2011 年 12 月 9 日 星期五 【晴】

work is crazy lately. ppl are just really rude.
i was sort of mad today, but screw that, i m not gonna ask for troubles.
just trying to finish what i need to do, then i m done. i dont care.
you want it, take it. i cant stop you anyway, you dont need to freak out and yell at me.
fucking bullying a female staff, yea that's very nice and gentlemen of you. NICE.
somehow i wonder, if i m not wearing the uniform i would talk back, not with the bad words
but i'd definitely be super straight forward to confront them, like why the hell they think they're
so right? just coz they're the customers? fuck you.

i got the e-mail from honey last night. i miss him... i hope he'll get the second package soon.

i'm very tired.. i should go to bed first.
i hope honey's alright.

>>December 10, 2011 at 5:36:00 PM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 7 日 星期三 【晴】




got some weird sms last night. dont know what that is. weird.
for one moment, i have thought about him, thinking it might be him..
but.... i guess not.

work is crazy today... stood for 5 hrs today, checking for the octopus card access for the
tenants. sigh. i dont know.. my body pain and i feel stressed. i miss him and worry about him.
i dont wanna give him any pressure. i hope he's alright.

>>December 8, 2011 at 3:29:43 PM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 6 日 星期二 【晴】

i'm really tired.

somehow i wish i dont live in a big city, everything might become easier?
at least, slower and simpler?

i went to the post office again in the lunch break. i's okay. i sent the package already.
i got up earlier this morning to make sure i wont be late. i made tea, breakfast, and lunch,
then went to work. i finally opened the Maple Tea from Japan, yea i brought home since
Mar, never opened it. i love it, and it reminds me of Vancouver and Japan, and most likely,
it reminds me of him. i miss him so much so much.

the tea smelled very sweet, and it was strong. gave me a very warm comfy early
morning when i was on the way to work. the stupid ppl on the train drove me crazy,
i've been trying to get used to that. today was very dark and wet outside, i didnt really like it.
so, lucky i had my tea, helped smoothing my bad mood.

i wish i dont have to work tmr. i wish i could go on vacation. i dont need anyone to complete
my dreams for me or take me away from the reality. perhaps i need a break, on my own or
just stay away from work and get free time to do what i like for awhile.

i m sick of pretending strong and faking to be fine. facing a bunch of assholes and bitches,
all i wanna do is to tell them to fuck off.

do you think that he misses me too? or does he actually wanna be with me too?
or i'm just his second choice all of the time? i dont wanna think too much right now.
i'm really tired already.

>>December 7, 2011 at 3:39:33 PM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 5 日 星期一 【晴】

i m so tired.

i got up late today, in a rush this early morning. lucky that i wasnt late. left home at 6 25am?
work was okay, quite busy at the promotion desk. crazy ppl...
then, we're gonna install the new system for the access of the tower.
those fucking selfish tenants kept complaining and never thought about what kind of shit
and troubles they have created, totally jack up our workload. they are extremely rude
and unreasonable, thinking they can do whatever they want in their ways. i dont understand
they all look good outside, look so elegant and polite. but actually it's all fake. all of them
are just looking for good deals and shit and never listened. i hate them all.

after work, i just left. felt so free to go home. i took bus, felt asleep on the bus.
that guy next to me was so irritating. i tried to avoid him, he kept sitting across my seat,
kept pushing. the guy sit opposite kept looking at us. it was kind of weird. i dropped by the mall
and tried to find that new thermal underwear shown on tv commercial before.
i went to the Nike, Addidas, Columbia, and Superwarm. i finally bought one from Superwarm.
not for myself, for him. i think i've bought too much stuffs for myself actually.

i miss him...
anyway, i need to go to bed.. early shift till Sat. didnt sleep very well.

>>December 6, 2011 at 4:30:22 PM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 4 日 星期日 【晴】

i'm off today, finally. so... it's been a week since my interview last week.

i miss him. to be honest, my reasons wanna be a FA not only coz of myself,
i'd like to be able to see him more often. i wanna see around the world, i wanna see different
things and ppl. i wanna be the communicator between ppl and places. i wanna become the
link of the ppl. make sure they have the safe and comfortable flight, make their trip awesome.
i always like to assist ppl when ppl need me. i know i screwed up my interview, but i do hope
i could have a second chance to make it work.

i slept for 11 hrs last night, then got up had late lunch with my parents.
i m not in a good mood actually. i have plenty of things to do. but i m lazy haha.

i need to go to the bank tmr, then also need to prepare for the christmas.
i always think if someday i become a mom or wife, then i would have more fun for different
seasons. i'd be the kind of woman busy running here and there to prepare stuffs for my family.
if i end up being alone, then i'd adopt a cat or a baby on my own. then i'd have my own family
as well. it might sound weird but i would do that, but of course i need money to do so.

i love winter, but seems like this winter is not a very nice one.
i miss him, i wish everything would be fine soon.










>>December 5, 2011 at 4:13:25 PM GMT+8

2011 年 12 月 2 日 星期五 【晴】

i went to the post office a few days ago.
hope that he could get the package before christmas.
i miss him lots, and i'm glad that i got his email yesterday.
i'm happy that he's in his new start lately. i'm proud of him.

i miss him lots.. i really do..
i hope to see him soon.

work was busy today. those girls are fighting each others now.

>>December 3, 2011 at 5:12:01 PM GMT+8

2011 年 11 月 29 日 星期二 【晴】







>>November 30, 2011 at 4:38:32 PM GMT+8

2011 年 11 月 28 日 星期一 【晴】

i failed.

well, i've done my part.. even though i think i could have done much better but...
i was too nervous anyway. i failed. it doesnt matter now. at least i've tried, and that's all i need.
i dont know if i would ever get in anyway. but i had owed myself a chance to try again.
and i'm glad that i've done it finally, before 2012.

i miss him so much. dont know where he is.
i hope he didnt walk out from me. if he does, i dont know how i'm gonna handle that actually.
its like i'm dumped in silence when i couldnt even realize again. it's pretty horrible for me.
and the most ridiculous thing is, i dont even know what wrong i've done, and ppl just left me
without telling me. am i really that terrible like a monster that guys have to be so afraid of me?
then why ppl just come to me pretending friends or like me then take advantage on me, or
leave me? is it coz i m too stupid or coz i 'm not bitchy enough?

tmr i'd need to go back to work again.

>>November 30, 2011 at 12:18:14 AM GMT+8

2011 年 11 月 27 日 星期日 【晴】

i went through the first and the second interview. did two tests, will have the final interview tmr.
but i'm really exhausted right now. tmr i'd need to call-in sick for the interview. and actually
i m feeling sick too.

i miss him so much :'(

>>November 28, 2011 at 3:21:25 PM GMT+8

2011 年 11 月 25 日 星期五 【晴】

Happy Birthday to my little sister Doris.

we had japanese all you can eat dinner together after work.
then, hang ard then went home. i m so exhausted today.

work was very busy actually. my manager gave me some sort of task.
then yesterday *J and i got a complain, i knew it was not good, but*J already rejected that customer,
so i didnt wanna say anything. but that bitch then complained about us. its just crazy anyway.
these crazy ppl should learn manners and shit since they are just even worse than kids.

i saw *Kn at work today. i didnt speak to him. i still chatted with our common friends.
well our common friends are closer with him but it doesnt really matter. they dont mention
about him in front of me, and i dont talk about him. basically i just cant be bothered.
he kept apologizing. i didnt really reply his mesg. i ignored him. actually it kindds reminds me of
honey and i.

i still havent heard from him yet. dont know how he's.

i m exhausted... i wanna go to bed.. i couldnt sleep lately, didnt really sleep well..
tmr after work i'd have tutoring. then on Mon, i'll have the interview.

i miss him.

>>November 26, 2011 at 5:01:55 PM GMT+8