2004 年 9 月 11 日 星期六 【晴】

突然之間........又好掛住joyce.............><"
唔知佢而家點呢......佢而家o個度應該係上午......
唔知佢起左身未呢.........................><"
好掛住佢...........................><><><

>>September 11, 2004 at 6:54:48 PM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 10 日 星期五 【微冷】

今日一早起身~~>8點幾~~同dad去飲茶....
之後就出太子....陪佢一齊睇醫生......
出到去....好無奈= =''~~very無奈= =''''
o個兩個nurse~~係咁唔停咁see住我~~好似唔認得我咁~~
but話晒都成年未出過去睇醫生~~^^呢件係好事~~^^
佢地兩個定左咁see住我~~see左好耐= =""話~~>我愈大愈靚~!!"wakaka!!!!!!!!!!!!!^^
but相比起一年前.............= =唔知............?!?!?之後仲有一個nurse話"等我走出黎望多兩眼先"= =''
唔知佢想點~~~crazy~~之後我好無奈~~冇望佢地~~冇理佢地~~= ="

之後sit左一陣先有得睇~~睇完之後~~就同dad去幫mum buy藥~~then就行去buy野~~
buy完野就搭車返黎屯門~~等車時~~好恐怖~~@@"
有一個"勁聯" ge人排我後面~~佢"勁聯"~我覺得一d問題都冇~~佢都唔想....
但係佢做左一個動作出黎~~我覺得勁有問題~~~佢係咁係度"hour"佢下面......
我講起都想嘔呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!><真係好恐怖~~@@"~~o個時我好驚~~好驚佢會"hi"落我度~~
又好驚佢"hour hour"下自己~~~"hour"左落我度wor~~~勁驚~~>﹏<""
佢仲要等咁耐"hour"足咁耐呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!我想死呀~~~~~~~~~~~~~~><

之後返到黎屯門~~同我dad食完野~先返home~~仲buy埋比佢地eat~~
而家樓下藥房d人~~ge態度~~超差~~串人= =~~crazy~><
之後返到home~~等埋佢地食完野~~就去拜婆婆lu~~~今次帶埋billy去~~
因為唔想佢自己留係home~~而且o個度係比dog去ge~~咁我就同sister同dad同billy一齊行過去la~
行左一陣到la~~but就好hot= =""~~~~

之後拜完婆婆~~~就返home~~又係行返home~~已經好累~~~
之後就睇番書展buy o個d書~~好多書未睇~~死得= =|||~~~之後睇睇下~~
諗起hitom~~^^好掛住佢呀~~好耐未見過佢~~3個星期喇.......
之後係度諗佢個樣la~~已經變得好模糊~~~好似已經唔記得左佢個樣喇....唉.......><

之後睇睇下~~就訓著左~~訓到8點幾~~就食dinner lu~~~唔.............
i love billy~~yeah^3^ ^3^~~~

>>September 11, 2004 at 2:55:46 PM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 9 日 星期四 【微冷】

呢幾日ge天氣....終於都冇咁hot喇.....
仲有d涼涼地.....幾舒服....^^
but再凍d就好lu~~而家夜晚訓覺~~勁凍~~>﹏<"
but都算做冇之前咁凍......因為上次mum buy過一張"無名"ge被比我~^^
好靚~~~^^but勁貴~><算la............

今日11點幾~姣榮上緊堂打黎= ="~~叫我去飲茶~~佢叫我搵人la~~
but o個時~我都未起身= =''之後我打比佢地la~佢都都唔去~~
so最後都係冇去~~而且佢打黎時~~已經好遲= =點趕到12:15= =''

之後下午......煮左麥皮食....今次煮得幾好~~^^kee......仲有多士~~^^
好fit ge lunch~^^之後就冇食過野~~餓到我死= =|||

今日睇左"冒失天皇"~~一d都唔好睇= =又唔知佢想講乜wor~~
個名同套film又唔"la更"wor~~低能ga~~

今晚仲帶左billy去行街.....呢度真係愈黎愈cheap~~d看更都唔知點看ga~!
成日都比d唔係住呢度ge人入黎~~白痴ga o個2條友~~
係咁啤住billy~~仲要同我搭同一部lift~~係咁啤wor~~佢又唔敢啤我~~啤billy wor~
個衰樣白痴樣仲要扮晒串~~扮低能~~又唔係住呢度wor~~
成日都係咁~~比d唔識ge人入黎~~我比人打劫咁點呀~~低b ga?!?!><
唔知點解..........而家好"蚊"~~~~~><><><如果有人比我發洩就好......................

>>September 10, 2004 at 5:19:59 PM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 8 日 星期三 【雨】

尋晚訓之前~~聽收音機.....
聽到一個人講佢ge經歷.....佢係一個女仔....
佢同一個佢好愛ge男仔拍拖la....之後佢個男朋友有病~~
我唔知咩病~~(因為佢講左d我先開始聽)~~個男仔耍做手術~
but好番ge機會都只係得一半.....but個男仔都去做呢個手術~~
佢被推入手術室之前...佢同個女仔講"我呢一生最幸福ge...就係有你係我身邊"~~
之後~~佢手術失敗左~~個女仔好傷心.....

之後個DJ問佢有d咩同呢個男仔講~個女仔話"就算比我揀多一次...我都會揀同你一齊..."
個女仔仲講左好多ga~~but我只記得呢兩句....佢仲話~因為今次~令佢對愛情失去晒信心~

一直以黎都以為呢d野....只係拍戲先會發生....d對白...都只係拍戲先會講~~
真係估唔到真人上都會出現~~聽左之後....好心痛.....唔知點解....雖然唔識佢....
但係都好心痛.....聽o個時仲諗...個女仔可能一路講...一路喊緊.....

今日下午~~mum終於有一日冇去打麻雀喇~~= =''我叫佢陪我睇"死亡錄播"~but佢唔睇~
我本來諗住自己一個睇住先....but睇睇下都冇睇~~睇另一隻"炮製女朋友"~~
麻麻地......之後就幫我mum整d薯仔~~今晚仲諗左一d大食會可以整ge野食tim^^
好想快d到.....

今日仲睇左d野.....人...係唔係真係咁在意人地點睇自己?!?!
其實一直都係自己諗埋左一邊....你覺得人地對你唔好....你就認定左人地一定對你唔好...
人地對你一好....你就會覺得人地對你有"祈"途~~其實係唔係真係要諗成咁?!
簡單d唔得咩?!?呢個世界其實好好....但係點解往往都要諗到咁灰?!?!唉............
簡單d la......!

>>September 9, 2004 at 4:39:23 PM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 7 日 星期二 【陰】

今日本來好早就醒左.....but我都冇起到身....
再速訓過.....訓多一陣....then起身......

食野....睇左"某年某月某日"~~~都唔錯~~
但係佢就不斷咁時光倒流.....日日都係o個一日.....
差唔多最後....就係話有d事實....點都係改變唔到....
就算比你幾多個今日....今日所發生ge野....係改變唔到....

咁就睇到6點幾.....then就冇咩野做lu~~= =''
but今晚好多sport ge野睇~~幾好睇~~^^"
到night~~同brother玩~~= =太過份~~我係咁比佢恰~~><"
佢係咁將我兩隻手~~"cool"左係後面~~>
今日時不時都會諗起joyce....尋晚night係度諗...佢o個時應該係返學....
唔知佢返學返成點呢....?!唔知佢適唔適應呢.....?!唔知時差佢有冇問題呢...?!
諗到好多野............

2公~~>而家你寫比我o個本都唔係我度= =姣榮未比返我~><
咩豬眼呀~!~想點呀~~!!!!><你又知~~我唔講你都唔知la~~~扮了解我~~
賴醒~~^^呵....哈.....

>>September 8, 2004 at 3:26:04 PM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】

今日起身.....同左5b14個人一齊去飲茶.....
佢地黎到....o個刻係開心ga....但係到佢地要返學....
個個走晒....突然之間變得好空虛....
個個都走晒....得番我地4個..........好空虛.....

之後就講起中秋節.....大定一齊出黎玩.....
好想快d到o個日......

今日...心情仲未好轉....唔知點解....
無意中~~講左一句"我好掛住joyce"~~好想知道佢呢一刻係點...
今日對眼冇咁腫喇.....但係...心情仲係唔好.....

之後返家ge路上....同taki講起5b ge人.....係一班好好ge人....
全部人都好好.....我唔想佢地返學....好玩大家一齊玩落去....
就算每次出黎玩....一諗就諗到約好多人~~每次都十幾個....
唔會有少....呢種關係....係好好.......我地一定會keep到落去.....

返到屋企....冇人....令我變得更空虛.....好似...........
難過.....一直都冇離開過我.....好痛心.....睇左justice ge日記....
再一次令我喊左出黎.....原來我眼腫~~佢係睇到ga........
我以為化妝都會遮到腫的雙眼....原來係唔得ga........

今日係joyce走左ge第一日....我已經好miss佢......之後點?!><"
下午....睇vcd~~>"豬爬大聯盟"~~有時幾好笑.....但我冇咩點笑到~笑唔出~
我真係唔想你地返學......到遲d~~個個開晒學....出黎玩ge時間...又會少左....
我唔想........................><

>>September 7, 2004 at 9:23:03 AM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 5 日 星期日 【陰】

今日....係9月6日lu~~岩岩睇完2公個日記~~又差d cry左出黎~~><
時間真係過得太快喇.....係有好有唔好....好ge係...可以快d到下年...
同佢一齊去迪士尼....一齊去camp....一齊住hotel.....唔好ge係....咁快就到今日.....

尋晚為左寫完joyce本紀念冊~~寫到4點幾~~6點又要起身....
去同佢地食早餐......~~今日ge早餐.....我覺得個氣氛真係好好...
但係....o個時個心好"up"~~之後佢地要返學~~~o個種感覺係....
我唔想佢地返學....好想同佢地一齊去機場.....我唔想佢地返學.....
但係呢種感覺.....太自私喇.....之後見到橙橙喊....個心仲"up"~~
一來~~係擔心橙會返到學唔知點.....驚冇人睇住佢......
二來......時間又過得快左......

之後~~佢地返晒學~~等埋justice黎~~就去左taki home~~玩啊bo~= =
啊bo勁惡~~佢爪joyce wor~~= ="超惡~~又串wor~~勁啤住我~~低b ga~><
o個時我好驚~~又驚佢跳落黎爪我~~佢o個種眼神真係好恐怖@@"

之後就去joyce home~~joyce要執晒d禮物入行李度.....我地就睇"我要做model"~~
but都係睇左一陣.....諗住睇joyce沖涼....點知冇得睇wor~~^^呵.....
之後就一齊去機場......搭車o個時~~joyce無啦啦cry~~o個時我sleep著左~~唔知咩事~
之後一"chuk"就睇到佢喊緊~~~o個時我同佢講"傻女.....唔好喊la...."~~~
o個時~~個心又"up"~~><"之後去到機場.....一齊影相~~梁媽媽好nice.....
一齊影相......一齊玩~~~一齊跳舞.....一路上....諗番好多好多野.......諗番以前同佢一齊玩....
今日之後....就會好耐都冇得玩.......><諗起呢d一切一切....勁想cry.....

之後joyce入閘前2個字~~全部人一齊去為佢祈禱.....去祝福佢.....o個時~~梁媽媽係度喊....
之後我見到佢喊.......我又喊~~我第一個喊~~><~~o個時真係有種感覺係唔想佢走......
之後祈禱完~~佢等埋個空姐~~呢一刻.....好難受......
見到bobo喊.....我同taki又再忍唔住......之後roy見到我地喊...佢都喊.......
好難受~~>但今日....見到佢喊左幾次.....好心up~~之後佢就真係要走喇......送佢入閘o個一刻~~
真係好頂唔順....好似個人都x潰左咁.....望住梁媽媽攬住佢一齊喊.....身為旁觀者....
我o個種感覺真係唔識形容......只有難受...難受....難受.........佢入左閘之後....
梁媽媽見到我地喊~~佢同我地講"唔緊要la....佢好快返...."~~but o個時梁媽媽自己都cry緊ga wor~
之後就一齊去食野.....個個都變得好沉默....因為大定ge心情....都好難形容.....

之後食完野....諗住睇佢架機起飛...點知睇唔到~~咁我地就係windows o個度癲左一陣~~
其實今日我知bobo真係好sad ga~~我地大家係度望街時~~佢都想cry....
只係我地去引佢笑.....

之後係度望街~~講講下~~講左另一個人~~~點解要咁wor~~why!!?!??><
12樣野喇~~me=you??no~~~><點解ja!!!><太過份喇~~o個時真係好"蚊"~~
我頂唔順喇......之後....除左大家一齊癲...可以暫時忘記joyce~唔諗之外....
諗唔到可以點....咁就大家一齊係咁癲~= =" i am 張鍵鍵~~wakaka~~~~

之後去左吉之島~~好大雨~~同mum食野....o個時冇人同我癲~~= =我又諗起.....
係酒樓度.....再一次想喊......勁想喊....but我同我mum講話好累~~so隻眼好痛~~
返到home~~~去左廁所cry......><"~~

丫......前兩日....都有人話我隻眼腫左....其實我知點解ga....只係我自己冇講出黎....
前兩日.....都係因為joyce而喊....但唔知點解....想喊但喊唔出.....so攪到兩隻眼都腫晒= =''
好似d眼淚谷左係眼度唔流出黎咁.....so腫左.....><"到今日....先可以喊到出黎.........

好累.....成個星期日日都出街~~早起晚訓~~><好辛苦~~成個星期都好累.....
好想有一日咁大把真真正正去休息下....遲d開左學....有好多野學~~除左返學~~
我mum叫我去英國文化協會讀eng~~其實我都想.....因為讀呢間野ge~~都好多eng都好好ge人~~
我又要學打鼓....我mum話會完考就比我學ga~~but要出到去尖沙咀學= =''~~
仲要學返琴la.....~~so遲d一定會好唔得閒....maybe連星期日都冇得休......
但我要學晒佢~~努力~~~joyce係o個邊努力~~我地就係呢度為佢加油同自己努力!!!!!
『加油ar joyce!!!!!!』^3^~~

>>September 6, 2004 at 3:11:51 PM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 4 日 星期六 【晴】

做人....最難學識ge....應該係放手.....
最近....我學識放手.....

當拎一樣野....拎得太耐....就會覺得累....
當你覺得累....但係唔一定會想放手.....
因為拎得耐....就變左有感情.....

但係當你繼續拎落去....你就會發覺.....原來呢樣野....
係好重....會拎到隻手好痛....自自然然....你就會慢慢咁放手....

其實....感情都係咁.....以前...我會好執著....
我會好介意自己鏗意ge人點對我.....或者有時....
連佢望過我幾多眼....同我講左幾多句野....我都會好介意....
今日....或者應該唔去介意呢d野.......因為我唔應該再咁執著....

我學識左放手喇....每樣野都應該放手.....由佢走.....
或者....每樣野你放左手之後....可能會更好....
有d更好ge黎你身邊....又或者...佢會走得更好呢...!?
我唔再執著.....唔再介意好多野....或者有時d野....
自己係唔介意得咁多.....如果樣樣野都介意的話....
我相信我會好忙.....嬲人嬲到忙晒........

所以今日.....人地講你d咩野.....或者背住你做過d咩野....
我唔再去知.....唔會去聽...聽左就唔會介意.....
佢有佢把口....我控制唔到佢...................^^

>>September 5, 2004 at 4:47:36 PM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 4 日 星期六 【晴】

今日起身.....返左午堂....係講唔好比野引誘到.....
我唔會再比d野食引誘到ga!!!!!!呵......

唔.....返完教會之後....就去eat lunch~~6個人一齊eat~~
好無奈= =''~~係咁串人= =''~~唔知點解覺得咁好似好衰咁~~
but唔理la~~~taki痴左線= =''~~唉.....佢比"小q文"(即張子鍵^^)帶壞晒喇.....
哈~~~陳偉文好q~~~^^"~小q文~~kaka~~~

之後食完....就去左市鎮公園度拍野~~o個拇好尷尬~~= =講唔出口~~
我諗佢都唔知聽唔聽到我講野~~~但唔緊要la~~寫紀念冊度~^^"
joyce~~聽日你要走喇.....時間真係過得好快....真係轉眼就到.....
約定你....下年再見.....bye.....^3^~

之後....拍完野~~就周圍行~~等到6:45~~個小學同學約左我~~佢叫我去睇佢個教會d野...
佢個教會生日....係大會堂度攪celebrate.....叫我去一齊睇~~咁下午...就係咁等左成個下午~= =''
無野做~~又無地方去~~so係咁周圍行= =無無聊聊咁.....

之後~佢打黎~~叫我6:00去等佢~~咁好彩早左d~~就到6:00去搵佢la~~
原來佢同佢教會d fd一齊~= =我個個都唔識~~只係識佢一個~~o個時真係好驚~~>﹏<''
but好彩taki係度咋~~~^^哈~~如果唔係我自己都唔知點算.....

我要宣佈~~>『6:20~~我同張子鍵x離關係!!!!!!!><哼~~~』太過份喇~~唔理我丫喇~~~><><><><"
之後同taki同倫&佢d fds~~就係大會堂度等la......仲有個男仔....very似『leo』 ga~~~!!!!!
佢真係好似~~but Leo隻眼冇佢咁大對....^^"kee......之後我就影佢相~~諗住比橙睇~~wakaka~~^^
o個時影佢相好危險ga~~橙~你睇我對你幾好.~~^^but佢都有主動叫我地影相~~
仲影左幾多下tim~~but唔係用我地d相機~~= =除左個電話~我地都冇相機~~
如果唔係一定比佢影~哈~~

之後睇show~~= =佢個教會好多野都唔同我地個教會~~= =''攪到我同taki兩個好多時都唔知做緊乜咁~= =
佢地有時祈禱~佢地唔會話比你知係祈緊禱ga~~係你知就知~~我同taki兩個唔知就唔知做乜咁= =''
之後見佢地咪埋晒眼~~先知佢地祈緊禱~~= =好無奈~~仲有...佢地有時祈禱~~
係個個人都自己同自己祈....but會讀出聲ga wor~~個個一齊讀出聲= =''
初初真係諗到好似xx~~but而家諗到我地唔應該咁諗....好多都唔同ga la~~

但係佢地班人真係幾nice~~but~~最古怪ge係~~佢地個個都著得好隆重~= =係我地去謝師宴咁~
有個仲著"宮廷"o個d~~but我同taki就....................................= ='''''''''超無奈攪到我地= =

之後走時~~仲同佢地影相la~~之後我仲『主動』~叫似leo o個個同我影相~~^^
初時真係好驚ga~~好驚好似上次hitom咁~~but今次冇wor~佢好好人~~^^仲話"好呀^^"tim~~kee....
佢地真係好nice~~同leo影相時~佢仲叫我小心d~= =因為佢hot到成身都濕晒= ="

之後就返home~~搭車~~同taki講左d野~~丫....taki...面家諗到~~
我咁唔like聽呢d說話~~我係度諗....我會唔會唔岩拍拖?!?!
拍拖一定會聽到好多呢d說話ga wor~~~~咁我係唔係唔岩?!?!
but我又係度諗.....如果拍拖~~自己鐘意ge人同自己講~~一定會唔同~~
我會好like聽~~就正如hitom同我講咁~~我會好like聽~~but其他人同我講...我會想嘔.....
最好....唔好比我聽到.....如果唔係....我死比你睇.......><

>>September 5, 2004 at 4:22:35 PM GMT+8

2004 年 9 月 3 日 星期五 【晴】

橙~~>我都再見唔到你眼訓個樣lu~~我都知你好想睇我恰眼訓ge樣ga喇~~^^呵.....
算la.....比心機呀你要...!!!!唔係打你pat pat ga~~~^^"你日日都帶住我比你個開學禮物返學~
就即係見住我ga喇~~^^哈~~記住呀~~~比心機溫書.....半年之嘛.......好快過........!!!
過左呢半年之後.....我地再好似今年咁....一齊再去camp~~一齊再出黎玩過....癲過~~好冇?!?!^^
我應承你~~~我知應承左你ge野~唔可以做唔到丫嘛~~我一定做到ga~^^

睇到好多要repeat ge人ge日記~~都好似唔多開心咁.....
條路~~冇話係唔係揀錯.....只係你有冇心去面對......
其實有時自己都諗.....遲d我要自己一個返學.....一個完全唔熟識.....
未去過ge地方上堂.....見d我完全未見過ge人......
我會仲唔慣......所以....其實你地已經好好ga喇...!!!^^

所以....呢個只係一個考驗.....我地個個都要一齊過關呀!!!!一齊去到另一個境界.....
到第2時.....一齊再闖過......!!!^^互等呀.....我等你地讀完....你地都要等我讀完呀!!!^^
一年半年之嘛.....好快過......~~joyce都係.....6年之嘛....好快過.....!!!你都要比心機!!!^3^~~

今日同左justice出旺角.....駛左好多$$呀~~陰公~~><我d糧而家真係真真正正冇晒~><
今日buy左個奶咀頸鍊呀~~^^好開心~~^^kee.....好得意ga~~之後....仲一次過buy左2個bag~><"
唉......我有同佢講價呀~~哈哈~~

之後就周圍行.......唔....^^唔知係唔係嘈得濟.....又頭痛~~><呢幾日日日都頭痛~~
都唔知係唔係個腦有事tim~~日日都痛~~仲日日就算訓左好耐....but都覺得好眼訓....
好想訓覺.....遲d真係要出去check下....~~好驚有事.......而家又頭暈又頭痛~><

之後就返home la~~橙打黎.....咁橙佢地打黎個電話係有個bb喊ge嘛~~
我較左個sound係咁~~之後個電話咁響la~!~隔離個女仔.....狂笑= =''差唔多由我上車笑到落車~
好煩~~~佢仲笑得好大聲......超煩.......扮晒低b咁~~><

之後就係吉之島落車~~同justice去buy眼鏡~~then同我去同mum食飯~~
then同佢buy左好多野= ="~~then就buy野食返home食......^^"

今朝早我磅時~~thin左『2大磅』呀~!!!!!^^^^^^^^^^^keep住落去呀~~~
尋日mum話比我知~~樓下個看更話billy成日吠~~~白痴ga佢~~billy吠關佢鬼事呀~~
我30樓嘈到佢咩~~我夠可以話佢看門口看得唔好la~~~低b ga佢都~~
咩人都開門比佢地入黎~~上次先比兩個o靚仔玩完門口~~咁我唔可以投訴佢呀~~
我地唔出聲之嘛~~~咁放兩個o靚仔入黎~~o個兩個o靚仔仲拍我地門~~攪到billy吠~~
咁又唔見我話佢地看門口看得唔好~~邊個都比佢地入黎~~低b ga~~><

>>September 4, 2004 at 4:11:30 PM GMT+8