~!~~~see完之後.....
去巴倫x諗住睇下可唔可以睇餃子la~~~
點知我地buy左餃子ge飛~~~but上到去~~佢唔比睇= =''
o個時都見到d人應該係唔比佢地睇~~佢地sit係出面~~

去屯門cinema度~~~有3個女仔~因為人地唔比佢睇~~
佢就係咁問候人地啊mum~~鬧o個度做野個女人~~~
THEN佢地係度互鬧= =''好恐怖@@"

咁去到巴倫x佢唔比睇~~~就被迫咁去左睇"千機變"~~
因為"小Q"尋日睇左~~so迫住要睇千機變~~~哈~~~
but冇我想像中咁悶wor~~~仲好好笑tim~~^^"

哈~~咩film都睇晒~~~^^一連睇兩套film~~~都未試過~~^^"
then就返home lu~~~^^"

今日見到一個小學同學~~~係街度同佢傾左兩句.....唔......^^"
哈~~就快星期六喇~~^^勇呀~~勇呀!!!!!勇埋呢兩日佢!!!!!^^

"+菲cat"~~>隻cat去救隻dog~~佢本來好唔like隻dog ga~~
因為佢嫉妒隻dog~~個主人對隻dog好d~~
but隻dog有事~~~比人拎左去做show o個d~~~
then隻cat好捨身咁去救隻dog~~佢講左一句"因為佢係我朋友"~~^^
朋友~~真係好重要.....

>>August 19, 2004 at 3:09:43 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 18 日 星期三 【晴】

今日一早~~8點幾~~比我mum黎叫我~~
佢叫我~~~諗清楚~~係唔係真係要讀"青年工作"~~呢一科~~
佢地始終都覺得我ge選擇係錯~~佢地點都要睇死我~~
睇死我讀唔到~~又話d eng會好難~~~又話點點點......
佢地係要睇死我丫嘛!!!!!我就要努力比佢地睇~~~我要佢地心服口服~~
我要比佢地知道我係讀到~~仲會讀得好好tim!!!!!!!!!!!!
我uncle仲要話~~我可能會讀唔夠半年~~就會唔讀~~就會變得冇興趣讀~~
點解要咁睇我wor~~~點解要唔支持我~~仲要睇死我?!
點解一d信心都唔比我wor~~~><之前係邊個話我點都支持我?!?!
得個講字?!?!?!好過份~~而家我做咩決定都係錯~~你地岩晒la~~~
全部人都覺得我係錯~~~我錯晒~~~我選擇咩科黎讀都係錯~~><"

今朝一早~~又喊......佢地真係好煩~~~煩到我連一分鐘都唔想對住佢地~~
我話左呢個課程~~只係讀一年~~一年之嘛~~點解咁都唔比我試下?!
之後去交學$$~~本來諗住自己去交~~點知mum又根我去交~~
咁就同左佢去交la~~點知~~我uncle同o個度做野ge人talk~~talk左好耐~~
我走時~~佢地仲talk緊~~~o個時真係好angry~~~
點解一d都唔信我~~~我話左呢個課程只係讀一年~~
佢地又要話~~>邊會有讀一年咁少~~最少都讀3年la.......
點解唔信我~?!?!點解唔信我?!?!?><"o個時真係好angry~~又要諗到我係半途而廢o個d人~~
我唔會呀~~我決定左我就會做到好好咁比你地睇~~!!!!!><"哼~~~

then搵左justice出黎~~陪我~~食野.....睇film~~
今次睇左"小Q"呀~~~好得意~~but都好慘~~~睇到cry~~><"
我隔離個女仔~~cry得超勁= =''but真係幾感動ga~~~
上左咁耐~~今日都好多人睇~~~^^哈~~你地都去睇下丫....

then就去行下......eat dinner~~睇完film時~~已經9點幾~~
then又唔係好hungry~~so行下先eat dinner~~~去左"x王之王"eat~~^^kee....
ear到冇晒人= =''

then就返home~~~諗住返home~~點知係樓下個table度talk~~
talk左好耐.....talk到1點幾先返home~~
其實如果今日留係home~~我心情會好差.......
但係多謝今日justice出左黎陪左我咁耐.....^^
朋友~~~真係好重要......好重要.....

發覺自己呢幾日都幾神經質.....
仲有.....聽左一樣野~~我都覺得係神比我ge提示黎ga~~
隔離個男仔~~佢同佢女朋友~~都係佢地出黎做暑假工o個時識ga~~
佢地都一齊左咁耐.....唔......^^kee.........
其實感情呢樣野.....我真係覺得只要佢鐘意我~~我鐘意佢~~
就已經咩都夠晒......只要佢對我好......我真係會唔介意佢出面做過d咩.....
只要係比我知道~~佢真係真心鐘意我~~~就已經夠喇........

今個星期~~~最後一次機會..............到唔到我把握?!

>>August 18, 2004 at 6:42:39 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 16 日 星期一 【晴】

我發覺呢一段時間.....都好求主去帶領我.....
今日又喊過黎lu.......成日叫我咩都放開....
識得叫人開心d....點解自己都唔開心d?!

之前.....佢地又成日都叫我搵d有興趣ge去讀....
而家搵到一個我真係好有興趣去讀ge~~~
佢地又唔贊成~~又話冇前途.....又話落disco唔好~~
好難受......then又幫我搵其他d野.....搵搵埋埋d野我都完全冇興趣~
咁佢地想我點ja~~人地有興趣又話唔好~~~
咁我十月先開學~~~仲有個幾月~~搵下野做la~~
我mum又話~~"仲搵野做~~咁你唔讀喇~~唔讀聽日就唔交$$喇"
佢係唔係想我日日留係home?!究竟佢地想我點呀?!

我真係好想行番一條自己想行ge路~~~
唔想比佢地控制住我......then又話我讀唔黎~~讀唔上......
話我冇咁ge能力讀~~~唔讀過又點知wor~~~咁我真係想讀丫嘛....
我想讀我就會努力讀好佢ga la~~~點解咁睇死人ja~?!><"

我好多時都唔想佢地同我傾.....同我講........
我係度諗......我寧願自己做晒決定.....報晒名~~先話比佢地知好過......
佢地成日都唔同意我.........話比佢地知又有咩用?!
又話無論點都支持我......講有用咩?!?!做得到咩?!?!?
好煩呀........好煩呀...........><"
點解要係咁wor~~~我發覺呢一排自己係一d都唔想番係home~~
佢地成日都同我講~~~成日都煩我~~~好討厭~~佢地根本就咩都唔知~~~
佢地又唔知我想讀咩~~~我話比佢地知佢地又唔聽~~
咁佢地想我點ja!!!!><

聽日又要出去interview.........唔.......希望得la~~~
一切都希望神會保守住我........

>>August 17, 2004 at 5:07:32 PM GMT+8