2004 年 2 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

今日本來諗住返教會ga~~
but唔知醒~~
我mum12:00先走黎叫我~~><"

之後咪再訓多一陣~~^^"
訓到好晏先起身~~=.=''

之後食完野~~溫hist~~~
尋晚都點左少少~~

唔.......我諗今晚都應該會出去食飯......
因為張j card到期~~今日係最後一日~~
so要去再申請~....~

我相信有好多野都係好有緣份ga~~
一定唔會係巧合~~^^
比我識到你~~已經係一個好大的緣份~~
今日又係咁~~^^
真係好有緣~~我真係希望自己會珍惜呢一d~~
我都希望自己永遠都會記得~~

>>February 29, 2004 at 10:33:02 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 27 日 星期五 【晴】

今日的心情........好矛盾......
係開心??定係唔開心???
我自己都好唔sure~~
只係知道.............

首先~~好多謝你地呀!!!!
我唔知我自己會幾時好番...
but 我信....呢d日子~~始終會過去......
o個種感覺.....可能好快就消失....

另外~~最sorry ge係~~
尋晚心情真係唔掂~~
so同你地講野有時會語氣重左少少....=.='

今日.....一早出左mk~~
去飲茶~~then 去buy 相機~~
終於buy左喇~~^^"

今日搭車出去o個陣.....
我無sleep.......一路望住個海....
一路聽住歌.....勁多野諗.....
之後佢地繼續行~~我就自己一個返HOME補習~
><當時我好唔想返home ga~~
因為只係行左一陣......
but最終都返左......
自己一個搭車~~車又好少人~~好靜~~
更加多野諗.......=.='

同佢地飲茶o個時~~講左好多野~~
有d關於我brother~~佢呢一排~~食埋煙tim~~
佢地成日都叫我睇實佢~~但係可以咩?!!?
唔通日日返學放學都跟住佢?!
係學校又跟住佢呀?!?!><"
我尋晚仲好惡咁鬧佢~佢都無出聲~~
我好大聲咁say"你唔好比我知道你食煙呀下~~
你食還食~~你唔好係屋企食呀我話比你知!!!"
then佢都唔敢出聲話番我~~
因為當時我勁angry~~發緊脾氣~~=.=''

另外~~我mum 叫我一會完考就學車....
到我一到18years old就考牌~~=.=''
我uncle say駛唔駛咁急....~~
我mum say學定先好~~but我sister話左好耐學~
我mum同dad都唔比佢學wor~~話佢粗心大意~~
咁我係咪即係好細心?!^^"

另外~我唔鐘意人地幫我選擇我條路~~
我講過好多好多次~~
自己條路應該由自己去揀~~
就算點樣揀錯~~都係自己ge事~~
怨都只會怨自己~~而且唔會後悔~~
因為呢條路係自己揀ge~~
你想點唔=我想點~~
個個人ge諗法都唔同~~
點解你成日都要迫我揀一條同你一樣ge路?!
我唔想再同你一齊行~~

我仲好記得你之前點迫人~~
有時唔係話讀得書多就一定係好~~
點都會有例外ga~~
你想讀書~~但係唔係個個都想讀書~~
anyway.......我真係唔想多講呢d野~~
仲重要ge係~~其實人ge心態~~
係你愈迫佢~~佢就會愈反叛~~
愈唔去做~~~我都係人黎ga!!!!!><

>>February 28, 2004 at 12:15:22 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 26 日 星期四 【晴】

p.s~~上次一篇個日期攪錯左......
o個日係星期三....!!!!

到今日.....
今日真係好唔開心....
其實我知道心情唔好係人都有.....
但係我心情唔好~
唔會搵人黎發脾氣low~~

我知你地知我唔開心~~
用盡方法同我玩~~
joyce今日成日都叫我笑~~
又叫我唔好咁"忟"~~
但係其實我真係做唔到~~
sorry........

我真係好辛苦~~
我唔知應該點樣面對佢~~
我唔知我可以點做~~
我一句野都唔想多講.....
我笑都唔想笑......咩都唔想做.....
呢一排已經好累ga喇~~但係仲要咁.....
我好驚自己捱唔到........

我真係好累喇.....
好想好想有時間好好咁休息下......

我發覺原來我自己一d都唔了解你....
原來大家都係好陌生.......
我唔鐘意咁.....
我唔鐘意冷戰..........!!!!!!!><"

>>February 27, 2004 at 10:24:36 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 26 日 星期四 【晴】

今日都係好累........
放左學.....幫手整同學錄d野.......
整到6點幾~~
就去接番billy返home~~=.="
taki係咁話佢重!!!!!!><"

之後返到home2分鐘~~
mother就叫我出去食飯~~
尋晚無出~~無理由今日都唔去~
咁就出左去la~~
點知咁岩.....睇到我like左一排o個對鞋~~
但係我都無咩點諗過buy~~
我一直都覺得好靚~~
粉紅色好靚~~
but dad同mum就話black靚好多~=.='
咁我決定左好耐都決定唔到~就叫左我sister黎睇~
佢一睇都話粉紅色靚好多~~
無諗過會buy之下~~dad就buy左比我~^^
真係好靚.........

唔.......其實有時.....人就係咁ga喇~~
明明知自己想點....講左出黎~
但係都唔會有人理~唔會有人聽~
我真係唔想咁~~~
呢個星期~~o個種感覺又係度喇~~><"
我唔鐘意咁~~而家咁樣~~
我就算講每一句說話都會係錯ga la~
我唔明點解係咁~~

>>February 27, 2004 at 8:50:16 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

今日上午~~個人勁勁勁累~~
雖然心情都唔係咁好~~
但係o個種唔開心係唔同ga~~

子鍵以為我唔開心~~比我met~~
真係好~~^^但係講真~~
就算你點樣比我met~~
我真係笑唔出.......

原來一切的事....都唔可以作估計~~
口頭承諾有用咩?!
有時我真係好唔明你想點~~
我好辛苦~~我真係好辛苦~~
呢一排壓力都已經好大.....
但係面對住你....我壓力仲大....
我唔敢講錯野....我唔敢做錯野....
你真係好恐怖......
我真係唔想咁ga~~但係我對住你真係好辛苦呀!!
我真係捱唔到......><'

>>February 27, 2004 at 10:03:46 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 23 日 星期一 【晴】

補番d日記先~~^^"

今日係學校都係繼續討論o個個問題~~
胡sir都有講起~~~
但係我知道佢係為我地好~~
事實上~~佢只係知d唔知d~~
事實係點?!誰對誰錯?!
都已經無所謂喇~~
過左去就由佢過去~~

今日dad返左黎~~
佢地叫我night出去打邊爐~~
但係我個人已經勁累.....
so無出到去......=.=

>>February 27, 2004 at 8:27:30 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 22 日 星期日 【晴】

今日一返學~~唔知點解覺得好大壓力~~
個氣氛一d都唔好~~
就好似周圍d人都用d好奇異的眼光望住你咁~~
(我唔係話我個頭!!!)

今日我好自然就成日轉個頭去望住佢~~
佢仲要對住我地笑~~~
雖然笑得好牽強~~=.='
成日見到佢個背影~~
我都覺得好傷感~~
o個種感覺~~d selfish ge人係唔會明~~
我唔要你再唔開心呀!!!!
this is an order!!!!!!!!!

今日佢地又係咁喇~~~我真係好憎呢d人~~
呢d咁ge fd~~要唔要都罷~~
我真係一d都唔稀罕~~

今日時間過得好快~~因為堂堂都talking~~
有d雖然都係同一個問題~~
但係我地好多人都唔明~~

聽日子鍵講好多野~~我發覺到原來我地班~~
所以發生過的開心~~都唔係真正的開心~~
真係好假~~><"

"佢"真係唔應該唔開心~~
即係話唔開心o個個唔應該係"佢"~~
做錯野o個d人都唔會唔開心~~
咁你做咩為佢地而唔開心ja~~值得咩?!?!

我知道呢d事會有過去的一日~~
而家即使佢地講咩~~我都唔想信~~
p.s~~我突然間覺得你好可怕........
可能有時我太唔了解你個為人~~
又或者你係我面前做出一個最好ge面目黎見我~~
但係點都好~~我真係唔想你再係咁~~
做個好人唔好咩?!?!點都好過而家咁ar~~~

>>February 23, 2004 at 12:43:53 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 21 日 星期六 【晴】

今日諗番起尋日d野~~
雖然仲係有d唔開心~~
但係我信咩都會過去~~

今日send左一個message比"佢"~~
佢幾個鐘之後先答番我話"無事卦"

仲有d野尋日想講~~
d人食完野唔比$$~~
倒番轉頭仲係度發人脾氣~~
呢d咩人黎ga?!!?我覺得呢d人連monster都不如low~~
又係icq個info度玩單單打打~~
好憎呢d人!!!!
我真係唔明點解佢地可以咁對朋友~~
佢地識左勁耐~~"佢"就忍左佢勁耐~~
呢d咁ge朋友~~咩都係睇$$份上~~
用$$黎buy d fd番黎~~咁可以真係做fd咩?!?!
咁都係fd咩?!?!

佢地又有咩資格發番人地脾氣ar!?!??!
仲咩都癲倒晒d是非~~~
好憎呢d人~~明明係自己唔岩~~
但係佢又要話比人知係"佢"唔岩~~
明明係自己做錯~~但係又唔認不特以~~
仲要話人錯~~事實係咁咩?!?!
佢咁做都不特以~~佢仲要同圍唱~o個下先衰~~
d人勁cheap呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!><

>>February 23, 2004 at 11:18:39 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 20 日 星期五 【晴】

我諗.....今日有去灣仔o個d人都唔會多開心~~
之前無時間比我打日記~~
而家補番~~^^"

今日去左灣仔聽講座~~
今日我好早就到~~因為我好怕自己late d人會發脾氣~~
點知我無late~~佢竟然late~><
之前我late佢又發脾氣~~今次到佢late~
反而係佢黑起塊面~~><

到之後去到灣仔~~
d人唔識行又要係度扮晒識咁~~
我去過o個度聽concert~~我會唔識去?!
仲係上年ge事tim~~
最抵死ge係~~佢地最終都勁遲先去到~~
我地就岩岩好去到~~~

聽講座d野~~無咩野好講~~~
只係成日都訓著左~~=.='

講到聽完講座....我地就一行9個人去左mk eat dinner~~
但唔知點解無啦啦多左個~~
真係好唔開心~~~
叫野食又係佢地叫~~食又係佢地食得多~~
但係比$$就係我地4個女仔同"佢"比~~
勁過份low~~
當時好火遮眼~~d人扮晒去廁所咁~
唔比$$$~!!!!!!勁cheap low~><
而家諗番起都好angry~~><><><"""""

之後走人~~我地4個女仔就一齊發脾氣~~
但"佢"勁好~~佢無發脾氣~~仲幫我地做中間人收番$$比我地~~
有呢個朋友~~我覺得好幸福~~
但係d人根本唔識得珍惜~~
仲成日利用"佢"~~
朋友係用黎利用ga咩?!?!!?
你自己唔珍惜"佢"~~佢更加唔需要稀疏~~
佢冇左係~~至少起碼有我地3個支持佢~~

今日真真正正咁感受到佢ge感受~~
佢真係好忍得~~如果比著係我~~
我一早已經遠離佢~~仲有咁遠走咁遠~~

之後上車打比佢~~佢把聲係咁振~~
當時我勁想為佢而喊~~唔知點解~~
但係我知道我唔可以同情佢~~
朋友係唔需要同情~~只係需要愛~~!!!

仲有仲有~~我真係唔明點解d人可以咁selfish~~
唔通你話食咩就食咩呀?!
唔駛理我地感受la~~"佢"都有權選擇ga~~
佢唔可以成世就晒你地~~
你地可唔可以理下佢感受呀?!~

>>February 23, 2004 at 11:12:45 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】

今日一早起身......
隻手本來唔係好瘀.....唔係好覺眼....
但係一睇就會睇到....
點知.....到下午~~唔知點解變得瘀左好多....=.=

今日d野唔想多講喇~~~真係唔想講~~
但係其實我真係唔知點解自己會咁.....
我都話....有時唔係話唔同你地玩....
但係玩之餘....理下人地感受.....
我都話過.....有時唔可以玩得太過份.....
如果真係要咁樣玩ge.....我可以真係講~我真係玩唔起...
或者有d野我唔明.....又或者有d野你地仲未明....
but anyway.......我真係唔想有下一次.....

諗番起尋日........岩岩個日記漏左d野未打.....
仲好記得........上年的今天.......唉.........

放左學之後......出左吉島行左 陣......
我發覺我真係好有耐性~~~=.="
buy左d野la~~^^"
but好似無咩心情行.....因為個頭勁勁勁痛~~
又勁勁勁暈~~@@@@@
返到home~~食左藥~~訓左一陣.......

今日mother去左東莞~~應該聽日先返......=.=
聽日我要咁早起身.....點算?!?!?!?!><"

>>February 20, 2004 at 3:39:15 PM GMT+8