2012 年 6 月 8 日 星期五 【晴】

work was super busy today, still ok..

i have interview tomorrow with Dragon Air.
i m worried coz i m nervous. very nervous actually.
i should keep reminding myself it's just a show. they're hiring the girl who suits the role.
i should keep smiling and just enjoy the interview. then the miracle might happen.
i can't hope for too much since i always have bad luck, but still being positive is very
important i think... may God bless me, if He also thinks this job is good for me...
He would open the door for me once another closed, always with the best timing.
i should have faith in myself and faith in Him.

i still haven't heard from honey yet. he must have his own reasons.

i m nervous, i m lonely, but i shall overcome all these.







>>June 9, 2012 at 5:48:40 PM GMT+8

2012 年 6 月 7 日 星期四 【晴】

:'(

i can't handle more. i took bus home tonight and i cried on the bus.
no one saw it, so its ok.



>>June 8, 2012 at 4:33:34 PM GMT+8

2012 年 6 月 6 日 星期三 【晴】

i don't know. i don't want to go on.

it's crazy at work and got meeting today. its just fucking crazy. do they actually know
what they are doing? i wanna leave.

*M saw me crying. she asked why i cried. i said no, i wasnt crying.
well, indeed i was crying. just that i don't wanna show them.. but that doesn't make me strong.

i worry about my interview, i m upset about the interviews before.
i'm upset about how come my honey got the package but didn't tell me.
i m upset coz i miss him so much and i have emailed him many times but i don't see him
replying. i m upset coz there are so many changes at work and my supervisor and
manager are so stupid and blind. i m so frustrated but i got nowhere to go.
i m sad coz i m doing bad at my driving lesson and i m so tired everyday so exhausted.
i m so exhausted everyday tried my really best to force myself to get out from bed
and i slept through the whole time traveling to work, and pretend to be all energetic and
cheerful after dressing up with the uniform, dealing with the ppl and bullshit i hate.
what do you think how i feel? terrible and horrible. i know its my role and part of my job
duties. but i really don't see its fair or worthy.

and the other night i just went to the hospital coz of food poison. i got serious allergy.
i don't know...

>>June 8, 2012 at 1:14:25 AM GMT+8

2012 年 6 月 5 日 星期二 【晴】

:'(

>>June 6, 2012 at 4:49:24 PM GMT+8

2012 年 6 月 3 日 星期日 【晴】

its been one month now.. i went to Japan last month on May 3..
can't believe that's been a month already.
i think of him a lot. and i do miss him so much since i m back. i don't want to be apart from him.

i went to the post office during lunch break this afternoon.
i have been searching things and collecting things for him since i was back.
i always think of him whenever wherever i am.

anyway, today after work, i met with Doris and had family dinner.










>>June 4, 2012 at 5:33:00 PM GMT+8

2012 年 6 月 2 日 星期六 【晴】

:'(







>>June 3, 2012 at 10:09:55 PM GMT+8

2012 年 5 月 31 日 星期四 【晴】

:'(

i m eating chocolate now to make myself feel better.
i know i shouldn't but i really want to pamper myself.

i got the email from Dragon Air today. i will have an interview on the 10th.
i was happy about it, but then i also realise i can't take many sick leaves.
i need to be prepared this time. i hope i could become a flight attendant.

the girls like my friends have asked me about the interview another day. i have told them
about the content, but then now.... one of them got the interview call... so........
now i start to feel a little weird i mean.... of course i want them in, but then....
if the interviewers found it weird how come they just changed the way of interviews
then already some people could understand then. i worry they might know.
or... even if they don't know, i still feel weird. sigh, maybe i shouldn't feel in this way,
but right now i have to admit that i feel a little bad, not like i don't want her get in.
of course i want her get in, but at the same time, it feels strange. weird.
hope i'd feel better soon. and i don't want her feel bad neither.

then tonight at work... got some asshole... the worst i have never met.
it totally drove me nuts that i almost bursted into tears when he finally left.
i m serious. he was a total ass. i don't even wanna spend a min write about him.
it was nuts, and i personally admire how he could be an ass like that. his words were
twisted and like i couldn't respond much. and surprised he's a white guy.
i m guessing he might be a lawyer or with some asshole job.

i m in a super negative mood now.

but yea, i had my driving lesson this morning.. i need to work harder..
humm hopefully can get to the post office on Mon. i wanna send him a package i have
been preparing. i miss him...............

oh god, i wanna cry.

>>June 1, 2012 at 5:37:44 PM GMT+8

2012 年 5 月 29 日 星期二 【晴】

waiting for the call now. i don't know if they would offer body check. i don't know if
i have failed. but i met a new friend from the interview. sigh.

anyway i miss him.. i got his reply and i do understand what he told me.
i kindda understand how he feels. i m thinking what i can do or we can do.

back to work today, lots of shitty things happened, but yea....... whatever.
this company is just full of shit.

tomorrow i'll have driving lesson before work. but i wanna send money first. so...
see what i can do i guess.

>>May 31, 2012 at 4:17:39 PM GMT+8

2012 年 5 月 27 日 星期日 【晴】

i did call sick today.

i took the driving lesson, then went to the book store, and got something for honey.
then, back to Tai Po to the doctor, then had lunch with my family.
walked around, did some shopping with my family at the YATA department store.
crazy sales there, so they bought a luggage and mom got some jacket. i bought leggings.
then i got the call from Hong Kong Air, i m going to have the interview the day after.
very soon and not prepared. i don't know if i really want to work in this company,
but i need the benefit and holidays, i need to be able to fly over Japan more often,
and i need the ticket benefit. but then, i wanna work for Cathay the most. so, i m not
sure and i don't even know if they would like me neither. so... just try i guess.

i emailed him immediately once i got home. i miss him.

doctor said i got a flu, asked me to rest more.
well..... i m not sure if i can rest well. and i have been feeling unwell with the terrible mood
for awhile already.

>>May 28, 2012 at 1:57:41 PM GMT+8

2012 年 5 月 27 日 星期日 【晴】

i m not feeling well, and my heart beats so fast, probably got a flu or a cold.
feel strange.

super tired.. but i preview my schedule for tomorrow, it wouldn't be bad..
today my schedule wasn't bad too, except i bumped into some weird customers.
but i really want to call sick. i really don't feel well.

>>May 27, 2012 at 4:45:52 PM GMT+8