2013 年 3 月 6 日 星期三 【晴】

hi... it's been awhile..

i have been trying to complete different stuffs.. at the same time trying to relax myself
and loosen the tense at home with my family. i need to breath, and spend time away from home.

i realise i'm more independent than before that i need more personal space and time.
i went to Ikea to get some boxes to store my stuffs, trying to get things organised.
seriously i have so much wanna throw away but i dont get the chance, coz my stuffs are stuck
by my dad's garbage which always pisses me off almost every single days. i wanna clear up
some old stuffs something i havent touched since yearsssss some of them might have been
sitting for more than 5 - 8 years that i never needed or used. i really really really wanna get
rid of them but i can't. and so i m very angry sometimes. and my home is super messy that
full of crap that i dont wanna see. it's been urging me to move out. i have really considered
moving out. but if i do so.... it's gonna be another big problem.

i met Ivy yesterday after back from Ikea.. i had a coffee n a piece of dark chocolate cake
at Ikea by myself.. then i had a lychee tea at the station with Ivy. we chatted and talked about
her interview today.

today, i got up earlier to get ready to go seeing my another friend May at ifc. we had a quick
lunch at Pret. i had some sandwiches and a piece of cookie with coffee. then i walked around
the grocery store of City Super there.. and i couldnt find the Tim Tam honey liked.
i like the dark chocolate one, id never tried the one honey mentioned yesterday. i really wanna
try it though. then i took ferry back to Tsim Sha Tsui, then i went to the $12 store to try
finding some other boxes or trays but i couldnt find the one i wanted. then i also checked the
supermarket they dont have that biscuits too. then i went Mong Kok to meet with Cynthia.
haha. i have more questions to ask about JAL. i m considering to change company. i m not
sure yet and not sure if they d hire any hk base ppl any soon. then we sit down, and i ordered
some carrot juice with some fries... the lightest set they had on the menu.... however, the
fries was really huge that surprised both of us. it was huge. so yea.... after that, we hang around
and come home...

i dont wanna fly tmr. when have i started to become so lazy huh?

anyway... i miss him so much. i had a weird dream last night. i always have nightmare lately..
i guess i must be too stressed lately.

i really hope they'd approve my application for April or May that let me off for 3 days, so that
i could visit honey soon. i dont wanna wait till July. it's crazy. and in June... i m not sure if i'd be
able to apply for the 3 days off... if i could, i dont know if i should go Singapore for Cyn's wedding.

my last flight was horrible. coz... i have been prepared for A321 for 2 days, since i havent
flew A321 for long... then, all of the sudden right before briefing, it got changed to A320 which
i didnt know at first.... so i only got 3 mins to review for the locations of the emergency
equipments, and the features of the aircraft especially the doors operation. then... coz it's
double catering which i have never done before, so i was pretty nervous. we dont have space
for stuffs. and... the loading was a problem coz it's full load on the way back. and the funniest
part is.... the actual flying time is always shorter than the schedule time, i dont know why the
cockpit crews have to do that. we were like super super super rushed. we were like racing
every single moment since we got on board, since the first beginning started from the ground
prep at the galley and the cabin. it was that crazy. and it's like... 95% of the pax are first time
traveler and they are mainland chinese. and every single things and command i have to do
at least 5 times on each row just to get them put the seat up right, put the bags under the
seat in front of them, fasten seat belt, window blind up, stow back the table, and put their
ipad inside the seat pocket. i was like so freaking tired smiling and giving out instruction but
they were like from another planet that totally lost their focus they are staring at you and
not willing to do any above i have mentioned. it's like i have to stop at every row to repeat my
words at least 5 to 6 times. and you know........... that's also the part of prepare the cabin to
talk off. when they were boarding, it was like in a market. and they go to the lav without locking
the door. they all stand up and block the aisle. even when my cart was coming out kept telling
them to mind the cart, they wont get back till the cart has almost hit them and i had to go very
slowly coz they had no sense of the cart was really that close to them. and they stole my
meal coffee cups, entree plate, salad bow. and i had to stop and asked them to give them
back. and they wouldn't, then i needed to tell them we needed to get them back, coz they
are the company property and it's for recycling use as well. FUCKING GREEDY STEALING
EVERYTHING AS THEY COULD. MAINLAND CHINESE i'm SHAME ON YOU!
some man was taking off his pants on his seat. i walked by and i pretended didnt see anything.
he was FUCKING CRAZY. i saw him in his white triangle underwear. WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?
i didnt have a single second free to stop and tell him NO. but never know really never know
they are capable for that. some guy was being so rude to me... he was trying to get into the
OCCUPIED lav while i was trying to squat down to insert entree with my cart. he kept walking
towards me and my cart and try to push into the lav. i told him sir excuses me, please step
back and both lav were occupied. and he didnt care. i tried to squat down and insert entree,
i didnt have enough space or i'd touch his legs. i said excuse me sir pelase step back a bit.
he was looking at me doing my work but he just didn't. and he said ' you keep telling me to
step back, but there's another person there how do you think i could step back? ' i looked
at him and behind him. OH YEA, THERE's A WOMAN BEHIND, AND YOU FUCKING
ASSHOLE DOES HAVE ENOUGH SPACE TO STEP BACK! FUCKING STEP BACK YOU
ARE BLOCKING MY WAY TO DO MY JOB! FUCKING WAISTING MY TIME! i smiled at him
and said sorry and he stepped back a little bit so i squat down and started inserting. then
he kept saying you blah blah blah. then i stand up and SMILED WIDELY with APOLOGY.
then my purser heard that, she looked at him and apologise to him again, he kept saying..
then i stand up again and bowed to apologise. somehow at somepoint, i have no mercy
for such asshole if anything happened to him under any situation. purser then told me he's
the diamond member of our club that's why he's being an ass. i said no wonder.
so he's working for someone too, even if he's a boss, he's working for someone else too.
he's not the richest man in the world is he? he's not the king, is he? FUCKING IDIOT.
ppl wonder why it's stressful to be a cabin crew? excellent services and to make sure the
flying journey is safe is NOT EASY, especially when you have pax like that on board.....
it's just crazy.

>>March 7, 2013 at 12:57:09 PM GMT+8

2013 年 3 月 5 日 星期二 【晴】

exhausted..

02:48

>>March 5, 2013 at 6:39:01 PM GMT+8

2013 年 3 月 2 日 星期六 【晴】

the 4th and the last day of my day-off. it's a little crazy. coz that night the PUS standby
didnt get called, and that PUS standby duty came with a blank day right after.. plus the 2 days-off,
then i had a 4 days-off. kindda crazy, and i was with my family most of the time except...

sometime i do think i need my own personal time away from them, especially my mom..
coz whenever we are together, she has something to tell me all the time all the time all the time
that the stuffs are repeating again and again, and sometimes she'd talk to herself, and i m
listening coz i m sitting in the living room watching tv. and sometime i dont wanna give any
response but my brain is receiving her words anyway. it's just getting my nerve.
coz i have explained to her many many times on the certain things and she's not listening.
sometimes i feel stressed at home. i guess especially when i was on medicine, i easily
feel stressed and get grumpy. then i'd feel bad when i m like that. i dont mean to be like this,
but i couldnt really control it. and i feel like i dont have any space. and i need time to be alone,
like no one to talk to me, no one to be in the same area. just me and myself. no matter what
i do, just to be alone. sometimes being alone is kindda cool. but i'd feel bad if i want to stay alone,
coz then i d ask myself what if one day my family leaves me, then id never be able to see them
anymore, then i would regret what i think about today.

i just finished the medicine yesterday. i hope everything could go back to normal soon.

mom keeps telling me about stuffs at my dad's family. i find my relatives very disgusting and
evil. i hate them. i seldom hate ppl. but from all these years, what i see is they keep abusing
''family'' this word. my aunts are the crazy bitches kept yelling at my grandparents and my
dad. they're jealous whatever i dont fucking care. they called and shouted. if that was me,
i probably would ask her to fuck herself and hang up. my dad was pretty angry at her.
my uncle is continually being extremely disgusting and irresponsible. i fucking hate him and
what he did. and coz of that my grandparents have been calling dad for every single minor
things and major things, and even just for changing a light pub, they needed my dad to do it,
just coz that asshole wouldnt even bother to take a few mins to do it, but he was encouraged
by my grandparents that he got allowance from my grandparents every months that he would
go and sleep with different whores every weekends and even he got into the hospital for
having sex disease he's still going to china every weekends. and yea he's that kind of
disgusting and still doesnt feel shame. and whenever my grandma called the ambulance
at the middle of the night for my grandpa, that asshole wouldn't even bother to come out from
his bedroom to check what the fuck was going on outside. and he'd never visited at the hospital.
all he cares is the money that my grandparents have and he swear to hurt my family
if my grandparents dont let him hold the paper and contracts. and i'm seriously angry, coz
my dad is angry but he doesnt wanna fight with his family about shitty things like that.
and i m really really angry but i cant say anything coz i do respect my dad is a really good man.
my cousin, his daughter is same as him but keeps pretending to be a nice person.
whenever she tries to comment on my stuffs on facebook, i keep responding the opposite just
to piss her off or makes her to shut up. if my mom continues telling me stuffs about my uncle
being as ass again, i m gonna fucking go straight to my cousin that if she doesnt care
about how ridiculous her dad is, that she's not gonna talk to her dad, then i'd go talk to her dad.
and by that time i'd have zero respect for both of them. i mean it. coz i cant take anymore
bullshit from him or her anymore. she's being so cheap and ridiculous as her dad.
she took the lai see every year but she'd never given any as she supposed to. and she'd avoid
seeing us. she d ask my grandma to prepare a good dinner for her to visit, and then she
brought a gift to her dad but nothing for my grandparents. and how dares she asked to see
my aunt from US to help her get a job and the green card there. is she that stupid to think
its that easy to do so? and she's actually supporting that asshole keeps being as asshole.
you know what, i dont need relatives like that. they totally disgust me. my dad isnt as healthy
as before. there're lots of household stuffs my dad cant do, but whenever my grandparents
call, dad would go over immediately to check on them, even for the super minor things,
or cleaning the air-conditioner, my dad needs to help. what the fuck? i m sick of listening about
mom telling me these stuffs, and i dont wanna write about these anymore again.
but the next time, i dont know when, when it hits my limit, i'm gonna write to my cousin,
and that's it. enough is enough.

i was very bored and i just wanted to hang out by myself. i went to Page One today at the
Festival Walk.. i saw some books that i'm interested. but i only chose one. i havent finished the
last book. but i bought a new one today. i guess when i'm sick of watching tv, somehow i might
be able to find peace in reading.

i find that... it's getting harder to find peace as i grow older... or maybe just coz it's too difficult
to get a quiet place where i could relax myself. not even bother to be able to get a quiet place
in the city. it's impossible.

i miss him so much. when i'm with him, i can get peace. when he's by my side, i d feel calm.

tmr, i'd get back to work again.. and i'd need to get the new uniform laundry.






>>March 3, 2013 at 3:13:51 PM GMT+8

2013 年 2 月 28 日 星期四 【晴】

there are lots of things on my mind..i dont know if it's related to my hormones change.
since i've been taking those hormone pills, my emotion changes so much so quickly, like
all the mood swing and depressing feelings, they come and go in a sec.. it's so hard to deal with.
then i gain weight so quickly, and i have headache all the time, and night sweat. i feel very
uncomfortable with all these changes.. especially with my job, i need to stay calm and be ready
for everything, and it's just hard for me. i feel so stressed all the time.

then also about my family.... there are many things happening.. it really bothers me a lot.

last night i got some weird nightmare.. i dreamt that i was operating some flight..
then everything was smooth.. and all of the sudden while descending.. we ditched without
earlier warning, we just ditched, and i was the door assist, i ran up to the Door 1, without
hearing the buzzer sound or command from the cockpit. i didnt hear anything, and the aircraft
hasn't came to the complete stop, then i just kept yelling the fuselage separated.
then we didnt shout the evacuation command, we just opened the door, and evacuate everyone.
then.... everyone left the aircraft.. but we didnt do the headcount, didnt do the first aid, didnt
stop ppl going back to the aircraft, didnt relocate the pax.. we just chit-chatting about the
accident. but in that dream, everyone was safe, and it didnt come to the explosion. it's just weird.

i hope it's gonna stop.
i feel so bad so easily and i cant seem to stop it.

>>March 1, 2013 at 7:51:51 AM GMT+8

2013 年 2 月 26 日 星期二 【晴】

to do list for today..

- Do the laundry
- Pick up the late laundry @ the uniform department
- Print honey's copy
- Print Crew Notice
- Print the retro 33C task card
- Print the retro 33C IFE system guideline
- Copy Sick leave form and doctor note
- Submit sick leave form and doctor note

that's for before the briefing... not including the revision and a bunch of stuffs after sign in..
i also needed to check the schedule time for both sector, service plan, catering check list,
port information since it's my first time to XIY, and the crew list, the task outline, task card,
emergency questions for the special feature on 320, and the other normal emergency
question revision... just a bunch of stuffs... then finally get ready with my ICAO card, and
Home Return Permit... then say hi and chit chat with other crews while waiting outside the
briefing room.

today the flight was alright, but the female pax always show their horrible attitude, especially
happened on the HK lady pax most of the time. they are just so arrogant and bitchy.
it's like they already have the tag on their forehead that labelling themselves.
i dont understand why they had to do it.. and there's a guy who touched me today.
i was kindda mad, i just told him very loudly that he could call me, but never should he touch
me. HE WAS NOT ALLOWED TO TOUCH ANY OF US PHYSICALLY. i was not happy.
i dont think he did that on purpose but that area was really really sensitive enough for me to report it.
he's lucky i didnt do it. but i was very loud and assertive and i make sure everyone nearby
could hear and see it. he was very embarrassed and apologised gave me a bunch of bullshit.
i just told him no. he should never touch any of us.



when i listened to this song on the way back home, i cried...
i do wanna see him again soon. it's been almost a year already. and i wish him alright there..




"All Too Well"

I walked through the door with you, the air was cold
But something about it felt like home somehow.
And I left my scarf there at your sister's house
And you still got it in your drawer even now.

Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze
We're singing in the car, getting lost Upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days

And I know it's long gone
And that magic's not here no more
And I might be okay
But I'm not fine at all

'Cause there we are again on that little town street.
You almost ran the red 'cause you were lookin' over at me.
Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well.

Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin sized bed
And your mother's telling stories about you on the tee ball team
You taught me about your past, thinking your future was me.

And I know it's long gone
And there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to...

'Cause there we are again, in the middle of the night
We're dancing 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well, yeah

Baby we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece till you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well

And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all, all, all... too well

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone

But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it 'cause you remember it all too well, yeah

'Cause there we are again, when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

>>February 27, 2013 at 4:48:15 PM GMT+8

2013 年 2 月 24 日 星期日 【晴】

b.r.b...






>>February 25, 2013 at 12:25:14 PM GMT+8

2013 年 2 月 18 日 星期一 【晴】

my 5 days duty is finally done...
sooooo freaking exhausted... 4 days out of 5 i had been working with weird ppl or scary ppl..
CP, SP, FP, lots of them were crazy, like.... i dont know why it's necessary for them to give
ppl hard time. but seriously, being serious doesnt give you rights to be rude.
sigh........ why i m so tired not only coz of the pax, its coz of the ppl i work with.

i have been still sick.. and tmr i need to go back to the doctor.. :(

i miss him so much... i heard about Aragorn.. hummm.... i worry about them.
i wanna see him soon.

















>>February 19, 2013 at 4:27:06 PM GMT+8

2013 年 2 月 13 日 星期三 【晴】

i'd need to improve myself, need to learn more... how to be self secure, be confident with myself,
be confident as who i am.. dont let Valentines day defeats me.
how come i m so childish.. cant i be a strong girl?

i emailed him this morning, but then he didnt reply me. he must think i m so childish.

i m still coughing... still not feeling well. after medicine, i feel dizzy and heart beating fast..
i hate going out today, i stayed home most of the time except having lunch with my family..

tomorrow i'm flying to Taipei staying over night, the split duty...
i m not gonna buy too much this time i think. and i think rest is more important, since i have
to watch what i eat these days. no deep fried, no oily food, no dairy product, no cold stuffs,
no spicy food, no sour things.. doctor said i better be strict with my diet.

i hope my valentine syndrome has passed already. i really hate this day.
i miss my honey so much, but i m trying to be more patient with my trust in him.

i put it on my Facebook:
"i wanna be a stronger girl, i wanna be more confident as self-secure.
i dont wanna be the insecure whining bitch. i m safe now,
survived from the V Day syndrome. YAY."

i hope to see him soon.. and im trying to get used to not buying things for him..
refusing gift or package doesnt mean refusing my care or love right? it's just harder for me,
but it should be much easier for him there. just that whenever i see something he might like that
would reminds me of him and i d need to learn not to get him anything.
its coz we girls are too projective onto stuffs with our emotions. and sometimes i feel sorry
for myself..














>>February 14, 2013 at 4:55:51 PM GMT+8

2013 年 2 月 12 日 星期二 【晴】

hello..

i didnt sleep well last night. i kept waking... cold and hot..
then i got nightmares again and again. and i dreamt of him. it wasnt a sweet dream though.
in the dream, i saw him became someone else that ignored me totally but trying to impress
another girl in front of me. that's horrified enough. and that girl is a pretty, sex, and famous one.
i dont wanna write her name here.

i got up with a upset face. i looked at my phone and i realized it was like 8 am only, i set the
alarm at 11am coz i slept ard 2 am. i thought i took medicine would make me sleep better
so i get better rest but it didnt happen...

i miss him but i dont know what to do. am i still being too passive or maybe i just dont know how
to be a great girlfriend, keep letting the guys i loved leaving me in the end. maybe i m not meant
to have a relationship. maybe i dont deserve anyone. coz i'd never be able to keep anyone with me.
i got the strange feelings that maybe he's leaving me. but it's been 6 years, and after everything
that we have been through, is it really that easy for either of us to leave it and move on?
if our love is true, is it that easy to be able to let go?

lately, i have been forced to realize lots of things have changed. things are no longer the same.
i'm the one who remembers and missing the past days everyday while he's busy with his stuffs in
Japan every moments. i'm the one who still see things and let them remind me of him, then i would
buy them and send him, coz i remember he likes the little things i do for him. but now he told me
he wanted me to stop spending money on gifts for him unless it's something he really needs..
coz he has no space and its time consuming to get my post. what else i dont know over there?
i dont know..

i met with Doris, MayMay, and Cny for tea this afternoon. great to see them all again..
the last time we all got together was long ago, must be 6 months ago. and so happy to see Cyn
returned hk from her training in japan. now she's a well trained qualified cabin crew as well.
i wish we could switch company. anyway... yea...

tmr is the Valentines.. i m not happy. Ivy left me a mesg.. i told her it's valentines syndrome.
she laughed. it's true though. i dont want valentines day. especially after i have done so many
things he told me he didnt want them and he didnt need them. it's just... something that shows
i care. he stops it happening now. so... do words mean more than action now?
i seem to make it too complicated, only coz i m a girl. maybe it'd be easier not being a girl.
so that i dont need to worry everything.

i wanna chat with him, but i dont want to bother him. if he knows it, would that be different?
i dont wanna worry, it's too tiring. whatever gonna happen they will happen anyway.





"All Too Well"

I walked through the door with you, the air was cold
But something about it felt like home somehow.
And I left my scarf there at your sister's house
And you still got it in your drawer even now.

Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze
We're singing in the car getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days

And I know it's long gone
And that magic's not here no more
And I might be okay
But I'm not fine at all

'Cause there we are again on that little town street.
You almost ran the red 'cause you were looking over me.
Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well.

Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-size bed
Your mother's telling stories about you on the tee ball team
You tell me about your past, thinking your future was me

And I know it's long gone
And there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to

'Cause there we are again, in the middle of the night
We dance around the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well, yeah

Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much
And maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well

And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all, all, all too well

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone

But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it 'cause you remember it all too well, yeah

'Cause there we are again, when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

>>February 13, 2013 at 5:59:17 PM GMT+8

2013 年 2 月 11 日 星期一 【晴】

hello..

i m sick home today, didnt go to work. i feel sorry for that but no choice.
i came home late last night, i was so dead. my back pain and headache was killing me.
i felt quite pain to sit or walk.. even if i lie down, i feel the pain.

i kept looking for the doctor today. CNY, everywhere is closed.
and there's one clinic i m supposed to be able to use my medical card. they are within the
network. but they are so dishonest. they dont accept medical card today, i needed to pay
cash. and they told me when i called this morning that i could walk in anytime before 5 pm.
i went there, and the nurse told me she's going out to have lunch, asked me to go back
in 2 hrs 30 mins. i was shocked. she said they reopened at 2:30, but then they had booking
from 2:30 to 3:30 from this morning. as i know, what doctors usually do is that they clear
all the morning booking then they take a break and re-open late in the late afternoon.
it's just weird. i didnt go back, i took another doctor which i went before as well.

i was called out for the beijing over night flight to Beijing on the first day of CNY.
surprise flight.. double pay and double allowance for the dinner on the first night.
but that flight really killed me.

i couldnt sleep last night. i kept waking. cold and hot, then the pain.. kept waking me.

hummmmm i send him an email when i was in Beijing.
he replied me he didnt want me to spend money on gifts for him. it took him an hr to
get my post and he doesnt have space. i dont feel good. but i have nothing much to say.
i have explained to him like... i thought he liked the stuffs i sent. i wanted to do something
to make him happy, i'd feel connected with him. like, it'd not easy for me to carry everything
and walked to the post office, then line up there to get a box, and fix it, and line up again.
it usually spends more than an hr to do the whole thing. it's heavy and time consuming.
but i like to do that, coz this way i could share things with him. i could share something in real
that he could touch, he could see, he could sense, he could smell. but now nothing anymore.

he replied me.. but after that, i dont know what to say. i didnt reply him till i woke up this morning.
i was still in bed coz i felt so sore to move around. i stayed in bed for almost an hour till i get out
of bed. it's a little crazy. i replied him i'd give those candles to someone else. and i told him i m sick.

he said he doesnt want me to spend money on gifts for him unless he really needs it.
i dont know what he needs. he probably changes a lot. and apparently i dont need to guess
what he'd need or like or want, coz.... it'd make no sense. and which also means...
he and i probably dont have anything in common anymore, coz i feel like part of our communication
is gone. and its like... emailing..... he doesnt really write me as often. he said he's very busy
and have lots to do, and he cant think clearly. do i worry about him? yea, coz what's happening
with him? you know he's gonna burn himself out. and there's even less i can do now.
but ppl always say less is more. somehow i've considered if he still loves me. and if i can see
him again? i miss him and i realise how impatient i am.



"Come Back... Be Here"

You said it in a simple way,
4 AM, the second day,
How strange that I don't know you at all.
Stumbled through the long goodbye,
One last kiss, then catch your flight,
Right when I was just about to fall

I told myself don't get attached,
But in my mind I play it back,
Spinning faster than the plane that took you...

And this is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.
I guess you're in New York today,
I don't wanna need you this way,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.

The delicate beginning rush,
The feeling you can know so much,
Without knowing anything at all.
And now that I can put this down,
If I had known what I'd known now,
I never would have played so nonchalant.

Taxi cabs and busy streets,
That never bring you back to me,
I can't help but wish you took me with you...

And this is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.
I guess you're in London today,
I don't wanna need you this way,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.

This is falling in love in the cruelest way,
This is falling for you and you are worlds away.

New York... be here.
But you're in London and I break down,
'Cause it's not fair that you're not around.

This is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.
I guess you're in New York today,
And I don't wanna need you this way,
Come back... be here, come back... be here.

I don't wanna miss you like this.
Come back... be here.
Come back... be here.




















>>February 12, 2013 at 3:23:11 PM GMT+8