2005 年 8 月 23 日 星期二 【晴】

~Long Time Ago~

前幾日同媽咪傾計...

佢講左好多野俾我聽...

原來媽咪係十八歲零三個月大就開始返工.....

都吾計之前既暑期工同part time job...

1978年一月加入政府做打字員.....

返工要搭完地鐵之後再行十五分鐘先到....

不過其實可以搭小巴吾洗行.....不過貧窮...所要冇得搭.....

fate? 緣份？這時daddy就出現.....原來daddy係用車追媽咪.....

『小姐,妳坐吾坐順風車呀？』

daddy試左n次,媽咪覺得佢幾好...上左車...之後就一齊左....

拍左三年拖...就係媽咪 22歲 結婚...

兩年後有我.....生我仲要訓左醫院二個月....

>>August 23, 2005 at 6:50:07 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 22 日 星期一 【晴】

~Raining Football~ Sunday

We played football from 4:30 to 8:30 in HFC.

The pitch is wet and raining during whole matches.

This raining training section is amazing that has 15 players arrived.

I score 3 goals and 2 assists. Everybody was crazy and played seriously.

We will beat CEASER on friday and win the champion.

>>August 22, 2005 at 11:56:14 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 21 日 星期日 【晴】

~My mother talk~

Today, I worked from 9:30am to 8:00pm. I was chatting with my mum after work.

She told me her story.

I ate a lot of snacks recently. Haha~~~ I haven't ate any chip long time.

Now, I was sleepy.

Feeling went to the Orientation Camp of UST. I hope she enjoy the camp with her friend.

當愛變成習慣
　　　

曲:劉諾生 詞:陳少琪 編:劉諾生

輾輾轉轉之間 悄悄愛已冷淡
點點火花再不燦爛
孤孤單單心間 撲撲索索界限
猜猜測測在你雙眼

*如目光不再交流
如習慣地去忍受
如夢境總有保留*
是沉默發生於熾熱後

深深刻刻相識 痛痛快快過後
輕輕率率置諸惱後
恍恍惚惚之間 勉勉強強接受
冰冰的心是我所有

#是長夜 兩者裝作無憂#

蔥蔥的邂逅 終不可一起再走
不可終結 也未長久
是沉默 發生於熾熱後
是長夜 兩者裝作無憂

是沉默 發生於熾熱後

但長夜 我總想到日後
願長夜 愛終不再溜走

>>August 21, 2005 at 1:29:58 AM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 19 日 星期五 【晴】

~0%~

『零』...

零乘什麼野都係零...

零乘一億都係零...

可能性係0%...

>>August 19, 2005 at 6:51:01 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 19 日 星期五 【晴】

~自導自戀~

「我現在沒有空，有甚麼事情請留下口訊。」手提電話的另端傳來嘉悅留言信箱的聲音。聽到是留言信箱的聲音，偉豪便掛了線。因為每次聽到這段留言，偉豪便知道嘉悅又忙於其他事情，而且就算留下口訊，嘉悅也不會回覆，所以偉豪也習慣了聽到留言便掛線。

這個周末偉豪本來相約了嘉悅吃午餐。不過聽到這留言，偉豪也知道嘉悅再次失約了。和嘉悅相戀的兩年多，嘉悅失約是時常發生的事情，每次偉豪也體諒嘉悅是因工作繁忙失約。雖然理性上了解對方失約的原因，但是在感情上偉豪也會因此而感到不快。



雖然感到不開心，但是偉豪午飯仍按原定計劃到赤柱。看到萬里無雲的天空和藍藍的海面，偉豪感到心曠神怡，每天在辦公室上班，很少機會用心欣賞這自然的景色。想到這美好的景色只有自己一個人欣賞實在太可惜，於是便拿起有拍攝功能的手提電話把這景色拍照，打算回家是上載到他和嘉悅的網上日記。

說起網上日記，偉豪便想起了當初嘉悅對他說打算一起寫網上日記的事情：

「豪，不如我們申請一個網上日記。」嘉悅向偉豪提議。

「我們不是可以使用電話和ICQ交談嗎？為甚麼還要申請網上日記呢？」偉豪不明所以。

「你也知道我的工作常常要加班，有時要和客人見面，所以不是常常也可以談電話。有了網上日記我們便可以知道對方發生了甚麼事和對事情的感想，這樣不是更好嗎？」嘉悅撒嬌。

聽到嘉悅的話說，偉豪也覺得有些道理，何況多一個溝通的渠道也是不錯，於是偉豪接受了嘉悅的建議申請了屬於大家的網上日記。起初的時候，偉豪每天也會把生活的點滴寫在日記中，而嘉悅因工作比較忙的關係，所以只是間中在日記留下自己的文字。可是到後來嘉悅寫日記的次數越來越少，日記差不多變成偉豪一個人獨佔。儘管偉豪明白嘉悅工作很辛勞，很需要休息，但是很多時候嘉悅下班回到家裡情願看電視，又朋友聊天，甚至和朋友外出玩樂，也不願在日記留下一句說話的時候，偉豪便漸漸感到心灰意冷。

其實偉豪生活也很忙碌，除了上班，工餘的時候也要進修，間中也會和朋友聚會，只是無論怎樣忙碌也好會抽時間和對方見面，無法見面的時候便會寫日記。固此當偉豪發覺兩個人日記漸漸變成一個人的日記時，也開始沒有最初那樣用心去寫，而且把寫日記當作一種責任、一項工作。

雖然寫日記的熱情和動力已經漸漸消失，但是偉豪仍會把生活中一些值得分享的事情寫進日記。就算嘉悅看了偉豪的日記沒有半點回應，沒有說半句話，偉豪仍然堅持每天也寫日記。



「先生，請問可不可以替我和我的女朋友拍照。」一位男士請求偉豪。

「沒問題。」偉豪答道。

於是偉豪便開始替這對情侶拍照，看到這情侶一致的眼神和甜美的笑容，偉豪心裡突然感到羨慕，曾幾何時他和嘉悅也像這一對情侶一樣甜甜蜜蜜，只是不知是工作忙碌，還是感情變淡了，這樣的情景已很久沒有出現。

有時候偉豪覺得自己在嘉悅心中連路人也不如，可能對嘉悅來說和感情太穩定了，對偉豪太有信心了，根本不怕偉豪會做出傷害這段感情的事情，所以沒有當初那麼著緊，也變得冷淡了。

一個人的約會，一個人的日記，還有很多不同的事，令偉豪懷疑自己不過是自編自導一個愛情故事，戀愛對象也可能是自己。

偉豪也曾對嘉悅談及這些事情，不過嘉悅卻說：「我和你不同，你能在忙碌抽出時間，並不代表我也可以做得到。」。聽到這回答，偉豪再沒有說甚麼。有些事情嘉悅也知道自己不對，便向偉豪說對不起。可是偉豪最希望的，不是一句對不起，而是希望看到對方真的會改善，真的會為這感情著緊一下。

既然嘉悅方面無法改變，偉豪便改變了自己的生活。為免令嘉悅感到壓力，也避免自己失望，偉豪對嘉悅的要求也越來越少，只希望嘉悅會自動自覺地為這段感情付出。



黃昏的時候，偉豪乘坐巴士回家，看著沿路的風景，偉豪想起了很多。這時候偉豪的電話響起了鈴聲，偉豪便拿起了電話，電話顯示這是嘉悅的來電。不知道為甚麼偉豪有種不安感覺。

「嘉悅，是你嗎？今天工作辛苦嗎？」偉豪如常地對電話另一端的嘉悅說。

「豪……」嘉悅欲言又止。

「是不是有事要告訴我。」由嘉悅的語氣，偉豪已經知道將會發生甚麼事，或許偉豪早已知道這事情早晚會發生，只是偉豪仍死心不息地努力，可是到最後一切也可能徒然。

「對不起。」嘉悅口中從來這三個字。

「我也知道你工作很忙碌，所以今天才會失約。」偉豪裝作若無其事。

「不如我們分手。」偉豪終於從嘉悅口中知道了這故事的結局。

不知為甚麼聽到了句話，偉豪沒有半點失控，或許偉豪早已有心理準備，又可能偉豪也等待著嘉悅說出這答案。

「是不是有第三者？」偉豪問。

「我覺得他比你更關心我，每天他總會常常發短訊給我，令我覺得他無時無刻也在關心我。」嘉悅說到“他”的種種好處。

「連告白也是用短訊嗎？」偉豪連自己也不知道為甚麼會這樣問。

「你怎會知道？」嘉悅感到驚訝。

「只是隨便猜猜而已。」

「他的短訊相對你告白時那封情信真的有創意很多。」嘉悅說。

「是嗎？」偉豪沒有反駁。他知道一個變了心的人，無論他怎樣說結果也是一樣，或許在感情世界內長信永遠不如短訊。

掛了線，偉豪覺得鬆了一口氣，但同時也感覺很難過，此刻偉豪仍很愛嘉悅，不過在這段感情裡偉豪早已筋竭力疲。回想起來到底嘉悅有沒有真心喜歡過自己，偉豪竟然找不出答，可能這個愛情故事只不過是一個自導自戀的故事。

>>August 19, 2005 at 6:47:14 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 19 日 星期五 【晴】

~思念你的照片~

電影《心動》裡，金城武隻身到日本生活，每當他掛念著梁詠琪時，就會用相機拍下那刻四周的環境。

在張小嫻的《麵包樹上的女人》中，男主角林方文在掛念程韻的時候，會為她摺無數架紙飛機。

日劇《悠長假期》裡，木村托哉每次想念山口智子時，都會彈著那首為她而作的曲子。

音樂劇《雪狼湖》的主題曲「原來只要共你活一天」，就是填詞人陳少琪與太太吵咀後，記掛著她而寫成的。

當你思念一個人的時候，你總會想到要為對方做一點事。

在女朋友與家人去旅行的時間，每次思念她，他都會跑去買一幅上千塊的砌圖回家，併併合合好幾天，女朋友就回來了。

在男朋友沒有回家的夜晚，她會玩著男朋友最喜歡的電腦遊戲，待他回來，就告訴他自己有多捧，又過了一關。

女朋友發脾氣遷回自己的家裡住，自己又不肯「認低威」，所以每次想念她的時候，男人就走去買一對耳環，到她消了氣就全送給她。

男朋友出外公幹的日子，女人會替他買下所有財經雜誌；雖然自己不懂這一門，但她也細看著，待他回來就可以一同研究研究。

看到情人為自己做了這些事情，你就會感動，因為你會感受到他／她對你的思念和牽掛。

我從來不會做這些「功夫」，因我怕對你的思念和牽掛會隨著事情的完成而退減。

你不在我身邊的時候，我會放棄用三文治做早餐，改吃你喜歡的香腸煎蛋。上班時，我會轉乘巴士返公司，因為它會經過你住的那幢大廈。逛街的時候，我會特別留意你喜歡的音響器材。看電視時，我會多看一下你仰慕的森柏斯。睡覺時，我會因為沒你在旁而感到失落……

我沒有「證據」證明自己對你有多牽掛，但你可知道，對你的思念已經充斥著我生活的每一個細節？你可會因此而感動？

>>August 19, 2005 at 6:45:12 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 18 日 星期四 【晴】

~Summer Holiday???~ Sunday 14th August

I love sunday so much because I can stay at home and sleep longer.

I eat, drink and rest for whole day.



~Gary is Man!!!~ Monday 15th August

I went to HFC club house to have a set lunch with HoCheung and Becks in
limited lunch time.

We plan to play football after work, but the sky is raining.

Oh dear~~~ I hate play raining football. I am a football player and I am
not a waterball player.

Finally, Becks, HoCheung and Hoyin played football and I went back to
home.

It was because my leg is still painful and I don't wanna to make it
worse.

Man~~~ Dad is on holiday today and tomorrow too~~~ How come my dad, my
mum and my sister don't need to work?

My mum went to HFC to swim "Dry Water"~~~ >_<

My sister went out with her friends playing, shopping and singing K
everyday!!!?????

But good boy gary is working everyday~~~

Tonight, I and my dad moved the desk and wardrobe to our new house. Oh dear~~~

I felt my dad is old and I should be stronger to help my family.

Tonight, I felt that I can't be a small boy anymore. I am a Man!

We finished moving at 2am. I am tired and sleepy.

Time to go~~~

Talk more our new house next time~~~


~Yummy Yummy~ Thusday16th August

I and Becks went to HFC have a Yummy lunch again.

Oh raining again...but Becks, Captain, Kou, HoCheung and HoYin played football in heavy raining.

I went back home after work....I wanna play football but I know that I need a rest.


~UK~ Wednesday 17th August

I still have not book my fight ticket yet. Everytime, I came back HK the only reason is feeling.

Because I wanna to meet feeling.



~Nothing is Important~ Thurday 18th August

Today, my boss told me that Head of account department said I can't get back my wage....

Whatever...I don't mind anymore.....

I worked until 7pm in the office. No money No work???

Becks told me that I may work until September....But I told him that I wanna a holiday more...

My theory "Nothing is Impossible!" is my favour.

My new theory is "Nothing is Important" now...

>>August 19, 2005 at 12:11:36 AM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 14 日 星期日 【晴】

Non-Stop

Today, I work again. I got up from 7am and work until 6pm.

Nothing is special.

No mood to do anything because I am too tired and sleepy.

Please forget me not~~~

Please forget me~~~

>>August 14, 2005 at 12:39:19 AM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 12 日 星期五 【晴】

~Heavy Rain~

Yo~~~ Happy Friday? I am so tired after five days work.

Tonight, our match cancelled because typhoon is coming.

"Sky dislike me!" I felt that how come every times was raining just before the match!!!

Lucky, it cancelled so I can watch last chapter of "My SASSY Mother". Ha! I think you can know what I mean!

Tomorrow, I go to work again. I try to make me busy so I will not miss her so much!

I am exhausted and very sleepy now! Bye-Bye!

Too much tears, Too less smile~~~

>>August 12, 2005 at 11:42:15 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 11 日 星期四 【晴】

I am ready, SJOB!!!

Hello~~~Everybody!!! I am exhausted after work. Job makes me tired. Life
is hard.

Last night, I was chatting with my feeling. I felt so sorry for her
because I kept asking some enbarassing questions.

Sorry, I really wanna to know you more. I got many questions in my mind.
I was planning to ask but is not the right time.

Whatever you are thinking...I will just follow my feeling. I love
feeling so I will let feeling happy.

You are fine then I will happy too.

Let's us change to aother topic, my team still got 2 more games then we
will finish the first round of the league.

Tomorrow night, our hfc united got an important match. We are 4 points
behind CEASER but we got one game in hand.

We will against SJOB tomorrow and then against CAESER after two weeks on
friday in 26th August.

Our situation is very difficult to win 1st in the first round of the
league. Because we have to at least draw SJOB before beat CEASER in last
match.

I am confident to win this both matches.

Yesterday, the result of HKCEE came out. Our team has three players got
the result. I hope that their results are good.

Suddenly, I wanna shave my head and dye to golden brown. I think I will
be Qoo! may be.....

I wanna gain weight to 75kg and grow up to 180cm. It will be pecfect. Is
it impossible? may be.....

I will do more exercise and eat more snacks after on fire my company and
shut up my boss.

Sorry...Snacks? oh dear~~~How could you gain weight in the shortest
period?

The possible method is eat a lot of snacks and ice-cream. Gary don't be
silly. You are not a girl. Haha~~~ >_<

Tonight, I saw shinji's photo. He is my idol man. He is Qoo and cute.
May be you can say he is handsome!

I think all the girls will fancy him and think that he is too handsome.
Unlucky, he married but he still got a lot of fans.

Don't think love anymore, time to be Shinji~~~

>>August 11, 2005 at 11:01:01 PM GMT+8