2012 年 8 月 24 日 星期五 【晴】

i m soooooooo exhausted.
you know... i passed the exam today, got 100%.. the training has came to the forth week soon.
almost half is done. never realized FA is that important on the flight, never thought
it's really that hard for the training to just to be a FA. being a FA is really not easy at all..

i've been very low profile about my training, not coz i m not proud of working for KA,
but i always worry i wont pass the training. i have always wanted to be a FA, and when it
comes to be real, i just take it extra seriously with extra effort... i like my classmates, i like
them.. but to be honest, i still couldnt enjoy my training. maybe coz i'm not 19 or 20 y.o.
anymore.. and most of them are living together in the hotel. i m part of the minorities in class.
among all the HK girls, i m the oldest and im not like them. they are .... either typical or
fresh grad from a rich family. i dont find myself very close with them. i m closer with the
Taiwanese somehow, or i m actually not very good at a big group of ppl. i do care about
them especially when they are in needed. i m just not that talkative usually. i like to listen
more than just bla bla bla. i find them pretty noisy.

i miss him.. i hope he's alright. i m a little worried about him actually...

and you know, i havent really hanged ard the mall since my training started...
i went to the mall to pick up my shoes from the special store for work...
then i wondered around, and did some stationary shopping, need more note books
and highlighter pen.. i went to Muji... i also dropped by M&S, and H&M..
its all Autumn fashion now... i love Fall and Winter but then its still pretty hot during the day.
and then... i wonder if i have missed out lots actually... i dont know.. but my training is
gonna end by the end of Sep, and i have already been scheduled to fly already..
what will happen by then?
but before that, next week at CX would be pretty challenging for me, i'd need to swim.




>>August 25, 2012 at 12:41:42 PM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 22 日 星期三 【晴】

i feel really bad.

i almost failed my CPR and Oxygen Bottle test.
i shouldnt have been that bad, coz i should be able to do that..
i was too nervous, and my pressure on the heart was not strong enough.
for the oxygen bottle, i was too nervous coz i couldnt do the CPR at first.
then i forgot to say out the pre-caution.
i cant believe that.
but i did my second round, i made it in the end. but in real life... if i cant save that life, then
i cant save that life. i really feel so bad so bad.

i m not in mood at all for the whole day.
i almost cried when i knew i was so close to fail. everyone was supporting me, trying to
cheer me up. i find myself so useless. i emailed honey telling him i passed, barely.

tomorrow have two more practical tests and also quiz... the Fire drill, and the smoke room.
i cant let anyone dying on me. i have to carry on.
then Sat would have the written exam. i feel so heavy, suffocating.

i have got the schedule for Sep already. i'll have PVG and PEK flight, all turns around.
then one KMG.. turn around as well..

its really hard to be a FA..

>>August 23, 2012 at 1:33:29 PM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 18 日 星期六 【晴】

i'm getting myself ready to the coming two weeks training at cathay.
hummmmmmm stressed coz i know its the toughest part of the entire training.

i miss him..

i wrote it on my facebook :
another week is about to start. when i'm tired, i do think of someone, and i'd ask myself if
i cant pass this challenge, how am i gonna face the rest? being a professional isnt easy.
do it for him, do it for the company, do it for myself. i'm not living in a dream, i'm pushing the
limit to make it real. no quitting, time to carry on. keep things up, enjoy.

i think yea... i should go to bed first...

i did some preview today, and i m not sure what'd happen these two weeks..
i m nervous. and i miss him lots.

i emailed him quite frequently. i miss him lots.. :(






>>August 19, 2012 at 2:13:35 PM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 16 日 星期四 【晴】

i got the exam today... i got 100%, but i stayed therefor the whole hr. i was the last one to
submit the exam. impressive. but lots of ppl got 100%. i kept checking and checking my ans
again and again. anyway, not enough sleep.. kept falling asleep on the bus.. then also on the
company shuttle.

i got my uniform today actually.. not the apron or coat. but i got the dress and jacket already.
then i put them to the laundry station. humm i got the strolley, garment bag, work bag, and
hand bag yesterday.. all of the sudden, felt like i m really part of the company now...
since i've got those stuffs, i m really ... i dont know.. i have to pay all my efforts to make
sure i wont return these to them, i would graduate with my other 24 classmates by Sep 20.
i would achieve it and follow my dream. i dont think i would wanna be a flight attendant
forever... but i do wanna do it since it's been my dream always, and i know i m suitable for
this job. the only bad thing is it doesnt fly long haul or tokyo.

tomorrow, we'd have make up class, and before that. we all would get together to have
lunch first. hummmm.. they are very nice ppl. i m happy to be with them :) we do support
each others and help each others... they are unlike hk ppl.. i'd say hk ppl are selfish..

anyway... i told honey about my exam and my next two weeks training.. it'd be at C X.
very nervous as in itd be the really tough part. probably the toughest part. i'd need to
do the wet drill, evacuation, jumping slide.... and a bunch of quizzes and exams again...
but more difficult ones..... and the first aid... hummmmmm......... but i guess i'd have fun
and enjoy it since it's gonna be so unforgettable. i need to be positive about it in some way
somehow. humm.. i miss him.. sigh.. i thought about him a lot.. i thought about the time
we had together, in japan in canada... i miss him lots..





>>August 17, 2012 at 3:43:28 PM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 14 日 星期二 【晴】

I have already done the second exam already. Not good, two mistakes. Then it's been stressful as usual.
Today we got the wine n cocktail training, yesterday was the galley packing. It was fun but it's hard coz we
Can't have enough time to practice at all.

Today I overslept on the bus, then I went all the way to the world expo. Lucky I m always early,
Then I got enough time to take another bus back to the airport for the shuttle bus.
And now, I'm standing on the stupid bus full of construction workers with the awful smell with
Almost no air-con for 1.5 hr bus ride home. I really hate it so much!! I can't breath!!

What mom told me last night was my so called uncle he said he wouldn't come for dinner
Coz my grand parents r not gonna sell the property n give him money. I found it ridiculously
Unaccetbe. N my grandma insisted to do as what he said. He had never contributed to
The family but always getting free lunches n bringing troubles to everyone n he thinks
It's ok since he's the oldest son. Fuck him n my cousins. My fucking cousins r the same
As him, I'm really supposed how come I could have relatives like that. U know, I don't
Want to have that dinner now, it's meaningless. I feel shame.

I kinda mentioned that to honey before. I just didn't know things could get that worse
At that time. N I miss his smile n everything. It s like without him everything is just not right.

I'm having back pain n so sleepy n my feet hurt a lot, n standing inside the bus. I need air n
Some cold drink n a nice shower.... N tonight lots of revision m homework again.......!

I miss him..




----

home now.... studying, more homework, more studying..
















>>August 15, 2012 at 4:26:47 PM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 12 日 星期日 【晴】

i'm sooooooo exhausted...
i only got 1 hr sleep last night...
today was so harsh. my instructor she sucks ass. she's nice enough but her teaching
was really awful. i dont even understand how she can get her license. its just really bad.
i got notes from Joyce. it was way better, her instructor was much more organised.

anyway... i have exam tomorrow, and i am so scared coz i couldnt pass the last exercise
today before the class dismiss. most of us didnt make it coz her exercise was so fucking
stupid. no one actually understand what she wants, and she kept changing her mind as well.
its just impossible.

i miss him lots. i saw him on skype yesterday, and he helped me to update my stuffs..
thanks him so much... when i m so frustrated, i always think of him wondering if there's a
moment that came across his mind that i wouldnt pass.

Cas... it's your dream, u have to ask yourself, can u give it up so easily?
its been your dream since 17. can u just be defeated like that huh?





>>August 13, 2012 at 2:59:39 PM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 10 日 星期五 【晴】

still studying. 2:49 am..

i was so dead yesterday. i came home, didnt really had lunch, i had some bun then i went
to bed. i slept till 8 or 9 pm, then got up for dinner. after dinner, studied a bit then i went to bed.
got up late ard 11 ? then i studied and had lunch with mom and Doris..
took a walk, did some shopping, i need to get more colours or highlight pens, then also some
memo stickers. came home studying again... kept drawing diagram and referring to the handout,
the manual, and the notes i took. it s kindda crazy..

i was supposed to have dinner with Doris Koo my trainee before, and also with Mandy,
Christine, and Cynthia. Doris finally left, it was her last day yesterday. but i was sleeping like
dead so i couldn't go out again. and today, i was supposed to meet with Christine.
the grand opening of A&F in Central. i was just too occupied, my mind is full of the stuffs from
training now. i cant. i really wanna just go out and relax, i can't. so i canceled everything.

i got the reply from honey... i miss him lots.. i hope he's doing okay.

Cas, one week is done, six more. just six more, you can do it.






>>August 11, 2012 at 6:49:50 PM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 9 日 星期四 【晴】

Super exhausted. Didn't really eat or sleep last night.
Took taxi to the airport n had training over night till noon. Super tiring, I need sleep.
Lots of stuffs to study hard very hard. Its really not easy at all.

>>August 10, 2012 at 5:32:54 AM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 8 日 星期三 【晴】

Very tired already... On the way home again, on bus.
I slept for 3 hrs only last night. Really didn't get enough time to study :(
Then I took the exam. I aimed to get over 95% but I do
Actually wanted 100%. I got 1 wrong answer, so 98%.
There were 2 guys not girls got 100%. I kinda want to get 100% next time.
Very soon the next exam would come on Monday.
And today everyone's exhausted after exam. We had even
More to study, loads of diagrams n equipments to know
About. Gonna get on board tonight at 4:30 am.
I'm thinking if I could sleep tonight........

I miss him a lot, don't know how he is now.




>>August 9, 2012 at 1:34:27 PM GMT+8

2012 年 8 月 7 日 星期二 【晴】

super exhausted.

i tried different route to come home.. i took the company shuttle all the way to Taipo.
but its really time consuming as well, and my stop isnt close to my home at all.
so, i need to walk or transit again. its not worth it. i got home at 7:45pm.

its super tiring today... i went through the previews at home last night, i made it.
then i did revision on the way to training this early morning...

tomorrow is the first test. 90% is the passing score. i wanna get at least 95%.
super super super tired. and... i need to get up at 5:15 and leave by 6:30.
now is 1:47 am... and i m still striving for the perfect score i'd need.
i think for this industry, my aim is to always get 100% prepared, or prepared for more than
expected. coz i never know what would happen during flight.

i feel like dying but this is just the beginning. if i fail, then it'd be big consequence for me.

hummm i emailed honey... i miss him... and i hope he has got the package already.
i have done the banking for this month too. hopefully everything would be fine for now.

Good luck for me tomorrow..





我閉上眼睛　貼著你心跳呼吸 而此刻地球　只剩我們而已
when i close my eyes, i could feel your heart beat, its like there're only the two of us in this world.
你微笑的唇型　總勾著我的心 每一秒初吻　我每一秒都想要吻你
your lips are connecting to my heart. i wanna kiss you every seconds.
就這樣　愛你愛你愛你　隨時都要一起 我喜歡　愛你外套味道　還有你的懷裡
把我們　衣服鈕扣互扣　那就不用分離 美好愛情　我就愛這樣貼近　因為你
just like this, i love you love you love you. i like your smell, your jacket and being in your arms.
this way, we could be connected like the clothing with the button. we don't have to be
apart. this wonderful feeling is from being close to you, coz of you.

有時沒生氣　故意鬧脾氣 你的緊張在意　讓我覺得安心
i m not angry when i'm being angry at you. i like to see you care.
從你某個角度　我總看見自己 到底你懂我　或其實我本來就像你
i could always find myself through you. i can see myself from you.
does that because you know me so well or i'm actually like you?

美好愛情　我就愛這樣貼近　因為你 想變成你的氧氣　溜進你身體裡
i love this wondering love, so close to you. i want to become the oxygen flying through you.
好好看看在你心裡你有多麼寶貝　我愛你
so i could see your heart, how darling you are. i love you.

就這樣　愛你愛你愛你　隨時都要一起 我喜歡　愛你外套味道　還有你的懷裡
把我們　衣服鈕扣互扣　那就不用分離 美好愛情　我就愛這樣貼近　因為你
我們愛情　會一直沒有距離　最美麗
just like this. i love you, love you, love you. i want to be with you anytime.
i like your jacket and your smell. i like being in your arms. let us be connected.
if we are clothing and buttons then we don't need to separate.
we don't have real distance. it's love. we are like the most beautiful love.

>>August 8, 2012 at 5:51:13 PM GMT+8