2013 年 5 月 9 日 星期四 【晴】

OMG..... today would be the same crazy purser... it's really not the good news.
Mei Kwan...... good luck..

i wish honey good luck as well. i emailed him again yesterday..
i miss him.





>>May 10, 2013 at 2:25:31 AM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】

met with the girls tonight... great to see them.
i met with Cynthia first, then we took ferry to ifc. i went to Victoria Secret finally..
then yea, had dinner with the girls at TST. it was the Pizza Express..
i think honey would like it. there are lots of nice western restaurants, they arent too expensive
actually. i m hoping one day i could bring him there.

i m still missing him, but he's not replying.
hummm.. i m not sure why... maybe i know... well... i dont know.
how is he now?

i need to apply to CX. i have a lot of things to do.. sigh.






>>May 7, 2013 at 5:26:25 PM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 2 日 星期四 【晴】

Safe flight, came home...

i had 3 hrs sleep last night.. yea... got up ard 3 30am this morning.. left home at 4:45am..
caught the first bus ard 5:15am... the bus station was packed by 5am... the ladies kept yelling
on her phone that i could hear echo. and the thing is... her friends and she were so loud on the
bus as well. i hated that..........

i miss him so much... last night was trying to install some stuffs he introduced me.
you know my trip... well, i m still... thinking of him and the days now. i miss him so much.
i miss the time we could spend together, even though we werent doing anything much,
i enjoyed that... as long as he's around, everything was right. of course we had our own
space and personal time too... still, as long as i know he's around, everything's fine.
we went together for his interview. i waited at the Mos Burger place. hummm i was pretty
nervous for him actually. on the way there, i didnt dare to do anything much, just wanna be
there for him. and i could see how nervous he was too. then after that, we just felt so much
better. i was like wooo hoo~~~ :) and i was very happy for him. i hope the good news would
come soon. and for such an amazing teacher he is, such an amazing and cool person he is,
he deserves a better life, a nice job, a great life. if he cant get this place this time, he should
get the better one next time. i love him.

when he smiles, he's the most attractive guy in this world to me. when he's serious, he's
also the most attractive guy to me. i told him he looked good. he's so cute, he was trying not
to smile but he did smile. i saw it. hee. he said he's sexy. i think so. yea, he's the sexiest too.
when will i see him again? when i see him happy, it makes me so happy too. when i see him
sad, it makes me so sad too. when i saw him sleeping, it feels like he's a baby.
i want to keep him warm. when he kissed me, i feel like i m the luckiest in the world..
even though it only took a few seconds when i was rushing to go, it's the best gift.

i dont know what would happen in future, but as the song he plays to me, i will wait.
i m serious.














>>May 3, 2013 at 12:22:43 PM GMT+8

2013 年 5 月 1 日 星期三 【晴】

Cas.... you might be sick, too tired, or just upset... no matter what reason it was that causing you
sick and unable to focus, you do know you want to go back to work, and so please get up and
prepare yourself to go back to work tomorrow.

you have everything done last night, you took info for the flight, you prepared for your flight today.
even though you were exhausted, you did everything, and you just couldnt get up to work this
morning? and even though you slept till noon, you couldnt focus the whole day. what the hell is
wrong with you? why are you in such a bad mood the whole day? you had an extra day off today.
to reset things to your body to your mind, anything you need on your own, it has to be done
by now.

you will go back to him, you will see him again, but till then please dont be such a child.
you have been such a child since yesterday when you left and even today. please stop now.
you have your job to do, you have your own life to live in this city. it's hard and painful but you
have to find a way to deal with it. it might take some time, but you can do it.

focus. focus. calm down. you can do it.

he's unforgettable. you can miss him. you can even tell him how much you miss him and love him..
but please, carry on and then you can plan for the next trip. stay focus first please.

sometimes you 'd just know... he is the one. and the feelings have been getting stronger.
however, Cas.... calm down. and if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

i know you've a lot to write about... but for now, plz go to sleep, tmr get up and go to work.

>>May 2, 2013 at 3:32:03 PM GMT+8

2013 年 4 月 26 日 星期五 【晴】

nervous.

>>April 27, 2013 at 5:23:16 PM GMT+8

2013 年 4 月 22 日 星期一 【晴】

sigh... so tired...

humm anyway, i went jogging today. really need some exercise.
i have been feeling not well, but i think i'm still okay.

have been preparing for the trip.. checking loading everyday. not sure which flight i should book.
coz i'd have SB till 3 am that day.. then if i get called out then i'd be released at 11am so i wouldnt
be able to take the early flights ard 9am.. there will be a few flights ard that time. if i missed that,
then i'd need to take the afternoon flights which means i'd arrive ard night time there.....
so, i m still considering which flight i should make booking. if i wait till that day for the booking, i mean
after 3 am, then i make the booking immediately, then i might be able to make the booking for the
early flights. i just need 2 hrs before departure time. but if i make it too early, and i get called, then
i'd miss the flight. i m so nervous now. what if there'd be complication for the booking, then my trip
would be ruined. you know how i feel now?

i guess i better make the booking for the afternoon flight... they said i could be swapped to the
earlier flight if seats are available. sigh, i m hoping for the best. i m so worried.

i wanna see him soon.. i really miss him so much... but i also dont know how he feels about seeing
me again. is he nervous too?






糖果罐裡好多顏色　微笑卻不甜了
你的某些快樂　在沒有我的時刻
中古世紀的城市裡　我想就走到這
海鷗不再眷戀大海　可以飛更遠

遠方傳來風笛　我只在意有你的消息
城堡為愛守著秘密　而我為你守著回憶

明明就不習慣牽手　為何卻主動把手勾
你的心事太多　我不會戳破
明明就他比較溫柔　也許他能給你更多
不用抉擇　我會自動變朋友

糖果罐裡好多顏色　微笑卻不甜了
你的某些快樂　在沒有我的時刻
中古世紀的城市裡　我想就走到這
海鷗不再眷戀大海　可以飛更遠

遠方傳來風笛　我只在意有你的消息
城堡為愛守著秘密　而我為你守著回憶

明明就不習慣牽手　為何卻主動把手勾
你的心事太多　我不會戳破
明明就他比較溫柔　也許他能給你更多
不用抉擇　我會自動變朋友

明明就　明明就　明明就
他比較溫柔　也許他能給你更多
不用抉擇　我會自動變朋友

>>April 23, 2013 at 3:24:51 PM GMT+8

2013 年 4 月 19 日 星期五 【晴】

On the way to the office now.. Super tired.. Don't want to work today...
But then I should go to work.. Wish the loading would be okay
And the crews r alright.. Gogogo Cas :(

There was an earthquake in Japan yesterday. I mesg honey on Line.
I didn't email.. At that moment, I just wanted my mesg get to
Him immediately. There have been lots of bad things happening ard
The world. It's crazy how things could happen in that violent ways.
It's not normal and how come we human beings could be that cold blood?
We r not animals are we? But there's no use to write down my
Deep feelings or thoughts on Facebook to share with everyone.
They belong to me, myself. I v done enough on Facebook for others n
Myself. Keeping something private is like giving myself some
Space and to listen to myself. If I share... There would be only a few ppl who
Can understand me.

I wish him doing fine.. I hope to see him soon... Probably the end of this month.











>>April 20, 2013 at 3:13:16 AM GMT+8

2013 年 4 月 16 日 星期二 【晴】

hummmm wish everything is gonna be fine... the schedule is coming on the 20th..

yesterday i was so freaking dead... i was like.......... i couldnt even remember what i did.
then today... i got up late, then met with Jackie my best friend. we went Tuen Mun..
we did nails... then had the super late lunch... then hung ard the mall and had coffee..
just wanna spent time with her, you know... girls talk. she's been always one of my best friends.

she called me at the middle of the night while i was trying to sleep in Kathmandu..
the first call i tried to ignore coz i thought she press the wrong button to call. she's not that kind
of person who would call me at that kind of time. but she called the second time. so, i knew
sth was wrong. i picked up. she was crying. i was like what the hell went wrong? i was kind
of worried what kinds of bad news she was going to tell me... she told me her bf wanted to
break up with her coz he couldnt do it anymore.. i was like........ humm.. then she kept telling me..
i kept asking her ques and let her cried. she was so confused. i was almost crying when i heard
what she said and she cried.. it made me wanna cry too.

anyway.... yea... it made me think of him too... sometimes i do wonder if one day he'd tell me
he doesnt love me anymore or he'd like to be with someone else... or what if actually, he'd like to
be with Ayako but not me.






>>April 17, 2013 at 5:50:20 PM GMT+8

2013 年 4 月 13 日 星期六 【晴】

i m so fucking tired...
both physically and psychologically. the last two flights were like... a battle.
i mean.... have to stay 100% alert to every single things single details...
before duty started, i was on the bus to the office, i emailed honey... then after that i started
revising the safety ques, and i have done the research for the flight, mark down everything,
then.... after briefing, started thinking about the procedure and duties.. the purser was kind of
scary in a way.... dont know how to describe anymore... even though i flew with crews i knew
before, it was still.... quite..... stressful.

i m flying KTM Nepal later and stay over night there, then back on the day after, super early morning.
good luck Cas...................








>>April 14, 2013 at 4:49:26 AM GMT+8

2013 年 4 月 12 日 星期五 【晴】

really wanna just relax and sleep..

the last flight was alright, i mean .... it was super rushed.... full service in 1 hr 35 mins for both
sectors... the main thing is... with shared menu coz we couldnt communicate..
not every crews were nice... its hard to work with ppl who'r little bitchy..
during debriefing... some crews got into troubles. sigh.... i dont know....

today, i checked the crew list already... famous CP.. good luck to myself...
but i guess if my friend's not reporting sick, i could still keep a real smile on my face.
i think we'r gonna hug hug and cross fingers. gonna fly with a crew from last night as well.

i miss him... i wanna figure out doing the online booking soon. but on the 27th i'd be on SB..
so it's hard to say.... and i need to wait till the May schedule come to see if i'd have day off
on May 1. hope for the ebst.. i miss him so much :(
















>>April 13, 2013 at 3:18:57 AM GMT+8